BobbyHumps

[bobb-yhumps]

If she could step into my shoes, feel my heart just for one minute. She’d know how much how deeply I care for her. She’d know how deeply in love with her I am. She’d be sad for every ugly and hateful word she’s ever said to me. She’d cry because she could see how badly she’s hurt me. She’d never let me go to bed alone again. Unfortunately, that can never happen so instead I get torn to shreds every day.

[surqrised]

“you can’t satisfy everyone in your life, and that’s okay. you’re just one person and you’re doing your best.”

— Unknown

[resqectable]

“What is a friend? We probably all have our own definitions. For me, it’s someone I don’t feel alone with. Who doesn’t bore me. Whose life I connect with and who takes reciprocal interest in my life. It’s someone I feel comfortable turning to when I need to be talked off the ledge, and for whom I am glad to return the favor. Just a few people in my life fit that bill.”

— Sophia Dembling, The Introvert’s Way: Living a Quiet Life in a Noisy World (via surqrised)

[stay-close]

“If you have been brutally broken, but still have the courage to be gentle to others then you deserve a love deeper than the ocean itself.”

— Nikita Gill (via meineluft)

[bobb-yhumps]

If it’s one sound I can go the rest of my life without hearing from her is the mumbling under her mother fucking breath. Knowing damn well I can’t hear what she says, the sad thing is that I know 80% of it is ugly.

[bobb-yhumps]

I’m so mind fucked. I have to leave her, I know I do. If I ever want to experience love again I have to! I know the love has been dead for a long time, but she is more like a best friend and for years my druggie buddy. The friend/buddy that ya know, was violent when drinking, although those days are long past, the emotional and verbal abuse never left. 23 years is a long time and leaving her (which I still haven’t done) is the hardest thing ever.

I just want to be my normal self again. I don’t want to feel depressed all the time (which I never admit to anyone) I want to enjoy life again, enjoy my time with my kids. My mind is so consumed by all this that sometimes I’m stuck between staying and being miserable, but at least my mind is not overwhelming me and I can mask up and pretend life is good.

[perfeqt]

“When I say, I love you, it’s not because I want you or because I can’t have you. It has nothing to do with me. I love what you are, what you do, how you try. I’ve seen your kindness and your strength. I’ve seen the best and the worst of you. And I understand with perfect clarity exactly what you are.”

— Joss Whedon

[bobb-yhumps]

This is the most beautiful thing I’ve read today.

[bobb-yhumps]

Everyday is a good day, just some days are better than others.

[inmyownwordz]

I have spent a lot of time in the storms. I have let the darkness comfort me. I have been lost without hope. I have lost my faith. And I have been torn between life and death. If you find yourself in a storm, comforted by darkness, feeling lost, and without hope, or faith... contemplating. Always choose life! You have faced tragedy before and you overcame that! You are here, and as long as you have your life, you can get out of any situation. As long as you are breathing there is still a chance for change! There is still a chance for better. This too will pass!

Choose Life | K.A.M ( @inmyownwordz ) | All Rights Reserved 2021 ©️

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[surqrised]

“Don’t waste your time trying to get people to love you. Spend your time with those who already do.”

— Unknown

[resqectable]

“You don’t ever have to feel guilty about removing toxic people from your life. It doesn’t matter whether someone is a relative, romantic interest, employer, childhood friend, or a new acquaintance - you don’t have to make room for people who cause you pain or make you feel small. It’s one thing if a person owns up to their behaviour and makes an effort to change. But if a person disregards your feelings, ignores your boundaries, and “continues” to treat you in a harmful way, they need to go.”

— Daniell Koepke

[perfectfeelings]

“Imagine being loved the way you love.”

—

[surqrised]

“All of us fight hidden, silent battles against not being good enough, not having enough and not belonging enough.”

— Brené Brown

[bobb-yhumps]

Why is it so hard to walk away from an abusive relationship? Yes, I’m a man, a man the loved my wife more than anything in the world. Through all the drugs and alcoholism I stayed by your side. Through all your abuse, I still stayed by your side. Through both your cancers, I stayed by your side. I loved you to death but just thought you were sick, and your were. Through therapy I learned you were mentally sick, but I still stuck by your side. Until I learned that you were making me sick too. For me to stay in this marriage, I’d stay sick, and miserable, and I wouldn’t live much longer. I need the strength to walk away.

[conscious-love]

drheidigreen ~ Instagram

[conscious-love]

nu_mindframe ~ Twitter

[bobb-yhumps]

This hits hard.

[bobb-yhumps]

23 years is a long time to be in love with someone who’s not in love with you. I’ve used every drug and successfully quit every drug, but leaving you is still the hardest thing I’ll ever have to do. You are my drug of choice.