Forever a boy @boywithdragon - Tumblr Blog

Hi I'm Clemens! This is my regression and boyhood blog🩵

I am an adult male (late 20s) but regress to ages 4-5, 8-11 and sometimes 12-13. My age fluctuates a lot but I'm never younger than 4 or older than 13🩵

I have level 2 autism and regress entirely involuntarily, mainly due to trauma🩵

I'm almost always regressed and consider myself a permaregressor🩵

I have a paternal caregiver who I call Daddy/Dad/Papa/Dragon etc. He's the only person I am also romantically attracted to, otherwise I consider myself aromantic and homosexual🩵

I'm reliving my boyhood through my regression so this blog will mainly have "boyish" content🩵

Some things I love: Dragons, dogs, Jellycat stuffies, vehicles, dinosaurs and basically all other animals, bright (primary) colors, marbles, bouncy balls, Lego, puzzles, stars, stickers, praise, sports, and sometimes pacifiers

I don't like: Stuffies other than Jellycats, the color pink, typical "girly" toys and clothes, baby talk, scary/violent movies, yelling and loud noises.

My favorite colors are blue, green and orange🩵💚🧡

I like being called: Baby Boy, Sport, Slugger, Champ, Buddy/Bud, Little Man, Little Prince, Kiddo, Cub and other more "masculine" nicknames🩵

I am open to a platonic maternal caregiver! Please message me if you'd like to get to know me better🩵

This blog will have nothing that isn't kid-friendly. Just a safe space for me to be a boy.

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Medieval Dragon

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grief is so crazy like what if i forget what her laugh sounds like. does she know i loved her. i miss her so much. i catch myself doing things she used to do. i wish i could call her. i miss her so much. i do a crossword puzzle. i cry while washing the dishes. does she know i loved her? my heart feels like a hummingbird. i miss her so much. what if i forget what her laugh sounds like. what if i forget.

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i talked ab this feeling in therapy yday and my therapist asked me, “would it really be so bad if your memories changed? if they softened and faded or looked different over time? why does that frighten you so much?” and i said, “i don’t want the love to disappear.” and she looked at me for a long moment and then she said, “it won’t. it doesn’t work that way. even if the memories soften or change, it doesn’t mean the love does. that love keeps going backward in time, forever, because you love her still. all is not lost.” i just thought i would share that in case it resonated w anyone else too.