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sup I'm an artist. old art blog was a sideblog that got put in the shadow realm. Natasha/Bogs; 28; Canada

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Hello! I'm bogbees aka Tasha Bee. I'm a hobby artist who focuses on my ships. I wanna be a comic artist, but my adhd gives me a hard time with it. I was @bogbeesdead

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you spend nearly 20 years with a cat, from her birth and to her death, and then one day she just ain't there anymore and it's disorienting and miserable as hell.

like i'm fortunate that she lived so long. she's fortunate that she never had any health issues aside from a sac on her lip that was mostly a cosmetic issue and her spine failing her at the end there

but fuck.

she's not in any of the places she should be. her routine is just gone. there's no crying for attention at 3am bc she's sooky she's alone. she's not following me to the bathroom. she's not getting her claws stuck in my shitty jeans bc i'm not petting her enough. she's not underfoot and camouflaging into the kitchen floor while i'm cooking.

i wanted at least one more summer together, for us to hang out on the back porch at 3am, for her to see her 20th birthday in september.

we're tossing her bed bc it's unsalvageable, but keeping her dishes. i don't know where any of her collars are, if we kept them or they fell off.

this sucks

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September 14th 2007 to June 1st 2026. damn.

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the appointment is at 2 and she kept grabbing at my hand when i wasn't petting her enough despite the fact she needed both paws to sit upright steady. mom keeps repeating the logic of the situation bc i've been constantly sobbing and it's like i understand!! she can't move her lower spine!! she lost all mobility!! she's a 19 yr old cat!! that's terminal care ward of a geriatric home age for cats!! i'm just really really sad she's going. she's been with me pretty much since she was born

like. i was sitting at the table, just watching her, and she noticed me and started dragging herself towards me for attention

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still on ab kiki

like. i'm never gonna hear her meow at 3am bc she's lonely, she's never going to follow me to the bathroom, get her soup at 3:30pm,

i'll never sneak her onto my lap in mom's chair, bc mom hates cat hair on her chair

like mom would pile pillows onto her chair to deter her and she'd still get up on it

she's never going to meow at me again and i'm never going to respond to her ever again

i'm so tired of crying man

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some other pictures of kiki

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this is my favourite picture of my cat. it's got my brother holding her awkwardly, my mom annoying her further. just a big fan of her undignified expression

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the old timer like ten years ago

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we're putting kiki down tomorrow. it doesn't feel fair bc she can function fine aside from moving her hind legs and tail, but she's geriatric, an old timer, too old to play old cat, methuselah. she feel down the stairs and was stuck at the bottom of the stairs, managed to pee and poop in the corner of the hallway before going back to sit at the bottom waiting to be picked up. it's probably more humane to send her off instead of prolonging her life looking for medication so she can move the lower half of her body.

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ok so kiki was being very vocal ab being sooky and so i just hung out with her for like. 3 hrs? just petting her until she dozed off and repeating whenever she woke up and was insulted i wasn't petting her

ok

and so my phone is dead. couldn't really occupy my mind with much else than cooking up some fried rice and the tv playing stingray classic country.

oh wait! stingray classic country! that's a channel! i wonder what other channels were on the samsung tv... more stingray genres... huh, children's television, channels dedicated to just a show... there's a hunter x hunter channel?! A NARUTO CHANNEL!?!

so you knows i pops that on

and it's the filler with ibiki's filler younger brother who was trying to be an athlete. which was fine. but then it had some real stupid shit like the 2nd hokage (tobirama, looks like kakashi) having a weird lightsaber?? and the mist ninjas having a crossbow. and like. i watched most of this thinking "damn iruka's not gonna be here what a shame" BUT THEN NARUTO HAD A BONDING MOMENT WITH THE FILLER BROTHER OVER HAVING ONE GUY BELIEVE IN YOU AND IT REPLAYED MY FAVOURITE PART OF CHAPTER ONE AND I WAS FRAT BOY CHEERING LIKE AN IDIOT

the only issue i have with the filler is that it shags up sasuke vs. naruto on the hospital roof bc there's no beef fr naruto regarding his feelings of rejection that he needed to find consolation by going to iruka. like. that's missing from the rising climax here. sucks.

but the opening and ending themes were some of the best so that was fun

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please stop praying for my cat. you are making her too spry. the reaper can't catch her

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weh

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kiki is my 19 year old cat. she is geriatric. might be the oldest cat i know of personally. so that means death is around the corner.

today, she can not move her hind legs at all. but, she's eager to move around and so she's been dragging herself on her ass and been really chatty and seems overall chill despite her new impairment??? like she doesn't exhibit any of the standard distressed cat signs as far as i can tell.

but regardless, we're talking ab getting her put down bc she's 19, and while i have been waking up everyday like "kiki might die today" that was more like. finding her dead body. not like, driving her to a vet to get her put down. so it's like. fuck. damn.

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i have not been on at all recently bc of palia BUT ALSO!! my phone has been dead for a week and i'm like. free. i feel free without it. desktop tumblr ain't the same and i'm less inclined to post anything fr desktop unless it's smth i drew?? i dunno

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remember the uwukas

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lol lmao even

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huh