James felt exhausted. The journey back to England was always tiring enough as it was, added to the fact he had ridden here in a day, and then the normal court formalities, the whole thing just meant that he wanted to stay in his chambers and try to sleep. But right now that wasn’t an option, he wasn’t even sure when it would be one again. It didn’t seem like he would be leaving court again anytime soon.
One thing that he did hate, was being announced almost everywhere that he went. He imagined that it would happen less once he had been home a little while longer, but for now it was just something that he had to put up with. That was simple enough, what he hadn’t been expecting was his betrothed to be there. Not that he had known who she was, until she said her name. He knew that was going to be difficult enough to handle when it had simply been an arranged marriage. But now, given the colour of the other woman’s face, he realised that this might have got a lot harder. He knew he should have behaved a lot more then he had, but when he had grown up hearing the stories of the military, being shipped off at such a young age had simply meant that there had been certain things he had wanted to do before he left. He had never thought he’d make it long enough to even meet the woman, let alone actually make it to the wedding day.
“Duchess, my apologies, I must apologise, I was not expecting to meet quite like this either” especially with the tension he could read off of the other woman. He knew he probably should know her name, but right now he was pulling a blank. After all, it had been a mutually beneficial relationship. He knew there were many who’d share his bed in the hopes he’d somehow either marry them, or they would have a child. The whole thing was silly really, but it wasn’t as if he made any promises for it to be more then that. He knew his duty, and once that went ahead then he would at least try to stick to his duty, although given her current demeanour, he wasn’t sure this would exactly be a perfect match. “Perhaps I should leave until the dinner this evening. Unless you would prefer to walk somewhere a little more private” or at least away from some of the women here, who might know a little too much about him.
She’s not sure why. Nobody has told her this would be a moment of ornate love and beauty; that she would see him, and swoon. Her mother has raised her to view this as a business transaction and little more.
It’s not that her heart is breaking because she will spend her life with this man; this impious man that made the women around them blush. No, her heart was breaking because he wore the military in his straight-backed shoulders like a cloak, and she did not think that he would hesitate to take the men from her country or the money from her coffers if it would aid him. He would not hesitate to send Brigitte wherever he pleased if he thought that it aided him. Perhaps it is unfair of Brigitte to pile all of these accusations upon him, even in her own mind, but it is only now that she really realises how her freedom and life have been bartered away. She can only hope, feebly, that he will at least fall in love with Burgundy and defend it with all of his heart.
She finds herself looking down, inspecting the pointed leather toes peeping out from her dress, but forces her gaze up. She cannot be so weak. Should they walk? If Brigitte looks back to her ladies for guidance she will seem foolish, and certainly her mother would have her obey propriety and wait for their formal introduction at dinner... but Brigitte feels that things will be easier if they discuss matters in a less structured setting first. Perhaps they can still come to see eye to eye.
“Let us walk,” she says in a voice whose confidence is belied by the hesitation that fell before its sound. Before she can change her mind, Brigitte sets off at a brisk pace, and as she speaks she does not face James. Again she pauses; she has all of the astringent words of her mother, but none of the conviction behind it. A great sigh is stifled beneath her kirtle. “I wish to be honest with you, your highness, and I do not know that there will be much time for honesty over dinner. There is little... little in this arrangement that pleases me. I do it for Burgundy, not for myself, and I am sure you do the same for England. If you and I can be allies, it would be well for all... but please, with future indiscretions, ensure that they are indeed discreet. I cannot enter a marriage in shame.”
It is too soon entirely to be making demands of him, but she hates that she has only just landed and has already heard of his womanising. Is this truly what God wishes for her life?