sequoiia

professional amateur birder | w is for writes pfp by @mustasekittens | taken by @ccoffeeking

[blackbirdroadw]

⌇ welcome ⌇

➳ sequoiia or blackbird or anything really

➳ he/him

➳ pfp: @mustasekittens (threads); banner: here

➳ mother said autism and adhd are the reasons i am this way (also ataxia so i have no automatic sense of balance because my cerebellum doesn't work; i must mentally compensate. tourette's is a whole other fun thing. i also have a chunk of muscle missing in my right leg. and my knees and elbows all have bone bruises from when i got hit by a car :])

➳ loyal editor of @leafcabbage.

[solidaritygaming-fanblog]

dude imagine you meet this beautiful tall woman with blue skin and flowing pink hair and a tail and gills and she smells like sea salt and foam and is the most goddess like thing you've ever seen in your life. And then she says "meet my brother!" And the Swamp Creature shows up

[blackbirdroadw]

me and husband actually

[sockatoothewafflebird]

sometimes i really feel like my body is fighting against me. i don't even know what's wrong but hey i think we're supposed to cooperate here. we're supposed to, like. Like food. yknow. ouch ow hey i didn't even move why's my knee hurting hey wait oof ouch ow ough oof ow -1hp -1hp -1hp -1hp -1hp -1

[blackbirdroadw]

I think the worst part about the contemporary global medical system and cultural expectations is that we know everything it is currently possible to know about avoiding pain in a general sense — in that we know all the best practices for keeping our bodies safe from injury — but because that information "doesn't" apply to people who cannot participate in some physical activities without significant accommodation, that information is only provided accessibly and enthusiastically to people who won't fucking read it unless it behoves them to do so because of a life event or loved one.

Chronically ill people are forever at the behest of those who are not ill and cannot themselves experience our pain. That lack of experience is used to justify a lack of compassion: "It can't be THAT bad if you're able to do anything at all! I wouldn't be able to do anything at all in that state, so obviously you, a person who has had to live like this for much longer than I ever have, wouldn't be able to!"

The same applies to global health; tuberculosis, malaria, COVID, flu, measles, polio, and countless other infections are not experienced nearly as often as they once were. Clearly, that means that they never will be. It takes the disabling of new generations to see the benefit of those who have always been there.

Our bodies may feel like they're fighting against us — and in some ways, they definitely are. But in the most literal sense, they are us, and they are therefore working with us, as best as they can. We just aren't given the resources to meet them where they're at and find what works best for us, our bodies. I hope those who must now face the lack of resources in ways that they do truly experience can see our pain and do more about it than we can do ourselves :)

[leafcabbage]

i can acknowledge that everyone around me is likely not secretly out to get me but it is exhausting to constantly be looking at what people do and trying to categorize it into whether they are out to get me or not, which i know they are not because thats unreasonable, but i have to categorize it as such because there may be people out to get me, which i know there arent because its unreasonable, but

[blackbirdroadw]

cptsd be like:

no fr though and I'm trying my best to leave that mindset behind as I move through adulthood, especially since those anxieties in no way guarantee isolation from shitty people. but they do distract from and reduce my peace of mind, more so than they might if I treat assholes as an inevitable force that I don't have to spend mental energy on.

shitty/hurt people will always find ways to be shitty and hurt. might as well just assume that I can't avoid interacting with them and just do my best to address their drama and willingness to treat others without respect as best and as gracefully as I can whenever their actions and mindsets affect my and my loved ones' lives. their bullshit won't be lessened by focusing more than necessary on avoiding it in the future, so why should I worry myself over giving them more of my time and thoughts than they've earned?

[ramnonymous]

the one thing you need to know abt the dreamsmp is that every single character has at least one moment where they are the worst person in the room. every single one of them. there’s no avoiding it

[ramnonymous]

2020-2021 discourse was hella divisive at times but almost 90% of the time if you brought up the “everyone is terrible” argument Nobody would say Shit. because it’s true

[wewwo]

[thankeschoen]

[blackbirdroadw]

me calling a trans woman dude and apologizing immediately even though she's from SF and also uses dude in every other sentence

[leafcabbage]

i think one reason aroace people are an easy group to target is because people dont feel like theyre Actually being assholes because theyre shitting on the lack of something (romantic/sexual feelings) not the existence of something

[blackbirdroadw]

absolutely. i mean i can't say i'm aroace because i am very Romantical, but i'm demisexual, and being autistic makes the experience pretty close to aromanticism, since I struggle to connect with most people within social norms as they're usually prescribed.

people just think empathy isn't necessary if they see flaws in their target, as if the whole point of empathy isn't the necessity of survival in the contexts of groups that are different from you — groups which may be imperfect. ugh people are just assholes and assume it's okay to fight fire with fire if the fire you don't like is """evil""" enough

[socialistexan]

Getting thiiiiiiis close to bringing back One Drop Rules.

