I can never go home

jo | she/they | 20 | ao3 | thinking of river tam most days | "lapsed" spn fan who still posts about it | currently devouring yellowjackets whole |

[cainstellan]

Put the Martinez brothers and the Diaz brothers in the same room and watch them duke it out for most traumatised sibling pair. And then put me in with them so I can hug them all and cry into their shoulders

[skepticalfrog]

summer by chen chen

[ellaspearl-blog]

[drowning-lessonz]

daily affirmations

i am the unkillable faggot

i can exist in grocery stores

i have the shittiest music taste in any room

i have a gun

[strawlessandbraless]

[deanwinchesterapologist]

Hey can I ask like what's going on with supernatural. Like you guys keep posting like new stuff is happening but didn't that show end like five years ago

this time we're really gonna solve it

[deanwinchesterapologist]

Friends. I love you all dearly but I simply cannot endorse any scenario in which dean winchester willingly owns a dog. My heart goes out to you in these trying times

[skepticalfrog]

[s1 film grain filter activate] [tracy chapman fast car start playing on the tape deck] they were so in love! she was the first person to tell dean he was allowed to be angry at john! she’s sooooo tiny!!!!

[alenseress]

Muscle memory ig

[butcheringqueen]

I don't think people realizes Travis worships Lottie lol. Like he has a crisis of faith in s3 because she pushes him too hard, but he is a faithful acolyte.

Travis is also closely connected to the Wilderness - in the original script it was almost to the same degree as Lottie. When she helps him with his panic attack - he feels her power and "It". He has a reverence for her and a belief in the faith. When Lottie told him "the wilderness sees your sacrifice, and so do I" it was a personal recognition from Lottie of his faithfulness, sort of elevating him to a higher ranking acolyte.

People like to interpret him as holding a grudge for doomcoming but he doesn't anymore than with any of the other girls (and there are some feelings there like when we see him have flashbacks when they're about to kill Nat - but they aren't singularly focused on Lottie). This is another instance where Lottie gets weirdly singled out by the fandom for something they all did. Travis feels protective of Akilah and guilt about putting her in harms way despite her involvement in the assault, after all.

Lottie has been said to have a motherly relationship with Travis and it also seems to be a bit oedipal for him. Lottie also very much treats Travis like her child - little moments like during his therapy when she pats the ground and says "sit with me", the way she commands him to reassure Akilah, how she protects him from Tai and Shauna.

I feel like people let s3 color their relationship too much especially when it was mostly good in s2 - Travis talks about Lottie positively in s2. Nat resents Lottie partly because she and Travis are close and he believes in her.

Again, in s3 she simply pushed him too hard. Then he witnesses her do the same to Akilah - he starts to recognize how reckless and dangerous she can be. She also disclosed her mental illness to him. It made him start to doubt everything and resent her, he decided everything was "bullshit".

Then, well, she debatably performed a miracle in front of him when he tries to kill her. This shakes his world and gives him a crisis that results in him abusing alcohol - but it also restores his faith, and his connection to the Wilderness.

[christinarobinson-art]

Raven Girls

[bark-barkley]

you can tell when im avoiding something because my posting rate increases drastically

[alicentsgf]

Yellowjackets x East of Eden (Steinbeck)

[butcheringqueen]

just married

[smoggydoggyy]

my girl whispers sweet nothings into my ear while covered in blood

[miniweeniealice]

fem destiel *´ㅅ`)ﾞ♥

[sevensonismyname]

[ene-scribbles]

local angel of the lord spotted shopping