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- Peeta and I grow back together -
Since I’ve had some people asking, I’ve made it available on INPRNT Thank you so much for all the love <3
hey remember when i used to draw stuff
yeah me neither anyway here's yet another wip
let me preface this thought with what I’m not saying: I am not saying that you need to experience sexual attraction to be a whole, healthy, and healed human being. that’s not everyone’s journey. that said, let’s talk about Katniss. we have quite a few instances of Katniss experiencing physical or sexual attraction to Peeta (sexual attraction we can only assume is heartily reciprocated), and for her, for them, that makes “that night [she feels] that thing again” even more significant, not only because it’s a step in their relationship, but because it is another indicator of healing for a young woman who has and wants to enjoy sexual pleasure. one of the first things your body de-prioritizes when you undergo intense trauma (and malnourishment!) is your reproductive system. oftentimes, this can impact your libido as well. your body is in survival mode and it focuses all its attention on the necessary functions for keeping you alive. given the torture both Katniss and Peeta have undergone, being able to feel such a powerful feeling as desire for your lover is SUCH a beautiful thing. it’s the only hunger either of them will ever know again.
@pearlbeth *snaps fingers* reclaiming their bodies is a HUGE part of it too!!! both in a sense of autonomy (it still makes me sick how people in both the Capitol and 13 seemed to feel entitled to the use/abuse of their bodies) and in a sense of settling back into a space (your own skin and bones and breath) you’ve not had time to care for properly … maybe ever 😭 for sex to be truly a good thing it has to be mutually self-giving! your own mastery of your body is what allows opening yourself to another in such a vulnerable act possible! it’s sooo good it’s about self-reclamation and then giving (freely!!!) your body to the person you WANT to and who you know won’t see it as a tool or an object to be exploited like everyone else has *screams*
in the first Games, the shift from "oh, I don't care if you see me" when peeta is teasing about being comfortable naked in front of katniss to the soft, whispery "all right" when she kisses him is so... peeta.
because on the one hand, peeta is the kind of boy who finds katniss’s discomfort with overt sexualness funny and wants to egg her on. especially if it might be entertaining for the cameras.
but on the other hand, he’s also the kind of boy who finds genuine connection (and what seems like some sort of desire from his crush) scary. and unfamiliar.
because when he’s joking around, he doesn’t have to think about the reality of his feelings. it’s all a show. all for the cameras. and he’s a practiced performer.
but now that she’s kissed him… now it almost seems real.
it makes this boy, who’s always ready with a comeback, suddenly at a loss for words.
@mage-chocolate omg your tags
~ honey just put your sweet lips on my lips // we could just kiss like real people do ~
I'll add it to the list of words I use to try to figure you out
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Fucking ditto. Like what am I even supposed to say to this???
How am I supposed to keep functioning????
Sometimes art just changes you and this is one of those for me. Just godDAMN.
FUCKKKKKK
No actually I have to come back because the way they are somehow BOTH shielding each other in a way?????
But both so IMMENSELY vulnerable????
like, she's wrapping herself around his head. The part of him they damaged and that she wants to protect. she's using the bulk of her frame to protect the last little vestiges of him that she just can't lose.
The way he's battered and bruised but wrapping himself around her legs, protecting her, holding onto her. Incapable of letting go. The way he's (I think) wrapped around the leg she took shrapnel to while his own mechanical leg is in frame????
the way they're both looking at the "audience" like "look at everything you've taken from us. Look at what you've done to us - you wont take him/her from me again"
I LITERALLY CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT THIS.
Hijacked Peeta presents his old self as being confident in not being a part the act at all only Katniss was acting according to him. Alot of the Fandom believes him. To what extent was Peeta confused even before he was hijacked similar to Katniss?
