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mumu love island blog for crackonhq currently home to: — marcus wittich ( day one ) — adela gonzalez ( day 28 / casa ) previously: — liam baker ( day fourteen - day twenty-two )

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heatwayve​:

– “YEAH, I KNOW YOU’RE RIGHT,” NAOMI SAYS, though it’s hard not to bristle seeing josh getting pulled by her. it’s an unfamiliar feeling, twisting in the pit of her stomach. “ yeah, famous last words, ” naomi snorts, remembering the last time romi said that to her, upon jenny’s entrance. this place really has a way of using the same cliches to play with your fears, and as much as naomi doesn’t want to fall victim to it, it’s become impossible to feel nothing when it comes to josh. “ you gonna talk to her ? those were some fighting words when she left the fire pit last time, ” naomi suggests. 

“ if he does anythin’, i’ve got your back. however you wanna deal with that, i’m with you. ” like hiding the body or finding a big enough knife. she doesn’t get the mali appeal personally, even if they weren’t what feels like high school enemies. the fact she went for josh, the easiest guy in the villa, is funny to her considering she couldn’t get anyone else. “ i mean... i’m not one to turn away from a fight if one breaks out but... nah, i’m not gonna avoid her,  but i’m definitely not looking to make up or act like we’re friends either. she can get fucked, to be honest. ” what a sad little life jane. 

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dobits​:

“it’s actually, like, not that bad. just butterscotch liqueur and irish cream i think. which –,” he gestures a hand to her, brows raised with teasing realization, “you guys are, like, basically cousins to the irish, right? you’d love it.” he’s still not sure how the united kingdom works. “whatever. it’s better than a cherry bomb shot.” cherry vodka and red bull? scrunching his nose at the thought. angel snorts, secondhand amusement to adela’s laughter. “you love that? okay, ‘ere you go, ma’am,” the slightest of accents as he deposits the drink into her hand. he’ll clink his glass against the side of her’s before taking a long pull. “y’know… lowkey for real delicious. the fruit definitely covers the ton of alcohol. i mean, mostly.”

“ mmm, i love butterscotch...  that sounds so good actually. ” she chimes in, before she shrugs a little at the relation to the irish. “ sorta. you could say that, yeah... would you call, like... canadians your cousins ? ”  adela wonders, the only similar-ish thing she can think of. “ thank you, sir. ” she smiles, her own accent going just slightly rp for a second. she’ll let angel take the sip first just in case she’s accidentally poisoned them before she goes for it. “ you can taste it a bit, ” she smiles, since her plan sorta failed in conclusion, her finger and thumb measuring out the tiny bit she means. “ it’s nice though, you want it strong... that’s, like, a perfect pre-drinks mix. ” 

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inquixotic​:

so much of what adela says completely misses the mark — her misread of the situation genuinely making mali sit back and listen, looking at her with the same, blandly amused expression she gives when there’s a mildly annoying child recounting their day at her, amidst choruses of mhm’s and wow’s. studying her as you would an animal with a mutation, cold and almost scientific in nature, like her very existence baffles them. they could say that she didn’t say easy, she said safe — adela having the choice between two and choosing a fan favorite who had been there longer was the safe choice. but that would require giving adela the satisfaction of thinking any of this actually bothered her. “you know, it’s really telling that you think i’m here for something other than love,” she remarks, their head canting and her tongue clicking against her teeth, their tone filled with something like pity, patronizing and softened. the pot calling the kettle black is implied in her words, giving her a wide eyed, nearly bored look. “are you quite finished?” 

adela takes it as a win that mali has nothing to say, one because she doesn't have to listen to her rat-like little voice or condescending tone, but also because she takes it that she's right since she’s not even prepared to defend herself or say otherwise. she doesn’t care that mali’s looking at her like she’s something inhuman because if anything, mali’s the one who adela deems has something wrong with them. she really needs to get her head out of her arse. " ‘cause as always, you're full of fucking shit, mali. you've come back here with barely a couple weeks left, if that's what you were looking for, you'd have better luck on the outside. though i guess you mustn't've? aw, real shame, that.  " though it is a real shame considering she’s back here, but adela’s only bothered about it because they seem to share similar friends. " yeah, i'm done. " she says smiling, clapping her palms together like she's swatting away some dirt. " i’ll leave you to it, then. i really hope you get what you’re looking for in here. honestly, i’m rooting for you. ” her sarcastic tone is very evident that she’s not. 

