To Love, Briefly

Helena, she/her, aromantic. Arophobes fuck off // My thoughts on the topics I care about, which change as the phases of the moon. // My current hyperfixations are DW and Richard II

[brief-passions]

So first off, hello! I decided to finally cave in and get a Tumblr because I’m tired of not seeing the kind of content I want on my socials. Which, right now, is stuff about Shakespeare’s Richard II.

[incorrectinfinity]

What makes us human is the Nintendo 3DS

[bat-demon]

DONT FORGET TO DOWNLOAD ANY GAMES ON THEIR THEY WILL SHUT DOWN THE ESHOP MARCH 27TH AND YOU CAN NO LONGER ACCESS THEM AFTER THAT

[warmcoals]

dont actually panic u can do a super easy no prerequisites hack to any 3ds at any time and then use free software to get any 3ds game or otherwise download-only content ever! so you dont need to worry abt losing out, actually the future is more open than ever before!! 3ds make us human!!!!!

[benoitblanc]

catherine tate rocking up to doctor who with a background in sketch comedy and knowing literally nothing about the show; giving one of the most nuanced, tragic performances in the entirety of sci-fi history; and then dipping after one season with an absolutely horrifically devastating character ending is icon behavior i don’t make the rules

[river-songs-second-wife]

She wasn’t even bovverred

[brief-passions]

I heard she’s returning for stuff with the 14th Doctor and I’m so excited!!!

[albi-mander]

I have created a new storytelling principle, I am calling it Phoenix Wright’s Spoon:

If there is a simple, direct explanation for an event to occur in your story, but a more complicated explanation would be funnier, more interesting, and/or would create better opportunities in the narrative, then go with the more complicated one

[brief-passions]

Unfortunately, Moffat seems to have taken this principle too far. Looking at you, DW seasons 5 and 6

[2020survivor-deactivated2022022]

[brief-passions]

Currently doing a Richard II analysis for my final history project for my World History to 1500 course. Was supposed to be a group project but idk who is supposed to be in a group with me so I gave up and started this alone. I’m gonna compare the play to how the events played out irl and offer specific historical context that would enhance an average audience member’s experience watching the play. And of course, I’m using the RSC’s production for the film requirement portion of my assignment.

[sargent-major-jane]

why is the most chaotic scene in all of Shakespeare secretly that one in Richard II that’s like:

Bagot: Aumerle, you’re a traitor

Aumerle: no, you’re a traitor *throws down glove* FITE ME BITCH

Bolingbroke: okay everyone let’s just calm d-

Fitzwater: FUCK YOU AUMERLE * throws down glove* LETS FUCKING GO

Aumerle: you won’t do it, you fucking pussy

Percy: YOU KNOW WHAT *throws down glove* SHUT THE FUCK UP AUMERLE ILL KICK YOUR ASS

Aumerle: ILL KICK YOUR ASS

A random lord: *throws down glove* I just want to be included!

Aumerle: *throwing gloves left and right* I literally don’t even know your name but you know what SURE

Surrey, out of literally nowhere: FUCK YOU FITZWATER! *throws down glove*

Fitzwater: FUCK YOU SURREY! *throws down second glove* oh also Norfolk said Aumerle was a traitor!

Aumerle: WHAT?! I’m out of gloves someone give me another glove

Someone: *gives him one*

Aumerle, calmly: thank you

Aumerle, with uncontrollable rage: *yEETS glove to the ground* NORFOLK IS ALSO A BITCH AND CAN ALSO FUCKING FITE ME-

Bolingbroke: okay well we can clear this up! Let’s just ask Norfolk!

Carlisle: Norfolk is dead.

Bolingbroke: …

Bolingbroke: well shit.

[soheavyaburden]

Thanks @verkja , @flowersarefreetherapy , and @winedark-whump for the tags!

Rules: Make a new post and spell out your url with song titles, then tag as many people as there are letters in your url. (Or just as many as you want.)

