Pairing: Newt Scamander x Reader
Summary: (Y/N) loved Newt so much that they would sacrifice anything just to make him happy.
Posted: 08th of December 2018
A/N: So, another angsty/sad imagine is here! I am so sorry if I love angst so much, but I hope that you are liking my works so far. I am gladly accepting your feedbacks and I would also accept some requests if you ever sent one. Thank you so much for all the love, guys!
â(Y/N)!â Two desperate and familiar voices echoed through the walls of your head as you let your weak body fall in front of one of the most important people in your life, brutally landing on the cold and hard cemented ground. It hurt you, but not a lot. Your heart shattered into pieces for one more time and your world fell apart as you dealt with the harsh and unbearable pang in your chest alone. â(Y/N)!â
Your mind was fuzzy from what has just happened, but you were aware that spells still flew here and there around the Lestrange Mausoleum. Everything was completely clouded, but you still managed to flash a faint but true smile as soon as the blurry silhouette of your best friend appeared in front of you. âNewt!â
â(Y/N).â He desperately mumbled as a clear bubble surrounded your bodies. Protego was the charm that he cast. â(Y/N),â He gently agitated you as soon as he was able to wrap his arms around your fragile body. He wanted to wake you up, to clear your chaotic mind. You were hurt and he couldnât stand it. His voice was terribly trembling, pain was hinted in it, and, by looking at his eyes, you noticed that he was already on the verge of tears. âwhat have you done?â
The platinum blonde haired villain accidentally hit you as you jumped in front of the man that you loved to prevent him from getting hurt.
âNewt,â You graciously whispered his name, slowly bringing your hands on his beautifully freckled cheek. You caressed his flawless face with your thumb as you struggled on keeping your eyes wide open. âyou are so perfect, so breathtaking.â
â(Y/N)!â Another tall silhouette appeared in front of you, but you barely realised who it was as your attention was focused on Newtâs worried and gloomy, but alluring bluish-green irises. His eyes were so stunning that he was able to hypnotise you, that he was able to take you to another world, that he was able to woefully remind you that he would never be yours: not now, not ever.
Your eyes flickered between the two fuzzy silhouette in front of you. They were standing in the dark, between the numerous and well-organised art-deco designed cabinets of the French Ministry of Magic Archives. Theseus, your head Auror, has already warned you about them, but even without knowing it, you would have realised that it was them: Newt and Tina. You should have stopped them from invading the place, but you couldnât care less about them breaking in because all you cared about was their conversation, their pure and sweet, but heartbreaking conversation.
âI got this picture of you from the paper,â the former Hufflepuff awkwardly started, noisily uncrumpling a folded paper that he kept in his pocket for a little while now. You hid your body behind the gigantic cabinet beside you and you observed them from afar, almost holding your breath, so you would hear their topic perfectly. âit was interesting because your eyes in the newsprint -,â
âNewt?â Tina whispered his name angelically as she looked into his eyes amorously. Your stomach suddenly turned upside down when you realised that they had the spark that everyone talked about when two people were deeply in love with each other. They just had it.
âSee, in reality they have this effect on them, Tina.â He embarrassedly considered her eyes as his fingers nervously fiddled with the crumpled paper in his hand. âItâs like fire in water, in dark water.â
You realised what he meant by saying those words to the gorgeous lady in front of him. He was unconsciously confessing his love and your knees suddenly felt weak, making you tremble as you dealt with your almost broken heart. It hurt you a lot and if you could just rate how painful it was, it would be your perfect ten.
You loved Newt. You loved him with all of your heart ever since you two were still young, but you never had the guts to confess your feelings to him because of the fear of losing him. He was a very important person to you, because he played a certain character in your life: he has been that everyday companion that would listen to you when you would complain about your life, he has been the family that always accepted you and your flaws with open arms, he has been your crying shoulder whenever you would be hurt and, most essentially, he has always been that loving and comforting best friend that you could always count on.
He was a great human being. It was not hard to love him, not at all, and it never would be. In fact, you would understand it if Tina completely loved him back. He was an adorable person with a golden personality, you have always admired him and his love for his magical creatures has always amused you. He was one of a kind, but, unfortunately, you werenât his one of a kind.
