I looked at the screen and saw the small spot where the baby was and saw its little heartbeat.
The doctor printed a photo for me and then wiped the gel off. She prescribed me medicine to take and gave me the date of the next appointment, I thanked her and walked back to my car numbly.
I had no idea how I got home but the next thing I knew I was in my bed crying. How had I not noticed anything…I should have seen the signs. But being so busy with recovering and things not being right between Spencer and I, I had not noticed the lack of my monthly bleed.
“Fuck my life” I whispered out as I continued to cry until I fell asleep.
The following day I decided to tell Spencer as he had the right to know , I stepped into the office and saw everyone standing by our desks with glum faces.
“Sorry I'm late guys” I said and set my bag down. “of course you are late” Spencer snapped at me and I frowned at his hostility towards me.
“Do we have a case?” I asked towards Hotch and he nodded and looked to Spencer. “Yes but it’s a personal one” Hotch said and I wondered what was going on. “I don’t want her on it” Spencer said while looking at me and I was about to argue back but Hotch stood up.
“Reid you know her past in CIA and psychology, she will be good with the case, see things we miss, she stays on” Hotch said and Spencer clenched his jaw and stormed off.
“Okay so what’s happening?” I asked curious to know what personal case Spencer had.
“Spencer have been sort of dating a woman, she has a stalker and is now missing. So we are investigating it as a personal case. Garcia is busy getting info on her as we speak” Hotch said and I frowned as I thought back “Maeve…” I said and everyone looked at me with surprise.
“How did you know her name?” Morgan asked and I felt the nausea hit me. “No it doesn’t matter, he just mentioned it in passing” I said and swallowed hard to keep the vomit down.
The teams headed out while I was sitting with Garcia looking at properties in her name and where she worked. JJ came back in just as things were printed and I picked the one up with her ex fiancé. “Guys were looking for the wrong person, maeve’s face was scratched out in eyeliner.”
I stood up and walked out straight to Spencer to tell him what I noticed on the picture.
“Reid, were looking for a woman” I said to him and he glared at me, “Yes her name is Maeve are you slow today?” he asked me and I glared at him.
“No the unsub, it’s a woman. Maeve’s face was scratched out with eyeliner” I said to him and watched as his eyes went big and he ran to Hotch’s office with me following.
“No, I didn’t mention you at all” Hotch said and Spencer nodded “I know who the unsub is” he said and we all sprang into action to look for Diane. Turns out she had a loft close to Maeve’s and her reason for stalking Maeve was because her paper was declined due to not enough evidence. She wanted to lead a study on cells of the body changing right before suicide but it wasn’t something the university was willing to study. So she wanted to be seen and be just as Maeve, it was an old tale of jealousy.
Garcia was busy hacking the camera that the team saw in Diane’s loft..
“What are you doing?” Rossi asked as Reid wrote something on paper, ‘me for her’ it wrote as he held it up to the camera.
Just then the phone rang and Spencer picked it up and spoke to Maeve. After putting the phone down Spencer grabbed a map of DC and started mapping it out. “She said she has something for me and it’s as easy as pie” Spencer said as he looked over the map.
“Diane wants me to see her as brilliant and the smartest girl in the room” Spencer said and I looked over the map.
“Garcia check for anything in Maeve’s name around this circle and even in Diane’s name or her parents” I said and waited for her to search.
“Spencer I can’t have you in this take down” Hotch said but Spencer shook his head. “If I don’t go in there then maeve is dead” he argued back but Hotch sighed “if I let you then you can die” Hotch said but Spencer was not backing down.
“Hotch we know she wants suicide murder but I can help her, I can give her what she wants” Spencer said full of confidence.
“How?” I asked him as I saw this was not going to end well.
“I’m gonna tell her that I love her” Spencer said just as Garcia found the place they were at. We all climbed into our cars along with swat following us to the destination.
“Wait there’s a box on the steps” I called out as we approached the gate, Spencer picked it up and opened it to reveal a blindfold.
“take your gun and vest off, now come in alone” we heard Diane say over to voice box and we all watched as Spencer did as she said.
“Reid you can’t go in alone” I argued with him and grabbed his arm. “I have to go alone” he said and I felt my heart pounding out of my chest. “What if she kills all three of you, don’t be stupid Spencer, please” I begged him but he wouldn’t listen and pulled his arm out of my grasp. We all watched as he walked in alone.
“Hotch please…I can’t do this” I said to Hotch but he shook his head “Spencer will talk her out of it, he’s good at negotiation” Hotch said and I felt bile rise in my throat from the stress. Morgan stepped up to me and gave me a side hug. “He’ll be okay mama” he said to me and his name of endearment made me pale more. I never got to tell Spencer.
“Morgan I can’t let him die, please” I begged him as we all stood waiting.
A few minutes went by when a gun shot was heard “Fuck this” I said as I opened the gate and proceeded forward.
“Olivia wait…” Hotch called but I didn’t care and heard footsteps behind me, the team was following me.
“Get back, stay back” Spencer said as we stepped into the building. He was on the ground and clutching his shoulder, she shot him. Looking ahead I saw Diane holding Maeve with a gun pointed at us.
“Diane there is still a way out of this” Spencer said pleading to her to drop the gun.
“you never wanted me, you lied” Diane said and Spencer stepped forward “no I made a deal, me for her” Spencer said and Diane turned the gun to Maeve.
“You would do that, you would kill yourself for her?” Diane asked with tears in her eyes as Spencer walked forward slowly.
“yes, yes I would” he said and I saw Diane was close to breaking point so I decided to step forward.
“Diane, listen to me. You are smart and your thesis can help a lot of other people out there, it can save people” I said as I put my gun away and stepped forward.
“Olivia stop” Spencer hissed at me but I stepped forward to talk to her. “Diane you need to understand, you don’t want Spencer. He doesn’t really love Maeve” I tried to argue with her.
“He does, he’s willing to die for her, he never wanted me, only her” she said as she cried and I shook my head.
“No there you are wrong, he doesn’t love her and only want her” I said as I unstrapped my bulletproof vest and threw it to the ground.
“Stop what are you doing” Diane screamed at me and I held up my hands.
“He doesn’t love her, you’ve been stalking her for a while and know that they have been talking for 10 months, but Diane would he cheat on her if he really loved her?” I asked and Spencer frowned at me and Diane looked at me with anger.
“I can prove it to you, he slept with me about three months ago, while they were talking. Diane I’m pregnant with his child, I can show you” I said as I reached for my phone.
“you are lying! He would never do that” she hissed at me, but I logged into the footage that was recorded of the night where Spencer and I was forced to have sex and turned it so Diane could see.
Both her and Maeve gasped and I put my phone away, lifting my shirt to show the small baby bump I looked at her hoping she would back down, to realize Maeve didn’t have him and he didn’t love her.
“You bitch!” Diane screamed and lifted the gun as she pulled the trigger. I felt it enter my collarbone and screamed as I fell back. Morgan checked on me and helped me stand up pushing me behind him incase she tried to shoot again.
“Thomas martin” Maeve said and Diane turned her attention back to Maeve. “Who’s Thomas martin?” Diane demanded as she looked between Spencer and Maeve.
“He know, he knows” Maeve said as Diane gripped her tighter getting more upset.
“Who is he?” Diane demanded as she got more agitated. “He’s the one thing no one can take away from us” Maeve said looking at Spencer with love in her eyes.
“No…” Diane said as she lifted the gun to her head “Wait!!!” Spencer shouted out as Diane pulled the trigger. The bullet went straight through her head and into Maeve. Killing them both.
Time moved slowly as they both fell and the team lowered their guns in shock, Spencer fell to his knees in grief and shock. I hurried over to him with tears in my eyes.
“Spencer I'm sorry, I thought it would help, I thought she would see you undesirable. Please Spencer” I said as I crouched in front of him.
“Get away from me” he whispered out but I pulled him into a hug, pushing through my pain. “Spencer please forgive me, I'm sorry, I'm sorry” I pleaded to him and felt him push me back, he looked into my eyes and his once joyful full of life eyes were empty.
“I’ll forgive you when you are 6 feet under, like how she’s going to be” Spencer hissed at me and I felt my heart shatter into pieces. I nodded numbly and stood up walking away.
“Let’s get you checked out” Morgan said but I stopped and shook my head “take care of him, the ambulance is downstairs. I’ll be fine” I said and Morgan was about to argue but I gave him a pointed look and he backed off. I looked back one more time to see Spencer sobbing and the team all around him.
I made my way downstairs onto the street and felt the cold air hit me straight in my chest, it felt like I couldn’t breathe but I knew it was shock.
“Miss are you okay?” a voice asked and I looked up to see a paramedic. “Yes they uh, they need you upstairs, an agent was shot” I said to him and he nodded and ran up, not noticing my own wound.
I walked down the street and climbed into one of the suv’s heading straight to my apartment. Once I got there I walked numbly into the apartment and hissed at the pain in my collarbone. I’ve taken bullets out on my own before and it wouldn’t be a first. I just couldn’t deal with anyone right now. Walking to the kitchen I grabbed a towel and a bottle of vodka and felt the tears stream down my face, I really thought I would help.
“You’ve kept me waiting” a voice said startling me, making me drop the bottle. I turned and saw my stalker standing there, I went to reach for my gun but he knocked it out of my hand and shoved me back. I screamed as I felt the glass enter my back, I saw him stand over me and a sharp pinch in my neck came next, everything started to spin around me and I felt him grab my feet and drag me, through the glass before I blacked out.
Spencer walked into the office with a scowl as he walked next to JJ “I don’t understand why they had to replace me while I was away” Spencer grumbled.
“Spence they didn’t replace you while you were in prison, we were on team member short and she was at the top of the list, she’s not that bad and once you get to know her you will see how nice she is and how good she is in the field” JJ said but spencer had already made up his mind on not liking her.
Everyone parted to their own desks but Spencer’s eyes kept roaming to see who the new member was but he didn’t see anyone new.
“Guys we’ve got a case” Garcia said as the team made the was to the same room to be informed on the next case they had to solve.
“Has anyone had eyes on Steel?” Emily asked but everyone shook their heads, not seeing her at all the whole morning.
“I’ll phone her” Garcia said and Emily nodded as Garcia pulled her phone out.
“I’m here, I’m here, sorry I had some trouble finding my car keys so I had to take a taxi, sorry Emily we can carry on with the…shit” Amelia said as she looked up and locked eyes, locked eyes with the same brown ones she only saw a few hours ago. The papers dropped out of her hand as she felt a blush creep up her neck and quickly bent down to pick them up.
“Alright well now that everyone is here, Steel I would like you to meet Spencer Reid” Emily said and Amelia looked up and put a tight smile on her face. “Hi, I’m Amelia” she said sticking her hand out but spencer just stared at her.
“I thought your name was Sarah?” Spencer asked and it made Amelia clench her jaw and glare at him. “No you must be mistaken” she said with a tight smile and sat down while spencer continued to glare at her.
After the briefing everyone grabbed their go bag and slowly made their way to the jet.
“Reid, I understand you feel like you have been replaced but she’s nice. I saw the glares so try to get to know her” Emily said to him but if only Emily knew how much he knew her already.
The night before:
The music was loud and the little bar was over crowded, people bumping into each other and the heat inside was scorching.
Amelia was dancing on the floor when a set of hands landed on her hips, right away she turned around and told the guy off. Moving away and enjoying herself once more she closed her eyes to feel the music run through her. Again a set of hand gripped her and pulled her back into their body, grounding her teeth she turned around to come face to face with the same guy.
“Listen here, I do not like to be touched. So hands off, last warning” she said and turned to walk to the bar to get a drink but the hand gripped her arm harshly and pulled her back.
“Baby you can’t dance like that and not expect someone to touch, I promise I will be gentle” he said and whispered the last part as he grabbed her ass. “I won’t” she said as she punched him in the nose, hearing the crack over the music and the shout. The guy turned back and raised his own fist which she quickly dodged and as he was in front of her she gripped his arm and twisted it behind his back.
“Let it go buddy, neither one of us want trouble” she said and shoved him away. He glared her way and walked off.
Sighing she made her way to the bar and sat down to get a drink. She was enjoying her drink when someone slipped into the chair next to her, quickly looking sideways she saw a tall man that had dark circles under his eyes and hair that was roughed up.
“Come here often?” she asked the man and he looked spooked that she was talking to him.
“No first time” he said shortly and she nodded understanding that he wasn’t in the mood to talk.
“Can I have another beer?” Amelia asked and the bartender nodded, returning a few minutes later with her drink.
“I wouldn’t drink that if I was you” the man said and she frowned as she looked at him in question.
“There is something in it” he said and as her eyes looked down she saw the white little fizz at the top, scanning her eyes around the bar she saw the previous man stare at her and she growled in frustration.
“Fucking bastard” she said and went to get up but the man next to her grabbed her arm.
“I wouldn’t, he has two buddies with him and that’s just asking for trouble” the man said and she rolled her eyes. She quickly swapped her beer with the strangers and downed it in one go.
“I can handle myself” she said and got up out of her chair and walked to the back door for a smoke.
Not even able to light her cigarette the door opened and the three guys stepped out.
“You need help sweetheart?” the one called out and she shook her head.
“No just dizzy that’s all” Amelia said and they all stepped closer to her. “That was the plan bitch” the one with the broken nose said.
Amelia walked backwards deeper into the alley acting scared and making it look like she was drunk and confused. The three men approached and as the one went to grab her she punched him, sending him to the floor. “You bitch” the one yelled out and charged at her, slamming her into the wall, but she quickly kicked him of and proceeded to grab a trash cans lid, knocking him over the head, knocking him out.
“You tricked us” the guy said and she smiled at him, “Just like you tried to drug me?” she taunted him.
He growled and came at her but she dodged him and kicked him to the ground, the other one got up and landed a punch to her face, splitting her lip. But it only fuelled her anger. She hit back and with one kick she knocked him into the wall and saw his body fall to the ground.
“Next time don’t drug someone that will beat your ass” she shouted at the last guy seeing as he was still laying on the floor clutching his head.
Amelia made her way back inside and asked the bartender for her bag.
“your lip is bleeding” the stranger said and she nodded as she held her head, that hit was harder than she thought.
“I’ll be fine thanks” she said and made her way outside. Leaning on the wall outside she closed her eyes as she felt dizzy but a hand on her shoulder startled her. “Come on you need help” that same stranger said.
“I don’t know you, so sorry if I don’t just accept help from a stranger” she said and he nodded in acknowledgment.
“You still need help, I’ll get you a taxi and ride with to make sure you get home safe” he said and not wanting to argue more she nodded.
Giving her address to the driver they made their way there quickly and once she got out she had to take a few deep breaths to steady herself.
“you sure you going to be fine?” the stranger asked and she thought it over. “Can you maybe please just help me inside?” she asked and he nodded, helping her into the building.
Once she unlocked her door and stepped inside she left the door open. “You can come in, you seem normal” she said and he chuckled “That’s what they said about Dahmer” he said and she raised her eyebrow at him.
“Sorry, not the right thing to say” he said while holding his hands up.
“You want something to drink?” she asked and he nodded “Sure since you had my beer” he said and she laughed and turned to the fridge, grabbing them both a beer.
“I never got your name?” the stranger asked and she looked over at him “Sarah, my name is Sarah” she replied to him and he nodded as he took a sip of his own beer. “And yours?” she asked and he just smirked at her. “I don’t give out names” he said and she laughed at his serious tone.
“You should probably clean your lip” the stranger said and she nodded as she made her way to the bathroom. Looking in the mirror she saw her split lip and some blood on her new white shirt, cursing to herself she unbuttoned it and threw it in the wash.
Hissing at the cold cloth on her lip her eyes caught sight of the stranger standing by the door.
“You gonna help me or murder me?” she asked in a light tone and the stranger stepped forward.
“statistically if I were to murder you, you would be dead already” he said and she nodded knowing he was right.
“So what do you do for a living?” she asked and he thought it over before answering “I’m a professor” he said and she hummed, he seemed to fit into that type.
“Here let me” he said as he stepped forward and took the cloth from her and wiped at her lip while she stared up at his eyes. They were a beautiful shade of brown, hazelnut brown to be precise.
He cleaned her lip and tried not to let his eyes wander down to her bra covered breasts but it was difficult as he felt a tightness in his pants.
“So what do you do for a living if you could take three men on?” he asked and she smiled up at him “mmmmm I don’t give out my occupation” she teased and he smiled down at her.
“There all clean” he said as he put the cloth down and she kept staring up at him.
“What were you doing at the bar?” he asked and she gulped as she looked into his eyes.
“I have a lot of stress and needed to let go of some of it” she said and he hummed agreeing to her words.
“Can I do something?” he asked and she nodded softly as she stared at him, she watched him slowly bend down and placed his lips onto her own. It was soft at first but turned harder ad more desperate as the kiss carried on.
“I can stop” he said and she shook her head at him. “No no, don’t stop she said as he picked her up with her legs wrapped around his waist he walked out of the bathroom and she mumbled to the right as they kept on kissing.
He dropped her on the bed with a bounce but half a second later he was on top of her layering kisses down her throat and over her chest making her moan out.
Her hand made their way to his shirt and pulled it over his head as his fingers slipped into the waistband of her pants and pulled them down.
“Scoot up” he said out in a gruff voice and she did so as she saw him stand up and take his belt off, his torso was defined with all the right muscles and it made her mouth water to taste his skin.
He crawled back up between her legs and removed her bra and as his mouth enclosed around her nipple she arched her back and moaned out loud. Her fingers went down to his pants and popped the button open along with unzipping his pants.
Her hands slipped into his boxers and gripped his manhood, it was hot and throbbing in her hand as she stroked him.
He let out a low groan and bit down into her flesh as he felt the feeling of a woman’s touch in a long long while. “Do we need a condom?” he asked and she shook her head “No, I’m covered don’t worry”
Pushing his pants down she felt him move up and capture her lips with his own again.
She reached down and lined him up but he pulled away “If at anytime you want to stop just say so” he said and so nodded as he pushed himself into her with both of them letting out a hard moan.
“Move please” she pleaded as her nails dug into his shoulders, his hips moved slightly back before he thrusted in again. He gripped her wrists and pinned them above her head as he started a steady pace making both of them moan out. His mouth latched onto her nipple and she moaned out as she fell over the edge but he didn’t stop and helped her ride through her orgasm.
He kept on thrusting as she moaned and to his surprise she pulled her hands out of his own and flipped them over.
Her hips rolled in time with his thrust and she felt his fingers grip her hips in a bruising force as he kept thrusting up into her.
“I’m close” he moaned out as she moved her hips faster, he sat up and held her close as they both moved in synch until he growled out and she could feel him pulse inside of her. She kept moving her hips until he pulled her down for a bruising kiss.
Both of them were breathing out loud and out of breath, he laid them down and within a few seconds both of them were asleep.
The next morning when waking up she looked to her side and saw the bed empty. Not thinking much about it she got up and showered. Once dressed she looked for her car keys but couldn’t find them anywhere and then realised the stranger from last night took the keys and put it into his bag.
“Fuck I’m gonna be late” she said as she rushed to take a taxi to the BAU.
Once getting there she rushed into the meeting room when her eyes connected with the stranger from last night.
The meeting was awkward as she tried not to look back at him but she could feel him glaring at her.
Once she had her go bag she walked to the elevator where the door was just stopped before it closed.
“You…” Spencer said and I met his gaze with my own. “yeah me” she said back and she saw his glare aimed at her.
“Was that your plan? Knowing who I am, having unprotected sex with me to try and trap me” he growled out and Amelia laughed out at him.
“Plan? I didn’t even know who you were ‘mr I don’t give names out’, and secondly I am not like that as fore the wanting to trap you and I take it you mean that by getting pregnant you are an asshole” she said as she lifted her shirt and turned her back to him where a nasty scar laid on her soft skin.
“Two years ago I got shot in the field, and they had to remove my uterus and everything else, so no you are safe” she growled out and pushed him aside as she walked out of the elevator.
“What did you do?” Emily asked as she saw Amelia storm out of the elevator from spencer.
“Something I am going to have to apologize for and fix” he said as he saw her walk off to the jet.
“That might take a while, she’s one tough person and doesn’t open up easily” Emily said as they made their way to the jet.
I woke up with a massive headache and went to grab my head but my arms were tied behind my back, as I opened my eyes, I saw I was in what looked like a wooden cabin and to my right was a knocked out Spencer.
“Reid, wake up” I hissed and saw him stir and hiss at his own headache.
“Where are we?” he asked and I looked around, noticing both of us were fully naked. “I don’t know but he took our clothes and probably the trackers as well” I explained to him as I realized both of us were stark naked, I stood up to see if I could find anything sharp to cut my ropes off, I found a knife on the table and cut my own ropes quickly and then Spencer’s.
“Stop right there” a voice said over a speaker and I stopped in my tracks. “Let us go, you have the wrong people” Spencer said as he stood up.
“Oh no I have the right people, now listen to my instructions and you will live. I want to watch you two do it and then you can go, as simple as that” he said and I scoffed knowing he didn’t let the people go afterwards.
“You ever hear about porn asshole?” I sneered out not believing this guy. “Do it or else” the unsub said and I stood still and Spencer did the same. A shot went off and I ducked quickly, I looked over to Spencer to see he was okay.
“Now start or the next one goes into one of you” he said and I shivered at realization.
“Please we aren’t a couple, we are undercover agents and our team will find us. Let us go before they get here” I called out and whimpered as another shot rang out and I felt my thigh burn as I fell down cursing.
“Okay okay we get it!” Spencer said as he walked over to me looking down at my bleeding leg. It went right through and Spencer helped me stand and I grit my teeth in pain.
