[blaceyes]

⌖　⸻　A multimuse,　by 𝒞omfort.　[ ... ]　 　　　　　　I want to learn to swallow my pain. 　　　　　　　　Loving alongside holybranches & self-1ess.

♰　Guidelines.

Triggering material inbound,　including but not limited to discussions and depictions of mental illness, violence, abuse, internalized homophobia.　Bigotry or fetishization of any kind is not welcome here,　and I expect you to handle subversive themes with tact and respect.　Relatively private;　I mostly want to write with friends that actually engage with and value my muses.

♰　Muse List.

Alice in Borderland　↳　Ryōhei Arisu.　Morizono Aguni.　Kōdai Tatta.　Risa.　Ann Rizuna.　Akane Heiya. Squid Game　↳　Park Min-su.　Lee Myung-gi.　Kang No-eul.　Ji-yeong.　Se-mi. Weak Hero　↳　Yeon Si-eun.　Oh Beom-seok.　Yeongi. Miscellaneous　↳　Kurapika.　Diluc Ragnvindr.　Wriothesley.　Dal Majeeb.

[self-1ess]

@blaceyes ‘s 𝔅eomseok Oh *ft. 𝔖uho Ahn .

( 𝐏𝐀𝐍𝐈𝐂 ) ; one muse discovers the other during a panic attack. 

There’s been some times you’ve noticed Beomseok’s personality slowly unravel, much like Si-Eun, you could feel the tension of a possible breakthrough of vulnerability pass through— but you never pushed it. In fact it was easier just seeing them by spending time with them both individually. It’s been nice, getting to spend time with him (finally) together more often and it was an excuse to take some time away from schoolwork and a break from work.

The night seemed peaceful enough to sit by the river, And the lights illuminated Seoul as awake as they were. The noise of usual ruckus of people coming from many different places, so long as they weren’t in the mix they were safe— until you notice the silence being disturbed by panic breathing right next to you, what happened? not even a moment ago, he’d been fine and keen to join you, he’d always been quiet but you knew how to lighten him up anytime you had spent time with him. —hands places on his shoulder and tilting his head to try and get a better look at him, “Hey, breathe–” worry starting to take over as both hands place on his shoulders now, “—hey look at me, Beomseok-ah look at me, yah, you need to breathe.” Motioning for him to follow your breathing

[blaceyes]

Why does he keep fucking touching you?

Does it make him feel better about himself,　pushing you around as he pleases?　You’ve always been a thing of convenience to others,　the favorite toy of your tormentors,　the publicity prop of the assemblyman that deigns to call himself your Father.　Perhaps Su-ho is just another in a long line of bastards that must punch down onto you to feel better about themselves.　He is not special enough to be the first,　and the raw deal life has dealt you delineates that he is nowhere near the last.　Right now,　this is your burden to bear.　(And here you thought things had a chance to work in your favor　⸻　you could take a picture together,　the two of you,　faces side by side in frame.　Maybe you’d even crack a smile.　And he could tag you in a story post,　show empirical evidence that you are supported by the tenacious bulwark of friendship,　that you’re not the fucking loser you used to be.)

His hands are on you,　and your chest tightens,　trapped in vice-grip that compresses until your heart is bloodied splatter.　You’re bracing for the incoming blow　⸻　you can take it　⸻　you can　⸻　you’ve nearly perfected the art form of holding in your suffering　⸻　not a whimper or a gasp to seek past the chamber of your chapped lips.　Su-ho isn’t hitting you,　and this makes you feel even fucking worse.

❛❛　Stop,　❜❜　you rasp,　just as quickly revoking it with unstable breath in.　You didn’t mean to,　you really didn’t mean to.　Trembling hands are at your legs,　gnarled branches of your fingers clutching and grasping at pale khaki fabric pulled taut.　Something wants to crawl out of your throat,　and you won’t allow it.　There is something disturbed,　hidden inside yourself.　It tries and tries to wrestle free,　reveal itself like the ugly on your face,　and you fight back with all the stolid indifference you can manage.　Why can’t he just hit you and get this over with?　❛❛　Su-ho,　I…　❜❜　You don’t feel like you deserve to say anything,　despite your pain.　❛❛　I can’t.　I can’t breathe.　❜❜　Regardless,　your body shrinks down,　attempting to acquiesce,　a submission to whatever way Su-ho wants to hurt you.　You know he’s going to.　That’s just what people do.

