i am just so grown up

30 something Leo drama queen. Still hungry. Building stability. Houston, TX. -> Olympia, WA -> Oakland, CA-> back in HTX. my life is dogs and youth work. use they pronouns for me.

[blacuadorian]

Wow look how big I smile when I have nothing due!!!! Undergrad: completed! https://www.instagram.com/p/COhCYessmdU/?igshid=nmz3y7mmmnla

[blacuadorian]

My quarantine haircut is modeled after 70s psych rock to grow into an 80s hair band look. Thank you for respecting my bad decisions.

[lifeinpoetry]

I know some of you have been sent home from schools, have been laid off from jobs due to the pandemic, are doing social distancing, and/or have been quarantined so there’s a lot more alone time, lack of routines, and huge amounts of stress. People may need some escapism to just deal.

So I’ll be posting ebooks that publishers are generously discounting, giving away, etc. due to the current pandemic. 

I’d normally put a long formatted list together but I honestly don’t have the heart so in pieces. I’ll add update posts when/if there’s more.

First ones:

Horse Crazy: A Novel by Gary Indiana - free ebook until March 17 (today) 12:30pm EST 

Out-Spoken Press - Ebooks - All free for now

Invisible Publishing - Ebooks - Have been made Pay What You Can

Influx Press - Ebook Subscriptions

Fly on the Wall Press - 50% off until March 20 with coupon EBOOK50 

[lifeinpoetry]

the earthquake room by Davey Davis - free PDF

11:11 Press - Ebooks - Pay What You Can

3 of Cups Press - discounted, owner was giving free ebooks away before but the response was too overwhelming

Oh, and if you’ve a book release that’s been affected please send me a link.

[lifeinpoetry]

The Earth Will Shake Us Off Like Fleas by June Gehringer - PWYC, donates to QTPOC affected by COVID19

Gigantic Worlds ed. Lincoln Michel - free

Only Shallow by Jasmine Gibson - free

Ugly Music by Diannely Antigua - YesYes Books poetry ebook

[lifeinpoetry]

Haymarket Books - 10 free ebooks

[lifeinpoetry]

Presses

Metatron Press - ebooks $6.00 CAD/$4.38-ish USD

Book*hug Press - all ebooks $5.00 CAD/$3.65-ish USD - 100% goes direct to the authors during the COVID-19 crisis

Commune Editions - chapbooks - free PDFs

Commune Editions - books - older books available as free PDFs

Garden-Door Press - ebooks - a couple of their OOP ebooks are available as $5 PDFs, all proceeds go to the author

Birds, LLC - ebooks - older books available as $5 PDFs and a couple are available as $6.99 audiobooks

Vaultzine - ebooks - $6 CAD/$4.38-ish USD, authors include Doretta Lau, Sennah Yee, & Hann Shafi

Ghost City Press - microchaps - free PDFs 

knife | fork | book - ebooks - $6.00CAD

Maverick Duck Press - ebooks - free PDFs

Black Lawrence Press - ebooks - $4.95 through Friday (March 20)

New Michigan Press - ebooks - $5 PDF (& frontline)

Subscription Services

Scribd available for free for 30 days with no credit card or commitment needed - https://twitter.com/Scribd/status/1240276773985812480

Magazines/Journals

The Arsonist Magazine - print magazine made available in PDF

Brick: A Literary Journal - all issues available online for free for the next month

The Chronicles of Now - short fiction from today’s headlines commissioned from major authors - free

Ebooks

Stone Butch Blues by Leslie Feinberg - free PDF

Takahē by Stacey Teague - PWYC

Dead Tongue by Bunkong Tuon and illustrations by Joanna C. Valente - $3.00

Hold Me Gorilla Monsoon by Colette Arrand - free PDF

Online

UNREST by Simone White

BARF MANIFESTO by Dodie Bellamy

DEFORMATION ZONE by Joyelle McSweeney & Johannes Göransson - free chapbook

A PANIC THAT CAN STILL COME UPON ME by Peter Gizzi - free chapbook

I HAVE NEVER BEEN ABLE TO SING by Alexis Almeida - free chapbook

SWALLOWER by Lyric Hunter

NOVELTY ACT by Maureen Thorson

INSTANTS by Philip Metres

THAT WE COME TO A CONSENSUS by Sara Veglahn and Noah Eli Gordon

POETRY IS NOT A PROJECT by Dorothea Lasky

FALSE FRIENDS by Uljana Wolf

Ugly Duckling Presse - Online Chapbook Archive

Ugly Duckling Press - google search - made this since not all are listed in their Online Chapbook Archive page

