Brittany Blair

Writer The only place I'm not scared of what is going through my head & heart.

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I’ve let you go a thousand times, each time hurts just a little less than the time before.

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I don’t think I’m over you yet…but he helps…

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You’ve been on my brain so heavily the last few days. You’re always a skip & a thought away; but your presence seems more demanding in my mind. I need you to leave again, go back into the box I tried so hard to keep you in.

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The one memory that replays in my head, like all unwanted thoughts. Is laying on your chest. That’s where I felt like I was home; that’s the place I miss so much, that it makes my heart sick.

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I wish I could’ve been the me I am now, with you.. but you wouldn’t let me.

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I watched as you gave up on me, do you really think that didn’t change me?

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I hate being reminded of you, it opens up that wound that I try so hard to heal. But it never fully does.

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We weren’t meant to be, right now.

Our love was destined, it may even be end game.

But you have some growing to do, & so do I.

We were meant to be, but we weren’t meant to be together all our lives.

We have growing to do, that we can’t do together.

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PLEASE CATCH UP ONE DAY

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I am no longer your wife, as of today. I’ve never felt so cold and numb.

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I’ve been asked numerous times why I still love you. Ive tried to pinpoint the exact reason, but I can’t. I just know that I love you so much. No matter what we’ve done to eachother.

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Fuck you for ever making me believe that we were end game, when we were just your test round.

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He makes it easier to forget you, even if it is for a moment.

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Letting go isn’t something that just happens. It’s a choice you have to actively make every single day. I hate it so much, because sometimes I have those days where that choice; breaks my heart worse than the day you walked away.

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Does your mind ever wonder to me?

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I heard a quote saying, “ if they’re meant to be in your life, they will catch up one day.” I really hope you catch up one day.

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Tonight I’m drowning