[goldenagememes]

𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒

repost of a meme by moonpiehelps: mentions of panic attacks , vomiting , trauma , self harm , and distressing situations . Feel free to adjust as needed ! ♡ 

( 𝐑𝐔𝐁 ) ; one muse rubs the other’s back to comfort them while in a moment of distress.

( 𝐁𝐔𝐂𝐊𝐄𝐓 ) ; one muse grabs a bucket for the other who’s about to throw up. 

( 𝐒𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐄 ) ; our muses share a bed so the other doesn’t have to be alone. 

( 𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐑 ) ; one muse calls the other a term of endearment to comfort them. 

( 𝐇𝐔𝐆 ) ; one muse holds the other close while they open up / cry.

( 𝐀𝐈𝐃 ) ; one muse runs to the others aid after they were violently hurt. 

( 𝐂𝐀𝐋𝐋 ) ; one muse calls sender late at night in tears and the other comes over to comfort them. 

( 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐂𝐇 ) ; one muse reaches out to the other after they’ve withdrawn from everyone. 

( 𝐏𝐀𝐍𝐈𝐂 ) ; one muse discovers the other during a panic attack. 

( 𝐍𝐔𝐑𝐒𝐄 ) ; one muse takes care of the other while they’re sick.

( 𝐇𝐀𝐍𝐃 ) ; one muse holds the other’s hand while they’re in pain or panicking. 

( 𝐂𝐔𝐃𝐃𝐋𝐄 ) ; one muse offers to cuddle with the other to help them sleep.

( 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐅𝐈𝐃𝐄 ) ; one muse opens up to the other about a traumatic experience. 

( 𝐁𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐇𝐄 ) ; one muse guides the other through a breathing technique.

( 𝐖𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃 ) ; one muse comes to the other with an injury they’ve been trying to hide that’s beginning to worry them.

( 𝐊𝐈𝐒𝐒 ) ; one muse gently kisses the other while they’re crying.

( 𝐁𝐀𝐓𝐇𝐄 ) ; one muse helps the other into a bath/shower after a traumatic event. or they bathe together.

( 𝐆𝐑𝐀𝐁 ) ; our muses instinctively grab each other while they’re scared.

( 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐒𝐀𝐆𝐄 ) ; one muse gives the other a shoulder rub.

( 𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐃 ) ; one muse wipes blood off of the other.

( 𝐕𝐈𝐒𝐈𝐓 ) ; one muse shows up at the other’s doorstep in tears.

( 𝐅𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃 ) ; one muse has been missing and finally shows up, dirty and traumatized. the other helps clean them up and tries to get them to talk.

( 𝐍𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐄 ) ; one muse wakes up the other after having a horrific nightmare.

( 𝐌𝐄𝐀𝐋 ) ; one muse makes the other a warm meal to make them feel better.

( 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐄 ) ; one muse has been slowly deteriorating mentally/physically, the other takes it upon themselves to make sure they’re taken care of.

( 𝐅𝐀𝐂𝐄 ) ; one muse takes the other’s face ( cheeks , chin ) when trying to comfort them. 

( 𝐇𝐎𝐌𝐄 ) ; one muse lets the other stay over when their house gets too stressful.

( 𝐃𝐎𝐎𝐑 ) ; one muse sits outside the door to comfort the other who won’t let them in.

( 𝐖𝐀𝐓𝐂𝐇 ) ; one muse stays over to make sure the other doesn’t hurt themselves.

( 𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐎𝐊𝐄 ) ; one muse strokes the others hair.

( 𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐔𝐌𝐀 ) ; our muses sit together after a traumatic experience. 

( 𝐆𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃 ) ; one muse helps ground the other ( bonus if you specify how ) 

( 𝐈𝐂𝐄 ) ; one muse holds an ice pack to the other’s injury.

( 𝐖𝐄𝐄𝐏 ) ; our muses cry and hold each other after a traumatic experience. 

( 𝐆𝐑𝐄𝐄𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 ) ; one muse strides up to the other and suddenly embraces them tightly after experiencing something distressing. 

( 𝐅𝐄𝐀𝐑 ) ; one muse calms the terrified other.

