What I imagine is going to make it so easy for me to shift...
is that I already have a very shattered/non-concrete sense of self. I refer to all the versions of myself in other realities the same way I refer to the versions of myself in this reality. I don't have DID or anything related, but I sort of create separate entities that represent the different things I am, like, want to be, etc. And these entities (the inhabitants of the headscape, as I call them) have been fluid my whole life. Some have merged together, disappeared, emerged as a wholly new thing, diverged, and it's never felt unnatural. I just give them a new name and move on.
In almost every single DR I script for/list out, I have a different name, a different face, and a different everything else. Some of these identities did, admittedly, spawn from story ideas, but most of them were just the natural progression of how I imagine I would live in different realities and different circumstances. And while reality shifting does bring a huge appeal of allowing me to live a narrative--considering my old reality is so boring and stagnant--it is primarily appealing because it lets me become an explorer.
Prior to finding reality shifting, I just had to live with a shattered sense of self, not really knowing what I was or what was wrong with me. For a while, I tried "growing out of it". But now, not only does this way of seeing myself make sense, it's a viable way of living. Because I'm not limited to one reality and one way of being. I can finally reach and experience all the versions of myself that I've identified with and been curious about for so long. I can live lives previously thought to be the work of imagination, and through shifting, I can become the most complete version of myself. I can become the version of myself that is aware of all these experiences, all these lives, all these understandings, and all these stories. Through shattering, I can become whole.
At least, that's how I see it.
This isn't my introduction post per se, but it's close. I have a lot of DRs, and a lot of versions of myself, that I'd like to introduce to you guys at some point, but it will take some time to curate. For now, you can call me Blue. I hope we get to share our stories soon.
~ Blue