“I don’t want to do this” I whispered out to Spencer and saw the hard stare in his eyes. “me neither, let’s just get it over with” he said and walked over to the bed. My heart was pounding out of my chest as I limped over to the bed, Spencer had ripped a piece of the sheet off and tied it tightly around the bullet wound. I screamed as he tied it and felt myself shake in pain.
“How should we…” I said to Spencer and he looked at the bed and motioned for me to get on.
“No I want her on top” the voice said and I swallowed hard as I climbed onto Spencer with his help. I couldn’t believe this was happening and I felt sick to my stomach doing this with someone watching. Spencer was leaned up against the headboard with me on his lap, it made my wound pull and I clenched my fists to push through the pain.
“How is he supposed to get hard while being shot at?” I shouted at the unsub and heard him chuckle.
“Don’t worry that won’t be a problem” he said back and I looked down to see Spencer blushing and avoiding me. “I gave him a little something to help with that issue” the unsub said and I pulled my lip in disgust.
“Just do it” Spencer said while looking away from me and it broke my heart all over again.
I leaned up and aligned him with me and sank down slowly, it hurt the further I went as I haven’t slept with anyone since Spencer.
Spencer hissed out at the feeling but he still kept his head to the side, not looking at me, in my mind I thought that this was not how I wanted us to be after I tell him everything. This is just wrong.
I stayed still for a bit to adjust to the stretch and jumped when the unsub yelled ‘Move’ through the speaker. I rolled my hips slightly and felt Spencer grab my hips. I moved more with Spencer’s help and then I noticed I was crying as I felt the wet tear land on my hand that was currently on Spencer’s chest.
“I’m sorry, I’m so sorry” I said to him not knowing if it would be the last time we saw each other.
Spencer sat up more so he could wrap his arms around my waist and burry his head in my shoulder. “I hate you, I hate you” he chanted as a mantra in tune with our thrusts and it made me sob out knowing he meant it.
I felt my own release built and cried out as Spencer gave a very harsh thrust feeling me cum, I continued until I felt him grip me tighter and I knew he was close.
“Its okay spence, let go I’ve got you” I whispered as my hands threaded into his hair, he was breathing loudly in my neck and I felt him pulse inside of me and then I felt him cum but my chest burned as he moaned out “Maeve”.
I sat still as I realized he called out someone else’s name, was she his new girlfriend? My mind went blank as I got up off of him and grabbed a sheet to pull around myself. I felt dirty and sick as I sank down the wall, feeling numb.
Spencer laid on the bed as he caught his breath but also covered himself with the sheet. Neither on of us looking at each other, we were more strangers now than anything. The door opened and the unsub walked in with his gun aimed at me and ordered me to come with him. I didn’t look at Spencer as he led me out and shoved me in a different room.
“You filthy fucking whore” the unsub spat at me before his hand collided with my cheek, I fell down but went to sit up but his boot was pressed to my wound and I screamed out in pain, it left me dizzy and I felt him pull me up into a chair and proceeded to tie me to it.
“You are all the same! Worthless sluts” he roared as his fist connected with my face splitting my lip.
“Oh yeah and what does it say about you, you watched and forced people to have sex for your pleasure. Why, you can’t get it up?” I asked mockingly and regretted it the instant his boot connected to my ribs, knocking me back along with the chair.
“FBI freeze!” I heard a voice yell out but I couldn’t place who it was as my eyes were zoning in and out of focus. I heard a shot go off and watched as the unsub fell to the ground before I blacked out completely.
‘Beep beep beep’ I heard as I scrunched my face in annoyance. “Turn it off” I whispered and heard a gasp to my side. “Nurse she’s awake!” I heard Penelope shout and I looked over to her and smiled.
“Garcia I love your voice but please bring it down a notch” I said and grimaced at the sound of my own voice. “Sorry” she said and I shook my head to say it’s okay.
“What happened?” I asked as I looked over to Morgan in the chair fast asleep but my voice stirred him awake.
“Oh thank god your awake” he said and took my hand in his own and kissed my knuckles.
“What happened?” I asked again and saw Morgan give Garcia a side glance and then looked back at me. “You took one hell of a beating sweetheart, but we got there in time. You have one gsw to the thigh, split lip and three broken ribs” he said and then what happened came back in flashes. My eyes went wide and I sat up but moaned in pain at the movement.
“Spencer is he?” “He’s okay, he’s resting at home. The unsub took his anger out on you” Morgan explained and I breathed a sigh of relief.
“Guys she needs some rest” the doctor said as he stepped inside and I said goodbye to Morgan and Garcia as they left. Spencer was okay and that’s all that mattered right now.
I was sent home three days later on strict bed rest and no returning to work for two months.
The team stopped by when they could, all except Spencer but they all said he was doing better and seemed okay. It gave a little peace to know he was better. Physical therapy was going great as I could walk without my crutches now two months later. I was heading into the office but I wanted to stay home as I didn’t feel well. But I blamed it on nerves to see Spencer again.
I barely made it to my desk and when I saw Spencer, I felt the bile rise and rushed as quickly as I could to the bathroom. I emptied my stomach contents viscously and then rinsed my mouth with water and wet my face and neck.
“You okay?” JJ asked as she stepped inside and I nodded and smiled. “yeah probably just ate something bad” I replied and walked with her back to the office.
I started off with light duty until I was cleared to be in the field again and to say it was boring as hell would be an understatement of the year. Once the all clear was given I was the first one on the jet, excited to get out and be a full agent again.
I saw Spencer sitting in the corner and decided to approach him softly “Can we talk?” I asked him and he looked up at me and then down again “Nothing to talk about” he said and I frowned as I slipped into the seat opposed to him. “Reid what happened we don’t have to talk about it, but I want to clear the air between us. Please I can’t not talk to you, I miss you” I said to him and watched as he put his book down.
“Nothing happened that we need to talk about. You decided you were done with our relationship without talking to me about it. So for what it’s worth we are just colleagues, nothing more and nothing less” he said and picked his book up again.
I stared at him in disbelieve and just stood up to go back to my own seat. Spencer would speak to me when necessary, about the case but it ended there. I wish I could explain to him why I did it but then I knew he would try and get the guy and get hurt.
Getting sick when landing and all through out the case had me race to the doctor as soon as we got back and filled all our reports. I stepped inside the doctor’s office as soon as my name was called and nervously sat down.
“Miss Croft, what brings you in today?” she asked me and I took a deep breath to calm myself.
“I think I'm pregnant” I said out loud and watched as the doctor smiled and stood up. “How long do you think you are?” she asked me and I thought back to that night. Closing my eyes to stop the memories from flooding in I told her just over three months.
“Right let’s do an ultra sound and afterwards we can pull blood if we don’t see anything” she said and I gulped as I stepped forward to lay on the table. The gel was cold as it touched my stomach and she moved it around a bit. My heart was pounding in my chest and I could have sworn I was hearing my heart beat out loud. “Congratulations, you hear that? That’s the baby’s heartbeat. I would say you are just under 14 weeks pregnant which means we need to get you on prenatal meds as soon as possible” she said and I turned my head. It wasn’t my heartbeat I was hearing, it was the baby’s heartbeat.
Summary: After leaving Spencer in bed and running out, things are awkward at the office. But Spencer isn't done yet. MDNI!!
To say that the case was awkward would be an understatement. Worried looks from the team when my bruises peaked out and not to mention trying to avoid spencer and every time our eyes met I felt my cheeks light up and my thought drift off to that night.
We were back at the bureau and everyone was silently filling in their needed forms, just when you finished and went to staple the papers together I heard an empty click and inwardly groaned. I got up an made my way to the supply office to grab staples and gasped as I heard the door click behind me.
Turning around I saw Spencer leaning against it with his hands in his pants pockets. “Spencer you scared me, do you need anything? I just needed staples as I ran out” I rambled out and gulped as he stood up and walked slowly over to me.
“Turn” he said and I frowned up at him and shook my head “Turn? Turn for what?” I asked and watched as his mouth pulled into a smirk. He pulled his hands out of his pockets and laid them over my hips, where he proceeded to turn me around so I was facing the shelve.
“Spencer what are you…” “No no, shhhhhh” he said while interrupting me I bit my lip to keep quiet and turned my neck to the side as I felt his breath fan over my exposed neck and then shuddered as he laid a kiss on one of the healing bruises he had left behind.
His hands still being on my hips pulled me back into his own and I felt his hard member pushing up against my skirt I wore for the day.
“I am only going to ask once, do you want to leave?” he asked huskily and I could do nothing but shake my head.
“Good girl” he whispered and I felt his hands move downward until it had the hem of my skirt, he pulled it up slowly until it was bunched around my waist and my lace black panties were fully exposed.
“You will keep quiet, unless your safe word is needed okay?” he asked me and I turned my neck to look at him.
“Yes spencer” I replied and gasped as he pulled my head back by my hair. “I said quiet, and it’s sir” he said and I felt myself clench around nothing, desperate to be filled by him again.
I felt his fingers run over my lace covered folds and had to bite my lip not to moan out at the sensation.
“Soaked already princess?” he hummed out in pleasure as he moved the lace to the side and met flesh to flesh.
I gasped as his finger entered me as the same time he flicked my clit, this went on for a few minutes until I was a quivering mess, only then did he pull his finger out and I wish I hadn’t looked over me shoulder to see him lick his finger clean because that was the most erotic thing I have ever witnessed.
His hand wrapped around my throat as his lips left soft feather like kisses over my neck, I hummed as he sucked on a spot and my eye fell closed at the sensation.
“Remember your safe word?” he asked me and I nodded as I was not allowed to make a sound.
I heard him fumble with his belt and pants and then I felt him take my hands into his own, lifting them up he wrapped my hands around the poles of the shelve for support. His hands skimmed down my sides and I felt him push the lace to the side, with his other hand he teased his cock over my entrance, running it up and down my folds, coating it in my wetness.
I felt him push just the tip in as his hand fell over my mouth and I knew why as he thrusted forward, sheathing himself inside of me all the way. A loud moan came out of my mouth and luckily his hand was covering it, otherwise someone would have heard us.
He hissed as he pulled back and the pushed in again, I felt his forehead fall onto my back as he set a steady pace, I was breathless as I felt the coil inside of me wanting to snap and its as if Spencer read my mind.
“You can cum for me” he said and I whimpered as I came undone, gushing around him while he never broke the steady rhythm.
He picked up the pace as his other hand went to the front of my body where it found my clit and rubbed it in slow hard circles.
Spencer moaned as I clenched around him and I felt him move his hand to grip my hip. He pulled back and slipped out before he turned me around to face him. He hiked one of my legs up around his waist as he pushed back inside making both of us groan out.
My arms went around his neck for support as he set a brutal pace, looking into his eyes I hardly saw any colour as his pupils were blown wide from pleasure.
I moaned as I felt myself get closer to the edge again and spencer’s mouth fell to my own in a bruising kiss. He tasted sweet, like sweet black coffee.
He pulled back and stared into my eyes as he grunted “Cum with me, cum with me now” he growled and as soon as he let the words out I felt my resolve slip and came hard around him, pulsing with every stroke.
Spencer moaned loud and kissed me harshly to silence both of our moans as I felt him pulse inside of me and then I felt the warmth of him.
Our lips stayed locked as he started slowing down and with one last thrust he pulled out, completely breathless. I had to hold onto him as he dropped my leg, they were completely jelly.
Spencer moved my underwear back in place and pulled my skirt down for me.
“Spencer what are we doing?” I questioned and looked up at him in apprehension. He smiled softly at me and laid a quick sweet kiss to my lips.
“Why don’t we discuss that over diner?” he said and it made me smile.
“Yeah sure, tonight?” I asked in return and he nodded and made sure we both looked professional before he opened the door and walked out.
I followed a few seconds later and went to my desk, seeing the papers I groaned realizing I left the staples.
“JJ can I borrow your stapler?” I asked and she frowned at me. “Didn’t you just go to get?” she asked curiously.
“Yup but we are out” I said trying to cover up why I didn’t get any.
Once my papers were handed in I grabbed my handbag and headed to the elevator when I heard a ding from my phone.
‘Be ready at 9, I will pick you up’ the message from spencer read. I smiled and tucked my phone away. “New boyfriend?” Rossi asked at my smiling face and I smirked at him.
“Rossi, I don’t kiss and tell” I said with a laugh and made my way to my car, wondering how the talk over diner would go.
It’s been a full 8 months of dating Spencer and things were tense as I got back to my apartment and huffed as I put my bag down.
Spencer slammed the door and it made me jump, looking over to him I saw a scowl on his face.
“What?” I asked him feeling tired and over worked, needing a much needed rest. No matter how many killers we stopped there seemed to always be two more.
“Nothing I’m just tired” he said and I arched my brow at him but decided not to press any further. We both had dinner in silence and then went to bed. I knew something was on Spencer’s mind but he wasn’t opening up to me and I was not in the mood to fight. Things were tense since Emily left and there were a lot more fights.
The next morning both our phones rang meaning there was a new case. We both got up and Spencer went back to his apartment to shower and then meet at the office.
“What is it this time?” I asked as we all sat around the table each one of us nursing a coffee.
“Right so we have a string of bodies showing up. No limbs no heads just torsos, no way in saying who is who except for having tattoos if they had any” Garcia said and explained the case further.
“Wheels up in 30” Hotch said and we all got our things ready and climbed onto the jet to solve yet another case.
Turns out it was a cult using the body parts for rituals and it took about a week to put together and make the arrests. This time I went to my apartment alone as Spencer needed to clean up his own apartment. Stepping into the door I looked down and saw a small box there and wondered what it was. I walked to the kitchen and used a knife to cut it open and once opening it I cursed to myself. I picked up the letter, leaving the flowers as is.
Once I opened the letter my heart stopped and I went cold “I know about him, Dr Reid will be next” the note read and I picked up the photo in the note seeing it was Spencer and I having coffee, I dropped it as realization came over me. He was back and was going after the only thing I loved again.
I avoided Spencer’s calls over the next few days saying I had the flu and I was man down. It bought me some time to figure out a plan, but the only one I had was to leave Spencer. I needed to keep him safe by all costs.
Slowly but surely I pulled back from Spencer, less dates and less sleeping over, it caused fights between us but I knew I had to keep him safe, keep him alive.
Currently I was hunched over my desk filling in my reports when the group asked to go for drinks. “Don’t bother asking her, she’s too busy” Spencer answered for me and I huffed at his snarky tone.
“Sorry guys I want an early night for once” I said and everyone groaned and pleaded but I shook my head. “I'm really tired, but you guys have fun” I said and stood up with my bag. “Spence what about you?” JJ asked and Spencer looked at me but I looked down not being able to look him in the eyes.
“No I'm okay” Spencer said and they all gave each other glances and then made their way to the basement where all the cars were.
I was walking to my own car when Spencer grabbed me by the arm “What is going on with you, I never see you outside of work and even then you barely look at me” Spencer hissed at me and I rolled my eyes at him.
“Not now Spencer, I'm really tired and want to get home” I said to him but he wasn’t giving up.
“No I want to know what your problem is, are you tired of dating me? Or are you just bored and need to move on to the next one, am I not good enough because I don’t abuse you? Is it that you want that thrill?” Spencer shouted at me and I felt my heart break at his words.
He had no idea that I was keeping him safe but if that is what he wanted to believe then so be it.
“I'm done, were done” I whispered out not daring to look into his eyes.
“Wai- uh what?” Spencer asked me dumbfounded not believing what I just said. “Sorry Spencer, I just cant do this anymore” I said and then climbed into my car and drove home. The moment I shut the door of my apartment I broke down in sobs, feeling my heart break into a thousand pieces.
I made my way to my bed and broke down more, crying for hours on end. After composing myself I sent in an email requesting Hotch to allow me to take 7 days of my leave days that have collected. He had no problem with it and I was left to sulk around alone in my apartment.
On the fourth day there was a knock on my door and when opening it I saw Morgan there with coffee.
“Morgan not now” I said and went to close the door but he stopped me and stepped inside anyway.
“No I'm not leaving until I know what’s going on. You took a week off, Spencer is a mess and looking at you, so are you. Now spill” Morgan said and I felt the tears rise again and broke down. Morgan hugged me to him and let me cry it out.
“Come now, tell me and I can help” he said and I pulled back wiping my eyes. “Spencer and I broke up” I said to him and he gave me a sarcastic look.
“Yes we all noticed, but why sweetness, you guys were so happy?” he asked and I sighed as I turned around and fetched the box, handing it over to him.
“Who is this from?” he asked me and I walked over to the couch and sat down.
“My stalker, the one who killed my parents. He’s never been caught and he’s been dormant for the past 14 years. After Rossi got so close to catching him, he vanished. I thought he was dead, but now he’s back and I can’t put Spencer in danger” I explained to him as he sat next to me.
“Then we all help, we find this guy and put a stop to him” Morgan said but I shook my head at him.
“Morgan please, I don’t want anyone else knowing. Just us, he will go after the team and I cant have that, please” I begged him and saw him nod and pull me into another hug.
“Only if you ever get anything else you tell me” Morgan said and I promised him. “Okay now get dressed, I wanna show you something” he said and I groaned out.
“No none of that, dress in sweats and a tank top” he said and I got up and changed. Morgan drove us to his own gym and I looked at it confused not knowing what he wanted to do.
“Pretend this bag is your stalker” he said and gestured for me to hit the bag, I did so softly and he huffed at me.
“That’s how you gonna punch the person for killing your parents, and taking Spencer away from you? No mama I know you’ve got a meaner punch than that” Morgan said and I got angry. I punched the bag and heard Morgan praise me. I went at it for a while and then started sparing with Morgan in the ring.
“Now anytime you feel like crying or breaking you come here and you do this okay?” he asked me and I nodded understanding him.
Things were tense at work with Spencer not talking to me unless he had to and the rest of the team tried to stay out of it but JJ seemed a bit angry at me and would sometimes snap at me for no reason but this all lead me to go to the gym every day if I could, I started training harder and harder everyday, wanting to be able to take this stalker down if he was in front of me.
It was a few months that this went on, and when I was finished on the treadmill I headed home for a shower, walking past the mirror I saw my reflection and didn’t recognize myself anymore.
Long gone were the love handles I had and the round tummy, all replaced with toned muscles all due to hardly eating and such long training. I did notice the weight loss and had to buy new clothes but I never realized it was this bad. No wonder Garcia and Rossi asked me constantly if I was eating.
After my shower a knock on my door startled me and when opening it I saw Morgan standing there. “We have another case” Morgan said and I told him to give me 5 minutes to grab everything.
Second day into the case we got the profile as a male in his 40’s , taking couples to make up for the one he lost. “Okay so we have what he looks for in a couple, Reid, Olivia you two will go undercover, wearing tracking devices. We’ve established he keeps them around for a week and then disposes of them, so as soon as he grabs you two , we will make the arrest” Hotch said and I shook my head.
“Hotch can’t JJ go instead?” I asked hopeful but the stern look I got meant no. “You fit the female description better, it will be an easy in and out” he said and I nodded while walking over to change clothes to what the unsub looked for.
Spencer and I drove in silence to the club the unsub would be at and per Hotch’s instructions Spencer lead me inside and we both made it to the dance floor. “Spence you have to hold me” I whispered and his eyes snapped to me. “Don’t call me that” he spat out and we both heard a warning from Hotch over the line.
Spencer stepped forward and held me as we danced, trying to look around for the unsub but my head was buzzing with the feeling of Spencer’s hands on my hips.
“You’ve lost a lot of weight” Spencer murmured unapprovingly and it made my heart ache to hear how sad he sounded.
“Guys we have eyes on a possible” Hotch said and I sighed at relief as I didn’t know how much longer I could keep up the pretend and instead tell Spencer everything including how sorry I was.
Then all of the sudden all the lights went off and I tried to reach out for Spencer as voices shouted all around me, everything went blurry as I gripped onto Spencer’s hand and then blacked out.
“Anyone got eyes on them?” Hotch shouted out as the lights came back on but no one could see either Spencer or I. “Garcia where are the trackers?” Hotch asked and Garcia informed them that it was right outside the club in the alley way. The team rushed there and cursed as they stepped into the alley way. Both our clothes were there, along with the trackers.
“Someone tipped him off or he was in the room when we gave the briefing” Rossi said as everyone stood around our clothes trying to figure out which way the unsub took us.
Summary: After speaking to Spencer you asked to talk to Aaron as Haley had a message for him.
I sat alone in the room for about half an hour before the door opened and Aaron stepped inside.
“I don’t believe in any of this” he said as he stood by the table, refusing to sit down.
“I understand, a lot of people don’t. so what can I tell you that will make you believe me?” I asked and looked over to the woman standing next to him. “Tell him I’m proud of jack, he worked the case just like Aaron taught him” she said and I didn’t understand but repeated her words.
I frowned as I saw his eyes glisten and fell down in the chair. “How is this possible?” he whispered and I shook my head. “I don’t know it’s a family thing, not very easy but sometimes I do listen and help” I said to him and watched as the woman laid her hand on his shoulder.
“It’s not your fault, you tried your best to protect her. But now you need to be there for jack, and remember to smile more” I said word for word that Haley said to me. I watched as Aaron dropped his face into his hands as he trembled with sobs.
“Haley, I can give you a few seconds to say goodbye” I said as I held my hand out into thin air, aiming it at her. I followed her as she stepped towards me and took my hand, I closed my eyes and let go. Letting her fall into my body. With a shudder my eyes flew open but I wasn’t controlling my body, Haley was.
“Aaron?” my voice said but it sounded different. Aaron’s eyes flew open as he stared at me but it was Haley inside of my body instead.
“Haley…” he said and my body smiled and stood up, Aaron was up in an instant with his arms wrapped around my body, he was crying and it made my heart ache.