Enjoy my uhhhh eclectic taste:

S: “Scavenger” by Emilie Autumn

O: “Oh My God” by Jars of Clay

H: “Heathens” by Twenty-One Pilots

E: “El Juego de la Luna” by Sara Hebe and Ramiro Jota

A: “The Attack of the Dead Men” by Sabaton

V: “Va Bene Bye” by Tamrat Kebede

Y: “Ya Tabtab Wa Dallaa” by Nancy Ajram

A: “At Seventeen” by Janis Ian

B: “Bleed Black” by AFI

U: “United In Grief” by Kendrick Lamar

R: “Rise” by The Frames

D: “Dilruba” by Niyaz

E: “East Nashville Robbery” by Bobby Osborne and Benny Martin

N: “Nothing Else Matters” by Metallica

Tagging: @lumpofwhump @suspicious-whumping-egg @straight-to-the-pain @magnificenthurt @horrible-on-main @hold-him-down @albino-whumpee @pythagoreanwhump @blood-is-compulsory @kiratheperson @theres-whump-in-that-nebula @for-the-love-of-angst and anyone else who wants to join!

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

The People of the Lock — Neytirix (I’m convinced this lady is an ex-cult member and I love her)

Help! — The Beatles

Erin on the Side of Caution — Primus

Rolling Thunder — Lionel Yu

Ego — Indila

Same to You — Melody Gardot

Walking After Midnight — Patsy Cline

Hot Patootie Bless My Soul — The Rocky Horror Picture Show Official Soundtrack

Underground — Robots Official Soundtrack

Man of Constant Sorrow — Allison Krauss and Union Station

Pisces — Jinger

In the Hall of the Mountain King — Greig

Nobody — Mitski

Tokyo Teddy Bear — Neru

Happy — Pharrell Williams

Angel — Eurythmics

Two Trucks — Lemon Demon this song is living rent free in my head

No Nay Never — ? idk it’s Irish and all the bands play it

England Swings — Roger Miller

Big Baboon — Flipron

Ultramicroscopicsilicovolcanosis — Dasu

Light it Up — Major Lazer (coolest music video EVER)

A Boy Named Sue — Johnny Cash

…

Tagging: @ratking-whump @insomniacgoingmad @allthesecottoncandyskies @unicornofthemidwest

Or whoever (no pressure)

[unicornofthemidwest]

U - Uptown Funk by Bruno Mars and Mark Ronson

N - No Children by the Mountain Goats

I - I Don’t Know from Ghost Quartet by Dave Malloy

C - Choreomania by Florence + the Machine

O - Oh No! by MARINA

R - Runs in the Family by Amanda Palmer

N - Nobody Dies by Thao, Thao and the Get Down Stay Down

O - Over the Garden Wall by The Blasting Company

F - Furr by Blitzen Trapper

T - Tabs (I Hope You Get the Plague) by the Small Calamities and Charlie Robert Wolf

H - Haunted House by Sir Babygirl

E - Everything Stays (Ft. Olivia Olson) from Adventure Time

M - Mykonos by Fleet Foxes

I - I/Me/Myself by Will Wood

D - Don’t Go Back to ‘89 by Chorusgirl

W - What is a Blouse? by The Zach and The Jess

E - Eyes on the Prize I from Spies Are Forever

S - Should’ve Been Me by Mitski

T - Twin Size Mattress by the Front Bottoms

tagging: @brief-passions @enitel @duple-man

(no pressure)

And anyone else who wants to join=)

[brief-passions]

B - Bad Romance by Lady Gaga

R - Run Boy Run by Woodkid

I - I Never Wanna Fall In Love Again from Promises, Promises

E - Everything by Michael Bublé

F - From Eden by Hozier

P - Puttin’ on the Ritz (Electroswing remix) by Betty Booom

A - All Eyes On You by Smash Into Pieces

S - Stressed by UPSAHL

S - Seven Nation Army by the White Stripes

I - Icarus by Bastille

O - Ophelia by the Lumineers

N - Now That We’re Alone by The People’s Thieves

S - Such Sweet Thunder by Duke Ellington

@mostly-ethical-hacking

[whoosh-whoosh-tardis-noises]

I love googling random words followed by “tardis wiki” because it will define basic terms to you like you are 4, and then follow it up with some of the most meticulously documented and deranged science fiction you have ever read in your entire life.

