im actively going insane

my digital diary bc the journal factory did lowkey explode i also just really love diary of a wimpy kid lowkey vent blog minor

[lotsoftimetokill]

school starting is genuinely my worst nightmare

[buck-forever]

now that im growing i cant replicate the risky taboo feeling of being with older guys

it’s not as wrong as it used to be

love was always about suffering and secrecy and now it’s about adoration

i just want it to feel wrong again

i just want them to victimize me

[kissmetillirot]

PLEASE dumb things down. PLEASE bend down to talk to me. PLEASE do everything for me. PLEASEEEE baby me.

[colbyskennel]

plleaassee put your fingers in my mouth. feel around at my teeth, push down on my tongue, press your fingertips against my canines and fawn at how sharp they are.

i wanna taste

[lotsoftimetokill]

you're starting to look really weird right now (eye bags, not eating, only in my room, vaping, smoking, drinking every night)

[lotsoftimetokill]

goals for the upcoming school year:

have my first kiss

kiss a girl

become a girlkisser

get drunk as fuck and kiss a girl

make out with a girl

get into college idk

girl kissing me

[lotsoftimetokill]

kinda bored send asks pls pleaseeeee

[lotsoftimetokill]

im scared im running out of time to be creative

[lotsoftimetokill]

i just wanna be babied by someone

[lotsoftimetokill]

lowkey wanna be groomed so bad

[lotsoftimetokill]

lowkey feeling like a selfish pos because i found out the guy that used to like me has a gf now like I didn’t like him at all but he really liked me and i don’t want him to move on I want him to keep chasing after me even tho I don’t like him

[lotsoftimetokill]

i feel so out of it and just not really here

[lotsoftimetokill]

sometimes i cant picture a relationship unless theres an insane power dynamic, giant age gap, and im getting groomed

[lotsoftimetokill]

I just had a 5 hour phone call conversation with my friend where I just cried and he talked about being gay

[lotsoftimetokill]

i literally thought i had bpd at 11 years old and like i still think i have bpd but i dontw anna self diagnose but like what the FUCK is my brain fuckign DOING

[lotsoftimetokill]

im actually like at the worst fuckign point right now and my friends wont even fucking text me back like okay fuck me i guess but genuinely what the fuck

[lotsoftimetokill]

do you know embarrassing it is to tell your parents that you want singing lessons