Well, it’s not hard to see where hijacked Peeta might have had that “I’m the victim here” spin suggested to him … but I think at the point where he’s just being petty, a lot of that is Peeta’s own insecurities bubbling to the surface while he’s fighting his hijacked self (re: talking like he’s two people at the lunch? dinner? table). Do I think rational Peeta really thought Katniss was using him? No, not really. But inject months of drugs and torture and fear and abandonment into the situation? It gets stickier, doesn’t it?
I think that Peeta is much surer of his love for Katniss than she is of her love for him (or, no: than she is of labeling what her love for him means). In that way, he’s not confused. The confusion may come from feeding off her confusion. He thought they were on the same page in the arena, first about it being an act and then about it not being an act: turns out … maybe they weren’t? He thought they were just being friends and she was choosing Gale: but why’s she kissing him like her life depends on it? He’s not dumb. And she’s not a great liar. It’s complicated.
Which character do you find more emotional, Katniss or Peeta?
Based on Katniss’s mentions of Peeta having “worlds within” and how intense Peeta can be sometimes I would say they’re equally emotional internally. At their core they’re people who care so much. You can see it in how they mirror each other through the books:
They both snap at Haymitch’s apathy when they meet on the train
They both have a moment of comforting someone who is dying during the Games with the morphling and Rue
They’re so disgusted and angry that they make their Quell showcases rebellious statements that put them in more danger
The biggest difference is that Katniss seems much more skittish and avoidant when it comes to her emotions, while also maintaining less control. She gets easily overwhelmed and confused, often trying not to think about things. Her avoidance, combined with her focus on survival, helps her appear more stoic than she actually is. However, her tendency to become overwhelmed can also lead to snap judgments, such as shooting an arrow during her showcase or choosing the less favored victors as allies during the Quell.
Peeta, on the other hand, seems more aware of everything he's feeling. Instead of avoiding or running away from his emotions like Katniss, he tends to negotiate with them and try to mitigate damage. This usually leads him to withdraw, bottle things up, or plan—whatever causes the least harm. He's not as instinctual as Katniss. Like her, he doesn’t want to kill the other victors, but unlike her, he's willing to befriend them and choose the more popular ones as allies. When Peeta calls Katniss “pure,” he’s definitely being a bit of a twerp, but there's also an underlying admiration for her inability to lie or be anything other than completely sincere with her emotions. He feels just as much as she does, but there’s always a plan—always an effort to control himself—most likely a side effect of his abusive childhood.
So in summation: they’re both equally intensely emotional. Katniss wants to appear more stoic but her instinctual nature gets in the way. Peeta’s great at appearing amiable but his tendency to plan gives him more restraint. They both suck at being transparent though because of family trauma.
Katniss as a canary
One passage I love so much in CF (p.420-421) is when Katniss explains to Finnick and Johanna what a canary is and its use in the mines. It makes her think of her losses starting with her father’s death in a mine explosion. And each time I read that part, I think of how Katniss stopped singing when he died, just like a canary does.
But by the end of the war, as she became the mockingjay, lost (almost) everything and is clearly suicidal, she starts to sing again (MJ p.253). Cause “it’s not over until the mockingjay sings”.
.the words don't sound right. (i can hear them all moving inside her)
companion piece to this
I (and @katnissmellarkkk) have a theory: Katniss was used to kisses from Peeta after her nightmares; now, I’m not talking about kisses on the mouth, but I am talking about kisses on the hair or face to soothe her: below is a small collection of evidence to support this claim:
less solid evidences:
Peeta is not shy about giving her little, casual pecks here and there: for instance, on her nose in the cave, and before he leaves for the Quell
Katniss likes the sensation of his lips on her neck, and it seems like a familiar one; the closeness is comforting to her
the way Peeta comforts her after the jabberjay incident (cradling her, rocking her, making her look at him and talking sense to her) gives us some insight into how he may have comforted her after her nightmares, so it’s more active than just being beside her
okay here come the more solid evidences:
Katniss expects hugs and kisses from Peeta after the announcement of the Quell; mind you, there is NO ONE to perform for at this point; but she expects it nonetheless, telling us hugs AND kisses from Peeta are soothing to her
Peeta surely has *some* information he’s pulling from for his caustic “nights on the train” comment … I fully believe Katniss that nothing happened aside from comfort, but I’m not convinced the comfort was just holding each other
“… his arms are there to comfort me. And eventually his lips…” now I know this indicates a deepening of their physical relationship, but this is also part of their “grow[ing] back together” and we know his arms were there to comfort her before, so
it just would make me happy
I think if they ever remake the Hunger Games one thing I would want them to add more in is how much of a pair Katniss and Peeta are.
