so i never really trust anyone around me. because one second you’d feel like they’re the one who cares the most about you, then the other second you felt like nothing to them.
and even i feel so distant to my family. they ignored me too much, and now when they try to get closer, i push them away. i sealed myself from the outside world.
i’ve always feel so lonely. so empty. i dont let people see what’s behind these walls, but i want to see someone trying,
i want someone who is willing to fight for me
someone who spends their time wondering am i doing fine
someone who will be there to listen to my 3am thoughts
someone who would always check up on me
someone who’d tell me how much i meant to them, that the more i hold my shield, the more they will try to see what's behind it
i want to see someone giving all their effort for me. don’t give up on me. i just want to feel the feeling of being wanted.