Iridescent Soul

This is my secret place to look where I am an open book!

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If I look back far enough…

If I look back far enough

I see me as a toddler

In the house where I was born

Broken windows yet rays of sun

Brick walls whose color was dun

But playing with dolls was the real fun

“Oh honey when did you grow up so much?”

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I move further

and I see my first day at school

Been a mumma’s girl for five long years

Said good bye as i hold back the tears

Tied my hairs kept a line in the stairs

I introduced myself as the class cheers

I walk out the door and one figure appears

I kissed my mom with the fall of tears

“Oh honey when did you grow up so much?”

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I move further and i feel

Those were the days

Morning at school back at noon

Evening at the garden green and cool

Back at seven that was the rule

That life was the real jewel

“Oh honey when did you grow up so much?”

~

I move further

I’m eighteen now and I see myself

Surrounded by the countless cliques

Filled with lousy chicks

Engaged in social media clicks

That’s when the reality kicks

“Oh honey WHY did you grow up so much?”

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Let me?

Let me be the silence behind your words

that needed the space to breathe

Let me be the whisper behind your shouts

when your jealousy seethes

Let me be the rhyme in your poems

with the name of her that was beneath

Let me be the prayer behind your hopes

like a blowing wind between your teeth

Let me be the rhythm of your heartbeats

with a song buried beneath

Let me be the tears behind your anger

lurking quietly underneath

Let me be the emotion in your stories

darling be my sword and I'll be your sheathe!

— w i l l y o u l e t m e ?

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Deep in the meadow

Deep in the meadow

the sun rose and so did the shadow

to the sky above and earth below

tomorrow will come, that i know

Soft green grass with the howling gales

listen to the sound of nightingales

you left behind the world with fairy tales

may god glimmer you the magic that never fades

Bright red Sun sank lower

shadows of the evening grew longer

close your eyes and breathe slower

just stay with me a little bit longer

Here it is soft here it is warm

I'll give you shelter from every storm

sink your head upon my arm

I'll save you from every harm

Tomorrow your pain will fade away

and your scars will wash away

spread your wings and fly away

Tomorrow will be another day!

— Inspired by the hunger games lullaby Deep in the Meadow

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“You’ll never know me.”

He said as i was trying to narrate him. His eyes his lips his spirit all at once smiled at me. His eyes was blinking with feigned innocence which anchored my attention. That black eyes drilling into mine with so much light. The eyes were window to his soul. My heart stopped beating as I entered into that window was gleaming. I walked ahead in order to find outside door but couldn’t find it but on the other side i was getting deeper and deeper in his brightness but promptly something caught my consciousness. That was the dark spot between all these illumination. It was real himself all with his true darkness. He was just a shadow.The true one was inside. I found a fake face with his true himself.There was no door of coming outside. whoever gets in will be his convict.’

Suddenly his snap broke my absence.

“True”.

And i just walked away.

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I'm not the girl you once knew

Since you’ve been gone

I broke into the world I never knew

Thinking if I'd ever make it through  

That was the best I could do

When without a goodbye you flew

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Since you’ve been gone

I watch the stars and I still think of you

Wondering if even for once it was true

My endless feelings for you

Stuck around you like an old shoe

~

Since you’ve been gone

I remember my confession to you

Wondering if you'd love me too

But you made me stand in a queue

But I still stuck around like a glue

~

Since you’ve been gone

Seasons changed and the birds flew

I painted myself with the color of blue

Gone was any trace of you

Broken was my desire for you

~

But when everything went

Out of the blue

You came to me but guess what?

I'm not the girl you once knew!

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"why do you fear the stars?"

Because they remind me of someone whom I'll only get to see!

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Of all the masks we wear!

I don't care if it's the wistful smile

Buried beneath the demon Face

Or our act of innocence

When we play our Ace

I don’t care if it’s the affection

Hidden beneath that toxic Act

Or if it’s the toxic arrogance

Concealed under the sensible Tact

I don’t care if it’s the fire

Wrapped by those teary Eyes

Or if it’s the tears lurking

Beneath those faithful Lies

Because of all the masks we wear

Let that be shades of

Red, Blue or Fluorescent

Together they paint one heart

Leaving it IRIDESCENT!

