I wish I could reach inside the dim neurons of your brain to understand what you think a “woman” is.
Does your understanding of “woman” include skin? Does a “woman” have eyes? Is she a mammal or a limbless invertebrate? Is she even made of cells, or is she merely a smooth piece of poreless plastic?
Women can be older than the age of 30, and women older than 30 even are naked sometimes. How does this statement make you feel? Does it baffle you? Does it open a pit in the bottom of your stomach, filled with a dread you cannot name?
With all due respect, which is none, do you understand that women are living organisms, made of cells, lacking the stiff supporting structures of cell walls, possessing tissues of varying types, one of which is fat? Do you understand that these tissues are pliable substances, soft to the touch, affected by gravity?
Many men have what you would call a “fat fetish,” yes. Very often, these men also have a “skin fetish,” and a “hair fetish,” and a “spinal column fetish,” and a “central nervous system fetish;” in fact, most men have a frightening array of sexual deviances that assemble themselves into what must be to you the most disgusting perversion of all: they are sexually attracted to living things, animals with complex body plans, vertebrates, mammals even!
In fact, an incredibly large proportion of men—you may want to sit down for this one—are sexually aroused by other humans!
It is generally thought that the way Rubens and Boucher drew women was based on their wives.
All three of the women in this painting are thin. Even by the standards of Body Mass Index, they would almost certainly be considered perfectly healthy. What is so repulsive and alien to you is that they are depicted by a man who has seen the real, living body of an adult woman, even touched her sometimes. Peter Paul Rubens did not have to imagine in his head what a woman might look like in real life. He was married to one.
Have you ever seen a woman who has given birth?
How do you imagine that works? Do you imagine that women are made of some smooth, plastic-like substance that can be inflated like a beach ball?
What do you think a “fetish” is? My understanding of the word is that it refers to something that deviates from the norm of human sexuality, sexuality here understood to relate to human reproduction, which involves other, fertile humans.
This is not a “fetish.” This is the prototype, the OG, the Ur-Fetish from which all else derives. If fetishes are considered sexual “deviance,” this is what they are “deviating” from. Being attracted to this is, in other words, straight-laced sexual orthodoxy.
Approximately half of the people in the world are women. You have no excuse not to understand that they’re humans.