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victoriafm​:

“ i dunno why it’s such a big deal to her. ” sure, it’d be nice to get away with the person you’re coupled up with, especially after jenny and jude had just made it official but victoria can’t imagine throwing a fit over something as silly as that. other things, sure. but the hideaway? “ i agree but i couldn’t exactly vote for us so i went with the next best thing. ” she shrugs. it’s not like she had any loyalty to anyone here so it made sense for her to vote for them. everyone on the island seemed to have loyalties except for her and she wanted to keep it that way. “ i did ask him how it went earlier today. it seems things worked out. ”

“ i get why it’s a big deal, ” adela says with a shrug. getting the hideaway would have been a big deal to her and she is annoyed she didn’t get it. “ but she gets off on kicking off, i guess. maybe she just likes jude always jumping to her defence. ” because that’s always a given, no matter what the argument is about or who with. “ though i feel like because she kicked off, they’re never gonna get it now. ” just out of spite or principle. she nods at victoria’s answer, this season has been so homophobic tbh. she gives the blonde a look, eyebrows raising. “ oh... like... worked out, worked out ? ” fucked?   

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graftisms​:

“ DON’T BE LIKE THAT, ”   he scowls, not appreciating the joke. nobody’s laughing at mali’s presence today, except maybe miles.   “ what’d she say to you ? ”

something about mali and josh makes her cautious, like regardless of the fact she’d consider josh a close friend, now that mali’s here all that doesn’t matter. he’d probably roll over and be on the bitch’s side regardless and she actually needs friends right now. “ why don’t you ask her since you’re obviously super close... ” she responds a little on the defence before she shrugs. “ that she’s here for love or whatever. you know, bullshit like that. ”  

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gotatext​:

location :  bean bags

when :lunch time, day 43.

featuring :  adela  /   @bluemmings

        “ mate, i am gaggin’ for a greggs, ”   jude notes, by way of greeting, dropping down into the bean bag beside adela and popping the cap on his sun cream lotion. “ honestly, think i’m goin’ into withdrawal. the shit they give us for lunch in here. not even joking, who do i have to suck off for a sausage, bean, and cheese melt ?   harry hill ?  richard branson ?  philip schofield ? ”  they definitely won’t be airing that last one, or probably any of this conversation. product palcement gone mad. it’s like loose women in here.  “ what’s your go-to greggs order, then ? ”  because c’mon ! she’s geordie. she’s obviously got one. 

“ don’t even fuckin’ say that to me... jude, what the fuck. “ a little whine lingers in her voice, her scoff both hurt and amused. now she’s gagging for one, her mouth salivating like she’s waiting for her last meal on death row. the villa definitely does feel more like a prison nowadays. “ nah. ‘cause i proper love a sausage, bean and cheese melt, you have my heart and soul right there. or the bacon cheese wraps but they’ve gotta be warm or else it’s like, what is the point ?? and i’d always get a pack of yum yums. i was actually addicted to them in uni, would ‘ave ‘em for breakfast, lunch and dinner, no regrets. ”  she smiles proudly, though she really does want a greggs now. 

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dobits​:

“li’l fruit concoction,” angel appraises as he sniffs at the jug, hums approvingly. “whaaat? whatchu mean?” he scoffs with dramatized offense, reaching up to snag a couple cocktail glasses from the top shelf. “buttery nipple is a totally normal drink name.” he’s not sure why jenny swears this girl is the anti-christ, is a thought that randomly comes to him. del always seems cool to him. “well, you should probably name this one,” he urges, pouring their glasses one by one. “like… i dunno, the pine-go del-icious.”

“ exactly, super healthy. ”  she nods. she can’t help her eye roll, the amused little scoff leaving her lips as his dramatics come out. “ i don’t even know what that is. i don’t know if i want to. ” though of course she does, eyes glistening in wonder, only the teensiest amount of fear he might make her one and it’s disgusting. “ oh my god, you’re actually so good at this. ” she laughs, wondering how the fuck no one has ever called her del-icious before, and that along with squipply orange just promoted angel to chief drink-namer in her opinion. “ that just rolls right off the tongue, huh ? one pine-go del-icious, please sir. ” her index finger points up, her laugh still there. 

