Starry Night

My thoughts are stars I cannot fathom into constellations.

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And sometimes we need to fall. Fall into the deep dark abyss.

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I poured out my heart to you, but I don't think you ever understood how much you meant to me.

I don't think I ever meant that much to you. In the end, you chose yourself, your pride, over everything else.

I don't miss you. I miss the happy memories I shared with you. I miss the feeling of having someone of being in love, of being loved.

I don't blame you for the choice you made. I don't regret the memories we share. But I'm not going back. I'm going forward. And although I wish you the best, I hope our paths never cross.

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I love you.

I love you.

I love you.

More than you'll ever know.

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You were my present and future.

Now you are only my past.

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I love you. I think a part of me always will love you. Not in a romantic kind of way, but in a way of human to human. Person to person.

I think this is when people would say meet you in another life. However, I don't want to repeat what we went through. I experienced so much happiness and also pain. I learned so much. And I am grateful, but what happened in the past should stay in the past. I've learned. And now it's time for a new chapter. It's time for me to let go of my past.

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I wonder if you'll ever know how much you mean to me

You taught me love, what it was like to be loved and how to love

You helped me open up

Your presence in my life was a gift and a blessing

I am eternally grateful for the good and the bad

It made it realize what can of person I am and what can of person I want to be

I'm glad you were my first love

I wouldn't have asked for anyone else

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How many tears do I have to shed for you

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Please don't break my heart

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I never knew one person could heal you so much and hurt you as much.

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I thought you broke me. I guess I let go before I broke cuz now that the wounds are scars, I find myself thinking of you again.

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Maybe. Just maybe. If you break my heart a little harder, if you hurt me a little more, I'll be able to walk away.

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I hate you.

I Iove you.

I miss you.

Sometimes I feel all of them at once. Sometimes I feel them one at a time. But no matter how much I try I can't stop feeling something for you.

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Break my heart.

Break it into a million pieces.

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We loved each other so much.

We hurt each other so much.

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I wonder if I'll ever get over you

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You were always late,

late to show up, late to answer, late to understand what I needed.

I'm not a patient person, but I waited. I waited for you to come. I waited for you to answer. I waited for you to see what I needed.

But it didn't happen.

I got tired of waiting. I hated the uneasiness of not knowing what was going to happen.

So I let go. And you let me go.

I tried to fight for us. I don't consider myself a fighter, but I was prepared to fight for us. Cuz I thought we were something worth fighting for. But I realized that you wouldn't fight. You let me go.

And I wonder, if you ever loved me the way I loved you.

[bluelittlewriter]

I can live without you.

I'm trying to live without you.