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"Many boys will bring you flowers. But someday you'll meet a boy who will learn your favorite flower, your favorite song, your favorite sweet. And even if he is too poor to give you any of them, it won't matter because he will have taken the time to know you as no one else does. Only that boy earns your heart."

— Leigh Bardugo, Six of crows

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They say we’re living in the world with peace

but the truth is no happiness comes at ease

I thought my world was no less than a fairy land

where my dreams were made of sun and sand

One day from that wonderland one demon escaped

and no one heard a scream when i was raped

But it’s the society who said

how could being a grown up roam free

wear short dresses and breathe free

The world is too brutal for a girl ruled by a men

telling her how to dress and how to act

how to behave and how to react

As a father you did a really good job

raised me like a diamond in the rough

but as a husband was it enough?

It’s easy to say “i love you and I’ll help you in need”

but would you care to ask me if I’m okay when i bleed?

But I’m tired now

and I want it to end

So I took a blade in my hand

and slowly I bled

But if there’s an afterlife

make me a man instead!

— A girl with broken wings

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Until we meet again...

Someone's love

Someone's crying

Someone's echo

Someone's lying

Why does that affect me?

Crying on the beaches now

I swear I'm thinking over now

It's something that I need to speak about

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Someone’s smile

Someone’s laugh

Someone’s whisper

Someone’s photograph

Why does that affect me?

Collecting all those pieces now

Recalling all those speeches now

It’s something that i needed to speak about

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Someone’s touch

Someone’s tear

Someone’s joy

Someone’s fear

Why does that affect me?

Turning off the switches now

God, I think he must be older now

Something that i just can’t speak about

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Carving my name on your epitaph

Lying there

Until we meet again

Wondering where?

— you have never been forgotten and you never will!

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It was perfect until...

What happened to us??

We were the space between

the light and the shadow

A love that was soft and warm

As the grass of the meadow

We used to be like

the fire and ice

But did we carry love

That would never suffice?

Now I see you standing

in the smoky haze

recollecting those blurred visions

with a tearful gaze

They said love is all about

A promise and sacrifice

But metaphorically it's the fire

That has now turned into ice

Was it even “us” or

Was it just me

Balancing between

my wants and needs?

— Prioritizing between love and dreams??

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All I need is

a song to sing for

a tear to wipe for

a word to write for

a feeling to express for

a person to love for

a smile to die for

and a reason to live for!

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Goodbyes

The hardest thing is

to say goodbyes

But you did when we danced to

the pink and pretty skies

Broken were the dreams that we shared

with the tears holding in our eyes

Gone was the love when came

your dreams, my hopes and our sighs

“Until later” & “See you soon”

are the big fat lies

But if this is our epilogue then

just let me dance till sunrise

Until the shadow appears

and our soul ties

Perhaps someday you’ll realize

the meaning of the goodbyes

Maybe not so soon but

probably after my heart dies!

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If I look back far enough...

If I look back far enough

I see me as a toddler

In the house where I was born

Broken windows yet rays of sun

Brick walls whose color was dun

But playing with dolls was the real fun

"Oh honey when did you grow up so much?"

~

I move further

and I see my first day at school

Been a mumma’s girl for five long years

Said good bye as i hold back the tears

Tied my hairs kept a line in the stairs

I introduced myself as the class cheers

I walk out the door and one figure appears

I kissed my mom with the fall of tears

"Oh honey when did you grow up so much?"

~

I move further and i feel

Those were the days

Morning at school back at noon

Evening at the garden green and cool

Back at seven that was the rule

That life was the real jewel

"Oh honey when did you grow up so much?"

~

I move further

I'm eighteen now and I see myself

Surrounded by the countless cliques

Filled with lousy chicks

Engaged in social media clicks

That’s when the reality kicks

"Oh honey WHY did you grow up so much?"

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3 A.M.

It's 3 a.m.

And I’m alone in the night

Asking me ‘who am i?’

The inner me

The person

That I'm most afraid of

Is it really me?

Who is it that I’m trying to be?

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It's 3 a.m.

And I'm still the same

Looking in the mirror

All i see is selfish bitch

Is that me?

Or just an illusion

Haunting me like a which?

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It's 3 a.m.

And I'm still here

Looking at the endless sky

What is it that haunts me

Feel like it's since forever

Will it ever stop

Like ever?

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