preludes (2016) sentence meme, part i.
“Did you get any writing done?”
“My day began with waking, I suppose.”
“I don’t remember it clearly.”
“And then I remember waking again and she was gone.”
“She snuck out. She sometimes does that.”
“And then I lay there for an hour, doing nothing.”
“I know he's not cool but he brings back a fond feeling.”
“We’re not rich, you know. Money is a worry.”
“I’ve been inside all day.”
“And I think how good it would be to go out, how good to walk in the park, how good to just go anywhere.”
“And I read a book I think or, I read a little bit of a few books.”
“And then I was so tired.”
“Oh, oh, and all day too… ll through the day I was reading letters.”
“So many minutes on these worthless things.”
“And then I'll go to sleep for eight hours, and those hours are easy.”
“How long have your days been like this.”
“Every Sunday, I get lilacs in the mail.”
“How can I possibly live up to this?”
"Sometimes I am a good man, and sometimes I am not.”
“No, no [name]. Not a lover.”
“She doesn’t even know me---”
“She admires you from afar!”
“Your music must have done something to her.”
“Maybe she’s my secret muse and she’s letting it build up inside me.”
“Maybe each lilac is just one part of a puzzle and they all fit together.”
“Maybe she’s an anti-muse.”
“You should go. Get out of the house.”
“You do still want to get married, [name]?”
“Good. Now go. I have things to do, you know?”
“I smiled at the people, smiled with my secret.”
“I’ve got a little secret --- I’m going to see him.”
“A genius invited me to speak with him.”
“He told me secrets, secrets only I could understand.”
“If life could speak then life would speak in his voice.”
“And he’s asked me to his home, and I don’t know what to talk about.”
“What does a genius talk about?”
“Is he so brilliant that every minute of his day is sublime?”
“Does he take care of himself?”
TCHAIKOVSKY’S CHILD’S SONG.
“Hush now. Put that all out of your mind and be still.”
“Somewhere deep inside, God is hiding.”
“And I will kiss you on the top of your head, for that is the kindest place to place a kiss.”
“I am a joyful person, an optimistic person, but sometimes I get scared.”
“You’ve been drowning so long in your ocean.”
“What if my boundless joy has a limit after all?”
“And I’m not the rock you need to save you.”
“You are in a hole and so I jump into the hole, but I can’t get you out.”
“How many times can I answer the same questions?”
“How many times can I say the same thing?”
“Why don’t you just snap the fuck out of it?”
“Your dark unknowable depression, your fantastic spiraling black void... Isn’t it pathetic?”
“Isn’t it a choice? Can’t you decide?”
“I know that you are terrified, I think.”
“Oh, my bifurcated genius.”
“How I wish you could hear the things you are.”
“How can you keep that inside you?”
“How dare you hold yourself down.”
“Do whatever you need to do to make yourself whole again.”
“Just do it quick... before I get sick of you.”
“I don’t ever wanna get sick of you.”
“I know I’m supposed to be the better one. But the truth is, I’m no better than you.”
