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@blossompetals0307 dearest Macy, thank you so much for this. You are an angel!! I am so glad that I decided to text you almost a year ago and you’ve become one of my best friends. We’re both having a hard time but I know I can rely on you. It’s like… You know a “sister act”. Hehe… Get it? Well, I just want you to know how much you mean to me and I hope you’re alright!! ❤️ M~

my kid cried too much... that's why i didn't cap more pics :’(

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my baby is so beautiful yet so painful...

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Peniel at his finest 😱

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I can't help myself but loving you more and more everyday...

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“It's good to feel lonely sometimes. Once you are used to loneliness, you're not lonely anymore.”

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/180920, Hanahaki disease/

I remember I was trying to write these words, in the summer when I was 16.I wrote, then deleted. Something went wrong, at that moment, words could not deliver my message.

I remember that someone once asked me “Why blossom petals?”, I could never answer that question. It was just right to me, that’s why I named this blog @blossompetals0307. However, deep down inside, I know, I know that this name has more meanings than it seems to have.

Spring 2016, I can never forget. I got a scar embed onto my heart, never knew when it would disappear. I was hoping that one day it would heal, or stop bleeding at least. I let ’time’ decide, and went on with my life. As time went by, I learnt that time never heals. Time only gives people chances to find the band-aids, the answers themselves. And hopefully, that’s enough for them to survive and move on from the past.

I remember at that time, I could hardly breathe. Then BTOB came back, with the song called “Remember that”. The first time I listened to it, I cried so much. Tears kept falling and I didn’t even know why. Something about the lyrics, about the melody, and of course, their voices, made so much sense to me. Like a little stone that was thrown onto the quiet water. Like the warm kiss of the sun. Like the light touch of a falling blossom petal on your skin. All of the pains that I held, all of the memories that I wanted to forget, all the tough stones inside my chest, suddenly melted into bubbles, and started bursting into warm tears.

Close your eyes. Imagine that you are walking in a blossoms forest, under a beautiful blue sky in the middle of March. Slowly, peacefully, happily. You can smell the sweetness of the flowers, like a teaspoon of honey, with a drizzle of morning dew. Your fingers are running through those dainty blossom flowers. How soft, how soothing. Then a blossom petal falls, a slight kiss on the lips. Soft, sweet, bitter, unforgettable.

I was greedier, I ate the flower petals and got Hanahaki disease.

Just some little thoughts are running through my head. I miss BTOB, I miss Seo Eungkwang, Lee Minhyuk, Lee Changseob, Im Hyun Sik, Shin Dong Geun, Jung Il Hoon, Yook Sungjae. I miss blogging too.

Just want to see my boys stay happy and healthy. And I want this amazing feeling of falling blossom petals can last forever. Because every time I think about you, I feel that way and fall back in love right back. And every time like that, I know that can could do much more better. BTOB, you really make me a better human being.

Love, to be loved, is human.

Love, just to love… is angel.

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note: i’m messed up and my heart is really, really, really empty at this moment. this is my raw thoughts and emotions that i really want to tell our respectful leader, Seo Eunkwang. so please, please excuse the messiness and any mistakes… and it is really, really long…

Dear Eunkwang oppa,

Why do I feel hurt typing those words?

I have never, ever written any words for you, because I always thought and always wanted to tell you, face-to-face, how a wonderful person you are. I never, ever knew that my first letter to you, is something so painful, so sorrowful, and that it is really hard, for both of us. You never know… Ever!

I have said this in so many other letters (to BTOB, to Im Hyunsik, to any BTOB members), my life is always a mess. This is really dark, and sad, but it means a lot to me… At the darkest point of my life, when a little girl felt like she needed to be vanished, that she was just a piece of trash, that the death… was actually better than living a life, BTOB came. These seven men, you guys saved me. I owe you all lots, and lots, and lots more than you think… This is why I always say that BTOB is so important to me, that you are so special in not only my fangirl heart, but in my life. I owe you guys a life.