I saw my arm lift and cup his cheek. “Be strong for Jack, and no matter how much you don’t want to but find someone to love again. Jack needs a mom and you need love again, Aaron I will always love you but I am happy” her voice said through my body and Aaron shook his head.
“Don’t argue you stubborn man, follow my advice. I love you” she said and leaned up to lay a kiss on the side of his mouth.
She stepped back and I was suddenly back in control of my body and she was standing next to him.
“She is ready to cross over” I said and watched as the tears rolled down his cheeks. “I love you Haley” he said and she smiled at him as the light behind her got brighter, stepping into it until it went away.
I turned back to Aaron and smiled softly at him “You will be okay, I can see it” I offered up to him and watched as he wiped the tears from his eyes.
“Thank you, I don’t know how to…” “ No no I don’t want anything, I'm happy to have brought peace” I said quickly cutting him off.
“You can leave, and I will make sure the other cases with your name on them are as good as gone” he said and I nodded and smiled. “Thank you Aaron” I said and stepped to the door, looking back once more.
Sometimes this was a gift to help others but a curse for me to see and feel their pain, but tonight was definitely a good deed.
I walked out of the office and saw a man standing outside by a car.
“She’s no longer here, she crossed over but she did truly love you. And your marine friend? He says he is waiting for you with a Cuban cigar with your name on it Rossi." I said with a smile and saw the astonished look on his face.
With a nod and a smile I walked off into the night feeling lighter and feeling a sense of content. Maybe this wasn’t so bad to deliver messages after all.
Summary: When a new BDSM club opens you drag Garcia with as a plus one just to see what it looks like, but you get more than you expected.
PLEASE MDNI!!
It was a wonderful day as all the case files were handed in and the whole team had two weeks off, and I wanted to start it off with a bang.
Walking quickly to Garcia’s office I barged in and smiled at her.
“What brings you here lovely?” she asked and I smiled as I sat down.
“Well a new club opened up and I want to go check it out, only downside is I have to bring a female friend” I said and watched as her brows connected in confusion. “What type of club is that?” she asked and I looked down as I quickly mumbled it out.
“Honey I can’t understand you” she said and I sighed loudly.
“Garcia please, I need to get out and only you would understand and come with me. JJ defiantly wont and Emily is busy” I pleaded with her hoping that she would come along without more questions.
“Right but what club is it, I haven’t heard of a new bar opening” she said and I felt the heat rise to my cheeks.
“It’s a new, classic BDSM club?” I said with a hopeful smile at her and saw her gasp and shake her head.
“No no no, I don’t go to clubs like that” she said to me and I then proceeded to pout at her. “Come on we don’t even have to do anything, have cocktails and lots of eye candy will be there. Did I mention everyone has to wear masks at all time?” I said and she perked up hearing the masks.
“cocktails only, I wont do the dirty with some weirdo” she said and I arched my eyebrow at her.
“No I don’t mean you are a weirdo, I just mean a man I don’t know. I know you are into the BDSM thing but I'm not so sure about it” she quickly explained herself and I smiled as she agreed.
“Great, I will pick you up at 9, and no word to anyone about this” I said quickly and kissed her on the cheek as I rushed out.
I drove home and showered and did my makeup and then stood in front of my closet not knowing what to wear. So I settled on black stockings with a halter belt and a deep green dress that hugged my figure perfectly, matching with green lingerie and black high heels. I grabbed a black mask to fit with my heels and black clutch bag. I left my hair down as it was naturally wavy.
Driving to Garcia’s I sent her a message that I was outside and couldn’t help but smile as she came out in a blue dress and matching blue glitter mask.
“Thank you again Garcia, I owe you big time” I said as she climbed into the car.
“Oh you definatley do” she said back to me but I knew she was intrigued by the club.
I parked outside and we both made our way to the door where there was a bouncer standing there and asked for our tickets, to which I gave him both of ours.
“Have fun ladies” he said and sent a wink to Garcia which I chuckled at knowing she was blushing under her mask.
Once we stepped inside we both had to take a few seconds to take it in. it was low light with various women and men in masks talking and drinking, some were settle on the lounge chairs all around, but we made our way to the bar and ordered our drinks.
“So what do you think?” I asked her as I took a sip of my cocktail and ran my eyes over the people in there.
“It seems safe, but I don’t know if I could just start talking with someone and then have sex, it’s just not for me” she said and I shrugged understanding, but she didn’t understand the thrill of giving up all control and letting someone take charge.
The bartender came over to us and slid drinks our way but I shook my head “We didn’t order that” I said but the bartender smiled “it’s from an admirer” he said and both Garcia and I looked at each other.
“It’s safe I promise, I don’t spike drinks” a voice said behind us and we both turned to look at the man dressed in a button up black shirt and black pants.
“I would recognise that laugh anywhere baby girl” he said and I inwardly groaned realizing its morgan. Non of the team knew about this life I had, Garcia being the exception.
“Morgan what are you…oh, oh never mind” Garcia said as she connected the dots.
“I never expected to see you two here” Morgan said and I sighed knowing I couldn’t back track now.
“Oh just wanted to see what this whole BDSM thing was about” I quickly lied and turned back to my drink, gulping it down quickly.
“I need the bathroom” I said and quickly walked away and into the bathroom. I took a few minutes to compose myself and knew that the cat was out of the bag now that morgan knew.
But it was my personal life and I could do with it as I please. I was not looking a man to marry and have 2.5 kids with. I was a free spirit and enjoyed giving up control now and then.
Washing my hands I walked out of the bathroom with my mood killed I was ready to tell Garcia I was ready to go home but seeing her and morgan talking and laughing I felt guilty.
“Your friend found someone she clicked with” a voice said to my right and I looked over to see a man with a white button up and black slacks, a silver mask covering his face.
“Yeah she did it seems” I replied back as I watched them laugh and joke about something.
“I never knew someone could look so good in my favourite colour” the man said again and that’s when I noticed he had moved behind me and the back of his knuckles were brushing over my shoulder, giving me goosebumps.
“Thank you but I should be getting back to them” I explained but the man took my hand in his.
“Leave them, they are having fun. Why don’t you join me in my room?” he asked me and I turned to face him.
“No offence but I don’t really want to go into a room where someone else could have had sex a few minutes ago, you know germ wise” I said and I could see the mans eyes get smaller like he was smiling under the mask.
“I am the same, which is why I am a platinum member, I have my own room that is mine only. Cleaned regulary and sheets are always replaced, I promise” the man said and I looked over to morgan and Garcia having fun so I decided to leave them be. Nodding to the man he pulled me down the hallway and into an elevator which required a code. It took us down and when the doors opened I gasped.
It was one big room, a king size bed in the middle and it was filled with shelves, a big variety of toys and whips to choose from and much more.
“Lets talk first” he said and led me over to a couch, we sat down and his arm went around the beck of the couch and his legs were spread out. Without even seeing his face I knew he was just my type.
“Firstly I am a dom, but I respect your limits and will not over step them. Secondly no names will be exchanged, and lastly you obey everything I say unless it’s a hard limit for you, understand?” he said and I nodded as that was what I usually agreed to.
“Any hard limits?” he asked as his fingers rubbed over my shoulder. I stayed quiet for a moment as I tried to think. “Not really, but nothing in the back door and no electrocution ect, there I draw the line. My safe word is freeze, I agree no names as this will most probably be a one time only thing. I know I'm clean as I haven’t slept with anyone in 6 months and I do test after anything” I replied and watched as he nodded.
“I am clean as well and also have not bed anyone in a long while” he replied in his dark husky voice, I wanted to laugh the way he said he hasn’t ‘bed’ anyone but thought better of it.
“Shall we start?” he asked and I nodded and took his hand as he led me over to the bed. I stood in front of it as he circled me and I felt his hand go to my mask but I quickly gripped it.
“My mask stays on” I said and heard him hum behind me and felt his cold finger ghost over my back until his hand was by the zip and felt him slowly pulling it down and then felt him pull the dress down so that it was pooled at my feet.
He was crouched down and I felt his hand slide up from my ankle up to my thigh and then over my hips where his hands settled.
He pulled me back into him and I felt his hardness push against me and it made me groan out.
His hand snaked to my front and cupped my breasts, playing with my nipples as I threw my head back and hissed as he pinched one harshly, chuckling at my response.
“Stay there” he commanded and I obeyed as he stepped away from me, leaving me in anticipation.
“Any time you want to cum, you will ask for permission, understand?” he asked me and I turned my head to look over to him, I nodded once and his eyes turned cold.
“Answer appropriately” he growled out and I gulped as it sent the right type of shiver over me.
“Yes sir” I said and he hummed in approval. I felt his hands unfasten my bra and then he was behind me again, he gripped my hair in one hand and pushed me over so that I was bending over the bed.
I felt him curl over me, his hand playing with my breast and his other snaked between my legs and then I felt him push a vibrating toy against my bundle of nerves, making me gasp at the sensation and if not for his hand holding me up by my chest I would have fallen forward.
He switched between speeds while cupping and twisting my nipples and I knew I was already close.
But right before I could fall over the edge he removed the toy and I groaned in frustration.
“Is that attitude I hear?” he asked and before I could reply I felt the sting on my ass cheek from his hand.
“Count” he said and I was about to ask what he meant when his hand collided again. “I said count” he said and I whimpered as I heard the crack accompanied with the sting. “One…” I said breathlessly as I felt the arousal pool in my panties, ready for release.
“Two, three, four” I continued counting until we came to fifteen where I was shaking and breathless from the painful pleasure.
“Do you think you earned a reward now?” he asked me and I whimpered and pleaded with him.
“yes please sir, please I need it” I begged and felt him move away from me. Next I felt his fingers slip my panties down and one of his fingers swiped between my folds making me moan.
“Such a slut, you are soaked right through” he said and I knew he wasn’t lying because I was turned on from the spanking as I had a pain kink.
I felt his finger run up and down my slit before it entered into me and made me moan out loud as the feeling. Soon his second finger joined the first and his thumb was rubbing over my clit making my fist clench the sheets as I felt the coil inside of me wind up.
His pace increased as I felt his fingers curl inside of me and I bit my lip in pleasure. “Please, please” I whimpered out and heard him chuckle.
“Please what?” he asked and I groaned as I tried to form the words while being so close to falling off of the edge. “Cum, please can I cum?” I whined out as his thumb rubbed faster over my clit.
“Since you asked so nicely, yes. Cum for me” he replied and as soon as I heard him say cum for me I screwed my eyes shut as the dam broke and I came hard around his fingers which were still moving inside of me.
I was panting as I tried to catch my breath and was shocked as I felt something rub between my folds that could only be his thick long hard cock. Before I could utter a word I felt him push his head inside and heard him hiss at the warm wetness. He pushed himself in with one stroke and it made me groan.
“Fuck you are tight” he hissed out as he held still for a few seconds, giving both of us time to adjust. I felt his arm snake around to hold onto my chest and shoulder as he pulled back and rammed back inside, hitting me so deep.
He thrusted in a fast brutal pace, pulled me back into him with every thrust, making each one deep and hard.
He moaned as his thrusts picked up and I felt his hand move down and rub circles on my clit.
“I want you to cum again” he groaned out as his thrusts sped up and he didn’t have to ask me as I was already close to cumming again.
“I’m close, oh fuck please” I shouted out as he gripped my hair and pulled my head back, making my back arch, with this position he hit the right spot and I saw black as I came again, this time around his cock. He grunted from feeling me tightening around him and thrusted hard before pulling out.
I laid with my face in the sheets breathing hard but felt him pull me up and saw him crawl onto the bed, laying on his back.
It was the first time I could see him naked, and just from looking at him I was ready to cum again. He was thin but with defined muscles where it was needed and a long thick cock standing up, glistening from both our wetness.
“Are you going to stare or ride me” he stated and I couldn’t reply, only crawl up and straddle him. I positioned him at my entrance and sank down slowly, hissing as he felt bigger this way.
I felt his hands settle on my hips and helped guide me up and down slowly at first as we both savoured the feeling of him dragging in and out.
My head fell back in a moan as I rolled my hips forward and bit my lip out of pleasure. He started thrusting up and I let my hands fall onto his chest where I scratched my nails down his chest leaving marks and he growled out as he took my wrists into his hands with a bruising force, while thrusting upwards as I rolled my hips. He sat up while I was in his lap and put my hands behind my back, gripping them hard as he panted, and the way he was sitting was the perfect angle as my clit was rubbing on the little bit of stubble he had growing by his pubic bone.
I felt the heat pool in my stomach and moaned out loud as I felt him bite into my collar bone and leave bites over my neck. “Please can i?” I pleaded and felt him smirk against my skin.
“Can you what?” he teased me and I whimpered as I was trying to hold off from cumming.
“Please can I cum?” I moaned out loud and a simple nod from him made me move my hips faster but the harsh bite from him into my shoulder sent me over the edge. I tried to pull my hands back to grip something but he held them tightly, most likely cutting off blood circulation.
I shuddered as my orgasm went through me and he didn’t stop, he fucked me through it and when he pulled back he let go of my hand and the instantly fell to his neck with light pressure.
I felt my legs shaking so he held my hips and helped me move in a fast pace on top of him. “Fuck you feel so good” he moaned and I smirked even though he couldn’t see it.
He started thrusting faster and faster and I was getting too sensitive but when his hand went to my clit I tried to push it away but he smacked my hand away. “You can give me one more” he said in response and I nodded as he set a brutal pace trying to cum himself.
I felt him pulse inside of me and his movement were uneven meaning he was close to cumming so I moved my hips faster to push him over the edge.
“I cant breath in this thing” he said and his hands fell away from my hips and went to his mask to pull it off.
My hips stopped completely and my eyes went wide as my heart started beating even faster as my eyes behind my mask fell onto spencer’s face. Spencer my bestfriend, my colleague, my spence. “Fuck, shit , fuck” I said as I jumped off of him breathing hard.
“What are you…” he tried saying but I was off of the bed and grabbed my dress and threw it on, not even bothering to zip it up. I grabbed my shoes and ran out of the room not caring about how many people I bumped into.
I ran barefoot to where Garcia and morgan was still talking with a few drinks added after I left.
“We need to go now…” I said breathlessly and saw both of them stare at me with wild eyes.
“What? What happened?” Garcia said and I shook my head and grabbed a shooter that was in front of her and drank it quickly.
“No time, we need to go” I said and grabbed her arm and pulled her after me with morgan following.
“Sweetness did something happen?” morgan asked sternly as he looked over my state, unzipped dress and shoeless.
“No, no I’m fine. I'm just ready to go home” I said and my the look in his eyes he didn’t really believe me but nodded anyway.
Morgan stepped forward and zipped up my dress before we all walked to my car. Garcia and I said goodbye to morgan and then got into my car and drove off.
“Y/N talk to me, did someone hurt you?” she asked me and I shook my head, too shocked to speak. “Well you know you can talk to me” she offered softly and I smiled at her. “Thanks Garcia but no I am okay” I told her as I dropped her off and made my way home.
I got home and went straight to the shower, I scrubbed myself raw but I couldn’t scrub the feeling of spencer thrusting into me and moaning out of my head.
I went to bed but hardly slept, only in the early morning did I fall asleep. When waking up I stayed in bed, horrified at what happened. But was it because I found out it was spencer or because all the while I was imagining him doing that to me, and then it was him under the mask.
My train of thought was interrupted as my phone went off in the familiar tone and I shook my head in disbelieve.
“No please no…” I said out loud as I checked my phone. We had a case. And we were needed to come in. Now.
The whole time while getting dressed I felt my heart race a mile a minute and I didn’t know how I was going to face spencer, but if I put my poker face on he would know nothing. He didn’t know it was me, he would probably be disgusted if he knew it was me. I was only a friend to him, nothing more.
I drove to the BAU in silence and took a few seconds to compose myself before walking into the office.
We all met in the conference room and I got worried looks from Garcia and morgan but ignored it and avoided spencer’s eyes.
“Y/N please hand these out” Hotch said handing me the case files I grabbed them and handed them to the team. “Y/N!!” JJ gasped out and I frowned and followed her eye line and saw she was looking at my wrist which hand dark purple finger prints around them.
I cleared my throat and pulled my sleeve of my shirt down more and when I looked up I saw spencer’s eyes squinted at me looking closer at me, but I quickly looked away and sat back down.
After the information was given out everyone walked out but I was stopped by morgan.
“Who did that? Sweetness we can deal with him” he said and I swallowed hard as I felt my cheeks burn.
“Morgan please, it’s not what you think” I said and quickly walked out to grab my go bag. Everyone else had already gone to the jet waiting for me so I grabbed my go bag and walked to the elevator, it dinged open and my eyes went wide as I saw spencer standing there with his own go bag.
“I’m not too late?” I asked nicely and he shook his head “No you came just in time” he said, putting extra strain on the word came. I smiled softly and turned to face the door with him behind me.
I gasped as I felt his hand grip my waist and his breath blew over my neck.
“You left me hard and aching alone in the bed, don’t think I will let that slip” he said and I unconsciously clenched from his words and bit my lip. He definitely knew it was me, and by the sound of it there will be a round two and I didn’t know if I was grateful or apprehensive because of leaving him hard and alone in a bed.
Summary: Y/N was born with a gift, a gift to see the dead and when one ghost doesn't want to leave her alone she approaches the team with a message but it doesn't go as planned.
Now when you ask me sometimes and by sometimes I actually mean 99% of the time you keep to yourself and don’t speak up if you have the gift that I have.
But let me start from the beginning.
My name is y/n and we have a gift running in our family, neither my mom or my gran got the gift but my great grandmother had it, you see we can see and speak to the dead.
Its misunderstood in the world we live in, so we keep to ourselves and don’t talk about it, I learned my lesson with that one when I opened up to a then boyfriend and he freaked out on me calling me a freak and a lunatic. So after that I kept it to myself and never looked for a boyfriend again, he showed me not to trust any man with my heart.
But everywhere I walked they were there, trying to get a message to a loved on. At age 28 I had mastered the ability to shut them out when I needed to.
And on this morning as I was waiting to get a coffee I saw one of them, I made the mistake to look at her and she noticed. Since then she followed me around, constantly talking to me and trying to get me to respond. I shut my eyes and breathed out slowly as I shut her out. Breathing a sigh of relief I rolled my shoulders and continued with my day.
By the end of my work shift I was ready to let off some steam, and I knew the perfect bar to go to. My job didn’t make it easier as I was a nurse and there tend to be a lot of ghosts roaming around.
I stepped into the bar freshly showered and ready to have some fun but I would soon realize it would come to an end.
On drink number five I heard her voice again as I was dancing. “Please I know you can hear me, I need your help” she said and I rolled my eyes trying to just relax.
“Please help me” she said again and I huffed as I turned to look at her, she was pretty, and young.
“leave me alone, I can’t” I said to her and walked to the bar to order another drink. “You don’t understand, I need to get a message to someone. Please…” she desperately asked me and I stared at her.
“I’m just trying to have fun, and you ruining it” I said and then realized there was a tall black man staring at me strangely. I pointed to my ear which happed to have a earphone in, for cases like this.
“Friend is annoying me when I'm trying to have fun” I explained and saw him nod, not sure if he was buying it.
“You see I cant here” I said as the man walked away. “No please, I just need you to talk to him then I will leave you alone” she explained and I shook my head. “Sometimes its better not talking to them, it makes the grieving worse” I explained to her but she gave me a pointed look and I knew she was not going to leave me alone.
“Fine, who is it?” I asked and she gave me a small smile, turning she pointed to a group of people. And here I was hoping it was someone sitting alone drowning in their sorrows.
I drank my drink quickly and walked over to the table with her right next to me.
“Excuse me? Can I talk to you for a second?” I asked the guy and watched as he turned to face me.
Tall, beautiful brown eyes…no golden eyes with dark circles around them. Brownish hair that looked soft to the touch and a calculating expression on his face.
“Is something wrong?” he asked me and it took me a few seconds to get my head on straight.
“Yes, no I mean no. nothing is wrong, I would just like to speak to you privately” I said and looked around the table to see all of the group was staring at me, including the black guy from the bar.
“No sweetheart that’s not a good idea” the black man said and I arched my eyebrow at him.
“No problem” I said and turned to go back to having fun but the girl was standing in front of me.
“You didn’t even try…please” she said and I hung my head in annoyance. “For fuck sakes” I said to myself and turned back to the group.
“I have a message for you, so please if we could talk alone” I said to the man again and that’s when everyone went stiff and looked at each other.
“Who are you?” the blonde lady asked and I rolled my eyes. “Please I am just trying to enjoy my night, I have a message for him and the quicker he hears it the quicker I can be left alone” I said and gasped as suddenly I was pulled backwards, my hands behind my back.
I was being handcuffed and led out of the bar. “What the fuck, get off of me!” I shouted not understanding. Everyone was silent as I kept screaming and trying to get loose but nothing helped and twenty minutes later I found myself in a private room, handcuffed to the table.
I looked around and saw the girl standing there and glared at her. “You could have told me they are FBI then I would have approached them differently” I hissed at her and saw her look down feeling bad.
“Who are you talking to?” a voice said and I looked up to see an older gentleman walk in with a case file, mine probably.
“Someone who needs to give more information” I replied and watched as he sat down.
“You are something very different, you have a record. You told the police three times where bodies were, without an explanation and each time you were let go cause they couldn’t pin you to any of the murders, so tell me how is that possible?” he asked me with a hard stare and I shook my head.
“You wouldn’t believe me if I told you” I said and he sat back while crossing his arms. “Try me” he countered and I banged my head on the table not believing this was how I was going to spend my night.
“Just let me talk to the tall one, then you will understand and let me go” I pleaded but he wasn’t giving in.
“I have a message for him and only him, send him in or let me go home” I said to him but he wasn’t doing anything. I got angry and swiped my case file off of the table and gasped as he took hold of my wrists, it sent a shock through me and I groaned in pain. “Stop…stop please” I cried out as I saw the flashes behind my own eyes. He let go and I tried to slow my breathing.