( 𝐒𝐀𝐅𝐄𝐓𝐘 ) ; one muse takes the other to a calm area where they feel more comfortable opening up.

[ohisms]

‪‪❤︎‬ ˚｡⋆ ↪ 𝐊𝐈𝐒𝐒 & 𝐓𝐄𝐋𝐋 !    (  a  collection  of  75+ kisses.   feel free to specify the initiating muse.   potentially mature content within.  UPDATED 02/25 !  )

finally kissing the person you’ve been pining for.

pulling them in for a kiss while showering together.

a kiss shared during a game  ( truth or dare,  spin the bottle,  etc ).

kissing your lover to show you forgive them.

a coy, chaste kiss meant to say thank you.

an intimate kiss full of relief the second you're finally alone.

wiping away your lover’s tears as you kiss them.

a kiss muffled by laughter in a library, hidden away among the shelves.

lazy kisses on the sofa while the television runs.

kisses while wrapping your legs around your lover.

a quick peck on the cheek as one party rushes off.

a kiss to prove you don’t have feelings for them.

a kiss to convince them not to leave bed in the morning.

a kiss to distract them from stitching a wound.

a parting kiss before one party goes away for a long time.

biting their lip amidst a kiss, drawing blood.

heated kisses while tugging on their hair.

abruptly kissing a stranger to scare off the people following you.

an emotional kiss bringing one party to tears.

a bruising kiss full of desperation and urgency.

distracting your lover from a task by kissing their neck.

standing on your tiptoes to kiss their forehead.

kissing down the column of your lover's neck, leaving marks.

a kiss while being reunited after a long time.

kissing your lover in a moment of sheer joy.

a dutiful kiss with no true feeling behind it.

kissing your lover to take away their pain.

colliding with a wall, then each other's lips.

a kiss placed over their freshly bandaged wound.

a kiss while slow dancing close and intimately.

sharing a spontaneous kiss with a stranger.

an abrupt ,  heated kiss during the middle of a fight.

a kiss motivated by a dare from a third party.

an adrenaline-fueled kiss while standing on the ledge of a rooftop.

kissing them to shut them up.

urgent, messy kisses as both parties scramble to undress.

a kiss to wake your lover up in the morning.

sharing a kiss in a heavy downpour of rain.

kissing your lover just above their waistband.

kissing your partner to seal a marriage.

pushing your love down onto the bed to worship their body with kisses.

a possessive kiss to stake a claim.

a kiss to resolve suppressed ( romantic / sexual ) tension.

a kiss attempting to convince the other party to stay.

kissing the top of their head as you hold them.

a risky kiss between forbidden lovers.

a kiss while hiding away from flashing cameras.

a kiss that means absolutely nothing.

kissing the swell of your lover's breast.

a kiss that leaves lipstick stains.

a kiss shared on a rooftop while the sun ( sets / rises ).

a flirtatious kiss on the back of the hand.

sensual kisses down the length of their back.

kissing them to confess your true feelings.

sneaking off to a public bathroom to make out.

a kiss to forgive one another after a fight.

a kiss on the forehead as the other sleeps.

an  ( accidental / mutually )  drunken kiss.

an unexpected kiss during a fake dating scheme.

kissing your partner after they've given you head.

caging your lover against a wall with your arms to kiss them.

a kiss after receiving good news.

an emotional kiss, relieved to find your lover alive.

crowded, heated kisses in the backseat of a car.

a tentative ,  exploratory kiss between friends.

a kiss shared between enemies during combat.

a kiss that smears blood everywhere.

kissing them even though you know you shouldn't.

kissing your lover after believing you’d lost them.

a kiss after a devastating event ,  meant to comfort.

a possessive kiss in front of a jealous third party.

kisses while pulling them into your lap.

a heated kiss while holding them by the throat.

kissing your lover under the night sky while stargazing.

a kiss to seal a promise that you just made.

kissing your lover lazily first thing in the morning.

holding your lover by the jaw to kiss them.

holding their face, kissing the tears from their cheeks.

a kiss to your lover’s stomach as you travel down their body.

an abrupt kiss that you melt into after a moment of hesitation.

sleepy ,  domestic morning kisses in the kitchen while making breakfast.

a rushed kiss before one party leaves for work.

a final kiss shared while holding your dying lover.

