My tribute to Liam 💜
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It's been 38 days since your passing and your funeral was the other day... I wrote this in the first week of your passing but couldn't bring myself to post it..
I don't even know what to say but as a fan I wanted to say something, to share my thoughts somewhere. It still doesn't feel real that the world lost Liam because there are moments that I am able to "forget" about him dying but then when I remember I remember hard. One Direction has always and will always mean something to me and I can't believe that someone I was always able to feel comfort from is gone. And I know I didn't know him and I don't know the guy's but they still mean so so much to me and I know they always will. I know this sounds kind of crazy and I understand that, but the world truly feels different right now. I cannot even begin to imagine how his family, friends, or the guys feel when I am hurting this much after his death. I don't remember exactly when I discovered One Direction but I know I really got into them fully in high school. Ever since then even if I didn't listen to them everyday I still listened to (and still do) them frequently. A day after I heard about his death I started playing the One Direction albums and that honestly made me sob because I just love them so much and I can't believe one of them is not here anymore. I really want to listen to his solo work right now, but listening to him on the One Direction album is already hard, so I don't think that I am ready for hearing just him yet. It's not even about the reunion, it's his presence was such a light and he cared about his fans so so much. And yeah I didn't always agree with what he said (the Logan Paul interview) and I stopped supporting him for a bit because of what he said, but when he made that instagram story talking about how sorry he was hoping that we could forgive him for what he said absolutely broke my heart and I felt horrible that I got mad and turned on him. I don't think I said anything publicly about being upset with him (that I can remember), it was more of a personal "I'm done supporting him" because I was hurt with what he said about Zayn but after his instagram story post I felt like the worst person because he was struggling and I didn't see that. I did not always keep up with his music and I feel guilty about that as well but now I am always going to be listening to the guys music on Spotify because I don't want them to feel underappreciated or overlooked like I feel like Liam probably felt. I find myself watching old clips of their X Factor days and the early One Direction days wishing I was there active in the fandom during those days, but I am still grateful for what I was able to experience as a fan.
I want to conclude this tribute by saying how much I love you Liam and how I will and can never forget about you. The fandom will keep your memory alive and post all of the times you were able to make us smile.. I hope you're doing good up there and keep looking down on us and I hope we can make you proud.
I am still really struggling with the news of his passing and I honestly think that I will be for a while..My heart goes to all of the Directioners and the solo Liam fans.. we can get through this. But my heart goes out to Bear, his family, the guys, and his friends the most