“I just want a peaceful life” I whispered out and felt a tear run down my cheek from the pain I experienced. “Then tell me the message” he said and I looked over to the corner to the girl.
“Thomas merton” I replied what she said and watch hotch frown and a few seconds later the door opened. “What did you say?” he asked and my eyes met the brown ones. “Thomas merton” I said again and saw him go still.
“How, how do you” he trailed off and I closed my eyes for a second and looked at him again. “Because I have a message for you” I said and followed his every move as he walked over and sat down.
“Reid you can’t…” the older man said but he shook his head. “Please I need to hear this” he said and the older man nodded and left the room.
“How do I know this is the truth?” he asked me and I looked to the girl again. “Spencer, you are spencer Reid” I said and he shook his head looking desperate. “That’s easy, google” he replied coldly back to me.
“Thomas…” “I KNOW THAT!” he shouted at me and it made me jump. “Let me finish” I said and started again. “Thomas, she can never take him from the two of you, Diane I mean. Not your mother Diana, you read a lot and your IQ is very high.” I said and he looked bewildered. “What did I never say back over the phone?” he asked and I waited and sighed as I replied. “I love you” I said and saw tears well up in his eyes.
“It’s her…” he said and I nodded softly “Maeve yes, she is here” I said and watched as the tears fell down his cheeks.
“She wants me to tell you she is okay, there is no pain and she is worried about you. You bought something recently and she doesn’t want you to relapse. Things didn’t work out but she is always there, watching” I said and sat and watched as spencer broke down into sobs.
“I’m sorry Maeve, I didn’t save you” he said and I shook my head.
“No, you did everything you could. She is proud of you after everything but she doesn’t want you to harm yourself, she wants you to be happy, find your happiness again” I said and looked at Maeve to see her smiling with own tears running down her cheeks. “Tell him I will always watch but I need to go now, if he feels down he should read our book” she said and I took spencer’s hand in my own.
“she is ready to go into the light but she will always watch over you, and if you are sad read your book, the special book” I said and watched as his eyes widened. “No she cant go yet…” he said and I smiled sadly. “It’s time spencer” I said and he nodded sadly. “Tell her that I love her” he said and I smiled. “She can hear you, and she loves you too” I said and shuddered as I felt her cross over into the light. “Is she?” he asked and I nodded softly and watched as more tears run down his cheeks.
“Spencer she had the message for a reason, and she wouldn’t stop until I gave it to you” I said and he wiped his tears knowing I was right. He stood up and unlocked my cuffs. “You can go” he said and I laughed lightly. “I wish I could but I have one more message” I said and he looked over to me curiously. “From Haley, she’s here for Aaron” I said and knew I was in for a long night as I experienced her pain for myself when Aaron touched me.
Currently we were on my couch watching a Disney movie after a hard case and we both needed an escape from reality.
We were watching ratatouille and I could feel Spencer’s anxiety roll off of him.
“What’s going on in that head of yours?” I asked him as I sat up and turned to him watching his eyes go big.
“Nothing why?” he answered my question with a question.
“Don’t do that, talk to me Reid. What’s on your mind?” I asked again knowing something was up with him as he seemed not interested in the movie at all.
“Can I kiss you?” he whispered out and I had to strain to hear him.
“That’s what’s bugging you? Reid you don’t have to ask, we’ve been on a few dates already” I said to him and watched as he played with his fingers.
“stop overthinking it, spence I want you to” I said and scooted closer to him as his eyes stayed locked on the floor. I leaned up on my knees and gripped his chin with my fingers and lifted his chin, leaning down I pressed my lips to his own.
I pulled back and licked my lips staring into his eyes, his pupils were fully blown and his eyes were moving between my lips and my eyes.
“Why is it every time I look at your eyes they are a different colour?” he asked me and I smirked.
“They change colour depending on my mood, green for anger, blue for happy and grey when I’m sad” I explained and he nodded and leaned up to capture my lips in his own again.
This time his hand was in my hair pulling me in and the moment I felt his tongue on my bottom lip I opened up to him, tasting the hot chocolate he had moments before.
I moaned into his mouth and his hands gripped my hips so I was straddling him, I felt his hand go under my jersey, his hands were cold against my hot skin but it felt right.
“Do you want to move to the bedroom, I mean if you want to?” Spencer asked nervously and I nodded and stood up, taking him by the hand I pulled him down the hall way and into my bedroom.
Spencer kissed me again and I felt his fingers pull at my jersey but I stopped him.
“Sorry I didn’t mean to…” he said and I sighed and looked at him. “It’s not that, is it okay if we turn the light off?” I asked and watched as he frowned down at me. “You don’t have to be ashamed about your body, I know it’s beautiful” he said and it made tears well up in my eyes. He was such a beautiful soul, too precious for a world like this.
“No it’s not that, I just have one too many scars from previous cases” I explained and he understood what I meant. Being an agent meant that sometimes you got hurt and ended up with scars.
“And I’ll kiss every one of them” Spencer said and even though I was nervous at him seeing them I nodded at him and watched as he slowly pulled it over my head, leaving me in my bra and sweatpants.
I had closed my eyes at some point and shivered as I felt Spencer’s lips kiss softly over one of my scars on my shoulder. I stayed quiet as he moved to each of them and laid a soft kiss on all of them as he said he would.
I smiled softly as his lips ghosted over my skin, humming when he nipped at my skin with his teeth.
“On the bed please” he lightly demanded and I nodded as I laid down, he pulled my sweatpants off and I felt his eyes roam over my body, and for once I didn’t feel embarrassed, I felt wanted. He kissed his way up slowly and met my lips again. I moaned into the kiss and arched off of the bed. I helped him pull his shirt off ad his pants were soon to follow. He hovered over me and promised he would go slow, I hissed at the first thrust as he stretched me fully but the pain was soon gone as I begged him to move. “Please spencer I need to feel you” I whimpered as he dragged his hips back slowly and thrust forward swiftly. I threw my head back at the feeling “Are you okay?” he asked and I nodded as my nails scratched down his back in pleasure. “Spence please” I begged, not sure what I was begging for but he understood and started a steady rhythm. With every thrust he hit the right spot and it wasn’t long before I was cumming around him, I cried out his name as it flowed over me and in the distance I heard him moan out and it was the most beautiful thing I have ever heard. He moaned once more before he stilled inside of me, breathless and sweaty. He captured my lips as we both came down from the high. We looked into each others eyes and even though neither one of us said it, we could see we loved each other.
After the previous night Spencer and I would take turns in sleeping over at each others apartments, the team didn’t know yet as both Spencer and I wanted to keep it to ourselves for a bit.
It was one of the diners at Rossi’s place about three months later where everyone met up there after a hard case. Rossi was busy cooking while the rest of the team were drinking far too expensive wine and laughing.
“What’s that on your neck sweetheart?” Morgan asked and I frowned as I touched my neck not feeling anything. “Is that a hickey?” JJ asked laughing and I blushed as I put my hand over it.
“No I probably just scratched myself” I replied and they all laughed “No you were scratching a different itch gorgeous” Morgan said while winking in my direction.
“Hey so what, we all have sex lives” I said out loud making Rossi choke on his sip of wine.
“As long as he treats you well, otherwise I’ll kill him” Rossi said and I chuckled nervously and looked over at Spencer. He was staring hard at the floor with a glare on his face.
“What about you pretty boy? No sex life” Morgan asked but Spencer just slammed his glass down and stormed outside. Everyone looked confused at each other not knowing what was wrong.
“Let me check on him” I said and walked outside to where Spencer was standing.
“Hey, you okay?” I asked him but he stayed quiet. I walked up to him and stood in front of him staring up at him.
“What’s wrong?” I asked him again but he clenched his jaw and went to turn but I grabbed his hand.
“Talk to me Spencer, what’s wrong?” and saw he had tears in his eyes as he looked down at me, specifically my neck.
“I hurt you…” he whispered out and I frowned as I stepped up to him. “No you didn’t, you didn’t hurt me, you showed me how to be loved spence. And I don’t mind a small scratch here or there or even a hickey. Cause it’s from you okay? Spence look at me please” I said to him and stared into his beautiful eyes as I smiled at him.
“I love you Spencer Reid, and everything we do together shows me what love is” I said to him and leaned up to kiss him.
He pulled me into the kiss and laid his forehead against mine. “You love me?” he whispered out and I nodded softly. “I do, and I don’t expect you to say it back” I said as I stepped back and took his hand to walk back inside.
“Wait…” Spencer said and I turned to look at him “I do love you” he said and I smiled at him as he pulled me into another kiss.
“Uh guys, dinner is ready” Morgan said behind us and we both jumped apart but the look on Morgans face said that he had seen enough.
Both Spencer and I were red as tomatoes as we stepped inside and sat around the table.
“So tell us about this guy Olivia” Morgan said and I glared at him and kicked him under the table.
“No it’s my business” I replied shortly and felt Spencer grab my hand under the table.
“No I would like to know who he is, I will say if he’s good enough” Rossi said and I rolled my eyes.
“Well he’s very smart, kind and the most beautiful person I’ve met. He treats me well and understands my job fully. He reads a lot and prefers reading over watching tv, coffee is his favourite and he cant go without it” I finished off and took a sip of my wine as all eyes were on me.
“Reid you have a clone out there or something?” Emily asked as she laughed and Spencer in turn squeezed my hand.
“No I don’t think so but her description is very accurate to describe me, I would have of course mentioned my IQ and that I am a doctor but that’s just me” Spencer said and my eyes went wide as I stared at him.
“Wait so you two?” Garcia asked shocked and I smiled as I looked over at Spencer. “He does treat me well Rossi, I promise” I said and Rossi nodded while the rest of the team cheered.
“Okay pay up” Hotch said and the group groaned while Spencer and I looked at each other confused.
“Wait you guys bet on us?” Spencer asked shocked and I stared at everyone around the table.
“Yeah Hotch was the closest to when you guys would let the cat out the bag” JJ said and we all shook our heads and laughed, apparently Spencer and I weren’t as subtle as we thought.
Hearing my alarm go off I groaned knowing I had to get up if I wanted to get to the convention on time. 30 minutes later I was showered and dressed, I grabbed my car keys and drove there, finding parking easily.
Showing my pass at the door I went in quickly and walked around, buying a few things I liked until I got to my favourite table. It wasn’t Halloween yet but this convention was held a month before and the current table I was at was a dedicated Tim Burton merch table.
I bought a few coffee cups and ended up buying a few figurines as well that I knew would go perfectly onto my shelves at home.
“Olivia?” I heard someone call my name and turning I was surprised to see Spencer walking over to me. “Hi, what are you doing here?” I questioned and tried to hide my bags behind me so that he wouldn’t see.
“oh I come every year, Halloween is one of my favourite holidays” Spencer said with ease and it made me happier than it should have to hear him say that.
“Mine too actually, I always buy the most unique things here” I rambled on and realized Spencer was looking around the table as well.
“Well I'm finished, if you want I can walk with you until you are done and then maybe we can grab a coffee?” I asked him and he looked over to me with surprise.
“I..uh sure, I mean yes. I'm also finished” he said and I found his stumbling very cute.
“Where do you want to go?” he asked me and I thought for a moment not sure.
“I know a great spot if you don’t mind the walk” Spencer offered and I smiled gratefully at him. We walked in silence, it wasn’t uncomfortable, just peaceful and nice.
Once we got to the coffee shop we grabbed a table outside and ordered our coffee.
“So any other surprises for me that I don’t know about you?” I asked Spencer as I took a sip of my ice caramel coffee.
“Well seeing as haven’t really talked outside of work, there is a lot we don’t know about each other” Spencer replied and I knew what he meant. Neither one of us really talked about our lives outside of work.
“Alright how about a question for a question?” I offered up, Spencer looked a bit hesitant but then nodded as he took a sip of his overly sweet coffee.
“Okay I’ll go first, why FBI why not become some world renowned doctor?” I asked him curiously as he was way too smart for this type of job.
“Well I am a doctor, but to answer I just always felt the need to put my brain to good use and I feel like this is a good choice.” He said and it thought it over not understanding how he could be so smart and not get bored of knowing everything.
“Why that apartment and not one with many tenants?” Spencer asked me and I was shocked at his question, it was a valid one as the one I was staying in was mine and mine alone, a bit pricey but I was fine with it.
“Well I like to have my own privacy and control who comes near me and my home, we can never be too careful” I said and he agreed with me but didn’t press further as he realised I gave a short but correct answer.
“So you and Layla huh?” I asked him and smirked as he chocked on his sip of coffee.
“What I uh- what do you mean?” he spluttered and I grinned at him.
“Back in the day that sleezy magazine was everywhere” I responded to him and watched as he looked down in embarrassment.
“It was nothing, just paparazzi doing their bad of a job” he said and I hummed as I knew there was more to the story.
“So I guess it’s my turn again, do you- uhm do you have a boyfriend or someone staying with you I mean?” Spencer asked and I looked curiously at him.
“you asking me out Reid?” I asked in return and watched as he scrambled for words. “No! I-uhm I’m just asking” he said while blushing and taking a sip of his coffee to avoid my eyes.
“No Reid I don’t have a boyfriend, they don’t usually stick around after hearing about my past or my job, so I’ve just stopped trying” I said to him and watched as he curiously looked at me. Obviously wanting to know about my past but not brave enough to ask.
I was about to ask another question when my phone rang, seeing it was Hotch I groaned and showed Spencer. “Guess we have another case” I said and grumbled about only having one day off and then having to go back into work.
We were all briefed quickly and on the jet in no time. Speculations were thrown around about the new case trying to form a profile adequately but also quickly as you were all feeling tired and worn down.
5 days later Spencer and I were on our way to go talk to a suspect but as both of you stopped by the door you noticed it was already open. Both of us pulled our guns out and searched the house. Downstairs was clean and as you both walked into the bedroom Spencer heard a car and looking outside he saw three men climb out, all having guns on them and not any type of guns but automatic rifles.
“In the closet quickly” Spencer hissed at me and I was confused until I looked out the window myself and knew we were in big trouble.
Spencer got into the closet first and then I followed, it was strange for the closet to be empty and also this small but neither one of you thought about it as Spencer let the team know where you were and that you needed back up fast.
Pulling the door closed I heard it click shut and breathed softly as the voices of the men filled the house. Looking out the small slits in the closet door to try and see when they come up just to be ready, I moved to try and get a better view.
“Can you stop moving” Spencer hissed behind me and I turned my head to frown at him. “I’m trying to see, it’s not my fault this closet is so small” I hissed back and turned again to try and get a good view.
“Stop!” Spencer whispered tensely and I shook my head not in the mood to get him started with his personal space issues and germs.
Hearing steps coming up the stairs I moved again to try and see if someone was heading into this room but they turned and headed to the other room.
“Please just stop moving” Spencer said loudly and I turned my head to him in anger. “Shhhhh” I scolded him and moved back to my original position and then I felt Spencer’s hands grip my hips tightly. “Stop moving” he growled out at me and as I tried to move I felt his hands tighten and then I realized I was flush against him and something was very hard against my ass.
I then understood why he asked me to stop moving. “Shit sorry Reid” I whispered out feeling bad for moving so much.
“Just don’t move” he said and I nodded trying to keep still but Spencer’s breath was right on my neck and it was giving me goosebumps along with his hands staying on my hips. “I can try and turn around” I said to Spencer and before he could say anything I turned to face him but this made it worse as we had to stare at each other now. “Never mind this is worse” I said and struggled but in no time turned back around.
Spencer’s hands returned to my hips but this time his fingers touched my bare skin as my shirt had slightly lifted up with the turning.
“It’s fine just don’t move anymore” Spencer whispered out and I felt myself shiver from his words right by my ear and his breath tickling the skin on my neck.
The team needed to hurry up already as this became very uncomfortable as I couldn’t stop thinking about Spencer so close to me and pressing into me. I don’t know what I was thinking but I moved back slightly and heard Spencer hiss out between his teeth.
“Fuck…” Spencer groaned out and I had never heard him curse before and I didn’t know why but it turned me on so much to hear that coming out of his mouth.
“Reid” I said out softly as I felt him pull me back more into him, he was grinding himself against me as his head fell forward onto the back of my shoulder.
“Reid, Olivia?” we heard Morgan shout out and neither one of you realized that the team had gotten there.
“In here…” I shouted out and heard Spencer groan as I reached for the cupboard door and push it open. Before I could say anything Spencer rushed past me and then Morgan without a word.
“What was that about?” Morgan asked as I looked back at the cupboard, still feeling Spencer’s hand on my hips. “Just a small closet, kinda tight squeeze” I said to Morgan and walked past him as he replied with “mhm”.
Turns out it was a gang related murder and the team had arrested the three guys seeking revenge.
The plane ride was silent as everyone was tired, so everyone completed their paper work quickly. Heading to the supply closet for new staples I opened the door as saw Spencer walking by, so I grabbed his arm and pulled him inside.
“Spencer look what happened…” “no don’t mention it, I’m sorry I understand you aren’t into me and it’s fine. It’s uh – its just been a while and I -uh” Spencer rambled on as he interrupted me and I arched my eyebrow at him.
“stop talking Spencer” I said but he kept babbling on so I step forward and gripped his face in my hands and leaned up to press my lips onto his own. It did the trick and he was quiet.
As I pulled back I stared into his beautiful eyes searching for something. “I like you Reid” I said and he swallowed hard and looked at the floor.
“Hey, if this isn’t what you want, it’s okay” I said and stepped back feeling as if that was the wrong thing to do.
“No it’s not that, I just – uh can I take you on a date?” he asked me and I smiled up at him.
“Of course you can” I said and placed a small kiss to his cheek and walked back out to my desk, grinning from ear to ear.
“What’s the smile for pretty thing?” Derek asked me and I didn’t want to tell him and I'm sure Spencer would feel the same as we were both very personal people.
“No just thinking of my bed and how good it will feel sleeping in it for the next few days” I replied and he just shook his head and walked over to garcia’s office.
We all had a few days off and Spencer and I decided to grab dinner on the third night, I dressed in a simple red ankle length dress as Spencer said it was a fancy restaurant he wanted to show me.
I arrived at the restaurant and felt nervous as I haven’t been on a date in a very long time. The last relationship I had ended very badly but, Spencer was different. He was kind and smart and funny, someone I could see myself with in the long run.
The hostest showed me to the table where Spencer was already waiting, I smiled at him as I approached and it was like on of those cheesy cartoons. Where the males jaw hits the floor by the look on Spencer’s face.
“You look beautiful” Spencer said and I smiled and thanked him as he pulled my chair out for me.
Spencer and I shared stories about our lives and he told me about when he started in the BAU and I told him about my days in the CIA where I started off.
“So you and Rossi go way back?” Spencer asked as we walked outside through the park for an evening stroll.
“Yeah he was lead detective on my parents murder when I was 14” I said and took a deep breath as I haven’t thought about them in a long while.
“Sorry I didn’t mean to intrude” Spencer said and I shook my head at him “No it’s okay, it was a long time ago” I explained and we continued to walk in silence.
“How about you, any family around here?” I asked in return and saw Spencer chew his bottom lip, anxious to reply.
“You don’t have to answer Reid it’s okay. We all have some issues we don’t want to talk about” I offered up to him and he stopped to face me and took my hand in his own.
“No it’s okay to ask. It’s just my mom, she – uh she’s in a facility…” “Reid stop…it’s okay one day you can tell me” I said to him as I could tell he was uncomfortable.
“Do you want a cup of tea? My place is right around the corner” I asked him and saw him swallow hard and pull his hand away.
“I’m sorry, I don’t usually do that on the first night” Spencer said with a blush covering his cheeks.
“You don’t drink a cup of tea after a date?” I asked confused and trying to think what he was thinking.
“Olivia I know what cup of tea at your place means” Spencer said and I bursted out laughing.
“Reid I don’t mean sex, I mean an actual cup of tea” I said to him and watched as he ducked his head in embarrassment.
“Oh sorry, not that I won’t want to, just not after the first date” Spencer rambled out in nervousness making me blush as well.
“It’s just tea Reid, I don’t do sex so early on as well” I said to him as we made our way back to my apartment.
Walking inside I switched the lights on and then switched the kettle on and pulled out two mugs while Spencer looked over my book collection.
“Are these first editions?” Spencer asked me shocked as he pulled them out and I walked over nodding. “Yes they were a gift, I'm just missing one” I said and watched in awe as he went over all the books. It was nice to see someone else appreciate books like I do.
Your place looks a lot different to what I imagined” Spencer said and I looked around, it was very bare and minimal, only the book shelve standing out.
“That’s cause all the good things are in the spare room” I said and walked down the hallway with Spencer following me. I opened the door and stepped inside where all my collectables were in glass cases and the wall filled with posters and merch.
“Wow, do not let Garcia see this” Spencer said and I laughed knowing she would geek out.
“Yeah no one really knows how much of a geek I really am, but I like it that way” I said to him as we both headed back to the kitchen to get our tea.
It went on like that for a few weeks, Spencer and I getting dinner and the having tea before he left to go to his place. Little by little my walls were going down and we both opened up about things. I learnt about his addiction and his mom being a schizophrenic and he learnt about me being guarded with people as I was in an abusive relationship before being transferred to dc.
Alright guys this is something different to my usual Reader/Character. This is an OC but can be read as reader as it's in 1st pov. Let me know if i should carry on and if i should make the parts shorter, now on with the story.
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I stepped out of the elevator and made my way through the glass doors. There were people sat at their desks and some walking around with case files. My eyes scanned the room and I spotted Erin Strauss immediately. It seemed as though she was having a heated discussion with my new boss. The one and only Hotchner.