Absolute perfection, 10/10

[elevensbian-moved]

doctor who fans be like this is my comfort episode and it's the most emotionally damaging 45 minutes of television you have ever seen

[mostly-ethical-hacking]

@brief-passions​ this is you and the end of time part 2

[brief-passions]

You know what @mostly-ethical-hacking?

Fuck you.

[girlblocker]

tag game where were u and what were u doing when u found out the queen of England died

[brief-passions]

*the Queen dies*

*Doctor Who theme plays sadly in the background*

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

it can be therapeutic to admit "actually my childhood was deeply fucking awful." not "my parents tried" or "there were good times too" or "I was lucky in certain ways" but solely to acknowledge "I went though some fucking messed up shit what the fuck was that about "

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

"my parents tried" other people's intentions don't excuse or erase your suffering. parents are expected to try, that's the bare minimum of being a parent, and it doesn't undo the consequences of failing to protect a tiny vulnerable human being. "there were good times too" children are profoundly capable of joy, every person's childhood contains some measure of joy, childhood should be joyful, and none of that erases the lasting trauma of the shit you went through. your childhood isn't a math problem where the positives and negatives balance out towards some neutral zero, reality doesn't work like that. "I was lucky in certain ways" and pretty fucking unlucky by the sound of it. ok so "things could have been worse" things could always be worse and they could always be better, that is a mundane and meaningless expression meant to make excuses for other people, and bitch it sure as thunder doesn't erase the fact that you walked through hell.

You. Deserved. BETTER.

[mostly-ethical-hacking]

100% this. I (and my siblings) deserved better than a mom who ignored us on her good days and screamed and yelled and just utterly destroyed us with her words on the others. We deserved better than a dad who didn’t believe us for years. We deserved better than to be trapped in a homeschooling hell for twelve years just because my mom liked the power trip it gave her. I in particular deserved better than having to become a parent figure at thirteen fucking years old. I’m sixteen now, and still more of a parent to my siblings than either of our parents are. I am not ready to raise a thirteen year old and an eleven year old, but here we are.

I would rather believe that my mom doesn’t love us, than try to figure out how she could love us and treat us the way she does. She chose to have children, and then treats us like we are inconveniences. My younger siblings didn’t believe our parents planned to have them, and at one point actually asked my dad “were we wanted, or were we just accidents.” How fucked up is your family if a thirteen year old is asking that based on how she’s being treated?

So no, they may have done their best, but their best was REALLY FUCKING HORRIBLE and I shouldn’t be the only functioning adult in the house at sixteen.

Family is by choice, and the family unit right now is me and my siblings. My parents can be their own disaster, I’m not going to claim them as relatives. 

[brief-passions]

@mostly-ethical-hacking the way you said that on the best days we were neglected and the worst we were downright abused hits hard.

I didn’t deserve to be kept ignorant of the knowledge I needed to become a functioning adult so that my mother would retain power and control over me. I didn’t deserve to become my mother’s show pony; only praised in conversation with other people as a form of bragging, while constantly berated and criticized to my face. I didn’t deserve to have my childhood stripped away, replaced with “you have to be a good role model for your sisters”, “you need to be more responsible”, “you are the cause of the tension in the family”, and being crafted into the vessel my mother could vicariously live her lost dreams through.

My siblings did not deserve our father abandoning us to our mother when he commuted out-of-state for work five days of the week. They did not deserve to be collateral damage resulting from my attempts to defend myself from our mother.

