A Devil Wrapped in Silk

✨a personal mental illness tumblr ✨

[bonsoirbunny]

✨BYF✨

if you’ve somehow managed to come across this tumblr, then hello! I hope this post finds you well, and if it doesn’t, then always remember that hard times aren’t hard forever ♡

this is a very personal blog that I’ll be chronicling my mental health journey in, so there will be mainly positive reblogs, but I will often post things that will contain topics pertaining to:

self harm/suicide

depression

eating disorders

intrusive thoughts that may or may not be violent

ptsd

anxiety

csa and sa

sexual themes and hypersexuality

chronic illness and disability

do NOT interact if you’re pro-ED, a minor, racist, fatphobic, homophobic, transphobic, ableist, or just an asshole in general. your negativity will never be given power here.

while this is a safe space for me specifically, I will do my best to tag my text posts accordingly as not to trigger anyone else. with that being said, remember that you are loved, and it’s always darkest before daybreak. stay safe. 🌙

[milkygothgf]

Yeahyeahyeah being disabled makes sex harder yadayada but do you know how hot it is when youre both so fucking desperate for each other so in need but having a hard time getting situated and it just isnt working out and hearing "let me help you../can you help me..?" LIKE 😵‍💫😵‍💫

[milkygothgf]

Nono because I'm gonna elaborate and you're gonna hear me out. Disabled sub trying to ride their dom but their legs are giving out and they're slowing down. Their dom saying "here, baby, let me help you.." and grabbing their hips and taking over thrusting for them. Disabled dom jerking themself off in front of their sub until their wrists start locking up so they beckon their sub closer and ask, "want to help me out, love?" Disabled sub asking for help humping their pillow because their hips arent wanting to move right, and their dom moving them for them. Disabled dom struggling to keep jerking their sub off, so their sub whispers, "let me help.." and moves their dom's hand away and starts touching themself while they watch. Asking for and needing help is so hot actually and being disabled adds a whole new level of intimacy to sex. I'm trusting you with my pleasure since I can't always do it myself<3

[furryprovocateur]

when you're autistic and you learn how to smalltalk it literally feels like you started hacking real life

[disableddyke]

if your class solidarity doesn’t include people who are on SSI, food stamps, or are unable to work it’s not solidarity

[abouquetofdaylillies-deactivate]

Pre-menstrual depression is always depicted as like "He He! I had a box of icecream bars and cried while watching the Titanic!" But in reality, it's more like, "I'm standing the edge of an abyss. There is nothing good inside of me, I'm filled with rage and desperation."

It's crazy that being told how to deal with that is never a part of anyone's menstrual sex education.

[headspace-hotel]

This has already been said in the notes, but if PMS causes extreme depression and even suicidal ideation, that is in fact something that most people do not experience and it can be treated

Like for the majority it really is "oh i'm hungrier and moodier than usual"

^this should be a part of sex education so the point still stands

[godesssiri]

I went to my doctor after I was walking to work one morning and saw a bus coming and actually took a step to throw myself in front of it before I pulled myself together. Later that day I started bleeding and was literally like someone flipped a switch and I didn't feel suicidal anymore. Which made me feel like I was loosing my mind because who goes from 'I want to throw myself in front of a bus' to 'I'm perfectly fine' just like that? I did some research, I went to the doctor and described my feelings, he looked me in the eye and gently asked what I thought it was, I said I'd read about PMDD and I thought it might be that, he said 'I think so too' and wrote a prescription.

If, before you get your period, you feel furiously angry, suicidal, irritated by every tiny thing to the point you want to murder someone, stuck in a black hole you'll never escape from. If you are experiencing extreme emotions for what seems like no good reason, especially if you get your period and those extreme emotions just go away. You're probably not just PMSing , you may have PMS's feral big sister PMDD and it's treatable.

Also this is something that can develop as you get older. So if you used to get normal PMS but what I wrote above sounds more like your norm now then don't just write it off as regular PMS.

[ebonyheartnet]

Also, to my PCOS, Endometriosis, and otherwise irregular period friends: sometimes PMDD doesn’t go away At All until your period starts. So, if you’re having a reduced number of periods not related to birth control use, this goes double.

[cakesandfail]

Another point to note: if you're autistic and/or ADHD the likelihood of having PMDD is much higher than it is for other people. If you're experiencing things like much more frequent and explosive meltdowns or a significantly harder time with emotional regulation when your period is on the way... you should look into PMDD.

[teacupbug]

My controversial opinion is that I think chronically ill people should be able to fight one doctor a year

[painedandconfusedsblog]

I don’t know who needs to hear it but it is not a moral failing if you are doing all that you can to relieve pain yet are not making a dent. It’s not your fault. Your pain is not your fault. Relief isn’t happening because your pain is mighty and under treated. Not because you aren’t trying hard enough. Your pain is not your fault.

[flowercrowncrip]

Disabled people who want to and can work deserve to be able to access fair, good quality employment without discrimination.

Disabled people who are unable to work deserve to be able to afford to live a good quality life without facing discrimination

[fibro-memes]

Original post: https://www.tumblr.com/crpl-pnk/164770967909/hey-if-youre-disabled-or-chronically-ill-have-a

[nightshadewine]

reblog to scream at full volume about your chronic illness without actually moving

[fibro-memes]

[luckypebble42]

It's me. I'm Chronically ill bitches

[ur-local-ghost-pal]

Everyone say it with me, the disability comes before the diagnosis ever can/does. Thank you for coming to my ted talk.

[sadhoc]

"neurodivergent" means disabled. it means disabled in some way involving cognition/emotion/sociability/mental abilities. it is a call to solidarity between the person with adhd, the autistic person, the depressed person, the dyslexic person, the schizophrenic person, the ocd haver, the intellectually disabled person, the person with dementia, the epileptic person, the stroke survivor, anyone who has a mental disability. it's a call to each of us to be more than ourselves, to be in solidarity against the ableism that affects all of us.

it isn't a quirky fashion statement. it has always been about disability

[nondivisable]

"everyone should care about accessibility because most people will become disabled at some point in their life" is a logical argument and I understand its popularity

however, everyone should care about accessibility because disabled people are fellow human beings living in the same society as you who deserve the same rights as you

thank you good night

[jenacat8-blog]

Being neurodivergent and chronically ill is crazy because you already have issues with executive functions and then your body hinders you even more. AND your sensory issues are heightened by the pain you feel.

[janeacular]

can they invent a mobility aid that helps with the joint pain & also does NOT cause different joint pain in a different area from use