âIâve only ever seen thatâŠâ Your best friend hesitated, but he was certain that he wanted to do this. He loved Tina, he wanted her, he longed for her. âIâve only ever seen that in -,â
âSalamanders.â You and Tina whispered in unison. Her tensed gaze suddenly softened while your tears started streaming down your face, throat burning as you let out some tiny choked sobs. They never noticed you, but your knees felt weak and they realised that someone was watching them from afar only when they heard a deafening bang on the floor.
It was you. You let yourself fall on the floor as their intense eye contact broke your heart in even smaller fragments. Your body didnât hurt from the impact of your downfall, but you sobbed clamorously as the stinging in your chest worsened. You were just hurt and you wanted him beside you.
âNewt.â You pronounced his name tacitly, voice slightly breaking as you felt another sting in your chest.
âNewt, go and take (Y/N) somewhere else!â A loud voice startled you, making you snap back utterly into the reality, snap back into the chaotic place that you were in. It was Theseus, your kindhearted boss, your best friendâs brother. He was a very humble and lovable person. His voice was kind of shaky, but you have always known that he was brave, that he was invincible. âI got this covered.â
âItâs okay, Newt.â You trembled as you truthfully assured the aghast younger Scamander, voice breaking even more as you coped with the pain. His freckled cheeks were slowly getting wet by his desolate, but hopeful tears. âItâs okay.â
Newt shook his head exaggeratedly, messy auburn hair following his movements, and held you closer to him. His grip on your waist tightened and, in no time, you apparated in a more pacific and serene place, no sounds and no sight of spells, jinxes and hexes that were being cast around you.
It was just outside the Lestrange Mausoleum, but you were still thankful that he took you out of the horrid place that you were in. The night was rather calm and the cold breeze of the wind sent shivers down your spine. Your body ached as you held Newt closer to you, trying to keep your body warm.
When he noticed that your lips were horribly quivering, he briskly made you lean on the strong cemented wall and took his warm coat off his body, leaving his suitcase and his wand on the dusty and dirty ground.
âHere, take this, (Y/N).â You admired Newt as he draped the warm fabric over your shoulders, gently wrapping his arms around your waist soon after.
You gently rested your head on Newtâs shoulder once again, your face slowly moving closer to his. âNewt, please be happy with her. Always cherish the moment as though it was your last.â
âHush, my dear (Y/N),â Newt shushed you, caressing your face with his warm hand. âyou will feel better, you will live.â
You shook your head with a sad smile, feeling hopeless and forlorn. âItâs okay, Newt.â You lingered his perfume weakly as tears slowly filled your eyes. âJust hold me, please protect me, please keep me safe and warm until I fall asleep.â
â(Y/N), please donât leave me.â Newtâs voice audaciously broke at the thought of you leaving him. You were his best friend and he cared for you. You were his partner in crime, his safe haven, his everyday antidote. You made him smile, you made him laugh, you made him appreciate the cruel world in front of you. âYou shouldnât have caught it for me, (Y/N)!â
You flashed him another gentle smile as a deafening sob escaped from your mouth. A guilty expression rested on his face as he just realised your true feelings for him. He felt bad and he felt stupid for not realising it before, because everything was too late now, you already sacrificed your life in the name of love. âDonât you worry, my love, a little offensive spell can hardly hurt me now.â
Your tears started flowing quickly as you remembered what you have heard in the Archives earlier that day. You remembered how Newt cradled you in his arms as he asked you what was wrong, you remembered how loud his heart beat was right after he talked to Tina, you remembered how tight his hug was when he assured you that everything would be fine.
The pain that you felt when you got hurt was nothing compared to when you heard him confess his true feelings to Tina. You just loved him so much and he loved someone else, but your feelings were so pure and so strong that you preferred seeing him happy than losing him forever. It was just a little sacrifice that would never hurt anybody, but yourself.