Audiobooks

Dear Universe: Poems on Love, Longing, and Finding Your Place in the Cosmos by Pierra Calasanz-Labrador - $3.95

Kindle

The Encyclopedia of Early Earth by Isabel Greenberg - graphic memoir - $4.99

[lifeinpoetry]

Collection of Free Audiobooks on Audible - these audiobooks were made free to stream while school is out during the pandemic - no login/account required

Verso - 10 free ebooks available and 80% off all the rest 

Archipelago Books - 30 ebooks free to download

[lifeinpoetry]

AK Press - Ebooks - all have been discounted to $1.99

2040 Books & Santa Fe Writers Project – Ebooks - all have been discounted to $1.99 - use their website to access their Kindle links so they get an additional boost as a referrer

Inanna Publications - Books & Ebooks - 40% off with coupon code iwd2020

Fuck the Apocalypse by Stuart Buck - free to download or read online - if you’d like to donate there is a link to their Paypal

Poetry Wales - print magazine made free to read online until April 19

The Elephants - Ebooks - free PDFs for their ephemera/chapbooks & $5 PDFs for their regular books

A Hair From Milk by Never Angeline Nørth - $10 - All proceeds from this sale go to Blacktransfutures, a fund for directly supporting the material needs of black transgender people.

Never Angeline Nørth - ebooks - many available as PWYC

Comixology - Unlimited - Free trial extended to 60 days

Note: Today (March 20) is the last day Out-Spoken Press will make all their ebooks available for free. They will continue to offer their ebooks at a reduced price.

[lifeinpoetry]

Open Letter Books - Ebooks - repriced to $3.99

Verso Books - #StayHome With Verso - free ebook series

Time For Kids Digital Library - free for younger kids until the end of the school year

Yes, Poetry - ebooks - free and $2 poetry chapbooks

Polis Books - ebooks - discounted to $4.99

Galley Beggar Press - Ebooks - Ebooks are now being sold on their site for £2.50 (except Ducks, which is £3.50)

Dostoyevsky Wannabe - ebooks - has added some £2.50/$2.99 ebooks to Amazon and plans to add more (search the titles on US/[your country] Amazon if you’re not from the UK)

Oblomov by Ivan Goncharov - free on Seven Stories Press until March 24th (today) at 12:59pm EST

[lifeinpoetry]

Need to take my mind off my incandescent rage at America’s sudden desire for  eugenics so here’s more ebooks:

Metonymy Press - 40% off books & ebooks with coupon code “COVID SURVIVAL” until March 31. 100% of ebook proceeds go to the author.

Inside the Castle - all books now available as free ebooks

Backbone Press - ebooks - $4 each

Melville House - Their most popular ebooks are $1.99 for a couple more days

Grey Borders Books - online digital archive - available to read free online

Fairy Tale Review - available to read for free online via JSTOR

University of Arkansas - new ebooks - on sale

[lifeinpoetry]

Cardboard House Press - Chapbooks - They’ve made some of their chapbooks free to read online

Melville House - Ebooks - Week 2 (with all new selections) of their most popular ebooks on sale for $1.99

co•im•press - ebooks - $5

Calamari Press - ebooks - made free to download

The Operating System - OS Open Access Library - PDFs available with donations requested for the author and/or publisher

Fitzcarraldo Editions - ebooks - on sale for $3.99 on Kindle, Kobo, and Apple Books

Sublunary Editions - their monthly mailings have been made available as free PDFs

Black Lawrence Press - 50% off with code MARCH50

[sapropel]

[jabronibaloney]

Bury them in one of these

[nokiabae]

sorry for being white

[bideogaymes]

not forgiven.