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heatwayve​:

– “YEAH, I GUESS. BUT IT’S NOT THAT LONG, like, if you want to actually find something. well, unless you’re seb and rhys, ” naomi tacks on. “ yeah, well, it’s mad irritating, actually. like, i’m trying to be chill about this, but it’s genuinely pissing me off a bit, i can’t lie, ” naomi says, arms crossing over her chest in an irritated huff. she can’t help but roll her eyes at adela’s anecdote, though it doesn’t feel wrong. it’s giving obsessed to her, too. “maybe she’s imprinted. josh is her renesme. ”

“ oh, no, for sure... and i doubt she’s in here for that. i don’t know what she’s in here for, but... ” adela shrugs, though it’s probably the followers like naomi said, maybe she thinks she’ll be more memorable considering she was here twice. “ i mean... josh has already been there done that, it wasn’t like he was interested in her other than the fact she was easy. ” though this is all from adela’s lens, she can’t imagine anyone genuinely liking mali. “  i wouldn’t let it bother you. ” she finalises, shaking her head. though she gets why naomi might be, and her tone was settling on serious until naomi mentions renesme, causing her laugh to burst out before she covers her mouth. “ oh my god, not renesme. ” the mental math of figuring out who naomi is in that scenario is tiring. “ but seriously, she’s got nothing on you. and josh isn’t THAT stupid... i don’t think. hopefully. ” 

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inquixotic​:

the actual annoyance in adela is really all she wants from the conversation, smiling smugly when she receives it in the form of a snaped out remark about how she doesn’t care when she clearly cares. “if you call what i was last time as focused, i think you need your eyes checked, love.” her tone turns patronizing, unbothered. really, digs about not finding something with the men in casa aren’t exactly painful considering more than half of them are gone now. “do you really think dylan wasn’t the safe option?” she scoffs in return, her expression flashing genuinely incredulous for a second. as if dylan would be sent home without walking, at this point. if they go, mali’s certain it’s adela’s fault at any rate. “my god, you’re delusional, aren’t you.” 

she wonders how quickly her hands could clutch around her hair, how fast she could rip with all her might and cause some damage before they're inevitably split up. it's not worth it, she finalises every time she imagines how satisfying it would be, trying to talk herself out of it. " you're actually so funny, acting like you didn't want josh to fawn all over you after everything. you tried your best but he just didn't care." she laughs, finding her whole thing with him so pathetic but of course mali knows that too. " yeah, cause it really worked out super easy for phoebe, huh ? or you ? " aware that mali had her own moment where she wanted dylan even if it felt brief, a quick final attempt to crack on with someone since josh wasn't interested. she almost goes to say if she wanted it really easy she'd have stayed with bash, but with that coming up again recently against her, she decides to keep it trapped in.  " delusion is you coming back here, and for what ? sad your fifteen minutes were cut short ?  "

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cruelsxmmcr​:

“But it’s something that’s clearly bothering you, and I don’t want this to quietly boil for you,” he says quietly, looking at her. “You’re both important to me. You can’t expect me not to say anything, Del, and just sit back and watch this happen, right?” Things starting off that way between the two most important people to him in the villa doesn’t bode well. Granted, he knows this isn’t something irreparable and if Adela truly cared about Callie’s approval and Dylan, she wouldn’t stop here and give up. Surely, being on the receiving end of someone unresponsive to you is awful, and while he’s not happy Callie wasn’t open to discussing things when Adela isn’t someone who usually spills her heart, he understands where his sister is coming from and Dylan’s trying to keep his emotions out of this, and be an outside viewer, even though he technically is not an outside viewer—not when this whole thing is about him. “Listen,” he begins, sitting up straighter. “I’m sorry you felt like she was unresponsive to you. What I know is that she comes from a position of protectiveness. She’s my sister. Angel is good to her and I like the dude and I’m still protective. He did one wrong thing with Callie a while back and I was real annoyed about it. It’s just how it is.” A pause. “I’ve been through… a lot in here. Before I met you, it was a roller coaster for me and you know this. And even during our time together, we’ve had our fair share of ups and downs.” He keeps his eyes on her as he says this. It’s true they’ve worked things after movie night and the thing with Bash is so far in the past for him, but it doesn’t mean Dylan’s still not expecting Adela to show that she cares and wants him (especially in light of movie night), rather than just say it. He just likes her a lot and doesn’t want to give up on this before giving it the shot it deserves. He knows where his intentions and heart are, but he still is expecting from Adela to show and prove to him the same thing, and he’s betting Callie’s waiting for the same. “Callie doesn’t dislike you and I reckon you two don’t know each other well enough yet, so none of this is unfixable.” And if Adela cared about him and saw a future between them outside this villa, she’d care to earn Callie’s trust, because if the roles were reversed, Dylan would be working to earn it, too.