[billornot]

[self-1ess]

@blaceyes

[softneomiro]

Oh Beomseok x Judas Iscariot

Weak hero class characters as Christian figures: Yeon Sieun x Mary Magdalene, Ahn Suho x Jesus christ

Sources: Who was Judas Iscariot? and What motivated Judas to betray Jesus (Biblehub), Judas Iscariot (Wikipedia)

[self-1ess]

@blaceyes ‘s 𝕭eom Oh *ft. 𝕾uho Ahn .

(Hold ice against the receiver’s swollen face until it numbs.)

Even in the open streets of Seoul, his selfless acts remain a standing reputation amongst several individuals that chose the street life. (He never gets a break.) He couldn’t help it …. Couldn’t help his deep rooted sense of justice when it came to the little guys. Part of the factor of his fighting days behind him sometimes creeping back in and the impulse being the main catalyst of his actions.

”I’m fine, I’m fine–“

Still, a wince as the cold sting from the ice touch freshly pounded swing now bruising his cheek. All too familiar feeling, so he was used to the pain. His concern was directed more at HIM. Frail Beom-Seok, just leaning in front him made him sit up straighter to level with him. His hand reaching for his glasses to straighten them naturally, and chuckling “–yah, Next time you come to me first, I haven’t taught you how to swing your right hook like Si-eun, Are YOU okay?”

[blaceyes]

Even now,　the embers of resentment spark.　They flicker about inside of you,　teased by each and every show of Su-ho’s valor.　It’s what you admire about him,　something to cast him up into the whorl of idolatry,　and all the while you can’t help the thought that he looks down on you from where you’ve stationed him.　Or,　even worse,　perhaps he doesn’t see you at all;　you’re a shadow behind Si-eun,　perpetual in how you lag,　unwanted,　behind the group.　Dirt underneath their shoes.

Don’t you deserve to resent your station in life?　Your greatest sin is that you’re alive,　that you have the audacity to smile and laugh alongside these people that deign to call you a friend.　If they even think of you in the first place.

You peer to him through smudged lenses,　cherishing this vulnerability of his that rests directly in the clutches of your fragile fingers.　Almost a smile as he winces　(you wonder if it’s maybe about seeing him knocked down a peg,　comforted by the knowledge that anything in this unkind world was capable of hurting him like it has hurt you)　and your hand dares to retract.　You don’t　⸻　it doesn’t.　You blink softly,　trying to evade the pang of unruly emotion rattling loose in your chest.

❛❛　I’m sorry,　❜❜　you say,　an obligation.　You never know what you’re apologizing for anymore,　and that insincerity shines in how you can’t meet his eyes.　You don’t believe him,　anyways.　He’d never hear you out if Si-eun wasn’t part of the equation.　❛❛　And I’m fine.　❜❜　It’s no pain you haven’t suffered through before.

[blaceyes]

Whatever. Whatever. Thinking of him <3

[self-1ess]

Newton’s third law: For every (good) action, a (good) reaction follows. How great it is to have friends. @nonpareil , @blaceyes , @fishnote

[billornot]

[absolmemes]

☾ radical face sentence starters.

featuring lyrics from the discography of radical face. change pronouns, context, or sentence structure at your behest.

all my nightmares escaped my head.

you were never supposed to leave.

don't scare me off now, i'm your only friend.

i turned and fought them, like you always knew i'd do.

i hope for the best but nothing changes, i'm sorry.

i'll find out what broke me soon enough.

i don't have a lot left, just anger and something to prove.

i'm too scared to sleep.

you're always laughing, but you always look afraid.

i hear you crying in your sleep.

this one can't be fixed.

i hear you curse my name.

i hope that you'll forgive me one of these days.

i believed you'd never lie.

it takes a little hell to know what heaven is worth.

you gotta lose what's right for you to know what's really worth the the fight.

we're fighting for causes we don't really fathom.

let's make them wish they'd never lived.

i knew in my heart that my old life was gone.

i am a long way from home.

i pray to whoever is listening that things will be alright.

don't you dare hold me back.

i got a darkness wrapped inside me.

i was never one to lie down, despite who picked the fight.

i couldn't count on anyone to stand there behind me.

my heart will be blacker than your eyes when i'm through with you.

this life ain't no love song.

