Loner
I remember in high school, how I didn't have very many friends but, the few that I had were OK. Then I had to move because of my first & last relationship living in Stockton. It ruined me. I didn't feel very confident. I had to start a new school & make new friends. I had to work my ass off so I could graduate high school on time. Then I got into another relationship. A drug dealer for that matter. I thought he was off that junk. He betrayed me. I didn't do soo well with that break up neither. I was put into a mental hospital the last month of school. Had to do my homework during art class while listening to 12 year holds talk about meth, heroin, acid, speed. Got out after a month, so I didn't really graduate on time. Although I guess I did because I had more credits than I needed. . . After I graduated, I got my first job. Met people. Started smoking pot. And sleeping around. I got pregnant & had my son 13 days before my 19th birthday. Lost all my friends. Lost family. Lost quite a lot. I miss friends. I miss sleep overs. I miss watching YouTube & laughing at stupid shit. I miss staying up till 4 in the morning being able to function through out the day. I miss not having to worry about a damn thing. I have people in my life that I know and talk to sometimes but, I wouldn't necessarily call them friends. Not really. I know I can't change it. But, one day, I'm going to have friends like I did back in high school. One day I will be married, with a good job & own a house. I will have football parties, go to the mall together & Game nights. I miss having a semi-social life.
