I'm that person who will always listen to you

send me a message & i'll always be here for you

[brokenxash]

an answered question.

why do people never say anything good about me?

should there be a reason anymore, to love myself?

why should i try to do so, if others can't love me too?

it should be better this way

i feel that someday i'll vanish,

and people would finally be happy

why do we only want to kill ourselves,

when things get tough?

why shouldn't the afterlife be seen as a better place?

what if people felt like dying when they're happy?

would it be right to take your life then?

why are none of my questions answered?

only an answered question,

'do people hate me?'

yes, they do.

and yes, i hate myself too.

[brokenxash]

everything is falling apart.

[brokenxash]

you broke my heart.

and yet,

you still have the courage

to smile in front of me

and laugh with me.

you hurt my feelings.

and yet,

you don't look at my thorns

or ask me how i'm doing.

you made me cry.

and yet,

you act like nothing happened

or the fact that i ever told you

"i love you".

you made me smile.

although you don't realise this,

but every single thing that you do,

affects me in a good way.

you made my life better.

although there were bad days,

more good days were made when i thought of you.

when the sunshine poured into my room,

i would wake up and find myself,

smiling at the beautiful movie of you and i that my mind played last night.

i sip my cup of coffee,

and my mind starts to wonder

into the dreamland that i built for you.

i knew what my life would be like

if you ever loved me back.

if would be a beautiful fairytale,

and i feel bad that you never saw how beautiful your could've been,

if you let me inside your heart.

i will continue building this dreamland,

where our lives would continue to be amazing,

and there would be no sorrows,

no bad days,

but i hope,

with our small little family,

of as many kids as you want,

and this is the life i would've promised you,

if you ever loved me.

that one day

you will meet someone,

and this life that i had been dreaming of,

would be your reality.

[brokenxash]

to the list of things that i will regret forever

if only i knew two months before that you would leave me forever.

if only i knew that would be the last time i talked to you.

if only i knew how much i loved you.

if only i knew how much i regret saying that.

if only i knew how much pain i would bring to everyone.

if only i knew,

before,

that this was something

i never wanted.

[taejoon]

 outro: tear explained (trans)

[ehinaaya]

🦋

[halogramangel]

Dull

I always feel like I can’t appreciate the world I live in.

Everything is passing by, dull in my eye.

Sun’s are rising and setting like I’m passing by lights in a tunnel

But where am I headed? Will I arrive

At a place where there will be no time?

Cause time is measured by sunset and rise

And time just flies when you

Don’t suffer for a bit more

So you feel a bit more

[ess-king]

[brokenxash]

This is my destiny.

Don’t smile on me.

Light on me,

because I can’t go to you.

There’s no name to call.

You know that I can’t,

show you me.

Give you me.

I can’t show you my weakness,

so I’m putting on a mask to go see you.

But I still want you.

A flower that resembles you,

blossomed in this garden of loneliness.

I wanted to give it to you,

as I take off this stupid mask.

But I know,

this can’t go on forever.

I must hide,

because I'm ugly.

The Truth Untold by BTS

[juansendizon]

“If you want to move on, you have to be intentional about it. When you wake up, you will begin having thoughts about missing this person, and that’s okay. Thoughts are simply thoughts, not facts. What matters most is what you do. What matters most is what you decide on. What matters most is that you stop stalking this person on social media. What matters most is that you focus your mind on doing things that will make you a better person despite having those feelings of emptiness and you have to keep on accepting those feelings of emptiness until you’re done feeling them. What matters most is that you get your crushed soul back out there again in the real world to spend time with the people you truly care for. Because the more you isolate, the slower you heal. And finally what truly matters most is that you keep doing you as you look towards the future and realize that when you look back—the world didn’t actually end. And more than anything—loving and then losing that person has turned you into someone who’s better. Someone who’s not afraid to fall in love again and again.”

— Juansen Dizon, Lessons

[brokenxash]

i've been holding onto the feeling for more than a year. thank you so much for this.

[theaslan17-deactivated20181128]

I know there are nights where we don’t feel our existence at all, wishing to never wake up the following day. Sometimes, it’s enough that our heart still beat, our blood still running and we still blink. Sometimes, it’s enough when all we could notice is the way we are, we stand, we sit, we walk, we talk, we are alive. We learned to appreciate life plainly and simply. I know there are days where it seems like nothing ever makes sense, yes there are moments like that. I am saying this to let you know that you are not alone here. I think to put simply, we all been there. Perhaps, for me, I’d still call it life because I had learned to be strong during those times.

//for every living person alive//

[brokenxash]

probably not.

like the leaves that fall during summer,

like the green trees growing beautifully during winter,

like the flowers blooming during autumn,

and like a gloomy sky on a beautiful day,

in this galaxy,

there was no such thing as you and i.

under this beautiful sky, we are nothing more than strangers.

but why do i catch you staring?

why do our eyes meet often?

in this moment,

i've realized how much it would hurt

to see you with someone else.

in this moment,

i've realized how happy i would be if i see your smile.

you're doing well,

and so am i now.

"i love you so much"

do you remember the time i told you these words?

probably not.

"i'll always love you as a friend, a guy and as a person"

do you remember?

probably not.

have you ever considered liking someone like me?

probably not.

[wnq-writers]

“How often has the timing been wrong? How often have we had to move along like we didn’t feel something?”

— N.M.Sanchez, from Initial Meeting

[jiminsaid]

FAKE LOVE (2018)

[haetsukoi-deactivated20181111]

Romeo and Juliet x Fake Love Act II, Scene VI

[relatablepoetryandquotes]

via @extramadness

[brokenxash]

a pain i will never get used to.

seeing you and realizing that i will never be able to talk to you ever again.

a person i never knew i would be

i loved you so bad,

i guess it wasn't enough for you.