she can’t be mad that he knows her well enough now to understand that brushing things under the rug might make things worse for her, that she’ll let it build and build until it explodes, but she’s so sure about this that her head shakes anyway.  " it's not going to boil… nothings going to happen for you to watch, it's honestly done. " there’s a certainty in her tone, unsure if it’s coming from the fact it is done or that she simply doesn’t want dylan to go and get involved. she doubts her and callie will speak again unless they have to, and she doesn’t want dylan to be the one forcing that or it’s never going to work. " like, i'm not telling you so you'll do something, i just wanted to talk about it cause it's been on my mind… " but she can't think of anything worse than this going back to callie so maybe she should've just kept her fucking mouth shut. she doesn’t want to suddenly push dylan away when she’s the one to pull him into this, when he now knows everything anyways. her shoulders lifting in a shrug as she sighs." it's between me and her and i don't want you to have to get in the middle of it, i just … wanted to talk it through with someone, and i don't know, maybe i should've gone to josh or miles or literally anyone instead so you weren't involved but… you're obviously who i want to speak to if i'm upset. " and she means that, though she is taking this as a huge mistake on her part, speaking to him so abruptly when she could have diffused it in herself a little more first. it conflicts her slightly, to know that going to him isn’t always the best thing as this is the opposite of the kind of comfort she was hoping for. she wasn’t even expecting him to be in her corner or blindly supporting her, just hoping she could vent a little and then they’d speak it through and she could figure out how she’s actually feeling. she supposes that is what’s happening, just not in the way she’d imagined it in her head. " i know that,  and i do see it from her side, okay ? i just got defensive, like…  " it didn't help callie literally couldn't care less, making her feel the need for it, or that she was already sensitive about frankie's absence that morning— she knows she's in the wrong but all it does is frustrates her more. " i don't want to be on bad terms with her, it just upset me… and talking about it with her made me feel worse, so maybe i overreacted... " she'd like to think her feelings are valid, part of her annoyance coming from the fact that callie doesn't, but if she has to just swallow this down so that she can stop everything getting even worse then she will. " look, i'll go and apologise— can you just… like… wait if you’re going to speak to her ? "

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victoriafm​:

victoria can actually relate to what adela’s saying, having not been told no a whole lot in her life either. but even she thought jenny’s blow up was a bit much. and she used to be #teamjenny all the way. “ i guess you’re right. i mean, i’m spoiled and even i thought her behavior was a little…you know…too much. ” she doesn’t feel too bad saying that because it’s true. when adela mentions that miles and santiago were a rough choice, victoria can’t help but wonder if she should tell the truth. it’s true, she could’ve voted for a real couple but it’s not like she cared about any of the people in here. “ yeah. i thought it would be nice to give the lgbt community a win on this show for once. ” that truly was her rationale when picking.

“ she obviously expected to just get it, which... i mean, that’s on her anyways. ” adela can’t really feel sorry for jenny given everything even if she’s in the same boat. their quite similar really, except jenny is much more on the surface with these kinds of things while adela likes to pretend she’s nothing like it, so she’s not gonna kick up the fuss the blonde did. “ okay, true... but it would’ve been way better if it was you and charlene. ” and if adela knew people were just fucking about, she’d have voted for them. though, voting for anyone who had been in here less than her felt like a fucking crime. “ though i do still need to get all the details... ” she’ll have to grill miles later about it. 

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graftisms​:

day :   forty-two / evening

location :   outside somewhere

featuring :   @bluemmings​

“ HAVE YOU TALKED TO HER YET ? ”   josh asks, nodding in mali’s direction.   “ i’m assuming no, since i don’t see claw marks in either of you. ” 

“ i have actually, ” a pause to flip her hair over her shoulder out of the way like this is a super serious conversation. “ —and she’s still a massive fucking bitch. ” she scoffs. “ have you fucked her yet ? ” a brow raises up at him. she’s joking, of course, but she does want to know what josh is thinking. 