your name is trapped beneath my tongue.

you've burned me one too many times.

my thoughts are the cold kind.

don't you fear for me, i am where i'm supposed to be.

you were always gold to me.

you can blame me when there's no one left to blame.

there were holes in you, the kind that i could not mend.

i wish i had more nice things to say, but i was raised not to lie.

you remind me of what i could've been.

it's only blood, i have plenty left.

i'll fix this, i'll set things straight.

they cut me up, but i did them worse.

i'll be fine, i just need to rest.

it seems you're a lot like me.

if you need, come build your home in me.

i can't fix what was done to you, but i'll shield you from the rain.

if you need to take this out on me, you know i won't complain.

i hope you still see me just the way i was before i walked away.

leave me alone if your only words are ugly ones.

i don't think you had much to lose.

you were just something they'd blame.

trust me as though i am your enemy.

if a coward dies a thousand times, then there's a graveyard in my head.

you can save your breath, i know i'm not the kind you pray for.

they will just have to save themselves this time.

i don't know who to call my friends.

i don't know how much more i can bend.

the helping hand can be the same that holds the knife.

you gotta learn how to take your hits.

you don't have to ask if you're allowed to fall apart.

there ain't no fixing this, but i like that you tried.

there ain't no helping me, but i like that you lied.

i sometimes wonder if you still think of me.

i never meant to fade away, it's just the way i'm made.

i hope that if you ever hear my name that it doesn't bring you pain.

could you share a little piece of your sunlight?

by the time you turn against me, i'll have you figured out.

i won't bend, so you'll have to break me.

call me and i will come and fix you.

you can have what's mind if it helps you stay afloat.

i can't watch you drown anymore, my friend.

i'll tell you lies if it helps you sleep at night.

i pretended to believe when you said you're doing fine now.

i know you well enough to know you've had a rough go.

everyone loses themselves sometimes.

you sit and listen while i put on my whole tough show.

it's okay to need some help now and then.

i miss the way you'd laugh at my dumb jokes.

you don't need to forgive me.

how were you supposed to save me when you'd never found a way to save yourself?

you'll never know how much i hate you.

give it time, everything breaks.

[billornot]

[gnawu]

so basically

[self-1ess]

@blaceyes

[notmorbid]

smallville: season 4 [2/2].

dialogue prompts from season four of the wb's smallville.

if you found out something, something someone didn't want you to know about them, would you tell them?

ever thought about getting out more?

this is not a game. this is your life.

i was too afraid of what people might think. how they would react.

i thought i told you to wait outside.

you're incapable of giving a straight answer, you know that?

you are so weird sometimes.

i don't even know who i can trust anymore.

i am serious, and freaked out, and mad, and just about everything else you can imagine.

you know i don't give up on someone that easily.

i'm not letting you go alone.

i feel like you're the only person in my life who doesn't have an agenda.

everybody seems to know more about me than i do.

we are definitely not in kansas anymore.

this isn't worth dying over.

there's a part of you i don't recognize anymore.

i don't even know which lie you're apologizing for.

this isn't just some dream you can blink away.

you're not _____. stop trying to be.

just because you have the same blood running through your veins doesn't make you family.

if you want to play games, there's a deck of cards in the parlor.

you always look for the best in people, even when they walk all over you.

as far as awkward moments go, this is definitely memorable.

for the life of me, i can't remember how i got here.

a year from now, this is all going to feel like a lifetime ago.

'normal' was never really your style.

that was my attempt at humor. sometimes i crash and burn. sorry.

how can anyone get to know me if i'm never myself?

oh, a pity party. these are fun.

it kind of changes your perspective, when you have someone who depends on you for everything.

you promised me you wouldn't hurt _____.

to be honest, i'm glad you're here with me.

things change, no matter how much we don't want them to.

it's not a sacrifice. it's a choice.

that's a pretty big footnote to leave out.

hand-eye coordination isn't one of your strong suits. let me help you with that.

you actually look handsome, for a change.

i don't believe in luck: it's our wits and our fortitudes that keep us safe.

i'm having what you could call a rough day.

your safety is more important than any of this.

you mean a lot more to me than you know.

who are you trying to protect?

[absolites]

Black Eyes, Radical Face

[blaceyes]

This shit gets serious

[blaceyes]