HEARING cordeliaâs words, katerina smiled softly. she had promised to stay alive, and katerina was glad to see that sheâd kept that promise. â of course you did. â the brunette hummed in agreement, a light giggle escaping her lips. each time that a tear ran down cordeliaâs face, katerina used her thumbs to wipe them away. she listened on as cordelia expressed that sheâd lived her life exactly how sheâd wanted to live it, with no regrets. â well good, because thatâs what i wanted for you â to be you. â katerina told her with a smile, smoothing some of her hair comfortingly. as cordelia expressed that sheâd never actually killed or turned anyone in her time of being a vampire, katerina smiled a proud smile. â see? youâre doing great then! better than me. did i ever tell you that my first 90 or so years of being a vampire, i did nothing but kill people, without cause and without remorse? â the elder vampire asked her sire with curious eyes. it hadnât meant to be a conversation that did anything other than make cordelia proud of her self control.  a heavy sigh fell from katerinaâs lips when she said that she just wanted to make her proud. â sweetheart, hearing about the life youâve lived the past few decades, makes me so proud of you. â she promised with a smile. she felt the otherâs body start to give out on her, which only caused katerina to hold her closer, stabilizing and supporting her as best she could â thankful for her enhanced strength in that moment. when cordelia was finished speaking, katerina sighed lightly. â i want to just be kind and immediately say you can take it back, but you know iâm only half of the equation here. obviously, iâm more inclined to forgive you, because of our bond, but i also canât go behind eveâs back about this. we have to have a sit down, heart to heart conversation, before anything can be said for sure. â
âI shouldnât be alive.â She told her sire. âI should have died that day that you saved me. I know every day I get to live now, is just.. bonus time. Even if I die tomorrow, or not for another thousand years â every day is special. You gave me that. I just wanted.. I canât imagine the pain if I were to.. but if that happens, I really need you to know my life is better than good because of you and Eve.â It was something she wished she had said in the letter â that even if she were to die, it was honestly okay because she was supposed to have died before that. And every day since that day, was a literal gift.
Cordelia felt like a child that came home from school crying, just needing to curl up on the couch in their motherâs lap. She was a child when she had met Katerina an Eve, and a different kind of child when she had left. And in comparison, she supposed she still was a child. But she had never felt like one until now. And it wasnât just Katerina she wanted to curl into, but Eve, as well. âYou failed to mention that.â She commented with a soft smile of her own, sniffing a little. âYou would have. If I stayed. I would have.. have had a really bad day, and.. and you and Eve wouldâve just.. told me stories of your first century to make me feel better. And it wouldâve worked.â She went on, guiltily, because she wasnât sure she could forgive herself for leaving. She had been so young.
âIâm really good at drawing.â She told the older vampire. âLike.. really good. Animation and like.. cartoon things. I went to school for it. And uhm.. I do cosplay? And my favourite game is Dungeons and Dragons. I LARP, and.. I even design and make my own costumes. I learned to play guitar and piano, and I do karaoke sometimes. Iâve never been in love or experienced heartbreak..â Which Kat may have already known, if she felt strong emotions. However, Cordelia always wondered if that even worked with them, considering she didnât stick around long. Did a bond need time together to grow? Was it always just a constant strength? So much she didnât know. But when her body was supported, she was grateful and cried even harder. âCan.. we sit?â She asked, not caring where they sat.
âNo..â She let out, shaking her head as more tears fell. âI want to go back, Katerina.. I want to choose to stay and n-not leave.. I want to go back, okay? Thereâs magic, right? We can go back and do it over?â It made her very nervous, though, as she was told they had to sit down with Eveleen. Because Katerina was right â their bond probably made this easier, and it was in no way easy. âShe knows I loved her, right?â Cordelia didnât bother asking if Kat knew this, because she was sure Kat had to feel it. But Eveleen couldnât feel that. âBoth of you, so much.. but she knows? She has to know.. do we have to tell her today? Maybe tomorrow? Next week?â She didnât ask because she wasnât dying to be held by the original vampire; but because she knew this wasnât a quick fix. And she wanted it to be. âOh, I know â we could wait until Iâm in a life or death situation. That way sheâll be so grateful Iâm still alive, she canât be mad. Right?â