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blondcs​:

“i… okay.” her shoulders slump, a frustrated shrug as she turns her attention to her iced coffee instead. she does realize that, but she didn’t want to say nothing. especially when she’s itching to gossip and adela’s the only person she can picture siding with frankie over miles. it’s like when dante picked romi for the hideaway the day after their big date and no one so much as bat an eye all over again. somehow these guys have found a way to act as shitty as they want without anyone ever calling them on it, meanwhile the minute jenny shows even an ounce of emotion there’s an uproar. it’s ridiculous. she wonders if some part of adela feels the same, because her willingness to give even an inch almost catches jenny by surprise. “the eden stuff is gross,” she chimes in automatically, like she’s thought it so many times it can’t help but come spilling out. it’s not like she owes miles anything anyway. “like, seeing them flirting and kissing right out in the open was so fucking weird—it literally felt like a revenge plot for all the callie stuff.” jenny had felt guilty after miles’ whole speech about bullying, but she’s wondering if he’s just really good at leaning into that boyish charm and talking himself out of trouble. or maybe she’s still annoyed he wouldn’t massage her freakin’ head. “i don’t know what kind of arrangement they had, but i would’ve felt stupid as hell if i was her. no offense.” 

it’s hard not to be at odds with jenny when she has her own guard up so fiercely, forever burned by the fact she wanted them to be friends in here that she’d repel any attempt at solace, would cut off her nose to spite her face every damn time instead of ever bringing her walls back down. she knows jenny is reactive, so the fact she just shrugs off adela’s bluntness is louder than any shriek or groan the other could give. it forces her to consider that the blonde was just checking in on her, despising how it feels so pitiful. that, out of everyone, jenny is the one who actually gives a fuck. “ i feel like it came out of nowhere as well, “ adela agrees with a nod, suddenly not as fond as eden as she thought she was purely from her bias toward frankie. it’s not eden’s fault, and it does make adela wonder if she’s being anti-feminist or something, but she can’t help it. she feels even extra protective of frankie now that she’s not here.  “ well, they weren’t like together-together so i guess it’s okay, right ? ” her tone drips with a hint of theatrics with her sarcasm, feeling like it’s pretty ridiculous given how set miles and frankie seemed to her. “ you’d think that in that situation miles would wake up, and if he really really wanted to be with her then he’d go with her. maybe he saw it as a quick out from everything... but like, even if they had shit going on, he’s not gonna find anything like that with anyone else here and he’s literally just thrown it away. ” though maybe miles knows that and just doesn’t care. maybe he didn’t give a damn about frankie at all !  “ goes to show, though, that even the guys you think you can trust just ain’t shit. ” she clicks her tongue, head shaking with the annoyance that she knows how much frankie wanted him to leave with her. 

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victoriafm​:

location : lounge area availability : closed ( for @bluemmings​ ) 

“ last night was intense as fuck. ” the blonde muses. but don’t get her wrong, she enjoyed it! it was kind of fun to see jenny blow up in front of everyone over something as silly as the hideaway. she did feel a little bad that everyone seemed to gang up on the blonde but she figured that jenny kind of earned it with her behavior. not that victoria hasn’t thrown a hissy fit or two in her lifetime after not getting what she wants. “ so much drama & for what ? ” once again acting like she didn’t eat the drama up!

jenny’s little blow up had adela realising she once again agreed with the blonde, something that’s becoming less and less rare with each day. she would’ve loved to have the hideaway, even if she didn’t get it with dylan, another actual couple would’ve been far better than whoever’s bright fucking idea it was to send off santiago and miles. “ i reckon she was just coddled way too much in her childhood, like... probably never been told ’ no ’ in her life. ” cheryl will probably tell her off for psychoanalysing jenny but oh well. “ miles and santiago were a rogue choice though... did you vote for them ? ” she wonders, trying to work out who actually did. 

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heatwayve​:

– “YEAH, WELL…MILES DOESN’T EXACTLY STRIKE ME AS THE TYPE who came in here for something serious, ” naomi remarks with a skeptical raise of her brow. she personally thinks miles’ days are numbered. “ bet he’ll just fuck about. ” naomi can remember one of her first conversations, where she asked what mali and adela’s deal was. she still doesn’t completely get it, but when she met mali, it had seemed more like she blamed dylan for how her cute blonde friend got hurt. “ we’re probably, like, a week and a half out from the final anyway. i wouldn’t sweat it. it just bothers me, like…do you think josh seems on edge ? ”

“ yeah, no shit, he’s a footy lad. ” adela laughs. she does think there was something semi-serious in him and frankie, though. in a way she kinda envies the singles and couples who will just get to fuck about for the next week or so knowing that nothing is ever really gonna get too serious. “ that’s a long time in here. ” she points out, and adela knows her temper can be short at times, no doubt her and mali will clash at some point probably sooner than later.  “ he’s probably just fretting she’s gonna try and start some shit or something, ” and adela would not be surprised ! “ but honestly... our beef kind of started with me calling her out about josh. like, that girl is obsessed with him. it’s weird. ”

