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I came out to pretty much everyone today.

Then I went one scarier…and came out to my cat.

Seen this getting some love again, so I just wanted to share that my sweet little lady passed away a few months ago.

It was incredibly hard, but it means the world to have had her love, and means even more that she still gets love here now

<3 Thank you <3

#transgender #transmasc #transisbeautiful

in cat they don't say fuck you they say meow which means fuck you and i think that's really beautiful

#really beautiful

Avengers: Infinity War (2018)

#avengers #infinity war #thanos #baby thanos #infinity gauntlet

My First 2 Years of Puberty: A Review

#ftm #transmasculine #trans problems #queer

*12:01am Jan 1 2018*

me:

#nye #daddy #new year #fuck 2017

At first glance I read this as FRUIT PANCAKES so my mind is CLEARLY in the right place despite what my therapist says.

#therapist #pancakes

I just came across the video of you coming out to your cat from two years ago, and I was wondering how you are doing now? Are you happy?

This feels like an important question so I wanted to answer publicly.

Yesterday was my 2nd birthday. Marking two years since I started hormones. And a little more than two years since I came out.

After coming out, and being greeted with an incredible degree of support and love from family, friends, and most importantly my cat, I was flooded with relief. It was the blissfully ignorant belief that everything would be better, that I was finally home.

I was so incredibly wrong.

That doesn’t mean I am unhappy, I am far from it. But it has been a fight.

Maybe this isn’t the best analogy but I just got done binging Stranger Things 2 so this is just where my head is at…

You know in a horror movie when you haven’t seen the monster yet and it’s miserable, anxiety-riddled agony imagining what’s going to come and when it’s coming? But then later, you finally see what’s been lurking just out of frame and the fear is still there but it’s different somehow? There’s some sort of relief in that visibility, but you’re still left looking at this beast wondering if you’ll get out alive.

That’s where I’m at. Finally looking in the eyes of those scary things from the shadows, fighting to be the one standing at the end.

Coming out is just the beginning. There is so much work that comes after. I had no idea I would be battling these monsters, or even that these monsters existed.

I am fighting. I am exhausted. And yes, even still, I am happy.

But it is not easy.

I say this not to scare anyone, but because there is a lot of romanticizing that happens around the coming-out narrative. As if that’s the hard part–and don’t get me wrong, it is hard. But the reason it’s hard doesn’t magically disappear once you’ve done it. The world we live in does so much damage beyond simply silencing you, and that world doesn’t magically change once you find your voice.

I say this because if you don’t feel sunshine-and-daisies feelings after you come out, you should know you’re not alone.

If you find monsters when you open that closet door, I want you to know there are many others fighting at your side.

#transmasculine #ftm #queer #coming out #coming out to my cat #trans is beautiful #trans #LGBTQIA #transgender

“what are your plans for the weekend?”

me:

#weekend #plans #isabella rossellini

me attempting to make sense of my thoughts and feelings

#thoughts #feelings #bad at feelings

you: what’s your halloween costume supposed to be?

me, an intellectual: oH i DoNt KnOw maybe just THE OVERHEAD PROJECTOR FROM SEASON 4 EPISODE 10 OF BUFFY THE VAMPIRE SLAYER.

#buffy #slayer #thegentlemanstealhearts #lookinginwindows #knockingondoors #theyneedtotakesevenandtheymighttakeyours #btvs #hush

i love tumblr because it’s like writing in Tom Riddle’s diary except instead of being a genocidal wizard bigot Tom is just v queer and obsessed with cats and Supernatural.

#tumblr #tom riddle #queer #cats #supernatural #harry potter

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