[blackbirdroadw]

all of this happened in the mid-to-late 1900s and there's a reason people stopped caring about it. it's because it has no relevance to fairness or equality in any form, but it does exclude random ass people from sports and ensure that less people are interested in participating in sports. hence why it happened, stopped, and is now happening again

[stuckinapril]

Has anyone figured out what’s so viscerally wrong with this woman yet

[stuckinapril]

She’s so one dimensionally evil you guys 😭😭 how is she real

[mintedwitcher]

read this and remember it. read this and remember that she is going to use the profits of her fucking ego-stroking reboot to decimate trans rights. read this and remember that every time you pay into her IP, you are emboldening her to hurt us more.

our lives matter more than your fucking nostalgia.

trans lives matter more than your fucking nostalgia.

[blackbirdroadw]

y'all it's pretty clear to me that she's an egg

[leafcabbage]

like is it not sad to spend so much of your life thinking about how to upset other people. just thinking about a lot of ragebait ive seen in the last few months... dont you get lonely? you arent winning, youre just making people not want to be around you

[leafcabbage]

like ultimately my stance isn't you must reblog if you like art or writing or whatever, but like why not? if you like someone's work why not share it yaknow?

[blackbirdroadw]

meow

[planet-motherfucker]

[youre-only-gay-once]

"you can use ai to improve spelling and grammar"

[purgaytorysupremacy]

if you’re wondering why spellcheck and grammar check is worse now, it’s because they replaced it with AI! 🥰

now, instead of maintaining a comprehensive, nuanced, and human-maintained encyclopedia by which to check your document, they have switched to an AI that just compares what you’ve written to what other people write in, say, Google Docs, and use the most commonly used iteration.

ever have it change something like “all intents and purposes” to “all intensive purposes” or “should’ve” to “should of”? that’s why!

people make the same spelling and grammar mistakes so often, AI thinks that’s the way you say it because it is a PATTERN DETECTOR and cannot THINK let alone use language.

[youre-only-gay-once]

"you can use ai to improve spelling and grammar"

[blackbirdroadw]

y'all know ai and people can and must coexist for us to succeed despite climate change and everything else, right? it's the bourgeoisie/"elite" who need us to believe otherwise. they don't want us to succeed, so they need to isolate us from and control the power of artificial intelligence.

[blackbirdroadw]

tagged by @leafcabbage thank you friend :)))

last song: we're from nowhere - robohands

last tv show: walking with dinosaurs reboot!!!

last movie: call me by your name; i needed romantic inspiration

favorite color: oorple

tea or coffee: any type of fermented tea; low acid coffee is amazing too

last thing i googled: "is my back supposed to hurt so much i can't walk without obvious acute injury"

looking forward to: moving out of this suburban hellhole and proposing

primary obsessions at the moment: TBIs, regional bird accents, integrated pharmacology, talking with strangers about their deepest secrets and fears, semi-acoustic guitar, fanfic as the center of literature, alcoholism and the universality of addiction to every living being

tagging @ccoffeeking <3 @mustasekittens @relaxxattack @mclennonyaoi @strange-aeons (shhhh i don't know many people on here)

[leafcabbage]

was everyone aware of tongue out tuesday???..

[blackbirdroadw]

idk what they're talking about my tongue hangs out at every moment of every day

[mclennonyaoi]

kind of dumb but i hate those comments you see online where someone makes a female character who like. i dunno. wears a dress or puts on makeup. and then does like…. karate or something. and everyone is like. “FINALLY. i’m so glad there’s a character that can be girly AND strong” like it always felt sort of off to me though it’s hard to like. say why

[blackbirdroadw]

i think it's because people think that women cannot be "strong." they do not think about strength in the way that they should, so they think of it in a whimsical, fascist manner. they see strength as somehow antithetical to femininity, because they have not been taught well that humans can derive strength from their femininity alone.

it makes me really sad, because i'm a bi trans guy who is demisexual/it's hard to explain my attraction to people, so i both have to deal with misogyny and see my loved ones be treated as if they are not capable of strength—somehow as a result of their femininity—at the same time.

that's how fascism works. it allows those that it exercises power upon (its prey, in many senses) to dissociate and believe that paradoxes are constantly occurring and that they are natural. they are not. remind yourself that you are trustworthy. sometimes, sources that are ostensibly reliable are not. :3

[leafcabbage]

in dms like "I would live and die for you" then back spacing frantically cuz thats weird

[blackbirdroadw]

i would live and die for you ❤️