They did not deserve to watch me become incapable of taking care of and protecting them as my mother’s abuse wore me down until I shattered. I will never understand what kind of trauma they experienced from watching my parents abuse me like that.

I wish I had been able to keep it together for their sake. I regret that I wasn’t able to think of them and put them first. I’m the oldest, I should have been the one to take care of the younger two, not my 16 year old sister. Hell, I should have been able to look out for her and support her too. It angers me to acknowledge that I was not mentally capable of that; that my suffering was so intense that I was barely able to push through, let alone take up the responsibilities my parents abandoned.

Leaving them behind to go to college has been the hardest thing to live with. The survivors guilt was debilitating. If nothing else, I at least shielded them from further abuse since my mother centered much of her attention on me and upheld the belief that I was the problem, which allowed my sisters to live under the radar. Everything went to pieces after I left, to the point where my 16 year old sister called Child Protective Services on my mother, only for them to do absolutely nothing. I only returned to that toxic house for winter break because I couldn’t let them feel like I abandoned them any further.

Now, I am on the brink of homelessness and turned to sex work right before school ended to help make ends meet. My car finally broke down so I can’t even sleep in my car anymore. I’m honestly lucky my car broke because that allows me to be able to stay with my s/o at his parents house. My dad still visits each week since he comes into town once a week for work meetings, and I have to hide so much from him. If he ever found out I got involved in sex work I think that would break him, and that terrifies me.

I’m tired of fighting to keep my head above water. I’m tired of raising myself and having to teach myself how to be an adult without guidance. I just want to have some stability and get to a place where I can help my sisters. Someday, I hope I can do right by them.

[mostly-ethical-hacking]

oh god every time life calms down my mom does something shitty and the cycle of abuse starts again. She’ll pull ridiculous stunts, like abandoning my sister after dance class to go get fast food - only for herself, tho, and she always objects to the rest of us going out to eat - and then act like my sister shouldn’t be upset that a) she had no idea where our mother was and no way to contact her and b) our mother’s hypocrisy never ends.

And THEN, while i’m trying to console my sister, my mother orders me out of the room and tells me to stop comforting my sisters. And she proceeded to accuse me of “triangulating things” when all i do is sit there and listen to their worries.

I know that she’s jealous. She’s been trying to drive me away from my sisters for about 9 months now, simply because I stepped into the mom role when she abdicated it. My sisters even told me they would rather celebrate me at mothers day. That broke my fucking heart. I’m 16 for crying out loud, i shouldn’t have to be a mother to my siblings, especially while our mother is still alive. But my mother has abused us emotionally and sometimes physically for over a decade now. I tried getting Child Protective Services involved, but they wouldn’t do anything, not even after I typed up an evidence document as factually as i could and supported it with texts when i had them.

I am at my wit’s end. I have tried literally everything and used every resource that’s available to me. I don’t know what to do next, except continue to support my sisters through this. My childhood is over, I just hope to salvage theirs.

[dear-ao3]

being in college is just go to class, forget about lunch, sit on a floor, stare at your unfolded laundry, water your plants, go online, open your assignment but don't do it, stare at your unfolded laundry, eat a chip, go to class, put on five different outfits just to end up in a sweatshirt and sweatpants, write a sentence of a paper, stare at your unfolded laundry, put away one (1) thing, sit on bed, stare ay your unfolded laundry, stare at your unfolded laundry, stare at your unf

[shinyasahalo]

Forget enemies-to-lovers, I want to see a rivals-to-rivals-and-lovers.

The two characters are rivals who pine for the other person, then later after much pining they start having sex, and they both know better than to attempt a romance, so they have a sexual friendship.

And they both get mad at allos who call their relationship a "friends with benefits."

[slcpunkmoved]

why are you as a man "cocking" your gun ? so you can "shoot a load" into another man ??