From the beginning, they're basically a package deal. From when they're threatening Haymitch on the train with Peeta throwing the glass, which leads to Katniss and the knife to even how they play off one another when it comes to the star cross lovers act.
Neither of them could have won the games without the other. Peeta, while he had some strengths in the arena, shinned when he played the Capitol. Katniss was the better fighter in the arena, but she needed someone to play off of for social interactions. She would have been quickly forgotten of in that arena if she didn't have Peeta to help keep their story going and her interactions with Rue.
It will make the devastation of them being ripped apart in Mockingjay so much worse. Katniss' other half is gone, and they want her to now play a role that he excells at.
It will also make they're coming back to one another that much sweeter, too. They're a pair, and they're gonna stay that way. Always coming back to one another.
(Also can we agree that if Peeta was in 13 from the start with or without Katniss, he would've taken control out from Coin in like less than two weeks. Peeta Manipulator Mellark everybody, Coin would be shaken in her revolution needing wig)
now that we have sotr, i wanted to update this post about how katniss’ power comes not from her similarities to lucy gray, but in their differences. i’m still working out my feelings about katniss being canonically covey descended, because i don’t love the implications for the 74th reaping to begin with. but i am at least glad that the covey connection has no bearing on what makes katniss the symbol of the revolution.
lucy gray’s livelihood was music. she believed that her voice was the skill which kept her and her family alive. from the minute she started singing at the reaping, before they even met, snow recognized it as the only currency she possessed, and thus, the only power she wielded. it was her ticket to victory, and they both knew it. to her knowledge, it was her last line of defense in the arena against the snakes. in the end, singing to the jabberjays may have been what saved her from snow.
in sotr, we learn that burdock’s covey connection comes not from the everdeens, but from his mother’s side. unlike her singing voice, katniss’ skill with a bow is an everdeen characteristic, through and through. and archery, not music, is what katniss identifies as the source of her strength, as the skill which keeps her alive. and it’s true; she never would have been a real threat without that bow. she simply wouldn’t have survived long enough. not after burdock died, not in the arena(s), and not in the war. she also would never have been able to shoot coin and end the cycle of the dehumanizing “opinion” of governance.
yes, a lot of katniss’ “power” over snow comes from her connection to the covey (her name, singing their songs, girl from district 12 “pretending” to be in love with a blond boy, etc.). and there is no doubt that the covey connection is imperative to katniss’ cultural identity and her relationship to her father. but not one of the qualities which make katniss the mockingjay for the people, which is her real threat in bringing about the capitol’s downfall, has anything to do with lucy gray or the covey at large.
beyond the bow which keeps her alive, katniss’ power comes from a variety of non-covey sources. cinna’s costumes, while echoing lucy gray in unforgettability, make her not appealing, but striking, as the “girl on fire.” tying the district 12 tributes together comes from haymitch, the rebellion, and most importantly, her luck of being reaped alongside peeta, someone willing to give his life to save hers. her compassion for prim, peeta, rue, thresh, and even cato is rooted in her mother, who snuck into the seam to treat people for free and left her privileged life behind to marry a coal miner. even katniss’ ability to heal both herself and peeta, which keeps them alive long enough to hold out the berries, comes from asterid.
