Whispering My Words

  I can not talk but at least I know how to say in words

[bisikkata]

Scrolling to my own feeds when I am feeling down makes me realize that I've ever lived the life I once wanted and how life could be soo fun sometimes.

From that moment, I stop posting for people's pleasure. I keep posting for my own sake. To remind that the world still can be beautiful even not today but some day...

[bisikkata]

Rather than wanting to feel happy all the time, I just want to always be in peace

[bisikkata]

Bodohnya, buatku, dialah satu-satunya.

Sedangkan baginya, aku hanya salah satu.

[bisikkata]

Ingin sabbatical tapi nggak punya previlege untuk itu :")

[bisikkata]

Anehnya, saat kecil kita di nggak apa2in kalau salah, selalu dimaklumi kalau tidak sesuai harapan mereka.

Tapi begitu dewasa, berbeda prinsip dan pemikiran bisa jadi masalah besar. Nggak lagi bisa dengan mudah dipahami dan dimaklumi.

Selalu dituntut dengan pertanyaan "kapan" yang nggak berujung itu. Jika pilihan hidup nggak sesuai dengan kebanyakan orang, rasanya dianggap aneh.

[bisikkata]

Why I feel like my existence in this home is not needed anymore?

[bisikkata]

For those people who once loved the wrong person so deeply, kind to wondering if they would be able to feel in love again because they don't want to feel the pain anymore...

[bisikkata]

I hope that whatever happens, you live the life you've always wanted

[bisikkata]

They say not to lose the one who makes you laugh.

But how if holding it also means losing yourself?

[bisikkata]

Sekarang pinginnya nggak muluk-muluk kok. Cuman pingin selalu tenang aja. Itu aja susah bgt yah...

[bisikkata]

You know you are healing when you are no longer feel difficult talking about those difficult times.

You feel nothing but grateful for surviving.

[bisikkata]

Alasan bahagiamu nggak perlu validasi dari orang lain.

Kalo itu buatmu bahagia, cukup. Gak pake tapi tapi

[bisikkata]

Sedih sih tapi gak berhak juga buat nanya kok berubah?

Emg masanya aja yang udah selesai gak bisa sama kayak dulu lagi

[bisikkata]

Hari yang berat tanpa suatu alasan

Hari yang sepi tanpa terbesit seorangpun

Ada hari seperti itu tapi tak apa

Pada akhirnya semua akan berlalu

On such a day - Winter

[bisikkata]

I wish you find a place where you can fully be yourself and feel the peace.

Because not every house feels like "home"

[bisikkata]

Ketika berbeda pendapat dengan orang lain, lihatlah dengan siapa kamu berbicara. Tidak semua hal perlu dibantah. Apalagi yang gak bakal didengar dan cuman akan buang2 energimu...

Simpan aja dulu. Banyak hal lain yang lebih penting dan butuh energimu :)

[bisikkata]

Recently life is so boring but to face a new challenge, I am just not ready to feel the anxiety again...