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🚺5ft • sw:172 • cw:150 • ugw:90

[bluntsntears]

hit my 1st gw of 150! just last month i was 172! i have a high bmi so ofc it’s gonna be easier but y’all i’m telling u it works. just count those cals & hey i even fucked up a few days & went over my limit. u can do it too no excuses. gotta be strict with it. can’t wait to see how much i’ll lose this next month!

my limit is 800cal btw it’s not too low or too high, it’s the # that works for ME

[bluntsntears]

had crazyyy chocolate cravings , measured out a serving size of nesquik 50cal for 14g & yes yes i am eating it 😭😭😭 but hey it works

total for today 650 , i stg i better lose

[bluntsntears]

any kik group chats ? comment or msg me !

[bluntsntears]

craving some of my favorite bread atm but already had my calories for today , going to make a cup of coffee instead 😭 not losing my progress

[mychocolatechains]

Me trying to escape from the chocolate in the fridge that's calling my name:

[bluntsntears]

so i just binged on salad & ice water?! LMFAOOO could’ve been a lot worse. i love veggies they are so low cal & ya girl is FULL 🥰

[bluntsntears]

it’s so weird cuz the ed side of my brain is irrational asf & always takes over & my regular side is like ... trying to make the best LMFAOO omg do u guys know what i’m talking about

[bluntsntears]

wow just last month i was 172 now i’m 155 that’s a whole 17 pounds wtf , i was being so hard on myself too ! not bad cam, not bad 😂 but we still got way more to go. so motivating

but i look the same WHAT THE FUCK , all i can really see is my stomach getting A BIT smaller 🤬

[depression-and-literature-deact]

The best way I can describe having depression is a constant heavy... thing looming over you. And it gets heavier and heavier every single day. Everything feels like you’re dragging a huge ball and chain behind you and it feels like you’re never gonna get out of it.

[bluntsntears]

literally ........

[wont-be-seeing-a-doctor]

Can someone tell my stomach to STOP MAKING SOUNDS when I'm hanging out with others

[bluntsntears]

ok mfp says 720 but i rounded up to 750 cal 😡😡

i usually end up staying around 500 i’m trying to not go past 800 that’s the ABSOLUTE MAX ugh , like i know i’m in defecit or whatever but still i hate it fuck a breakfast ya girl doing OMAD

[bluntsntears]

OMG FUCK ☠️ pasta for dinner , it’s whole grain but still . having a few bites & that’s it . already had breakfast earlier at 260 cal it was healthy & filling tho . but still , the numbers are finally going down & i am not about to fuck it up .

[bluntsntears]

fuck a breakfast ima start doing 20 hr fasting with a 4 hr eating window

we ordering pizza ugh i’m gonna have only 2 slices & that’s it for today fasting until tomorrow’s dinner 😭

[bluntsntears]

now , i love how i feel when i’m hungry . empty & light . god it’s addicting ...

[bluntsntears]

venting real quick because maybe other ppl can relate ? idk fuck it

depression i FUCKING HATE YOU !!! it’s like i’m a shell of my old self . all my smiles , laughs , can’t remember the last time it was genuine . i feel so fucking empty all the time . i feel alone when i’m with people . it feels like there’s a dark cloud over my head every , single , day . the crazy part , i don’t want to die . been there tried that & i know it’s more to life i know but why is it so hard . seriously i am so fucked up . & to top it off with ANXIETY from abuse , thanks mom & dad . i fucking have an attack over shit that i know has no reason but i can’t control anything . i can’t speak up anymore , i’m always nervous , scared , panicking , on guard all the time & i’m sooo tired of living like this dude ...

[bluntsntears]

woke up & weighed at exactly 155 , 5 pounds from my 1st goal weight at this rate i’ll be skinny in no mf time

light breakfast with a little coffee usually black but i put a bit of milk in it & this lil fruit salad rounded up to 120cal 🥰

[bluntsntears]

yum ! a late night snack , a nice cup of ice water 😍🥵