the covey and their legacy touches katniss more than most in district 12, but that isn’t part of her appeal to the masses. there is music class in district 12, and peeta, asterid, and maysilee recognize and feel emotionally connected to many of their songs. the galvanizing effect of their music could have come from any mouth singing banned songs with provocative words. that’s clear because it works when no one, not even katniss, knows of her heritage. when katniss sings, her beautiful voice is not what moves people—it’s the timing, the moments when she sings: to rue, and to pollux and the mockingjays. ultimately, katniss is not a performer, which is, as haymitch points out, explicitly what people respond to about her.
katniss’ similarity to lucy gray is undoubtedly a rose thorn in snow’s side, and most certainly leads to his recklessness in exacting his vengeance against her. in fact, it’s snow’s attempted exploitation of that connection by trying to force katniss to be a performer that is his predominant failure. but the effect on snow, personally, isn’t what ignites the rebellion. it certainly isn’t what makes the revolution successful. that is a concerted, unified effort of decades, which results in katniss and peeta holding hands at the opening ceremonies in burning costumes. in no one being able to blow katniss and peeta in the air when they hold out those berries. in giving katniss the wire to fire into the force field.
as snow himself notes before her victory tour, no one would believe her death was an accident after she held out the berries. she is already a martyr before she really starts to perform. because, unlike for lucy gray, reaper, haymitch, finnick, and the other potential symbols, the people of the districts are already primed and ready to fight. katniss, in a burning costume, is the human manifestation of marching orders. she is a signal to something that already exists.
the kindling is laid. the logs are stacked. the gas is poured. the striker is not around her neck, but in maysilee’s pin on her shirt. all katniss would need to do to start the fire is find a striking rock on a berry bush in her arena. a striking rock which she could only recognize because of her father. whose true power she only understands because of peeta. power she only chooses to use because of her sense of justice, displayed through her solidarity.
solidarity, not an inherited musical talent, not twirling in a colorful dress at the interviews, not a “performance” as a lovestruck girl, is what lights the spark of revolution. it’s a quality katniss shares not with lucy gray, but with haymitch. of course, the difference between them is that haymitch did not have the benefit of a locked and loaded rebel movement in place to ensure the world would be watching. but snow’s lingering obsession with lucy gray is also not what makes katniss a success where haymitch failed. from haymitch, the rebellion learned that its symbol is needed not to build the fire, but to light the spark.
in a line of failed attempts ranging from beetee to haymitch to finnick, katniss is successful because, this time, the groundwork is laid to launch the districts into a planned, full-scale rebellion. in displaying her love for prim, for rue, and for peeta, her solidarity was the striker hitting the rock at just the right moment. katniss, the springtime daughter of asterid march, the prodigal archer of the everdeen line, the girl who fights not for herself, but for everyone else, is the mockingjay not because she bleeds covey blood, but because in selecting the moment she starts to burn, she is “luckier, [and] with better timing.” and that is a fire that even snow, the #1 peacekeeper, would never have been able to quell.
aight fellas more hunger games thoughts:
obviously, peeta's capture by the capitol and getting hijacked is such a fabulous third-act-separation device, but it's also so wonderful in terms of how peeta has been a symbol through the whole series. throughout, katniss knows he's kind, he's gentle, and also not a killer. he's "better" than all the other victors; i don't remember an on-page description of him killing anyone directly. the reversal of all these when he's hijacked is snow's contamination, yet its presentation through the capitol lens comes across as his true nature taken to horrible new lengths. i said before, at the end of cf, that he feels like he's made out to be a saint. in snow's hands, he is a particularly horrible kind of saint, an avenging angel that's the only fit killer for katniss, the purported mutt, representative of the devil. she feels bitter that he seems to "see her for who she is" by only seeing what is terrible about her nature, but that's only another distortion: another capitol fiction she buys into that plays into the fiction she's already constructed about him.
and yet at the same time, peeta working back from his hijacking humanizes him. he's no longer this ever-perfect, noble guy who always says and does the right thing. he can be cruel to finnick, cynical about his own feelings, even though his basic higher artistic instincts are what saves him. but he comes down from the stained glass, in a sense, which is a very solid arc for a character who we've seen previously only through katniss's unreliable narration.
