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when the 21 is a happy but shitty day..... it’s my one month with my new bf but it marks 6 months that my ex left me and he was my first love and fuck has it left a scar like for 6 months i pushed my feelings aside i tried to move on and forget him... but i cant i miss him so much and he made me so happy and made laugh and in a total of nine months only made me cry 15 times (kept count for the odd time we would fight) and i only cut twice when i cried like fuck i want him back so bad i cant keep pretending anymore like i dont laugh smile or do anything the same any more and im hurting all the time and just need him like fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I hate myself, I hate the things I do, I hurt. I’m broken. I’m lost. I’m ruining my life

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I'm done fighting..... they win the war

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im 17 years old, a fucking slut lately, and im probably pregnant... im the family disappointment, ive burned bridges with almost everyone i know, i have no one to fucking talk to, i might be getting kicked out of my sisters house here soon and the only places i have left to go are in a city an hour and half away from the friends i have left, my dead beat dad has come back around but he isnt being a parent he’s is only being a friend and my mom and step dad wont talk to me they hate my guts, my one brother is disappointed in me, i lost my job, i can barley afford any bills this month every one at school hates me, i barley go to school and im probably not gonna graduate high school and since i moved out i cant go to dance because i cant afford it so im no longer dancing .... and yet i still wake up every morning and manage to smile and since i moved out ive only cut twice...( when i lived at home it was every night)... but fuck im so done being a disappointment and being a slut and being a goddamn waste of fucking air..... i just wanna leave!!!!!

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Why the signs are problematic

Aries : oblivious to the obvious

Taurus : too hard on themselves

Gemini : quickly switch from cheerful irritable

Cancer: extremely stubborn

Leo : will fight you

Virgo: P R O C R A S T I N A T O R

Libra : do not handle criticism well

Scorpio : can be not considerate of others

Sagittarius : overly blunt

Capricorn : can’t admit to being wrong

Aquarius: can’t express feeling properly

Pisces : very shy

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its my 3rd day of grade 12 and i dont want to be here i just want to be done and not even because its school its because he’s here and im not used to seeing him with his new girlfriend and i cant stand seeing them in the same room all lovey and shit.... i went home yestarday and cried because it killed me to be at school and see them...together...seeing him happy with someone that isnt me.. seeing him happy while my heart is broken,crushed,shattered.. and he doesnt care... i dont want to be at school... i dress really hot, not like slutty, but just really good, and give an i dont give a fuck attidude but this kills me and its not like seeing the girl bugs me cause it doesn’t even if i just see him and only him it kills me and i hate it! i hate him!! i hate how he makes me feel!! i hate what he’s done to me!!!! ...but.... i still love him.... i guess its true what they say about your first love, it does leave a scar and it does fuck you up for life and you never truly get over it.... i cant do this, im not strong enough....

I've been clean from cutting for a month and 17 days and last night I almost did it, and I don't know why I didn't. Maybe it's because of work, or maybe cause school starts soon and he; the person who broke me will think there about him and believe he won, and I can't let him win, I just can't, but since I've stopped cutting my anxiety has gotten worse then ever!! I'll have small quiet anxiety attacks at work, while partying, eating.. They happen 24/7 and I hate it! I'm so fat and I want to be skinny but I can't keep up with my workout routines. Maybe if I don't eat then I can finally be skinny.... So many thoughts and demons all in my head I can hardly sleep at night and I just want this torture to end but I don't know how to stop it? And suicide isn't an answer cause I'm terrified of dying like very afraid to die.. This fear is part of the reason I have anxiety...... I can't take the pain anymore!!!