yay sadness

a blog for ranting about boys (well one specific but ;) )

[boysar3stupid]

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hi so a long time ago (not that long but) i created this account thinking i would never ever get over the boy that i made this account for. i ended up crying so much over him and drinking a lot to forget him. well... i ended up getting a boyfriend! he’s so mf cute and i never realized i was so isolated from the world until i met him tbh. don’t get me wrong, i still think about Ice, but i’m almost over him and all the emotional damage it caused me lmao. if you’re reading this and aren’t bored and get to this part, i hope you have a great day. and if you think you won’t get over a boy or anyone, just remember there are other people to think about :) (i know it’s hard, believe me).

good bye i love u all.

[citystompers1]

Woo in Ultraman (1966), “Phantom of the Snow Mountains”

[boysar3stupid]

i just want to kiss him. i want to feel him? i want to know what it feels like to be his.

[onefourthreesha]

It’s really hard when you thought that he’s really into you. When he shows motives that he likes you, but in the end you were abandoned hanging with full of doubts in yourself.

[brokk-e-n]

“It’s getting better now, less butterflies more comfort. We can talk more easily, make eye contact more easily, and all I wanna do is be around you. But don’t get me wrong I still get excited over small conversations and smiles and eye contact, just not so nervous. It’s nice. I don't want it to go away.”

— 1:18

[phase2-moved-deactivated2021073]

Catch me wobbling around dizzily with hearts popping out of my eyes and spirals swirling irl around my head

[rnarios]

“how can someone who brings you so much happiness also create so much pain and sadness”

— - 3 am thoughts

[heart2heartwritings]

“I am jealous of the people you give your attention to.”

[askradical]

Ok this touched EVERY single part of my inside😂 (I’m in a very weird mood today)

[abyss-of-words]

[boysar3stupid]

okay so basically

i’m gonna have a little background for this account even though it’s kinda obvious why it was created. this ONE boy. (btw i will also be using fake names/initials.)

let’s call him Ice. so Ice was in my band class my 7th grade year (but i’ve known him before due to N) and he was very talkative with my best friend at the time, N. i walked into first period with Mr. B. i saw him talking to N and as i walked over to N, he looked up at me.

his eyes are brown but they are the prettiest shade of brown i’ve ever seen in my life, like melted chocolate or the reminder of the fall yet to come (over exaggerated? nah). his hair is also brown, but it looked so fluffy and soft, i just wanted to reach out and run my fingers through it. he was a skinny boy (a little chub now but he’s still cute), and his style was unique. in my 7th grader eyes (and now as well) he was the boy i’ve always wanted. he smiled and introduced himself. that’s when my heart started to get a little wacky and started beating rapidly. his smile was adorable! it reminded me of a cute little puppy that found a new toy to play with.

i smiled back and told him my name. Ice told me he played trombone and i played saxophone in my middle school years, so i would be sitting close/next to him. i gotta admit i was overly excited. my whole 7th grade year we talked and shared information about each others lives or how each other’s day was going so far. i had to tone the flirting down since a close friend didn’t like the attention i was getting from him. he was in 8th while i was in 7th grade, so the next year he moved into the high school.

it made me sad since i really liked spending first period talking to him. we’d occasionally text on instagram and send each other memes. the summer before my freshman year i had kind of forgotten about Ice. i thought he was just one of those boys that i’d never have. the first half of my freshman year we didn’t talk, but then winter finals came around and we ended up eating lunch with N.

i started to text him first a lot, resulting in 1-2 responses and we were done. i occasionally mentioned the chance of the two of us hanging out... he answered that he’d be more free with a car. it wasn’t until he was a junior until he got his license, but those stories are for another day. to end this, i was gonna explain why i’ve fallen so in love with him, but i think you can tell due to me describing him.

(don’t think this is too creepy, i admit it appears creepy but i promise i’m a pretty normal girl.)

i’ll be trying to update at least once every day but this is just to kickstart my account!