thinking about this obviously brings me to gale. gale, who constantly gives me a sense of unease every time he's on the page. gale, whose violence is what katniss relates to, even though she grows to become horrified by it. gale, who clearly represents katniss's darker nature that she has to put aside--that she has to acknowledge that never really was hers. gale is almost so ham-fistedly symbolic in this book that i'm really quite surprised people would continue to wish he and katniss ended up together. i mean, i'm usually a firm advocate for the second lead, but at this point, i'm more invested in whatever is going on between katniss and boggs than katniss and gale.
one teeny, tiny quote from the hunger games that has always stuck out to me is the last sentence in this paragraph,
“The district had given us a small amount of money as compensation for his death, enough to cover one month of grieving at which time my mother would be expected to get a job. Only she didn’t. She didn’t do anything but sit propped up in a chair or, more often, huddled under the blankets on her bed, eyes fixed on some point in the distance. Once in a while, she’d stir, get up as if moved by some urgent purpose, only to then collapse back into stillness. No amount of pleading from Prim seemed to affect her.”
this always stuck out to me because in my opinion it speaks to katniss’ extremely low self-esteem. throughout the series she never views herself as good or kind or worthy, and i’ve always felt it began with her mother’s mental illness.
now let’s be clear: did mother everdeen choose to be depressed/despondent? no, of course not. but things can happen outside your control and it can still hurt people you love. your children especially.
at the point this quote is taken from, katniss isn’t referring to a time when she was already parentified and hardened against her mother. she’s explaining to the audience how she became parentified and resentful. so i find it interesting that when describing her mother’s behaviors that first month after her father passed, katniss specifically says “no amount of pleading from prim seemed to affect her”. not “no amount of pleading from us” or “no amount of pleading from me and prim”, it’s only prim’s pain and begging that means anything in katniss’ mind.
and yes, it could be argued that maybe katniss refused to beg her mother to take care of them but it’s never read that way to me. katniss is referring to right directly after her father died, before peeta had tossed her that bread and she’d realized she could hunt. she’s referring to a time when mrs. everdeen probably could have still won her eldest daughter back. imo there’s no reason katniss wouldn’t have been begging and pleading with her mom as well.
and yet, katniss seems to imply that her mother ignoring prim’s pleads is the only travesty here. the only thing worth noting. not her own neglect, not her own heartbreak and desperation, but instead prim’s. because to katniss, prim is the one who’s worthy of everything good. prim is the one who’s deserving of love.
same way she says,
“Because if it had become known that my mother could no longer care for us, the district would have taken us away from her and placed us in the community home. I’d grown up seeing those home kids at school. The sadness, the marks “of angry hands on their faces, the hopelessness that curled their shoulders forward. I could never let that happen to Prim.”
because she views her sister differently than she views herself. it makes sense in her mind that her mother may not be swayed by her pleads because she isn’t as good or kind or wonderful as her little sister. to ignore her is one thing but to ignore prim… that’s where katniss draws the line.
i just rarely have seen katniss’ lack of self-worth tied back to her mother’s abandonment. i know mrs. everdeen couldn’t help what happened and she probably hated herself for it but to me, it seems to be where katniss’ inability to see herself as good and kind and lovable began. because if you feel like your mother abandoned you in your time of need, as a child, how can it not affect the way you view yourself? how would that not affect your sense of self/self-worth?
it didn’t affect prim’s (that we know of) because katniss was there to protect her. katniss was there to make sure she never felt the same abandonment she felt. but there was no one protecting katniss and that’s where her issues with self-loathing all seemed to begin.