She did warn me that the team won’t take to kindly to my presence, as I was there to observe them and report back to her.
Was I young? Yes, but I worked hard to be here, I was in college by the age of 17 and when I studied criminology and psychology and aced it, I was swept up very quickly. Passing tests and physical aspects very quickly. Some say it was odd how quickly I climbed the ladder but it was all due to hard work and passion. I spent my first few years in CIA before Erin approached me and put in the transfer.
Everyone was always shocked to hear my age but I did some research on my team mates and felt at ease that they had another young person on the team. Dr Spencer Reid, so it couldn’t be so bad.
I was pulled out of my daze when I saw Erin motion me over with her two fingers.
I sighed and walked over to her and Hotch and had the door closed behind us.
“Aaron, I would like you to meet your new team member, miss Croft. I am sure I’ll be hearing from you soon” she said directed to me and then she left the office, leaving me to stand alone in Hotch’s office.
“Please have a seat” he said and I nodded as I sat down, waiting for him to say where I could set up.
“Miss Croft, please do not take this hard but neither me or my team is happy with you being here under Erin’s orders.” He said to me and I nodded understanding his apprehension.
“Please you can call me Olivia, and I understand but sir don’t get me wrong. I am here to supervise yes, but more so I am here to join the team. I have excelled in all my work and even rose much quicker than my fellow team mates. I’m not here to break your team up, I'm simply here to see how you work with everything that has happened. I hope I can fit in and make this work for all of us” I explained and he seemed satisfied with my answer as he nodded.
Just then there was a knock on the door, signalling there was a new case to be handled.
I followed Hotch to the meeting room and stopped as I saw all the other team members glaring my way.
“Everyone this is Olivia Croft, our new member. Please treat her with respect and we can all make this work” Hotch said using my own words.
I gave a small smile and walked over to the only open seat there was and looked around. I already knew who everyone was, as I looked over all their files previously, the air was cold as everyone settled in and Garcia started giving the details of the new case.
40 minutes later I was sitting on the jet on the way to Mississippi, I sat at the table with JJ and Emily reading over the case.
“The way he murders the females are extensive, it’s pure over kill. I'm sure we can say he has a hate for females and maybe he’s trying to fantasize about killing the one he envisions as they all have the same hair colour and eye colour.” I said as I started connecting the dots.
“Doesn’t mean he’s trying to envision it, maybe he’s just not ready to face her” Morgan said out loud and everyone went deathly quiet at his tone of voice.
He was snarky and distain laced his voice towards me. I just swallowed and kept my eyes on the file, deciding it would be best to stay quiet for now until everyone got used to me being there.
Once we landed, we went straight to the police office to set up. Two days later we had another body and a few traces on the victim that gave more clues into his life. We had a few suspects but something was still missing. I kept staring at the bodies and looking over the muddy boot print on their chest. While Morgan was on the phone with Garcia something clicked as I looked at the board.
“Garcia, narrow the search to a man in his late 40’s and most likely obese with a secluded property, most likely farming pigs” I said and saw Morgan clench his jaw as I interrupted him.
“Wow, okay yes I have two, first one’s name is Ernest Buckley, second one I have is Bill March and I am sending you the locations now” Garcia said and I smiled in triumph as I knew that was what we were missing and it was one of these men.
“Morgan, Olivia you head to Ernest and Spencer and I will head to Bill. Emily and JJ are still at the coroners” Hotch said and I nodded as I walked out and heard Morgan mumble something but I wasn’t going to let it get in my way of catching this killer.
Morgan and I drove all the way out to the pig farm, we walked to the front door and I watched as Morgan kicked the door in. We swept the house but no one was inside. “Check out back” I said not waiting for Morgan to reply.
We walked out and saw a small shed and a barn, nodding at Morgan I made my way to the barn as he went to the shed with our guns raised and ready.
I walked to the barn and slid the door open slowly and stepped inside softly, the wind was making some of the chains rattle making me look around more often.
As I rounded the corner, I saw the man in front of me bending over a figure.
“FBI stop right there!” I shouted out loud enough for Morgan to hear me. The man, Ernest turned towards me with a knife in his hand. He faced me fully and as I quickly looked behind him, I saw a woman half cut up. She was deceased already.
“Put the weapon down” I called out again but instead he charged at me, so I shot off one round hitting him in the shoulder but it didn’t seem to faze him as he knocked into me and slammed me to the ground.
I felt a sting across my cheek as his fist connected with my face and I struggled with my gun as it slipped out of my hand. I punched him as I couldn’t reach my gun and he sneered down at me and hit me again, as he reached for his own knife, I pulled my leg up and hit him between the legs.
He groaned out in pain and it gave me enough leverage to slip out from under him and kick him in the back as I stood up.
I looked around for my gun but it must have fell somewhere in the hay, I watched as he stood up and instantly, I jumped up and wrapped my arm around his throat intending to choke him out. He struggled but stood up to his full height as I clung on to him as my feet were lifted off of the ground. He tried to throw me off but I had a good grip and gasped as he moved backwards and slammed me into the wall back first with his full weight pressing as well, I groaned as I felt something sharp poke into my back, stinging and burning at the same time.
“Morgan!!” I shouted out as I knew I was not going to take him down alone without my gun.
I saw Morgan step inside with his gun raised and thought to myself finally.
“Stop!” Morgan shouted as he stepped forward and I felt my grip loosen as I was winded from the impact on the wall.
I fell down and heard another shot and watched as the unsub fell to the ground. The other team members arrived and I stood up trying to get air back into my lungs. Hotch looked around and silently asked me if I was okay with his eyes which I gave a curt nod.
Morgan walked out as I stood up and wiped the blood from my lip. Walking out I saw the police and other team members as well as the ambulance.
“You okay?” I heard a voice say and looked to see Spencer next to me looking concerned.
“Yeah, I’ve had worse” I replied and saw him nod and watched as his eyes raked over my face. “Olivia you’re bleeding” Spencer said and I nodded as I walked over to the ambulance.
I sat down as the medic looked me over, I had a small cut on my cheek and a nail stuck in my shoulder. Hissing as the medic pulled it out and then cleaned it out and wrapped it up.
He gave me the run down of antibiotics I would need and smiled as I thanked him.
“That was a close one” Hotch said as he stepped up to me and I searched the people around me until my eyes landed on Morgan.
“Yeah it was, Morgan must have been tripped up or something for taking so long. If he came faster then I wouldn’t have had a nail in my back” I said loud enough for him to hear and he narrowed his eyes at me and went to walk over to me but a hand on his arm stopped him.
“Are you okay to fly?” Hotch asked and I nodded as I stood up and grimaced at the burn in my shoulder.
We wrapped everything up and found ourselves on the plane. I decided to sit a few seats back from the team and as I was reading, I couldn’t help but overhear them discuss the case.
Hotch was on the phone with someone, probably Erin if she heard what had happened.
“You know what they say, snitches get stiches” Morgan said loudly while looking straight into my eyes. Spencer rambled something about the phrase but I didn’t listen as I stood up and made my way to the bathroom. I sat there for a good while as the tears ran down my face. I knew I shouldn’t be crying but it was hard to not be accepted by them as I was only doing what I had be told to do.
It didn’t make my work any different or made me incapable of doing this job, maybe this was a big mistake.
I snuck out of the bathroom without making any eye contact and sat down in my seat facing away from the team. As we headed back to the BAU I sighed dreading all the paper work that were waiting.
“Hotch is it fine if I finish my report at home? I need to go pick up meds to prevent an infection” I asked Hotch as the rest of the team walked by us. “Oh special treatment already” Morgan threw my way and I ducked my head as I didn’t think about what I just asked.
“Morgan enough. Yes that’s is fine, make sure it’s on my desk tomorrow” Hotch said and I nodded without a reply and walked away to head to my car.
I made it home safely after picking up my medicine and quickly finished the report.
Finally getting into bed I let my body relax and then I let the sobs escape me as I cried silently in my bed, thinking of telling Erin this was a mistake and I would like to be reassigned .
The next morning, I got up and showered and prepared to go into work and face whatever was thrown my way.
I walked into the office and set my things down and then handed in my paper work.
“I heard you were joining us” a voice said behind me and I smiled at the voice and turned around leaping into his arms to give him a big hug.
“It’s good to see you kid, but I guess you aren’t a kid anymore” Rossi said into my shoulder and I couldn’t help but feel the tears well up in my eyes.
“Hey now, none of that” he said as he wiped the single tear from my face. “Sorry I just haven’t seen you in a long time and missed you on the previous case we had” I explained and looked over his face. He aged very well and still looked as well as ever.
“Yeah I had some personal business, but I heard it didn’t go too well” Rossi said and I nodded while looking down.
“The team doesn’t like new people and it doesn’t help that I have to report back to Strauss” I said to him and he hummed as he looked around.
“Well one thing they need to understand is that there won’t be anything to report back to her because we are all going on just fine” Rossi said and I smiled knowing he was right. Maybe I should just stick out a bit more, things will get better with time.
“And I have never met someone who doesn’t warm up to sweet old you” Rossi said and I knew he was trying to comfort me but he was right after all.
I walked back to my desk and worked on things I had to catch up.
Meanwhile Rossi went to make coffee for himself and most of the team were there discussing Olivia.
“What was that about Rossi?” Morgan asked having seen the encounter between him and Olivia.
“She’s from an old case I got, she was only 15 at the time. And ever since then I would check in on her from time to time” Rossi explained and the whole team shared a look and Rossi started chuckling.
“Guys she’s not bad. Yes, she’s her to report anything strange to Strauss but she’s one hell of an agent and has worked very hard to be where she is now. Besides there is nothing she has to report, right?” Rossi asked but his eyes settled on Morgan with the question obviously knowing what had happened.
“Rossi don’t get me wrong, I just don’t think we need a snake amongst us, will she have our backs when it comes down to it?” Derek said out loud speaking for everyone.
“She’s not a snake Morgan, she’s just doing her job, as for her having our backs? I have no doubt” Rossi said and walked back to his office with his coffee.
The next two months went by quickly with case after case rolling in, it did get better with time although Morgan and Emily was still a bit cold towards me but the rest of the team made me feel comfortable enough to stay.
Currently the team were on a local case, and there were already 12 people dead. Someone was using a home cooked version of the flu, except this strain was the killing kind. It started like flu symptoms but quickly escalated to coughing up blood and then drowning in your own blood as your lungs gave in. There was no antibiotic to help yet, coming into contact with the substance seemed fatal.
The team had it narrowed down to someone who worked in the CDC but was either fired or lost a love one.
“Garcia what do you have?” Hotch asked as she phoned him back.
“Sir there are too many, I need to narrow it down more” she replied and you were all looking over the information you had.
“Try someone who recently lost a loved one due to negligence in the medical field” Spencer said and I heard Garcia typing and searching. “No nothing” she said and I looked over the board, the puzzles coming together. “Penelope, try someone who was diagnosed with a terminal illness and insurance wouldn’t cover the treatment” I said as I looked over the victims information. They all either worked in the hospital or as insurance brokers.
“Yes yes, I got a Mr Hendrickson, his daughter was 6 with leukaemia and insurance wouldn’t cover the next rounds of chemo, she died 4 months ago. He’s a single father as the wife died while giving birth, this poor man” Garcia said and you all nodded knowing it was him.
“I’m sending you his location now” Garcia responded and all of the phones went off with his location.
“We will check his home address, Spencer and Emily check his work” Hotch said and everyone rushed to file into the cars.
Emily and Spencer arrived at his work place which happened to be a coffee shop under construction, Emily said to Hotch that he was there and they were instructed to get people off of the streets right away.
The rest of the team arrived and quickly barricades were set up, soon Strauss arrived as well to over see the situation.
Emily, Spencer, get out of there we have the place surrounded and we are waiting for the CDC” Hotch said and I saw Emily walk with Spencer but then Spencer stopped and ran into the coffee shop. Emily ran after him but then stopped suddenly.
“Stop, stop. Theres another woman in here but he’s got the AC running, we’ve been exposed. Emily get back as I don’t know how far it can travel outside” Spencer said over the teams communication line. Hotch ordered Emily to come back although she was hesitant.
All other people that were around was taken to the hospital immediately to check for any symptoms.
“Spencer what do you see?” Rossi asked and you all listened as he walked around inside. “He’s here, but he’s dead, there is powder all over the floor. This was his working station. This whole place is a death trap, he knew we were coming” Spencer said and my heart was beating loudly for worry.
Over the past months Spencer was the one I got closest to. We both enjoyed reading and being nerds as well as being closer in age made it easier.
Strauss was on the phone with the director by the CDC and she looked grim.
“What is it?” Hotch asked as she put the phone down and sighed. “They have the sample he’s been using. They will try and get an antidote but the longer he’s in there the worse he’ll get and we can’t risk him coming out” Strauss said and everyone cursed by the news.
“Spencer what else is there?” I asked waiting for a response and heard him speak softly.
“I see a lot of liquids and tubes and the powder” he replied with a wheeze. Spencer didn’t have a lot of time left and you all knew it.
“Fuck it” I said as I stepped forward but Strauss grabbed my arm stopping me. “You are not going in there” she instructed and I glared at her.
“I’m not leaving him to die” I growled out and ripped my arm out of her grasp, she raised her shoulders “I will have your badge, I am not letting two agents die” she replied and I chuckled as I pulled my badge out along with my gun and slammed them down onto the table.
Everyone looked shocked at me for what I just did and Strauss was speechless as I turned and ran down the street and into the coffee shop.
I stepped over the woman’s body and walked to the back where Spencer was sitting down struggling to breathe.
His eyes were closed and light sweat had formed over his face.
“Shit…” I said as I walked to the back and opened all the cupboards looking for something to help. When I saw a black duffle bag, I walked over to it quickly and saw an oxygen tank with a mask along with tubes filled with green and blue liquid.
I ran over to Spencer and slipped the mask over his face and turned the oxygen on. “What are you doing?” he whispered out as he looked up at me.
“I'm not a person to leave anyone behind” I said and walked back to his table. I read over his folders but they were all a mess. The tubes had to mean something, green and blue. One was the disease and one was the cure. But which one was which.
In all my years working with chemistry, blue was usually the antidote and green was the disease, but this guy knew we were onto him.
He would make it so we thought we knew the antidote but we were clever and I knew he would set a second trap. And there were a lot more blue than green, he had to have kept the antidote in smaller quantity to have the impact he wanted.
“Green it is” I said and pulled two tubes out along with the needle and syringe. “Sorry about this Spencer” I said as I pushed the needle into his arm and injected the liquid into his blood stream.
“Okay I’ve given Spencer the green tube, I'm sure it’s the antidote. Can CDC set up a point to decontaminate us?” I asked and heard shouting on the line.
“What do you mean you are sure? We don’t know which one is which” Hotch said over the line and I groaned as I helped Spencer stand.
“There were only 4 tubes of the green, he knew we were coming inside the shop. Why have more antidote than the disease. I know what he was thinking” I groaned out as Spencer slumped more and he was heavy.
“We are coming out, have the CDC ready” I said as I opened the door before pocketing the last two tubes and walked out to see there was a tent set up. 3 workers ran over to us and helped us inside, they were dressed in full hazmat suits.
I pulled the two bottles out and then the blue one as well. “Get them tested to see which one is the cure” I said as I felt my chest becoming heavy. One of the men grabbed the tubes and dropped a few drops of each into a container and then smiled.
“Good guess agent, the green is the cure. We’ll just scrub you down and take the cure to the remaining victims in the hospital” he said and I nodded with a small smile.
Spencer was placed on more oxygen as well as me and as soon as we felt a bit better we were instructed to strip down so that our clothes could be burned.
“Thank you” Spencer said as we both were busy undressing, I looked over at him as he was busy undoing his shirt buttons. “I'm just glad you are okay, what’s a job compared to saving a friend” I said to him and watched as he stopped and looked back up at me.
“What do you mean your job?” he asked and I chuckled as I continued unbuttoning my shirt. “Strauss said she’ll have my badge if I go to you” I said as I turned my back to Spencer and heard him do the same as I was not able to look him in the eyes if I were to stand there naked. But when our fronts were sprayed, we were instructed to turn and had to face each other, I kept my eyes straight forward but I saw Spencer’s eyes slip down and then the quickly looked up at the roof with a deep red blush covering his cheeks. I smiled as he blushed and wanted to laugh at the situation.
Obviously the first time in almost a year I was naked with a guy had to be cause of work.
After being hosed down with freezing cold water both Spencer and I were handed robes to cover ourselves with.
We walked back to the team and as the team one by one hugged Spencer I saw Hotch speaking to Strauss and I knew it was him having to sign off on me.
“Don’t ever do that again” Rossi scolded me as he pulled me into a side hug. “Sorry Rossi, but you know I like to live every day as if it’s my last” I said and he chuckled at my words.
“Don’t I know it, you’re the reason I'm so grey” he grumbled and I laughed out loud at him “I thought that was due to wife number 3” I said with a smirk and felt a tap on my shoulder.
I turned to see Morgan standing there along with JJ and Emily, Spencer standing just behind them.
“That took some balls, I'm glad you have a big pair” Morgan said and extended his hand out towards me. I took it and smiled as I knew he was finally accepting me in the team.
“Thank you Morgan, it wasn’t much just a hunch” I said and he shook his head at me.
“Don’t down play it sweetness, you’ve got brains, muscle and balls. Sure you not a dude?” he asked laughing and it sent me into a fitful laugh as well.
“I'm pretty sure, you can even ask Spencer. He saw that I'm a woman” I said and Morgan arched his eyebrow at my words and turned to a blushing Spencer.
“Alright drinks tonight” Emily said and everyone agreed happily quickly. “Not for me, I’ll have to clean out my things” I mentioned and the team looked around at each other.
“Why?” Hotch asked and I looked curiously at him “You heard Strauss, she has my badge” I said and watched as he reached behind him and handed over my badge and gun.
“She might have pulled you from her operation but we have been looking for another team member and I think we found one, congratulations. You are one of us now fully, no Strauss anymore, directly anyway” Hotch said and I smiled as I took it back. Everyone cheered and JJ pulled me into a side hug.
I went home and took another shower to feel a bit better and saw I had some time to kill before tonight and decided to take a small nap. After waking up I stretched my aching muscles and raided my closet, I decided on a pair of jeans that hugged all my curves just right along with an off the shoulders white top.
Everyone met up at the bar around 8, drinks were flying around as well as stories being thrown around the table, everyone laughed and as the music got louder Emily and Morgan went to go dance.
“Just look at him” Garcia said and you followed her line of sight and it fell on Morgan. “Go dance with him” I said and she shook her head while drinking from her straw. “I can’t he’s just so hot and I'm not besides I have Kevin” she said and I shook my head at her. “Garcia you are hot, don’t body shame yourself” I said and she looked down at her outfit and then back to me. “Penelope, yes we aren’t as thin as those girls dancing around him but you know what matters? It’s owning your body and giving off confidence” I said and she smirked at me.
“Oh yeah big mouth, prove it” she said and my jaw dropped open at her words “Is that a dare?” I asked her with a laugh thinking she was joking. “Yes it is, show me what ya got” she said and I leaned over to grab a shooter from the table and quickly threw it back.
“Fine watch and learn” I said as I stepped onto the dance floor and started swaying my hips along with the music. Closing my eyes I felt the music in my pulse and went with it. I moved with the crowd and stared at Penelope as I moved closer to Derek and turned so my back was facing him as I moved my hips in tune with the music. I felt hands on my waist and looked down to see Morgans hands and grinned as I looked over to Garcia in which she raised her glass at me.
I giggled as the alcohol went straight to my head but I was enjoying my time out with the team, finally the tension was broken and I was one of them.
I moved a bit away from Derek and continued to dance with him but I felt a body press up against me and frowned as I looked over at the guy. “No thanks” I said and pushed his hands off of me but he grinned and pulled me into him. His breath stank of cheap cigarettes and beer. “Come on baby, I saw you grinding on him and his hands all over you, now it’s my turn” he said and I glared at him.
“Yeah so what, that doesn’t give you the right to touch me” I sneered at him and he smirked down at me. “So you’d rather have a black guys hands all over you than your own kind?” he growled at me and I felt Morgan step up behind me clearly hearing his words.
“Listen here, I would rather have every finger and body part of this fine man right here all over me than one single pinky of yours” I hissed at him and watched as he glared at us both. “Fat bitch” he threw my way and I felt Morgan step forward but grabbed his hand shaking my head.
“Don’t, he’s just jealous and obviously compensating” I said loud enough for him to hear and turned my attention back to Derek as we started dancing again.
I felt a bit uncomfortable after hearing those words I’ve heard so many times and clearly Derek noticed.
“Get him out of your head” he said to me over the music and I looked up at him “But he said the truth, I'm both fat and a bitch” I replied to him feeling my confidence slip away from one asshole’s words.
“Hey no don’t do that, where is the confident bitch I know, the one brave enough to sway her hips and have all eyes on you. Look around since you came up dancing with me all the other girls went away, why? Cause you are one fine ass mama” Derek said and I couldn’t help but laugh out loud at his words. I nodded my head and slipped into my own mind again with the music, Derek’s hands on my hips as we moved in sync.
He pulled me flush against his body and I felt his hand on my waist and turned to face him.
“Derek don’t take this up wrong, you are really hot but I'm not…” “stop right there” Derek said and I looked at him confused. “This isn’t for me sweetheart” he said and I was about to question him but he pulled my hips back against his own and swayed until we were turned the other way. “Open your eyes baby” he said and as I did my eyes met Spencer’s.
His eyes were glued to my swaying hips and I blushed as I saw the look of lust in his eyes before his eyes met mine and he quickly looked away.
“Derek Morgan you are pure evil” I said to him and felt his chest rumble with laughter. “Let’s go get more drinks” he said and I nodded as we walked back to the table.