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inquixotic​:

“well, i know it’s not someone who calls him…what was it? dull? uninteresting? or acts like they’ll fuck his literal least favorite person in here for a laugh.” their tone makes it evident that they don’t believe it was a joke for a second. but honestly, have a little sense of media literacy — has she never seen the show? it almost feels cruel to insult adela when she’s clearly not as smart. “but, y’know, i like my men to have a little self respect, so i don’t think it’ll work out.” they click their tongue against their teeth, brow furrowing as if deep in thought. someone in her relationships had to, after all!  “but hey, i’m thrilled it’s working out for you. so glad you realized he was more than a ticket back sooner rather than later.” her smirk is extremely self satisfied. she’s very confident the only reason adela didn’t graft anyone else is because she’d look bad if she did. 

so she’s seen some things, even if her memory is off — it was plain and boring, mali. keep up. adela will always think movie night was blown way out of proportion and context was lost, but having mali throw it back at her causes her to feel a different kind of irate. “ well, it’s a good thing neither of us give a fuck what you think so i reckon we’ll be just fine. ” her tone lined with more bite suddenly, not even bothered to hide it from the other. “ and maybe you should focus on men who actually like you back. that was a real challenge for you last time, wasn’t it ? ” she can’t quite stop her grin, especially as she really can’t relate. even now she reckons she has options if she really wanted them. she wants to ignore her last comment... also wants to say something snarky that would most definitely get herself into trouble as it always does just to get a win in this very moment. instead, she just scoffs, wanting to shut it down. “ okay, but, babes... why would i go for dylan if that’s all i wanted ? we both had options. it’s not like he was a safe pick. well, safer than betting on josh, i guess, but... go figure. ”  

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cruelsxmmcr​:

It’s not the first time Adela says a million things in under a minute, and while he’s used to it, he’s struggling a bit to keep up with her, purely because of the information dump. Still, he listens to the best of his abilities, giving her his full attention and focus. However, the more she talks, the more visibly confused and concerned he grows. He’s already talked to Callie right after the game, so he already knows her stance on this, but that had been before this talk went down, and if he knows his sister, he knows she might be looking at things differently now. He can read between the lines of what Adela’s saying: she wants Callie’s approval and not getting it in that moment makes her feel anxious about their relationship. She doesn’t need to say it, but he knows Adela well enough to see this. He doesn’t enjoy hearing that Callie wasn’t very responsive, but also, he’s not jumping to conclusions. Sure, he already knows about her perspective, but he’ll need to listen to his sister’s side of things, too.

“Okay,” he says when she finishes talking, waiting a little bit to see if she’s going to say some more. He blinks a little, rubbing the nape of his neck, taken aback by all of this. The last thing he wants is this, tension and drama between Adela and Callie. “Honestly, that was a lot, so give me  second to just… register all of it,” he admits sheepishly, frowning lightly as he thinks. “I’m going to talk to Callie,” he says at first. “I mean, I’ve already talked to her about the game right afterwards, but I’m going to talk to her again. She doesn’t dislike you. I know you might not believe it, but she doesn’t dislike you. If she did, I’d be the first person to know this.” Because they both wouldn’t shy away from admitting what they think about their partners. There’s still so much he wants to say, but it’s all a mess in his head, and he’s slowly working on organizing his thoughts to share them with Adela. But he needs her to know this before they continue.

“ sorry, ” her lips flatten down to a fine line, shifting uncomfortably while she waits for dylan to say something. she’d give anything for those instant thoughts of his, just to know what immediately came to mind for him and compare it to what comes out. he sorts through his thoughts so much more carefully than she does. the words that he decides on are quick to bring a soft shake of her head, having already thought about the idea of dylan having to sort this for her or how she’d just be causing issues for him and callie when she’s the problem.  “ i don’t really want you to talk to her about it,” adela tells him, though she knows that’s going to be his choice regardless of whether she actually asks him not to. “ like, it’s just gonna be something else i’ve done wrong ‘cause i've made it into this big, stupid thing and i just wanna leave it now. ” and callie just seemed so unbothered so adela doesn’t want to drag it out more than needs be.  it’s something she will get over, maybe even apologise for, but for now she doesn’t want to deal with any of it and dylan’s involvement feels like it could just be fuel to a fire she wants put out.