@sanjarka your tags are literally making me spiral for little katniss 🥺
of all the characters in the hunger games to get hyperfixated on, my brain landed on GALE HAWTHORNE, which i did not see coming. don’t get me wrong, i don’t ship him with katniss — that boy never stood a CHANCE against peeta. but i believe that gale is fascinating, tragic, over-hated, and worthy of more nuanced analysis than i see on tiktok.
i’m not saying gale’s a perfect person, but he’s not some irredeemable villain. he’s a desperate, oppressed kid caught in horrifying circumstances that radicalize him to develop a very black-and-white, us-against-them worldview, which ultimately leads to his downfall.
katniss and gale’s friendship is a tragedy, it was never a love story. their fathers died in the same mining accident, they each became the sole providers for their families, and they both had to put their names in the reaping dozens of times to feed them. they were two children faced with the same trauma and responsibilities who teamed up to keep their families from starving to death. even if it’s not inherently romantic, they become codependent on each other. they trust and rely on each other. then they’re torn apart by the capitol, the same oppressive force that’s already controlling every aspect of their lives. the moment prim’s name is called, gale loses katniss, then he continues to lose her over and over and over again in a million different ways.
the girl he’s in love with, his best friend and hunting partner, is sent to the hunger games, leaving him to care for her family, which is traumatizing in and of itself. then katniss falls in love with a different boy on national television, while gale has to pretend to be her cousin. yes, she did it to survive, but gale didn’t know that at the time. then when katniss and peeta BOTH survive and come home, he loses her again in a whole new way. katniss is still confused about her feelings for both of them, she tells him it wasn’t real, but it definitely seemed real to him. OF COURSE gale’s fucking weird about it.
i’m not saying he expresses his feelings in a respectful or kind way, but he’s an angsty teenager too, and he’s allowed to have feelings about the situation. he may not have the trauma of the arena, but he gets whipped within an inch of his life, his best friend is sent to the hunger games with peeta AGAIN, his district gets firebombed by the capitol, and he has to save as many people as he can and lead them all to safety.
from the start of mockingjay, gale is irreversibly radicalized by the horrors he’s witnessed. this eventually leads him to take drastic measures under the guidance of coin, who (from gale’s perspective) rescued his people after their district was bombed off the face of the earth and provided them with the means to fight back. he’s too blinded by his anger toward the capitol to find any nuance in their circumstances or question coin’s motives. his worldview becomes “an eye for an eye,” no matter who gets caught in the crossfire.
which leads us to everyone’s favorite argument — that gale killed prim. there’s truth to that, but it’s not that simple. yes, gale had the idea for the bombs that killed prim, but he didn’t know that coin was going to use them that way. he was busy fighting with katniss and the star squad while the rebels were closing in on the capitol, he wasn’t in contact with them, and he was captured by the capitol before the bombs went off. the bomb was his idea and beetee’s design, but it wasn’t gale’s decision.
that doesn’t make him innocent, he is complicit in the deaths of all of those kids (and, more directly, the people in district two). but people talk about gale as if he authorized the bombs himself or intentionally murdered prim with his own hands, which is not the case at all. none of them knew prim was going to be there. gale took care of katniss’ family while she was gone, he kept prim alive that whole time, he LOVES prim. he wouldn’t let her die like that if he’d any prior knowledge or control over that decision.
the series ends with him having to accept that he’s at least partially responsible for the death of the person he was supposed to protect above all else. even if it wasn’t intentional, he knows there’s no coming back from that. he failed. he is as good as dead to katniss. after already slowly losing her bit by bit, over and over again, gale finally loses katniss forever, and it’s due to his own actions. he finally understands that war and death comes at a personal cost, which katniss tried so hard to warn him about, but it’s too late. prim is dead. katniss hates him. i don’t think he ever recovers from that.
TLDR — gale’s not some heartless, cruel monster. he’s not “the prim reaper.” at the end of the day, he’s still a traumatized teenager, just like peeta and katniss, and he deserves more credit than people give him. i understand why he views the world and humanity the way he does. i empathize with him.
you can hate him all you want, i understand. but if you’re struggling to understand the narrative significance of his character, take a moment and reframe your perspective of him. gale’s interesting as hell.