[fkacoochie-deactivated20230424]

[glycyrrhizin]

soulja boy predicted social distancing when he wrote kiss me thru the phone

[thethingsifindfunny]

my uncle sent me BAD essential oils

[lvl99catpriest]

I am screaming

[blacuadorian]

I have had this secret goal since I started college in 2016 to get a 100 on an exam. I once got a 103 but I had missed a question and got a five point bonus question so this still didn't feel like a 100.

And THAT'S how uptight I'm being about this. I thought it was a fun goal that I was using to drive myself to new heights in my academic world but now I see I was literally striving for perfection.

Trying so hard to make something or someone perfect have been my biggest mistakes and it sucks to see I am still doing it but now to myself. And probably always have been.

I get pretty great grades and most social work and psychology schools I'm looking at don't even need a high GPA. I have no reason to be so uptight about my grades and even if I change my mind about schools I have a good ass gpa.

Ugh nobody is perfect and I know that striving for perfection is fucking relationship ruining and yet I do it over and over. Writing this here so I can keep it in my thoughts and hopefully improve.

[blacuadorian]

Did y'all know school is a lot harder these days? I'm now working with an 8th grader to do his online schooling, and while I am getting excellent grades in my junior year of college, I am getting Fs and Ds on this kid's homework. And we are only doing History and English, two classes I loved in eighth grade. My new most-used saying/thought while tutoring is "I hate eighth grade."

[gahdamnpunk]

THE KIDS ARE ALRIGHT

[willsmithsmackedtheshitoutofme]

Yooooo!

[blacuadorian]

Am I more jealous of the woman driving a car stuffed with fluffy dogs or the fluffy dogs riding carelessly with wind in their fur? Can't wait for the end of this long ass semester of me stressing out and neither having two dogs nor being two dogs. https://www.instagram.com/p/B4YT5-IlDmP/?igshid=1x75tjef9e3u9

[barackitsmejacques]

someone should really write an essay exploring how casual homophobia in society causes gay people to be sexualized no matter their age. For example people didn’t start seeing ‘ Old Town Road” as a sexual song until lil nas came out. and like yeah it’s fine if gay people are sexual obviously but the fact is that the first thing people think about when they learn someone is gay is sex. which just causes a whole hoard of issues and in conclusion it’s cishets fault and they suck

[blacuadorian]

My new years resolution was for more drama and I got it

Thank you next

[blacuadorian]

I normally only post food that i make myself but how have I been vegan for almost a decade and never tried jackfruit before?? Best vegan tacos I've ever had and now I cant go back. Send me your trusted jackfruit recipes and tips please! https://www.instagram.com/gaycrimewave/p/BwX2jkgFsxY/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1nmtjzn2a3hh2

[redsatinsheets]

y’all love to mock asian nail salon owners so here’s a little background for your dumbasses:

during the vietnam war, many vietnamese refugees came to america, a lot being women and their children. an american actress, tippi hedren, flew to sacramento, ca. to visit a refugee camp. she wanted to meet the women who were living there and figure out ways to support them. many of them had lost their husbands in the war and were now left without an income and many had no knowledge of how to begin to provide for themselves and their children. while there, tippi noticed that many of the women were fascinated with her manicured nails. tippi had gotten the idea to fly her manicurist to the refugee camp to teach the women how to do nails, in hopes of giving these women a way to support themselves and their families. tippi had paid for 20 women from the refugee camp to attend beautician school and help them get their licenses & eventually find jobs. about 51% of manicurists in the u.s. are vietnamese and many of them are direct descendants of these 20 women who were given the chance to go to beautician school at the courtesy of tippi. so next time y’all want to mock and make fun of hardworking nail techs and treat them like shit, just remember that this is all because of the labor and the persistence of their ancestors who came here with nothing.

[pinkcheesegreenghost-deactivate]

Another reason California has a high number of Vietnamese nail techs, is because you can take the test in Vietnamese.

As in, you don’t have to be required to test in English to get licensed which makes the transition easier to learn English gradually.

Anti-Asian sentiment is at an all time high while people still demand their nails to be done.

Respect your service provider.

[knightofleo]

The Pit Stop: Jersey Justice ft. Kim Chi

[nurseyiiisms]

even if my titties aren’t physically out, they’re spiritually out, and that’s what matters