â(Y/N), Iâm here for you.â Newt desperately looked at you, jaw clenching as tears continuously streamed down his face. He pulled you closer to him, embracing you tightly, your pleasant perfume invading his nostrils. âYou are important to me, please hold on.â
âAnd thatâs all I need to know, Newt.â You difficultly swallowed the lump in your throat and you caressed the hand that rested on your icy-cold cheek. The stinging was getting worse and you were getting weaker, but you just smiled at Newt, encouraging him to stay strong for you. âPlease love her with all of your heart.â
â(Y/N),â He tightened his grip on your waist as he gently shook your body, trying to keep you awake. Your eyes were gradually closing, but you held his hand tighter to let him know that you were still holding on. âstop talking nonsense.â
You softly giggled as you brought your frozen hand on his face, wiping his warm and endless tears with your thumb. You noticed how he flinched at your touch, but he just let you do it. âThis pain is just a nine out of ten, Newt, I-I will surely survive.â
Newt chewed his lower lip and choked sobs were suddenly heard as he gently patted your face to keep your eyes open. He moved his face closer to you, his forehead touching yours. He was afraid to lose you. âDonât close your eyes, love.â
âIâm just resting, my love.â You honestly murmured as the pain grew inside your body, trembling worse than before. âI am so happy to have you beside me, Newt.â
âAnd Iâll always stay beside you, (Y/N).â He whispered honestly, deep breathy voice slowly cradling you to sleep. You flashed him a faint smile as you felt his thumb mellowly caressed your lips.
You knew that it was the time to go, your time to go. Your eyes were becoming heavier, the agony was becoming intolerable and your body was getting colder. You couldnât resist it anymore, but Newtâs ravishing touch made everything harder for you to let go.
âNewt?â You blandly mumbled as you slowly moved your face closer to his. You were diminishing the space between the two of you while you slightly opened your eyes to admire his flawless face for one more time.
âHmm?â He hummed silently, his hand caressing your hair delicately. Your lips almost touched, in fact you could already feel the warmth that they allowed, but something halted you. It was a selfish move for you to kiss him. He didnât love you back, he loved someone else and having him hold you tightly to shelter you was already enough for you.
â(Y/N)! Newt!â A faint and hurt voice was heard, but Newt never let you go, instead he kept you closer to his body.
âThes,â You softly murmured, eye shifting to the tall and familiar silhouette in front of you. âplease take care of Leta.â
There werenât any responses from him, but you heard his snivels blending with his younger brotherâs. You couldnât understand why he wasnât with Leta, but then it hit you, another heavy pang stinging your chest. Leta didnât make it.
âIâm sorry, Theseus.â You tried to build your strength up as your voice broke one more time, choking in your own tears. The dark was alluring you, it was reaching out for you and you just knew that it was your cue to go. âNewt, I-I lo-love you and I-I a-always will.â
Your voice was soundless, but your confession appeared thunderous and heart-shattering for Newt. He felt your love and something sharp struck his chest, reducing his once happy and contented heart into small smithereens. His sobs became louder as your eyes slowly flutter shut. He couldnât accept it, he wanted you to be with him.
He kept on supporting your heavy head and he slowly leant in to give you a tender kiss on your pale lips, making you taste his love mixed with salty tears for the first and last time in your life.
â(Y/N).â Newt indistinctly spoke as he painfully left your lips. You didnât have the strength to kiss him back, but he felt the love as he remembered what you have done for him. You saved him, you gave him your life.
Your mind turned dark little by little and you noticed that Newt and Theseusâ whimpers became quieter and quieter. Your hand intensely fell from your loved oneâs cheek and the brothers hugged you tightly, sending you away as their heart throbbed crazily and gloomily.
They both loved you and you were an important person, an extremely important person, for the Scamander brothers.
For Theseus, you were the best assistant that he could ever ask for. Your partnership made you the most powerful Aurors in the British Ministry of Magic, but other than that, you were that friend who supported his decisions and his choices; you were that sister who he made proud for his achievements, for his triumphs and victories.
For Newt, well, you were his life. He found the definition of ethereal beauty in you. You were that essential everyday companion for him, you were that family member who loved him truly, accepting his flaws and mistakes, but the most important of them all was that you were that best friend that everyone should have had, but he was grateful enough because he was the one who took care of you, he was the one who had the privilege to spend years with you. You were the one who taught him how to love everything around him and he even learnt how to love you with all of his heart, but never in the way you wanted him to love you.
Newt pressed a gentle and full of love kiss on your forehead, tightly holding his unanimated and soulless best friend. He was broken, he was hurt and he was having a hard time to accept that you sacrificed your life because of the love that you felt for him.
Everything was pitch-black around him, eyes tightly closed as his desperate tears wetted your beautiful face. Nothing and no one else mattered for him during that exact instance, all he cared about was you, his eternal best friend.
âI love you too, (Y/N), forever and always.â