“Holy shit Olivia, you did well on your dare. And when that second guy stepped up, I just mean wow” Garcia said and I felt my cheeks burn but opted to down my drink instead of replying.
“Alright guys that’s it for me” I said and heard them groan out clearly not happy.
“Hey I have something early in the morning and I gave you a good show, so hush” I said and grabbed my bag. “I’ll walk you out, I also have something tomorrow” Spencer said and I smiled gratefully before saying goodnight to the rest of the team.
Spencer and I shared a cab and as it pulled up to my apartment, he got out with me and said his was just two apartments away.
“Thank you again for today” Spencer said and I looked into his eyes seeing only pureness in them.
“Of course Reid, I wouldn’t let you down like that” I said and turned to walk up the few steps. “well, I guess I’ll see you when we have another case” I said to him and watched as he awkwardly waved at me and walked off to his own building.
I pushed my keys into the door and made sure to lock it behind me, heading straight for bed I took my shoes of and changed into pj’s. Sleep came easily and I was pulled into darkness fast.
Voices around you made you groan and scrunch your eyes as you had a very bad headache. “Miss, can you hear me? Can you open your eyes for me?” you heard a voice say and opened your eyes to see a paramedic leaning over you and you saw the blue and red lights flashing into the door way.
You tried to lean up but hissed at the pain in your shoulder. “easy, easy…” the paramedic said and helped you up. You looked to see police officers throwing a sheet over your dads body and you started crying as the paramedic led you outside to sit on the ambulance as he assessed your wounds.
You watched as sheriff Burke walked over to with another cop next to him.
“Y/N what happened here?” the sheriff asked you and you looked around to see cops everywhere.
“I came home, I went to get pizza and movies. I got home and saw my dads car, I walked into the kitchen and called my dad to say I’m back. I got no answer and as I walked to the living room I saw the broken glass and the lamp was thrown over, and as I walked into his room I saw my dad laying on the floor dead. I bent down to see if he was breathing and he wasn’t, so I went to call 911 but someone grabbed me from behind. I fought back but the killer cut my back with something, I tried to run but the grabbed me and slammed the knife into my shoulder” you explained while crying and breathing rapidly.
“mmmhhhh and what made the killer stop exactly” the sheriff asked as he was staring at you in disbelieve.
“I screamed, I screamed for the neighbor next door and then the killer ran out. I must have passed out after that” you lied and hissed as the paramedic put a bandage on your arm.
“is that all?” the sheriff asked and you nodded at him and you knew he wasn’t impressed by your statement, but half of it was true. No doubt he thought you did it.
“can we take her now?” the paramedic asked the sheriff and he nodded and asked his deputy to go with me.
Getting to the hospital was a rush, and you were rushed into the ER to get stitches on your shoulder and your back cleaned and bandaged as it wasn’t too deep.
“So deputy, what now?” you asked and he looked up at you as you were sitting up in your hospital bed.
“Call me Dewey, well is there anyone else I can call? Your mom or family?” he asked and you shook your head. He nodded, clearly understanding your situation.
“well rest up kiddo, I’ll check on you later. And I promise we will catch the killer” Dewey said and walked out. Finally you were alone with your own thoughts. You curled up into a ball and started crying. You dad was finally out of your life, for good….and then your mind went to the killer…it smelled just like Billy…but why would Billy hurt you. It made your heart ache more thinking of Billy trying to hurt you than your dad being dead.
“Hey can I come in?” you heard a voice from behind you, and you turned to see Stu standing in the door way. You nodded and wiped your tears as you sat up.
“Y/N, what happened? We drove past your house and saw the cops and a body being carried out. The cops asked us questions but we weren’t there, we were grabbing movies at the video store” Stu said and frowned at him. “yeah, me and Billy” Stu said and you looked to the door way to see no one and Stu noticed. “he wasn’t sure if you wanted a lot of people in here” Stu said and you nodded.
“I don’t know, I came home after getting pizza and movies, I saw my dad was home and went to the kitchen, I called out to my dad to come eat but he didn’t answer , so I walked to his room and I saw his body, he wasn’t moving so I went to call the cops” you told Stu and as he was looking at you , you saw him scrunch his eyes when you said your dad wasn’t moving so you forced tears out and then carried on “the killer grabbed me and we tumbled around, and then I called out for Billy, I screamed for him and the killer ran out” you finished and Stu grabbed your hand.
“oh princess, I'm just glad you are okay, luckily the killer didn’t know that Billy wasn’t home and he ran off” Stu said and you nodded while forcing more tears out to make it look real. “can I send Billy in? He feels really bad” Stu said and you nodded at Stu and leaned in to give him a hug.
You watched as Stu left and Billy stood in the door way. “it’s okay you can come in” you said and Billy walked in slowly and sat by your feet. “You want me to tell you?” you asked and Billy grabbed your leg stroking it. “No, I uh heard what you told Stu.” Billy said as he stared at you, looking to your shoulder and then back to your face.
“sorry, I uh sorry I wasn’t home when you called out for me” Billy said but you looked at him and when he said the word sorry his eyes darted to your shoulder.
“it’s okay, not like you knew someone was going to try and kill me” you said and his hand tightened around your leg. “maybe the killer was there for something else, maybe you got home at the wrong time” he said and you stared at Billy….that's exactly what the killer said.
“yeah maybe….” You said and looked at Billy’s face it looked like there was a small bump on his cheek, exactly where your head would have hit the killer. You were sure it was him but Stu said they were at the video store so you must have hit your head much harder than you thought.
“Why don’t you get some rest and then I will be back tomorrow” Billy said and you nodded at him not feeling in the mood to talk. Billy leaned over to you and you forced yourself to not recoil as he gave you a hug. You breathed in and you smelt it again….
You gripped his shirt at the back as you realized the killer was Billy, there was no denying it. He squeezed you and then pulled back and gave you a small kiss at the corner of your lips. You didn’t pull away as you just kept staring at him.
“I’ll see you tomorrow Billy” you whispered and saw the look of disappointment on Billy’s face. He glared down to the floor and then stormed out, Stu made a salute to his head and you smiled at him as they walked away.
You scooted down and started playing with your nails as you kept thinking about Billy, not sure what to do. He saved you from your father and you were grateful, but why hurt you. Was he just so psycho killing whoever is in his way?
The next morning the doctors gave you an all clear to head home, with instructions how to clean your wounds. You thanked them and made your way out the doors, ready to call a cab when you saw Billy leaning against the wall smoking.
You stood frozen and you were about to turn and go back inside when Billy called out your name.
You turned to him and gave him a small smile as he walked over to you. He grabbed the packet in your hands and took your hand as he led you to his car. Opening the passenger side for you, you climbed in and flinched when your back touched the car seat. “Shit, you okay?” he asked and you nodded at him and gave a small smile.
You watched as he walked to his side of the car and pulled out of the parking lot and headed home.
“Why haven’t you said a word to me?” he asked and you looked over to him. Feeling guilty you sighed and looked down at your hands.
“Sorry, it’s just been hard to process everything, my brain still kinda feels foggy” you explained and watched as he clenched his jaw and carried on driving in silence.
He stopped in front of your house and you looked at him, questioning him why he wasn’t parking in front of his house.
“Just for pretend so it looks like someone else is home, so they don’t come back for you” he said and you frowned further at him. “They? I never said there was more than one killer Billy” you said accusingly and Billy held his hands up.
“Whoa whoa whoa, I meant they as in he or she…we don’t know if it’s a guy or chick…it was just a normal phrase” Billy explained and you guess that did make sense must you still believed 90% that it was Billy.
“Yeah I guess you are right” you said and got out of the car, you walked up the steps and opened the door. Everything was just as it was. You sighed and walked to the kitchen to grab a broom to clean up the broken glass.
“Here let me” Billy said and you went to protest but one glare from him made you shut up and give him the broom. You watched as he quickly swept up the glass and you sat down on the couch, staring at the floor. So what now….your dad was gone. You were finally free, last year of school but you didn’t know how to go on. It all still felt very surreal to you.
“Can I get you something” Billy’s voice behind you made you jump and you saw he looked bad for scaring you. “No I’m fine thanks” you replied and he looked you up and down as you just stood in the middle of the living room.
“come on you need to drink meds, eat something” Billy said and offered his hand to you. You looked up at him and then took his hand and followed him to the kitchen. The pizza from the night before was in the fridge and Billy took the box out and you each grabbed a piece.
“So what did the doctor say?” Billy asked and you shrugged your shoulders, “He just said I need to keep my wounds clean and drink my antibiotics to make sure I don’t get an infection” I explained and Billy hummed as he was busy chewing.
“Are you okay?” Billy asked and the question actually took you by surprise. “I don’t know to be honest, like don’t get me wrong, I don’t feel bad at all about my dad…I mean good riddance, but what did I do wrong for someone to try and kill me?” I replied back to him and waited for him to judge you but it never came.
Billy grabbed your hand and stroked his thumb over your hand stepping closer to you “Hey, you didn’t do anything wrong. I’m sure it was a mistake” he said and wiped a stray tear that ran down your cheek. “Hey, look at me…” he whispered and you lifted your eyes to meet his own.
“Am I not being punished cause I don’t feel guilty about my dad?” you asked honestly and Billy chuckled while shaking his head. “No, he got what he deserved, and you wont get hurt again. I will make sure of that” Billy said and you gave him a small grateful smile.
“Thank you Billy, I never imaged we would be standing in my kitchen eating pizza together” you said sheepishly and blushed as Billy stared at you waiting for an explanation.
“I mean you are from the cool group, I never imagined us being friends” you said while laughing but Billy was all serious. “Don’t always sell yourself short, you might not see it but people notice you, some in the wrong ways” Billy said and you smiled at him. “Thanks Billy” you said and hugged him, right now he was the only one you had to talk to.
You pulled away from the hug first but Billy was reluctant to let go but as you pulled away he cupped your cheek with his hand and leaned in, before you could protest his lips were on your own. You stayed frozen but after a few seconds you felt his lips move slightly and you gave into the kiss. You pushed your lips back onto his own as his hand slipped into your hair at the back of your neck, pulling you deeper into the kiss.
He nipped at your bottom lip and you hesitated but opened your mouth to meet his tongue with your own. You couldn’t describe it but he tasted like cigarettes and mint gum. Something you knew you would get addicted to.
Pulling away from the kiss you bit your lip and looked at Billy, his eyes were nearly black with lust and he stepped to you again but you stepped back.
“Billy, what are we doing? We cant do this, you’re with sid” you trailed off and Billy shook his head.
“Y/N I told you I'm done with her, I’m just waiting for the right time” Billy said and you stared at him “Billy even if you are done with her, it doesn’t help you cheat on her” you explained and you could see he was busy getting angry.
“It’s not cheating if I know I'm done with her. I don’t want her, I want you” Billy said and your eyes widened at him. “No no, you are not leaving her for me” you said and stepped back but Billy just matched each step you took.
“I’m not, things with us haven’t been the same for a very long time….i have completely no feelings for her” Billy said and you nodded at him.
“As long as it’s not because of me, but I think we stay friends until then” you said and Billy looked like you just pulled his heart out of his chest and stomped all over it.
“No, I can’t. please, I trust you with my life and that kiss, after that I wont be able to. You are my weakness” Billy said and whispered out the last part. You nearly missed it but you still caught his words.
“Just slow okay….I don’t want either one of us to feel guilty” you said to him ad he nodded at you and laid a small kiss on your lips. If you were honest with yourself you didn’t know how you were going to resist Billy or say no as you knew you were already headover heels for him, even if he killed your dad. To you he was a knight saving you from the monster in your life.
Billy had to head home before his dad got there so it left you all alone in the house. You first walked up the stairs and closed your dad’s office door. You didn’t want to see it as you walked by, but decided to leave it as is in case the cops wanted to look around again.
Evening soon came and you decided to have a shower, just to feel clean and get everything off of you.
You stripped down and stepped into the hot shower, letting the water run over you and release tension in your tight muscles. You probably stood under the water for a good 30 minutes and then scrubbed yourself. Releasing a sigh you turned the water off and stepped out. Wrapping yourself in a towel. You towel dried your hair and then brushed through it.
Picking out the pj’s you were going to wear you put them on your bed and then grabbed your favorite lotion bottle and started put it on, when your door creaking startled you.
As you looked to your door your heart started racing as the same ghost face person stepped into view.
You joined the team not too long ago and already they were like a family to you. A family you never had so when Spencer started acting weird and not himself you knew something was up. But what bothered you was that no one else on the team seemed to notice that he needed help.
You know what he went through with the Tobias case and you saw after that he wasn’t the same.
You had your suspicions about drug addiction and it was proven right as you were searching for a pen in Spencer’s bag and saw three bottles of dilaudid.
“Oh Spencer…” you whispered to yourself in sadness. You closed his bag quickly and returned to your pile of paper work that you had before your two week vacation started. But you had already made up your mind to not go on vacation and instead help your friend in need.
“Alright every one, do not call me for anything” Hotch called out as he was heading out and the few of you that were left called out your goodbyes. Your paper work was finished and you looked over at Spencer, dark circles under his eyes and he seemed exhausted.
“Hey Spence can I come by your place later and raid your book shelve for a few good reads?” you asked and watched as he nodded and shut his last file.
“Sure I’ll be by my apartment” he called out and picked his bag up and said goodbye.
You nodded to yourself and switched you desk lamp off and made your way to your own apartment where you packed a bag of clothes and things you would need over the next few days.
Driving to Spencer’s apartment you locked your car and made your way up to his door and knocked, waiting for him to open the door. He didn’t reply so you tried the door and found it wasn’t locked, so you slipped inside and locked the door behind you.
“Oh hey sorry I was just busy quickly” Spencer said and you saw him look flushed and realized what he had just done.
“You off to somewhere?” Spencer asked noticing your duffle bag on the floor and you looked down to it and then back up to him.
“Yeah I’m staying here for a week or so” you said and watched as Spencer gulped and then frown at you in confusion.
“Why are you staying here?” he asked and you rubbed your clammy hand on your jeans in nervousness as you didn’t know how he would react with you telling him you knew about his secrete.
“I’m here to help you, Spencer. I know what you’ve been going through and I want to help you through it” you explained and he looked a bit annoyed but then masked his face.
“I don’t know what you are talking about” he replied and you arched your eyebrow at him. You walked over to his kitchen counter where his bag was laying, you opened it and pulled the three bottles from his bag.
“Want to try again Spence? I know about it and I'm here to help you get clean, it’s nothing to be ashamed of. I know what you went through and it’s okay” you said and you saw his shoulders slump and tears well up in his eyes.
“I’m sorry…” he whispered out and you shook your head and stepped towards him, wrapping your arms around him in a hug you squeezed him tightly.
“You have nothing to be sorry for, I'm here to help. So is there any other bottles around?” you asked and watched as he wavered but then nodded and walked to his bedroom. You followed him and saw him pull his sock drawer open and slipped two bottles out and handed them over to you.
You gave him a small smile and gathered up the bottles and packed them away where he couldn’t find them.
The first two days went by easily and both of you got into a routine with either reading or watching some tv or playing a board game together.
On the third day you ordered pizza and both of you were sitting on the couch watching a movie when you noticed that Spencer did not sit still. Either his leg was bouncing or he was scratching at his neck or knee.
“It’s okay usually around the second day the restlessness kicks in” you said out loud and looked at him. “Don’t tell me about statistics, I know them” he snarked out and you kept quiet as you knew irritability came with it as well. But you could handle it, whatever he threw your way you would handle because it would help him in the long run.
You were fast asleep on the couch a few hours later when a shuffle and a bang woke you up. Standing up and making your way to Spencer’s room you walked in and saw him hunched over the toilet, vomiting up all the diner he had. You walked to the sink and wet a washcloth and walked over to him and wiped the sweat off of his forehead.
You rinsed it out and watched as he brushed his teeth and walked back to bed, where you followed him and wiped the beads of sweat off of his face.
“Stop it, I'm not a baby” Spencer spat out and you stood up looking down at him. “I know your not a baby I’m just trying to help you feel better” you said and Spencer stood up to walk to the kitchen, he grabbed a glass of water and you walked back to the couch and sat down.
“You can go, I feel fine now” Spencer said and you shook your head at him, because you knew the moment you left, he would go looking for some dilaudid to shoot up.
“No I’m not leaving until I think you are okay” you said back and saw anger flash over Spencer’s eyes.
“I don’t need you here to boss me around and look after me” he shouted at you and you stood up with anger rising in yourself as well. “I am not bossing you around, I am helping you get clean” you hissed back at him and saw him march over to your bag and empty everything onto the floor, obviously looking for the bottles.
You walked over to the table and grabbed the bottles that were hidden in one of the pasta boxes.
“This what you looking for?” you called out and saw relief flash in his face as you saw him look over the bottles.
“Your not getting them Spence, come on we are already almost half way” you said and he scoffed at you and his nostrils flared which usually happened when he was angry.
“Give them back” he said and you shook your head and walked over to the sink where you smashed one by one of the bottles.
“No!” Spencer called out as you were about to smash the last one and he gripped your arm making the bottle crash to the floor and break.
“What did you do?” he yelled out and you saw the pain in his eyes. “I am helping you, you don’t need those” you said and pushed his hair out of his face but he stepped back and the anger was back.
“Just leave me alone” he shouted and you stood your ground. You weren’t going to let him use again and become worse. You had known him for a few months and you already knew he was one of your closest friends and seeing him like this killed a part of you, to know you were the cause of him in pain.
Spencer stormed back to his room but before he got there, he turned back and glared at you.
“What is it? You have nowhere else to be? No one else to bother with your presence?” he called out and you felt the anger in yourself bubble over.
“No Spencer I can be anywhere I want to right now but instead I'm here with you, helping you when no one else is helping you to see the right way out!” you shouted back and walked over to him.
“You are upset that no one else tried to help you, but the new comer cares enough to try and help you and now you are fighting back against it because you know I'm right. A few more days and the urge will stop, the vomiting will stop and you will be the old you. Spencer I'm here because I care for you and I can’t see you suffer anymore” you explained to him and realized in that moment that you might actually love him.
“You’re pathetic, nowhere else to be and no one else to be with. That’s why you are here, cause there is no one else out there that wants to spend time with you” Spencer hissed out at you in return with malice lasing his voice. He’s never been like this with you before.
“I know that’s the drugs talking Spencer, not you, not the real you I know. The real Spencer would never talk to me like that” you said back to him and he stepped forward.
“Maybe now I can just talk the truth, you are pathetic” he sneered at you and turned to his bedroom, slamming the door in your face.
You stood there for a while in shock and realized that tears were running down your face. You wiped our cheeks and walked back to the kitchen to clean up the mess. You walked over to the broom and hissed in pain as you stepped into a piece of glass that you didn’t notice but you didn’t care as you pulled it out of your foot and then proceeded to sweep up the rest of the glass and as well picked the glass out of the sink to dispose of.
You sighed as you wiped the last remaining tears off of your face. When the kitchen was clean you wiped up the blood that was on the floor from your foot and walked to the couch to see the wound on your foot.
It wasn’t too deep so you cleaned it and then proceeded to put a bandage on it. You packed everything back into your bag and looked over to Spencer’s closed door. You sighed and picked up your bag and left. As you got into your car you felt the tears return but didn’t wipe them away as you made your way back to your apartment.
You settled back in and made sure to keep busy over the next few days, trying not to let Spencer invade your mind and what he was up to and if it was all for nothing.
Two days before you had to be back at work you decided to go grab dinner and as you returned back home you were on alert as you saw your door slightly ajar. Stepping in slowly you looked around but saw nothing out of place until you rounded the corner and came face to face with a sleeping Spencer on your couch.
“Shit” you whispered and put your bag down and knelt next to him. His eyes fluttered open and he sat up and rubbed his eyes.
“Sorry I came by and decided to wait for you” he said and you nodded looking over him to see any signs that he used again.
“I didn’t” he said and your eyes snapped up to his own and you gave a short nod and stood up but he grabbed your hand before you could step away.
“Thank you for everything, and I am sorry about what I said” he said softly and you knew he felt guilty about the things he said to you.
“It’s okay, are you feeling better?” you asked him and he nodded but it seemed like something else was on his mind.
“I have really bad nightmares, and I don’t want to be alone” Spencer said and you looked at him, he looked better but there were still dark circles under his eyes. He looked tired and looked like he needed a good nights rest.
“I know what helps with nightmares” you said and saw Spencer look up at you curiously and you smiled softly as you pulled him to your own bedroom. Both of you laid down on the bed after kicking your shoes off and you pulled Spencer closer to you and felt him ease up and relax.
He pulled you into his side for comfort and soon after you heard his soft snores as he was lulled to sleep. Your eyes raked over him and a small smile graced your face as you saw him smile in his sleep. You turned the light off and fell into a peaceful sleep yourself with Spencer by your side.
When your alarm went off you stretched over and dismissed it and looked over for Spencer but he was nowhere to be seen.
You heard a crash in your kitchen and as you walked out curiously, you saw him making coffee and laughed at the ridiculous amount of sugar he put in his own cup.
“How did you sleep?” you asked and Spencer smiled sheepishly. “Very good thanks, I can’t remember the last time I slept straight through the night” he offered in response and you were happy to hear that.
“Y/N I really am sorry about everything” Spencer said to you and you accepted his apology as you knew he wouldn’t have said it if it wasn’t for the drugs.
Spencer reached over the counter and squeezed your hand in thanks.
“Do you mind if I stay tonight?” he asked hopefully and you knew he needed you for a good night’s rest.
“Of course you can stay Spence” you said to him and watched as he walked around the corner and came over to give you a hug.
“I care for you as well by the way” Spencer whispered and you felt the butterflies in your stomach, maybe it wasn’t all for nothing.
