when the 21 is a happy but shitty day..... it’s my one month with my new bf but it marks 6 months that my ex left me and he was my first love and fuck has it left a scar like for 6 months i pushed my feelings aside i tried to move on and forget him... but i cant i miss him so much and he made me so happy and made laugh and in a total of nine months only made me cry 15 times (kept count for the odd time we would fight) and i only cut twice when i cried like fuck i want him back so bad i cant keep pretending anymore like i dont laugh smile or do anything the same any more and im hurting all the time and just need him like fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!














