Andrea Writes.

main blog : @stfuandreaa

[valtsv]

it's always "you gnawed off your own leg to escape like an animal caught in a trap" and never "why didn't anyone try to help you out of the trap" or "why weren't you provided with any other resources to escape the trap with except for your own teeth"

[trufflesmushroom]

[bloodandrain]

If abandonment and grief ever took the human form, I'm scared it will look like me.

[mirkokosmos]

[thangathamarai]

[mournfulroses]

Marcel Proust, from a letter featured in The Selected Letters of Marcel Proust

[bloodandrain]

Behind empty eyes and sarcastic smiles.

She hides it behind the deck of files.

In cold cups and shaking hands,

A fragile smile, a silent plea, in secret stands.

Behind the mask, a heart does break,

A symphony of sorrow, for her own sake.

Yet, in the silence, she finds a way,

To face the dawn, and seize the day.

For in her struggles, we may see,

A reflection of our own humanity.

~stfuanna

[stfuandreaa]

Hum tere pyaar mein sara aalam

Kho baithhe hai kho baithhe

Tum kahate ho ke

Aise Pyaar ko bhul jaao bhul jaao

Hum tere pyaar mein sara aalam..

I am so much deep in love with you that I have forgotten the workings and the functioning of this world. I have purposely removed them from my mind because they were occupying the space that was only meant for you. I have willingly sacrificed everything that I am aware of to convince you of my love, and you tell me to stop this 'madness'? You call this "madness"?

Panchhi se chhudaakar us kaa Ghar

Tum apne ghar par le aaye

Complaint : शिकायत

I was completely okay on my own before I knew of you. Before I knew you. Then you entered my world like a hurricane and wrecked everything. Every single thing. Now I don't know how it was before you. Why did you do this to me? Why did you make me love you so hard when you knew it would hurt me in the end. Why did you do this to me. I have fallen in love with you. You have doomed me for eternity. Why did you doom me?

Ye pyaar kaa pinjraa man bhaya

Hum ji bhar bhar kar musakaye

Attachment : लगाव

I am what I am with you. I don't know how to live without you. I am happy to be that way. I don't think there ever will be an after you. I am happy during you. I am in love with you. I am yours, and you are mine till the end of time. I can not function without you. There is not a day that I spend away from the thoughts of you. I call it love in its truest form. It is dependence. Not love. Dependency.

Jab pyaar huaa is pinjare se

Tum kahane lage aazad raho

Shock : सदमा

Now that I am truly and wholly dependent on you, you want me to move on? To go away? How can I walk away? I don't know anything about how the world functions now. I don't have friends. I don't have people to talk to. I only talk to you? No you can not be serious right now. How can you say such a crude and cruel thing to me? To the person you love? You do, right?

Hum kaise bhulaaye pyaar tera

Tum apni zubaan se ye naa kaho

Request : अनुरोध

I can't do this. After being yours, after being with you for so long, I can't walk away. Please don't make me do this. This is not how it was supposed to happen. This is not what was supposed to happen at all. I am in love with you. Why can't you see my love. Why can't I be enough for you. I request you, my love. Please don't do this to us. Please don't do this to me. Please don't make me walk away.

Ab tum saa jahaan mein koi nahin Hai

Hum to tumhaare ho baithhe

Surrender : समर्पण

Do you want me to walk away? Now you want me to stay? You want comfort over change, my love. It's alright, I'll stay. Whatever you say. I'll be here for you cause I love you. You know I do. I don't know why I do anymore, but I do know that I do. I'll do whatever you want me to. I am yours, and you are mine, right? Till the end of time. It's okay to change your mind. I know you love me.

Tum kehete ho ki aaise pyaar ko

Bhul jao bhul jao

Pain : व्यथा

No, it's okay if whatever you said was a mistake. I mean It's okay if you didn't mean that. We all say ugly, gut-wrenching, disgusting things to the person we love with our whole hearts when we get angry. It's okay. I understand. It hurts in my chest, but I understand. I do. Of course I forgive you. It happens. We love it each other, no? It's okay. I still love you. It hurts, but I love you. Yes, I do. You love me too, no? It hurts to love you.

Hum tere pyaar me sara alam

kho baithe hai kho baithe hai

tum kehete ho ki aaise pyaar ko

bhul jao bhul jaao

hum tere pyaar me sara alam

Love in its purest form : शुद्ध प्रेम

[dayaar-e-ishq]

He trusted her. She would not destroy him, but if she wanted to, he would allow it. If she wanted to use him, he would become the bridge beneath her feet. If she wanted to hurt someone else, he would make himself a knife. And if she wanted to hurt him, he would not flinch away.

[bearwithh]

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— Anaïs Nin (via letsbelonelytogetherr)