Summary: Y/N meets Spencer and you two see each other for a few months without discussing what either of you do for work and when it comes out both of you are shocked.
You were sat across from spencer at a coffee shop in Las Vegas as it happens to be where both of you were at that time. You had met him a few months back and thinking about that moment made you smile.
Flashback:
You were enjoying one of your morning runs as that’s how you liked to start your day, it felt like after a run your head was clear and the day flowed more smoothly.
“On your left” you called out going to run past a man in front of you but instead of running past him he turned around and before you could stop you ran straight into him. Spilling his coffee all over him and yourself.
“Shit that’s hot” you said as you pulled our shirt away from your skin where the coffee was burning.
“I’m so sorry, I didn’t think clearly” the voice said and you were about to cuss them out but when you looked up and you saw the tall nerdy looking guy you couldn’t yell at him because of the look in his eyes.
“It’s okay it happens” you said and watched as he fumbled to get his bag off of his shoulder and he looked around to set it down.
“Here let me” you said and grabbed his brown shoulder bag from him. He smiled in gratitude as he walked to throw the coffee cup away and tried to dry the wet coffee with the napkin, rubbing at his shirt.
“I guess you need a new coffee?” you asked and he looked sad that he had to go get a new one and you felt bad as he looked like a kicked puppy.
“Yeah I guess I'll have to go back a few blocks and get another” he replied and you finally looked over him.
Brown hair, slightly curly. Glasses on his face with a sweater unbuttoned over a dress shirt and slacks along with converse on his feet. Computer nerd for sure you thought to yourself.
“Well there is actually a little coffee shop up ahead if you would let me show you?” you said and he watched as he thought it over and then nodded.
“I didn’t know there was one up ahead, usually I know all of them” he said and you hummed as you knew it was a small local one, hidden behind a small shop.
“Yeah it’s a local small one but it doesn’t get that busy so no lines and it's nice and quiet” you said and led the way. The both of you walked in silence and it wasn’t uncomfortable, it felt easy and calm which you had to admit was nice.
Walking into the shop you smiled at the owner and put your order in and waited for the new acquaintance to order his own.
“Sorry I'm Y/N, sometimes I forget manners” you said and stuck your hand out for him to shake but he looked down at it and seemed to waver.
“Spencer and sorry I don’t shake hands it’s a germ thing” he said and you quirked your eyebrow at him, definitely computer nerd.
You accepted his explanation nonetheless and grabbed your coffee as he grabbed his own, you both headed outside and said your farewells as he was late for work.
A few days later you went to the coffee shop around lunch time, hungry after your workout and was surprised to see Spencer there. “Don’t go telling people about this place, I like not standing in a line” you joked and saw him smile as he realized it was you.
“I won't tell a soul” he said and you smiled. You walked over to the counter to order a coffee and a sandwich and looked over to Spencer.
He was sitting alone at his table reading a book, you laughed softly and rolled your eyes. “Do you mind if I sit?” you asked and spencer looked up and nodded putting his book down.
“No you don’t have to put your book down” you said and Spencer blushed “I’ve read it a few times already so it’s fine” he replied and you nodded and noticed his glasses were missing today.
“No glasses today?” you asked and took a sip of your coffee. “No I got contact lenses, glasses sometimes are a struggle with work” he said and you wondered how glasses could be a hassle for a computer nerd.
“So how many times do you read one book Spencer?” you asked curiously and watched the faint blush cover his cheeks again. “It depends if I like it, I do read it about once a week” he said and you smiled imagining his home was filled with books.
Just then his phone rang and he said he had to urgently go to work. You looked down and felt the courage hit you. “Can I give you my number and we meet up sometime?” you asked and saw Spencer fumble for words.
“It’s okay if you don’t want to Spencer” you said to give him an out but he sighed “I travel a lot for work, so I don’t want to make a date and then not show up” he said sheepishly and you understood.
“Hey I travel a lot for work as well, so I get it” you said back to him and grabbed your napkin and wrote your number down.
“Here, for whenever you are back in town” you said and handed him the napkin with your number on it. He smiled and said he will definitely make plans and rushed off.
You sat back and started eating lunch when you noticed Spencer had forgotten his book on the table, reaching over you looked at the worn cover and decided to see what the book was about.
It was a very interesting book about human behaviour and you couldn’t put it down. Lunch was finished and you were on your second coffee when your phoned dinged and saw an unknown number.
‘Hi Y/N, it’s Spencer. I forgot my book there, any chance you can just hold on to it for me?’ the text read and you replied that you already grabbed it and would give it to him when you saw him again.
That’s how the next few months went by, you and Spencer would text each other and meet up from time to time. You learned that he was in fact a genius and loved to read as well as being addicted to coffee. Both of you never really spoke about work besides the traveling but neither one of you seemed to want to talk about what the other did and you were fine with it.
Usually the moment a guy found out what you did for a living they would either be put off and never contact you again or would try to be over masculine and make a fool of themselves, putting you off.
But with Spencer it felt easy not to talk about it as there were lots of different topics covered.
The two of you became close friends and would either meet up for coffee or go get dinner. Over the few months you could feel something inside of you grow for Spencer but you didn’t know how to approach it as he still had no clue what you did for a living and you were sure if you mentioned it he would be running for the hills.
You planned a whole speech to explain to Spencer that why you traveled so much and sometimes couldn’t see him was because you were actually a professional cage fighter. Often you had bruises that you couldn’t explain and didn’t want him seeing you bruised up and thinking the wrong thing, which is why you decided to tell him in person while you were in Las Vegas for a fight which you had won the previous night but you had a nasty cut on your cheek which was stitched up.
You waited for Spencer to arrive at the restaurant and you picked a table on the outside to get a fresh breeze in the hot humid night.
“Sorry I’m late, things were a bit hectic” Spencer said as he sat down and you smiled fondly as he tried to straighten his shirt and then his hair.
“Oh Y/N what happened?” Spencer asked worriedly as he noticed your cheek and you looked down in embarrassment. “I can explain Spence” you said and he grabbed your hand quickly and it made your heartbeat speed up.
“Is it your boyfriend? Please I can help you, I promise we can deal with him and get you away” Spencer said and you frowned at the ‘we’. “No it’s nothing like that Spence” you said and took a breath to explain to him what you did for a living but was stopped as a man with a teenage boy approached you.
“Wild force? Sorry but my son wanted to ask if he can have a photo with you?” the man said and you internally cursed. Putting on a smile you nodded and posed for a photo with the boy and then with the dad as well and grimaced as he put his arm around your waist, holding a bit too close to your breast.
“Thank you, we are such big fans and we were rooting for you the whole night” the dad said and you thanked them and waved them off.
“Spencer I can explain” you said and looked over at Spencer to see him completely confused. “Yes that would be helpful” he said and you sighed ready to lose the one friend that you were developing feelings for.
“Okay so the truth is…” “Spencer?” a voice interrupted you and you groaned at another interruption but looked to see a blonde girl in a colorful attire next to a fit looking man walking over and realized they had called Spencer’s name and not yours.
“Hey we tried phoning you to see if you wanted to join us for drinks” the man said and you smiled sheepishly at the woman.
“Derek, he’s on a date” she said and jabbed the man in the ribs with her elbow. And then the man looked over at you and you saw the moment that he realized who you were.
“Spencer my man, is this the woman you have been talking about? I don’t believe it, wild force in the flesh” he said and you blushed as Spencer looked at you waiting for an explanation.
“I’m Derek and this is Penelope, now please I need to know how your fight went last night as we were busy with a case and I lost my tickets due to timing” he said and you smiled softly.
“I won, not without a few hits but I won” you said and Morgan cheered as he threw his hand in the air.
“Wait what fight?” Spencer asked and you breathed out a big sigh as the way you wanted to tell him was clearly ruined.
“Pretty boy I'm talking about the big fight last night I was planning on seeing with Emily last night but the unsub took longer to catch” Derek said and it was your turn to look confused.
Unsub? Case? You’ve read about these words in a few books from spencer’s home. That was FBI terminology.
“Wait are you FBI?”
“Are you a MMA fighter?”
Both you and Spencer asked at the same time and then it was deathly quiet. “Shit you guys don’t know what the other does for work?” Morgan asked and Penelope hissed something to him and he looked embarrassed.
“Sorry pretty boy, we will catch up later. Good to meet you” Derek said and the two of them walked off leaving you and Spencer alone.
“So FBI?” you said trying to break the silence and see if spencer would want noting to do with you now.
“Yeah I’m with the BAU, but I think I need some clearance as to how Morgan knows about what you do and I don’t” he said and you nodded and fidgeted with your hands.
“I’m sorry Spencer, I usually don’t tell guys I’m seeing for a while because they are either intimidated or can’t believe in what I do cause it’s not something for a woman to do. But I would understand if you don’t want to see me again” I explained and waited for him to get up and leave but was very surprised when he grabbed my hand and gave it a squeeze.
“I’m not going to run away, it’s a shock yes but it doesn’t change the way I feel about you. I’ve gotten to know you and I know you…not wild force. Even though I wouldn’t mind getting to know her as well” Spencer said and you looked up to lock your own eyes onto his.
“Spencer I don’t know what to say, I was planning on telling you tonight because I don’t want secretes between us but it didn’t really go the way I planned” you said and laughed at the end.
“Hey I didn’t tell you about be being in the BAU, just means we have more to learn” he said and you smiled at him and gave his hand a squeeze. Thankful that he understood and realizing you were silly to not have told him sooner. Spencer was always kind and understanding.
“So wild force? I have to know how you got that name” Spencer said and you laughed out loud thinking of the story of how you got it.
“Soon I’ll tell you, but first can we call this an official date and not a meet up of friends?” you asked and were relieved as Spencer smiled at you and laced his fingers through your own.
“Only if I get to kiss you at the end of the date” Spencer said and you felt yourself blushing.
“Deal” you replied and went on to tell him the funny story about your ring name.
You moaning got his attention and his head snapped to you. “Hey, hey its okay look at me” you heard a voice say near you and you grabbed your head as it was pounding. You opened your eyes to see you were in your own room and right then you felt so nauseous that you sprang up but your legs crumbled and you fell to the floor.
“Hey take it easy” you heard the voice again and scramble away, unable to clearly focus your eyes not knowing who was there.
“Stay back…” you ground out and grabbed your throat at how dry it was , you saw movement and flinched as a hand was on your shoulder and a glass was pressed to your lips. Finally taking a gulp and tasting water you gulped down the whole glass and blinked your eyes as they came into focus and you saw Billy in front of you.
“Come let’s get you up” Billy said and helped you stand and walk back to your bed.
“What happened?” you rasped out and Billy shook his head sitting next to you.
“I was hoping you could tell me, I was on my way home when I found you laying outside half naked, I brought you inside and put a shirt on you. I tried to wake you up but nothing worked” Billy explained and you shook your head in confusion.
“I went out to a party last night, I had one beer and then after that everything is just a blur” you said trying to remember what happened….
You remembered fighting with Steve over something and then walking back inside but that was about all of it. Everything else was a blur.
“Y/N… something happened” Billy said with anger in his voice and you looked at him not understanding what he meant , only for him to pull down your shirt and you looked down seeing all the bruises that mimicked hickeys.
You didn’t get a chance to say anything before Billy jumped up and started pacing “How could you be so stupid, you don’t get into car with strangers and just go to a party. What the fuck were you thinking” Billy yelled out as he kept pacing and turned to glare at you.
“Hey you can’t yell at me like that, you’re not my fucking dad! I can go where I want…” I hissed out at him while glaring at him.
“Oh yeah well look what fucking happened!” Billy growled out at you and you were confused at why he was so upset. It wasn’t him that it happened to.
“ I didn’t ask for this!” you screamed at him and then went quiet, “I didn’t ask for this” you whispered as tears started falling down your cheeks and you saw billy stopped pacing.
By the time Billy crouched in front of you, you were shaking with sobs.
“Hey, look at me….i said look at me” Billy said as you lifted your eyes to meet his and saw him look at you with worry in his eyes.
“Can you feel if anything else happened?” he asked with concern in his voice and you immediately knew what he was implying.
You ran to the bathroom as bile raised in your throat and you emptied your stomach into the toilet. You felt Billy behind you and heard him fill the glass with water.
You flushed the toilet and sat against the wall taking the glass from him with a small thank you and sipped the water.
“It doesn’t feel like it, I’m, I’m going to shower” you said and watched as billy nodded and hesitated but then walked out and closed the door behind him.
You sat there for a while before standing up and stripping your clothes looking into the mirror, there were about 4 hickeys on your chest and neck but as you stripped down further you felt a relief knowing nothing else happened.
After your shower you walked with a towel out and jumped when Billy was still sitting on your bed.
“Nothing else” you said as you walked to your dresser and grabbed pj’s. You turned around and smacked straight into Billy’s chest.
His hand grabbed you by the jaw and he was searching your eyes with his own “Are you sure, you not lying to me” he said and you shook your head. Billy studied your face and his thumb ran over your healing lip and you licked your lip unconsciously. You stared up at Billy and froze as he leaned down slightly and you felt his lips kiss the side of your lip over the bruise. He pulled back and you stared into his eyes as you leaned up and connected your lips fully onto his. There was slight pressure to the kiss and just when you wanted to pull back you felt Billy’s hand around your neck and pulled you back for a deeper kiss.
You moaned into the kiss and the gasped as he lightly bit on your lip and then your eyes shot open, stumbling back from him.
“fuck….fuck…I’m sorry. Shit I shouldn’t have done that, you’re with Sidney….” You mumbled off and watched as Billy just stared at you and stepped forward into your space again.
You put your hand on his chest to stop him “Billy, didn’t you just hear me….you are dating Sidney “ you said and walked around him to your bed.
“Were done” he said and you nodded turning to him, “yes, were done. This can’t happen again” you said and saw him walk over to you lifting your chin. “Sidney and me, were done….well soon” he said and you shook your head. “No, no I am not going to be the reason….” You carried on but was stopped when Billy kissed you again.
“It’s not you…trust me” he said and you were gonna ask for an explanation but couldn’t as he walked out of your room and then you heard the front door close.
“What the fuck?” you asked yourself as you touched your own lips and vowed to stay away from Billy. You weren’t a slut like your dad called you and you didn’t want to break anyone up.
Sunday passed with a blur as you mainly stayed in your room, trying to get over the fact of what happened to you, and what nearly could have happened.
Your dad was back as well and you wanted to avoid him as much as possible at least till the bruises were gone. Cause you knew he wouldn’t understand and blame you for it either way.
Monday morning came and you dressed in long jeans and a turtle neck to hide the bruises from anyone at school, although you were dreading going because you knew eventually you would walk into Steve or one of the other jocks that were there.
Arriving at school you saw Billy standing with his usual group and quickly looked away as you made your way inside. As soon as you stepped inside everything felt off, girls were staring at you in disgust and some guys were pointing.
Just trying to push it down and ignore them you bit you lip and made your way to your locker but when you looked up and saw all of the lockers you stopped in your tracks.
All over the lockers and wall were printed pictures of you laying on a bed stripped of all clothing but your underwear. On some of the pictures were written ‘attention seeking whore’ as there were close ups of your new cut mark and all the older ones. Everyone knew it was you as your face was clearly there and with your eyes closed it didn’t look like you were sleeping, it looked like something completely different.
You felt your throat close up and tears brim your eyes as you turned around and ran out of school, hearing other students laughing and names being thrown your way. As you ran down the steps you slammed into the principle by accident as the tears in your eyes blurring your vision. “Young lady that is no way to behave” he said as he gripped your arm as you tried to walk past him.
“Let me go…” you said and his hand just gripped harder. “In my office now” he said and you shook your head pleading for him not to but he dragged you back inside, before the doors shut you looked back and saw Billy and Stu staring at you and then the group following.
You and the principle rounded the corner where all the pictures were and he stared in disbelieve and then shook his head at you in disappointment. “My office…” he said to you. “Everyone else get this off the walls” he shouted and turned to follow you.
As you walked back to his office you passed Billy and the group being stopped by Sidney “Hey, are you okay? What’s happening?” she asked and you just felt the principle pull you ahead and as you looked back you saw the group stop. Obviously seeing all the pictures.
Billy looked back at you and you could have sworn his eyes were on fire with how much anger was in them.
“Stay here, I’m phoning your father” the principle said and you gasped shaking your head.
“Please, please don’t. please don’t call him” you begged him but he was already dialling and your heart sank as he told your father to come down to the school.
As your father arrived you were asked to wait outside as one of the other teachers handed him a file, most probably with all the photos of you.
You heard shouting coming from inside and closed your eyes, as the door opened your dad looked down at you in disgust. “Let’s go home now….” He growled out and as you walked down the hall you passed the group again and you saw pity in the girls eyes and the guys just looking down. Billy didn’t even look at you as your dad dragged you behind him, a firm grip on your arm.
The car ride was completely silent and you were dreading what was to come. As you walked into the house your father stopped you from walking away “I want you in your room until I know what to do with you” he said and you looked at him.
“Dad it’s not what it looks like, I was given something and I don’t know how….” “SHUT UP!!!” your dad screamed, cutting you off and you turned and walked up to your room.
You sat on your bed for hours, the sun has already gone down ad you were still waiting for your dad to come. You decided to change into your button up pj shirt along with the pants that matched it and you just sat down again when your dad walked in.
“Dad I can explain” you said but your dad just grabbed your arm and pulled you out of your room and down the stairs to where the table was. Where there were the same pictures of you that was in the school. The folder was laying open and the pictures were laying all over.
“Is this what you do when I’m gone?” your dad asked you and you shook your head.
“Don’t lie to me!” he growled out and grabbed you by the hair and slammed your head down onto the table, keeping your head there. “Look, that’s you…my daughter the fucking slut of the school” he screamed and let you go.
“It wasn’t like that” you whispered and stepped back as your dad took a step towards you. “Oh it wasn’t like that?” he asked and when you nodded he grabbed you shirt and ripped it open, tearing the buttons off making them fly everywhere.
“Then what the fuck is that!” he screamed pointing to your bra covered chest. “And this?” he shouted as he shoved you back making you fall and he proceeded to rip your pants off to reveal the cut that was there.
“You’re nothing but a whore, you wanna feel pain? Then you should have said so” you dad said and he gripped your leg where the cut was and you flinched and tried to move back but he backhanded you and then kicked you in the ribs and you lost all the air that was in your lungs.
“You want the whole town to know what a whore you are, just like you’re mother? Then by all means” he growled down at you and picked you up by your hair and started dragging you to the front door.
“No….please” you struggled against him and kicked as he opened the door, he slammed your head against the frame as you struggled and it made your vision go fuzzy.
“There go show the town what a fucking whore you are” Y our dad shouted as he shoved you out of the door and into the pouring rain, making you slip and fall down. He Slammed the door behind him as you just laid in the rain, not knowing how to fix this.
You were angry at the world and this fire was building inside of you, slamming your fist on the driveway you got up with a wince and started walking to Steve’s house, where you were going to beat the shit out of him.
“Y/N stop” you heard behind you but ignored Billy as you were on a mission.
“Hey stop….” He shouted and ran in front of you stopping you by grabbing your shoulders. “Get out of my way Billy, Steve is a dead man” you growled out and saw billy looking at you quizzically.
“Fine, but not like this” he said and motioned down and only then did you realize you were in your underwear still.
Sopping wet in the middle of the street, you looked like a crazy person.
“Hey, listen to me…he will get what’s coming to him. But right now you look like a crazy person” he said and you glared at him which made him hold his hands up.
“I’m just saying, you are half naked, blood running down your face” he said and you frowned putting your hand to your head and watched as the rain made the blood run down your fingers.
“Come on” Billy said as he drapped his leather jacket around you and walked you back.
“Billy I can’t….” you said and just felt him guide you forward towards his house. “No Billy your dad” “is not here” he finished for you and you hung your head as you followed him up the steps and into the house.
“Go sit in there, I’ll be right back” Billy said as I pointed to what you assumed was the living room. It was dimly lit and you walked in to see a figure sprawled out on the couch.
“What fucking took so long man, I’m bored of this shiiiiiiitttt…….” The voice said and you noticed it was Stu.
“Well shit, I didn’t know we were gonna have company….half dressed company” Stu said as he stuck his tongue out smirking and you glared at him.
“Are you always so happy chirpy?” you asked annoyed as Stu stood up and circled around you.
You felt a pinch on your ass and gasped as you turned around and socked Stu straight in the nose, making him bend down and shout in pain while clutching his nose.
“ooowwwww….i’m just playing with you” Stu said as he pulled his hands away to see blood dripping from his nose. “Don’t fuck with me right now” you growled out but still Stu smiled at you. “Oh we are feisty aren’t we, bet the one that did that to you look worse” Stu said smiling and nodded to your own face.
“Stu shut up” you heard billy say and saw him set down medical supplies. While pulling you to the couch. “Oh what did you say to get her more angry?” Billy said as he chuckled looking at Stu. “I might have touched her ass” Stu said sceptically.
“You what….” Billy growled out staring daggers at Stu “Man she’s the one who hit me….hello…my nose is bleeding” Stu said in shock and you smirked at him. “Yeah cause you deserved it” you said with a fake smile.
“Okay Carrie…..who pulled your panties in a bunch” Stu mumbled but you heard him clear as day, “Fuck this” you said as you were standing up, billy pushed you back down to sit.
“You sit down….and you shut up” Billy shouted as he looked at both of you.
“well she…” “Stu shut the fuck up before I actually break your nose” billy snarled out and opened the medical aid box looking for things, you saw cotton and broke off two pieces, handing it to Stu which he mumbled a small thanks.
