BPD WORLD

Fragments of a mind at war. This space is a reflection of my attempt to make sense of the inner chaos. BPD is not who I am, but what runs through me. Here, I pour out pain, shadows, and small survivals. Be my guest!

[bpdworld]

As life drifts by hand in hand with time, the mirror reflects nothing but the broken pieces of someone I no longer recognize.

[idontknowwhatilooklike]

my emotions will be the death of me

[devoteddeer]

That sickly feeling when you realize you don’t know how to love. You only know how to be devoted like a dog which has been abused all its life yet licks the hand which beats it.

[bpdworld]

I can feel myself falling into the hole again…

[bpdworld]

It triggers my anxiety in such a strong way…

Then they think I’m being manipulative. No, it’s a reaction to your lack of empathy.

It’s not hard to put yourself in someone else’s shoes before acting.

[bpdworld]

At some point, you get tired of hearing apologies instead of the person thinking about how you would feel before actually doing something.

[bpdworld]

Guys, is it wrong that I’ve never felt comfortable in clubs and raves, that I don’t like that kind of environment, and that I don’t like my boyfriend/husband being in those places? Even though he knows I don’t like that type of environment?

Am I wrong for feeling sad that he still wants to go, even knowing I don’t like it?

[shoelace4-48]

no one can pull me out of the hole i have fallen into

[silenceheldme]

when its getting bad again but you can‘t talk to anybody about it so you lowkey just sit there and let your thoughts consume you

[bpdworld]

I feel like after that day, something shifted inside me. The disappointment of seeing reality without the lenses of the obsessive love of borderline.

[sickfrr]

I hate being right about things I wish I was delusional about

[bpdworld]

To what extent am I the problem and to what extent are the people I get involved with also dysfunctional?

[bpdworld]

For someone who comes from a dysfunctional family, seeing the person you love put their family above you and your relationship is painful.

[mothercain-deactivated20231124]

not now, im noticing the pattern

[bpdworld]

I want to hurt myself again, but at the same time I fight my mind so I don’t give that satisfaction to the person who hurts me.

[bpdworld]

I’m beyond disappointed… but knowing myself, I’ll downplay everything and act like it’s nothing. Until the day it happens again.

[bpdworld]

It’s been happening for a while now that in some arguments, the person just snaps and becomes someone else… At times, he yells, points his finger at me, doesn’t let me speak, and tells me to go fuck myself.

Even when I ask him to take his finger out of my face and lower his voice because I’m speaking normally to him, he doesn’t listen.