I respect BTOB so much. As an idol group, I adore your passion. I love BTOB’s music. Every single note, every single word, everything, anything… BTOB never just sings. They sing with their souls and their hearts. I am inspired by you so much, to follow what I truly love, what I truly believe that is right. Especially you, Seo Eunkwang. I will never, ever, forget that stage in which you sang with your dear mommy. You were shaking during the whole performance. You were not singing with your brothers, you were not singing alone, but with someone who you love dearly… You were happy, were worried, and for sure, you were so proud of yourself. Your mom was proud, your family was proud, Melodies were so proud, and of course…, I was 100% proud. I love each member’s personalities, philosophies, the ways they treats life and their own stirring stories. And for Seo Eunkwang himself, I respect you and love you with my heart and my soul. The way you lead the group, your love to Melodies. You. Just you. You as a normal person. You as a 27-year-old man. What a charismatic man! You know when to stay calm, when to be strong and fierce. The most down-to-earth person I know. BTOB and Seo Eunkwang himself, make me become a better person. I learn my ways from them. Who I am now, is actually affected so much by these amazing men.

You may noticed I disappeared for months. I stopped myself from reading, watching, listening to BTOB. At one point of 19, I felt like I could not handle this. Because BTOB is so precious, I don’t want to hurt you. I want to protect you guys. I want to have the most beautiful memories with BTOB. And the reality, is not appropriate for me to do that. So I tried to avoid you guys. And one more reason, I could not make my way to go to your concert…

I am crying so much right now, what should I do?!

I now understand why the previous album is “This Is Us”. Because no matter where you are, BTOB is BTOB - with BTOB Seo Eunkwang, BTOB Lee Minhyuk, BTOB Lee Changseob, BTOB Im Hyunsik, BTOB Shin Dongeun, BTOB Jung Ilhoon, BTOB Yook Sungjae. BTOB isn’t completed, if it is missing just one member. BTOB means 7. And please, always remember that. I was so happy, when “This Is Us” showcase was broadcasted. I saw the sparkles in your eyes, when all 7 of you said it out loud, that “We are BTOB”, and “This is us!”. You guys had never been that proud and excited like that before… If only did I know, that it was the last time in so many years…

I now understand why BTOB Blue came back in a sudden. My heart was sparkled in joy, of course. And the song was so beautiful, yet really, really hurtful. I was questioning, but never thought you did that on purpose… The MV tho, you, uri leader, did not appear as much as the others… And any time we saw you, you were smiling straight at us, and… (I’m literally shaking so hard) and you were holding yellow baby flowers. Baby flowers, mean eternal love. And yellow, means happiness, calm, and loyalty… How could I not love you, Seo Eunkwang?

And today concert, the song you wrote, the notes you sang… It hit me, right at the softest spot in my heart:

“The day I left home on that train, military service was waving.

I bowed, sending the last farewell to my parents,

and I walked away,

All of the pain and emptiness were covering my chest,

The smell of the meadow and some faces, everything Is so new.

Everything starts, all over again… My youth…

And my friends, when I’m away, please send me letters,

That I will never forget all the memories that we had together…”

It’s not like that you are leaving the group, or you go to somewhere I could never reach to. But the fact that my life had been depending on you, on BTOB for so long, it is so hard for me to know that my faith is now just…missing… Thanks to you, I never feel lonely. And I hope that you are, too! As selfish and childish as I am, I never thought of this day… And I feel extra hurt, because in the upcoming years, there will always be missing pieces… (that never will be missing in our hearts).

Leadernim,

Please take care, do your best, and comeback as the better version of you. Please take care of your health, train yourself to become stronger and the greatest man of our hearts. Learn something new, but never forget your true passion. Make new fellows, but please don’t ever forget your brothers. And of course, don’t lose your love and trust on Melodies.

I will stay. And I will do my best. We will meet again, soon. We will meet when both become better people, grow as an artist, and be happier than ever. I will hopefully see you when I accomplish one of my biggest life goal. And on that “someday”, I will proudly tell you: I made it! That you will smile widely, maybe will pat my head and say: “You did so well!”. On that “someday”, we will sing together, the song that you and I always dream about:

“Past, present, future

The blue waters only reflect me

Melody & BTOB, forever, You & Me…”

Take care, leadernim!

one Melody that admires you,