You watched as Billy was concentrating with the cotton and the disinfectant, you watched as he wiped the blood off of your face and made his way to the cut on your forehead. You ground your teeth at the sting but kept quiet as Billy finished up. “There” Billy said as he stood up and walked to the kitchen to throw the bloody things away.
You looked over at Stu who had both cotton pieces shoved up each nose hole, you wanted to laugh but the way he was staring at you made you scowl. “What is it Stu?” you asked as he just kept staring.
“No , I uHm shit man, I’ll be back” he said and scrambled up , tripping over his own feet making you smile at his clumsiness.
You sat on the couch looking around as it was the first time you were in Billy’s house. You thought about what now when you heard something smash in the kitchen and against better judgement you walked over to eavesdrop.
“What is wrong with you man….what is happening. This, whatever this is man…this is going to screw the plan” you heard Stu angrily shout right after Billy shushed him.
“It’s not, okay. Sidney means nothing, nothing but her…Y/N…..she’s not gonna mess up anything” Billy said and you wondered what plan they had.
“Billy….” Stu started but Billy cut him off “what Steve did…that’s not right. And what her dad is doing is beyond fucked up, this might even help us in the plan, what if she can help us….” Billy said and you heard Stu curse.
“No way man….no…little miss cry at everything. She doesn’t have the balls, she won’t understand…she will go running to the cops first hand” Stu said and whatever they were talking about was something serious and you didn’t know if you wanted to hear the rest.
“Stu we try, something small and see how she reacts” Billy said and you heard another curse. “Billy I am telling you now, it will not work…you are pussy whipped” Stu said and you heard a small commotion in the kitchen sounding like they were fighting.
You decided to walk in to see Billy in a head grip from Stu and you frowned. “I heard something break, everything okay?” you asked cautiously and watched them unscramble right away.
“Yeah, uh Stu just slipped and knocked a glass” Billy said and you looked over to where the glass was and it was near the wall.
“Yeah okay…uh I’m gonna try and sneak into my room, can’t stay half naked the whole time” you said in a half joke and turned to walk away.
“You can stay here” Billy called out and as you turned around you saw Stu smack him upside the head and billy flinched.
“No no, you guys had plans I don’t want to intrude” you said and took Billy's jacket off your shoulder and put it on the kitchen counter.
“Well we were just going to watch movies, you know horror but I’m sure billy boy here can give you some clothes and you can crash here” Stu said and you looked at billy to see him staring at Stu with a bewildered expression.
“I love horror movies…as long it’s not that fake monster shit and more serial killer type I'm in” you said shrugging your shoulders.
“Yeah uh, I’ll go grab you something to wear, just go choose a movie” Billy said and you nodded awkwardly as you turned away. “What gives now…now you inviting her to stay?” billy harshly whispered but you could still hear them.
“Man I'm just watching her tits in that bra and my mind went kaboooom…..” Stu said and it made you frown, knowing he had a girlfriend. Most men are the same you thought.
You went to sit on the couch again and saw billy go up the stairs and flinched as Stu jumped over the couch and land next to you.
“So…favourite horror movie” Stu asked as he put his arm around your shoulder. You moved up and flinched from the stabbing pain in your side.
You saw Stu look down as well and you noticed your ribs were purple from the kick your dad gave. Stu reached over and rubbed over it softly with his fingers.
“Stu get your fingers off me, need I remind you…Tatum…hello?” you said to him but he looked up at you and grinned. “Nah me and her? We gonna be over soon” Stu said matching Billy's words which made no sense to you. Why would both guys want to break up with their girlfriends and both say soon. Why not just get it over with.
“Still Stu, I would rather not want to stir more things, its already as bad as it can get” you said and heard Stu hum.
“So I don’t know how to ask, but uhm, those photos….” Stu started but you cut him off with a deep humourless laugh.
“Mistake on my side. Loser fat girl gets invited to a party with jocks, get spiked, taken advantage of…can’t run to the cops cause my dad is best friends with the sheriff and he looks the other way when he sees a bruise on me” you explained and saw Stu thinking.
“Which house?” he asked and you shook your head at him “I don’t know probably Steve’s, it was a blue house with green picket fence around it” you said trying to remember the night.
“Nah, nah you see that’s Jason’s house, best friend to Steve” Stu said and you nodded , definitely taking that information in for later.
“Still looks pretty bad” Stu said as he looked down at the bruise ad then noticing the scars you had given yourself over the years.
“Here, I got you shirt and some pants” billy said as he walked to the couch and looked between you and Stu as Stu still had his arm wrapped around your shoulders. You took the clothes from billy and slipped the shirt over your head with a hiss and then pulled the pants up to sit comfortably around your hips.
“Listen, I can really go home. I don’t want to intrude or hear more rumours from your girlfriends…not that I'm saying they will” you said but quickly threw out the last bit.
“Oh Tatum, yeah no she will definitely have something to say” Stu said as he rolled his eyes. “See so I'm just gonna sneak back home and lock my door” you said and billy jumped in front of you.
“No just stay here, we won’t tell the girls you were here, right Stu?” billy said as he glared down at Stu but it seemed like that was normal for billy.
“Well obviously, man I would never tell Tatum half the shit we do” Stu said and he smiled broadly up at you. While billy looked nervously at Stu.
“Okay, only if it’s really okay” you said and looked at billy who hasn’t taken his eyes off of Stu but gave a curt nod at you.
“So the shining or hellraiser?” Stu asked as he jumped up to put a movie on.
“The shining” both you and billy said and you gave him a sheepish smile. You were about halfway through the movie when you started falling asleep.
You only woke up when a hand was on your shoulder and as you opened your eyes you saw the credits rolling and looked up to see Stu going through the rest of the movies.
“Why don’t you go sleep” Billy said and you rubbed your eyes and nodded. “I’ll just crash here on the couch, you guys carry on watching” you said and stood up to go lay on the other couch when Stu jumped on it, blocking your way.
“Uh uh princess, this is my spot” Stu said and you glared at him, he was being ridiculous. “Stu please, I am not in the mood. Now move or ass or I will make you” you ground out, being half asleep and grumpy. “Oh I would like to see you try” Stu shot back and you huffed, ready to argue with him but Billy's hand on your arm stopped you.
“Take my bed, I’ll crash in my dad’s” billy said and you shook your head at him frowning. “No I'm not taking your bed, Stu is moving. He can have your bed” you said and looked back at Stu.
“I’m not going anywhere, so if you really want this spot, you are gonna have to share with me” Stu said and wiggled his eyebrows at you making you pull your nose up in disgust. “pervert” you threw out at him and he gasp putting his hand in front of his mouth and then laughed.
“Just take the bed, it’s easier” Billy said and you glared at Stu . “Fine but only to spare Stu’s ass from getting handed to him” you grumbled out and followed billy to his room. “You wish princess” Stu threw back at you and you shook your head at how childish he was being.
You walked into Billy's room and looked around to see movie posters all over the walls and it made you think. Not one spot in the house had family pictures, not that you were one to talk but you wondered where his mom was and it seemed as if his dad was never home. You two seemed to have a lot more in common than you thought.
“I’ll be right down the hall if you need anything” Billy said and you nodded laying down and watched as he walked out.
Even though you were dead tired you couldn’t sleep as you didn’t know where to go from here. Your dad kicked you out, going back to school seemed impossible and then there was Billy.
The stranger that has been helping you without a reason, he had a girlfriend so he wasn’t doing it for sex, even though you wouldn’t as you’ve never been with anyone in that way. So why was he helping you, was it pity? Your head kept running a mile a minute and you drifted off with the smell of Billy's cologne all around you and as your eyes closed you smiled as you liked the dark musky smell surrounding you.
“So what now?” Stu asked as billy came down the stairs and sat on the couch, running his hair through his fingers. “I’ll figure it out” Billy said but Stu wouldn’t drop it.
“She messing with your head man, she’s just another slut in the way. I say we pay her a visit first and get her out the way” Stu said sounding all giddy while smirking at billy.
“No, I say we test her. See where her loyalty lies, see how far she will go” Billy said and Stu snorted at his words earning a glare from billy.
“Man she won’t make it. She’s too soft….and I bet she’s just as soft on the inside…if you know what I mean” Stu said and stuck his tongue out at billy.
“I said no….” Billy said and sat forward, “okay so this is the plan….” Billy said and explained to Stu what they would do and although Stu wasn’t sure of you, he liked the idea and agreed, while making a bet with billy to see who was right.
It was early in the morning while it was still dark when you heard footsteps in the room and opened your eyes to see billy grabbing the pillow next to you and started walking out. “what’s up?” you asked and billy turned to you. “My dad’s room is locked, I'm just gonna crash downstairs.”
You knew Stu was on the long couch so billy only had the single couch or the floor and you felt bad for taking his bed from him.
“No billy, this is your bed, seriously I’ll go downstairs” you said and billy argued with you “You can’t sleep on that chair or the floor with your ribs Y/N, don’t be stupid” he said and you were sure he tried to sound concerned but it came out more harshly.
“We are adults, just sleep next to me then” you huffed as you turned your back on him and it was a few seconds before the bed dipped and you heard him settle next to you.
It was awkward silence before you huffed and turned to look back at him to see he had his one arm tucked behind his head and his eyes were closed.
“I didn’t ask for your help, not once. You just show up everywhere there is shit happening and I don’t want your pity” you growled out at him but he didn’t reply, he kept laying there but you knew he was awake cause he clenched his jaw.
“Fine be like that” you huffed and rolled over to stand up and leave. “Where are you going?” he asked and you laughed out “oh now you decide to reply to me, fuck you” you snarled out.
“Where are you going” billy asked again as he watched you. “Home, not that it’s any of your business” you said and walked past the bed not getting far before billy grabbed you and threw you back down on the bed, he held you wrists to your side and glared down at you.
“Home? That’s not a fucking home….its a death wish. Clearly you like pain and attention so go fucking right ahead. Go back to that piece of shit that hits you or better yet go back to Steve, see if he wants to get his dick wet” billy snarled out back at you and you tried to push him off but his grip tightened more.
“Fuck you….you don’t know shit about my life. Just cause you helped me out tonight doesn’t mean shit, I didn’t ask my mom to sleep around and fucking leave or my dad to hit me, or being drugged….i never asked for it or asked you to help. Now get the fuck off” you screamed at him and watched him smirk at you.
“Make me” he said to you in a daring voice. You snarled at him and tried to wiggle out of his grip but it didn’t help.
“Just let me go” you asked breathlessly as you were done fighting him. “I’m trying to help you” he said and you frowned at him.
“Why…I don’t need pity. I will be fine on my own, go back to your normally happy life, friends, family the works, unfortunately not everyone can have a perfect life” you snarled out again and saw him glare down at you. “Now who’s the one that doesn’t know shit…my life is far from fucking perfect if you would actually take notice you would know but no instead you go out looking for trouble or sit on your bed and cut yourself” he snarled out at you and in the process you realized that you had him all wrong. There was a lot of things you didn’t know about him and you were taking your shit out on the only person that has been trying to help
But then it dawned on you…his words rang in your head. How did he know about you cutting on your bed.
“How did you….” You started out but stopped as he let you go.
“Leave if you want to, I'm not going to force you to stay here. Go back and be slapped around again.” He said as he laid back down , clearly noticing he said too much.
“How do you do that, one minute you care and the next you’re a cold asshole” you said to him and he actually laughed. “Look in the mirror, maybe you’ll get it then” he said and turned his back to you.
You realized what he said was true, you were hot and cold most of the time but you sat there and thought about his words. Maybe his life wasn’t as nice as you thought it was but before you could make up your mind you knew you needed more information on his life.
You huffed as you laid back down and turned your back to him as well. Neither one of you fell asleep right away as you both were fuming at each other.
You woke up early in the morning as the sun started to rise and stretched your body out and gasped in pain when an arm around you tightened its hold on your ribs. You laid completely still and looked down to see billy had wrapped his arm around you during the night.
You turned over slowly and stared at him while he was sleeping and looked how his hair was falling over his eye.
“What are you hiding from me?” you whispered as you continued staring at him, not knowing he was actually awake before you and felt like he needed comfort and as such he put his arm around you pulling you tightly to him.
“Well don’t you look comfortable” you heard Stu say from the doorway and your eyes shot up to him.
“Shut up Stu” you harshly whispered and looked down to see billy still sleeping, as you thought.
You carefully took his arm off of you and snuck out of the room and into the kitchen with Stu. You each grabbed a cup of coffee and you looked at Stu as he looked like he wanted to say something.
“So before I allow you to get that close with my best friend I need some more info on you” Stu said and you looked at him with an eyebrow raised. “One condition…I want you to tell me about Billy” you said and you saw him thinking and then nodded at you but holding his finger out
“Deal but I want something extra….we do 5 questions but I get something extra” he said and you narrowed your eyes at him. “What extra?” you asked and he grinned at you while taking your hand and leading you to the couch. “That you will know later on princess” he said and although you wanted to refuse but the thought of knowing about Billy's past made you agree.
“Okay 5 questions each, and truthfully, no backing out” you said and Stu nodded.
“You moved here a year ago” Stu said and you raised your eyebrow at him. “that’s your question?” you laughed and he shook his head “why?” he asked and you shrugged.
“Mom cheated and left, dad became abusive, neighbours started noticing so old dad decided to move here where one of his old friends is a cop and would look away, easy game. Now my turn, where is Billy's mom?” you asked and saw Stu look up at the stairs and then back to me.
“Shit life you’ve got, I don’t think I should say as it will make billy upset, but you not backing out and neither am I, she left him. Just packed her stuff and left” you frowned at that information , not ever thinking about what billy said that you guys had more in common.
“Okay second question, why no friends?” he asked and you thought about it “Makes it easier not to get into trouble with dad and them not asking questions” you said and Stu nodded thinking it over as it was better in the long run.
“Billy and Sidney? What’s that about?” you asked and saw Stu smirking at you “She’s honestly a bitch and he deserves the best” Stu said and you frowned at that. Sidney always looked like such a sweetheart to you far from being a bitch.
“Are you still a virgin?” Stu asked and it made you choke on your coffee as you took a sip. “I'm not answering that” you said and Stu raised his eyebrow at you. “We said no backing out….” Stu said and you just shook your head at him. “Yes still a virgin and before you ask why, never interested in anybody” you said and watched as he smirked at you while you started blushing.
“Okay, both you and billy said you are going to be done with both your girlfriends, why?” you asked and he looked around thinking for a bit and the nodded to himself. “Well billy, he wants someone else and me, honestly Tatum is a skank….” Stu said and you frowned biting your lip, you didn’t know billy was into someone else and you could see reason why Tatum was a skank.
“Why not just off your dad” Stu asked and your eyes went wide as saucers. “are you insane….my dad is friends with the sheriff , I’ll go to jail before I can say I'm innocent” you replied and you could see Stu was shocked at your response.
“So not that you won’t?” Stu asked and you rolled the idea around in your head and deciding to be honest. “Stu it’s not like he won’t deserve it, he’s a piece of shit that would have it coming” you said and Stu went very quiet.
“Why is Billy helping me out, he seems more like a I don’t give a shit person” you asked and Stu laughed out loud.
“No he only lets a few people into his life that he shares things with, but if you betray him, let’s just say he’s not so nice” Stu said and you could understand that although it didn’t answer your question.
“Okay last question…” Stu said and you held your hand out and shook your head “no no you had your 5 already” you said and Stu was shaking his head….
“Yes, you asked 2 questions right after the other…count them. Move, friends, virgin, killing dad and then asking am I not opposed to killing my dad” that counts as 5.
“No that was just a sub question to my question” Stu argued and you just looked at him and decided to give him another one.
“Fine but I still count it as 5 but cause I'm nice you can have one more” you said and watched as Stu smiled and rubbed his hands together.
“Would you kiss me, bang me, rub one out in front of me?” Stu asked and you gasped at him.
“Of course not Stu, you have Tatum” you said and shook your head at him. “Hey I said I'm done with her, so if she was gone….out of my life, would you?” Stu asked again and you just took a sip of coffee and thought about it.
“If you were nicer to me maybe….” You said and you were pleased about how the questions went.
“Okay, your last question?” Stu asked and you thought about what else you wanted to ask.
“I’ll keep it for later” you said and when Stu wanted to argue you told him no rules were made that all 5 had to be asked now.
“You know you are much more sneaky than I thought” Stu said and you smiled at him, “you have no idea what I have up my sleeve” you said cockily and took a sip of your coffee. You gasped as Stu suddenly hovered over you and looked into your eyes and down to your lips. “You know I get it now” he said and you looked up at him in question. “Get what?” you asked and looked up at him to see him slowly bend down like he was going to kiss you but a throat clear had him jump to the other side of the couch.
“Sleep well?” billy ground out and you nodded while Stu gave him a sarcastic reply.
You stood up to go wash your cup and saw billy follow you. “Thank you again that I could sleep over, I promise one day I will make it up to you” you said and billy watched you intensely and walked over to you slowly, backing you up to the kitchen counter.
“How about right now” he said as he stepped closer and grabbed your chin leaning in to kiss you. “But Sidney…” you started and he growled at her name. “I told you we are over” he said and grabbed your neck as he pulled you in for a kiss. It was rough and full of frustration and when he pulled away he looked down at you “you are mine, understood” he said and walked out the kitchen leaving you so confused at what was happening.
You walked out into the living room to see Billy and Stu in a heated discussion and when billy saw you he stopped.
“Thanks again for everything, I’m gonna head home and change. After I wanna go walk around town a bit” you said and Billy only nodded at you. “Great seeing you princess” Stu called out as you closed the door and headed home.
The whole week flew by as you decided to skip school for the week until things calmed down and it was better as your dad left while you were at billy’s leaving a note saying he will be back Friday night.
You didn’t want to wait for your dad to get back so you decided to take a walk into town and got a pizza. After that you decided to go to the video store and rent a couple of horror movies for yourself.
“Nice, a chick that digs horror” the guy said behind the counter and reading his name you saw it said Randy. “Yeah not really a romance person, hey your Billy's friend right?” you asked and watched him roll his eyes. “Yeah sure, we all big friends” he said sarcastically. You felt very uncomfortable and quickly paid for your movies and made your way back, it was already dark and you cursed seeing your dad was back.
You made your way inside and straight to the kitchen, setting the pizza and movies down. You wanted to check if your dad was sleeping or if he was awake but as you peered into the living room the tv was playing but you didn’t see your dad. As you walked forward you saw a broken beer bottle and the lamp was knocked over.
“What the fuck….” You said as you went to check and stopped by your dads room, you stood still as you saw your dad laying on the floor, trying to drag himself back. You walked over to him slowly and gasped as you saw he was bleeding a lot and there was still a knife in his chest.
Seeing you his eyes went big and he reached out to you but you stumbled back “Y/N help…” your dad croaked out and you held your head in your hands, not knowing what to do. You walked to him again and he grabbed your leg. “Help me you stupid bitch” he growled out and you started crying but as you cried you laughed out loud. “Seriously….fuck you dad. Fuck you for every single time you hit me, kicked me…help yourself” you snarled out and went to walk away. “Whore…” your dad mumbled out and you saw fire in your eyes. Turning back, you slowly walked to him “Say that again?” you ground out and as he was about to say something you stomped on the knife in his chest with your boot, hearing a simple crack from the force you watched his eyes glaze over and his breathing stopped.
You stared at him and realized what you did….
“Fuck….fuck my whole life” you mumbled out walking backwards and gasped as a hand clamped over your mouth.
“If you scream, I will slice your throat” the voice said and then you felt the cold metal against your throat. “The code to the safe is 4432, all the money and things are in there” you said as you started trembling.
The killer stepped closer to you and was flush against your back. You felt their other hand on your hip and slowly move under your shirt, moving up to fan their hand over your chest and recoiled as their finger rubbed over your nipple.
“Not today asshole” you yelled out and slammed your head back into their own making them stumble, you ran for the door but screamed in pain when you felt a slice of burning pain over your back, making you fall to the floor. The killer was on you and you scratched at the floor trying to get away, leaving marks on the wooden floor.
The killer turned you over and you went to hit the killer but they caught your hand and pinned both your hands above your head and with the other hand held the knife at your throat. “You just came home at the wrong time, you missed all the fun” the killer said and you realized they were using a voice changer so you couldn’t recognize them.
“Guess you failed huh? He was still alive when I got home” you said to the masked figure on top of you, the killer was dressed in a black tunic and had a mask on of what looked to be a white ghost face.
“Still would have died” the killer said and you shook your head “What do you want?” you asked, terrified of what was going to happen.
“I want to see your insides….” The killer said and you started tearing up but then remembered billy was right next door. “You’re fucked, my neighbour is right next door and he will kick your ass!” you hissed at the killer. “Go ahead try…” the killer said and you didn’t know if he was bluffing or not but you decided to take your chance. “Billy!! Billy, help me!” you screamed at the top of your lungs but stopped when the killer started laughing.
“Wanna know a secret? I killed him first” he said and as his words sunk in you started fighting back with tears in your eyes. “No! no you fuck…I'm gonna fucking kill you!” you screamed as you fought back and as your one hand came lose you slapped the killer , not doing much but it seemed to make the killer more riled up. The killer pressed the knife into your shoulder only the tip going in and you hissed out.
While the killer was staring down at the knife to angle where the knife was going you leaned up fast making the knife sink into your shoulder but you proceeded to headbutt him and scramble out from underneath him.
You got up and ran for your room but screamed as a second killer appeared and as you turned around to head for the kitchen, the second one grabbed you and slammed you into the wall. Then he tossed you to the floor to the other killer, in a daze you felt the killer on you again and the knife at your throat. He bent down to whisper in your ear “I’m not done yet” he said and you turned your head to curse at him but as you took a breath you smelled it.
You smelled him…
You frowned and looked at the killer slowly “Billy…” you whispered out and the killer grabbed your head and slammed it down onto the floor knocking you out.
