🌸Made of Air🌸

BTS has now taken over my entire life so here those angels are~ THIS IS NOT A FUN BLOG. TW// depression, suicidal thoughts and eating disorders run wild here. I was recovered but just got dumped so I'm ready to be back on my starving bullshit. I DON'T USE any group/idol to promote eds. Call me Light and my talk tag is lightpours💖💖

[hihijayne-deactivated20260107]

TW // ED , Fatspo

Fatspo is disgusting.

Every other month on my twitter timeline I see women notice that their pics got used for fatspo and it's heartbreaking.

Imagine thinking that you have the right to post other peoples bodies and call them things just for motivation. Believe it or not, some people (no matter what weight they are) love their bodies, have self-esteem and unlike us aren't mentally ill. People who post fatspo are the ones with the problems.

If you post fatspo or publicly shame someone for their weight in order to boost your own ED you are no better than the skinny girls who called you fat behind your back, you are no better than your family members who made comments on your eating habits and you are no better than the guys who asked you out as a dare because of your weight. Being skinny with an ugly personality is not cute. You're bullying.

[mariannesbones]

i think i'd look a lot skinnier if my shoulders + ribs were narrower tbh

[cl0udyzzz100]

this.

[greenteaandchill-deactivated202]

the thing that gets to me the most is the fact that i’m not ugly. like i know i’m not ugly. i’m just super fucking fat and that cancels it out, ya know?

[loveliest-suggestions]

oh what id give to feel your lips on mine, to be in your arms

[btsslightangel]

I texted my ex.

I...don't wanna see the response

[btsslightangel]

One thing I'm excited to lose is my strength. I know it sounds weird but I've always been kind of a "built" girl. Always having extra weight and I was in sports and dance so I built muscle from that but I'm so excited to see all that go. I dont wanna look "strong" or "sturdy" or "built".

I wanna be delicate and fragile and look like I cant life a gallon of water let alone something actually heavy. I wanna be thin and fragile like a faberge egg. Smal. Perfect.

I cant wait till a gust of wind knocks me over....

[caloriesannoyme]

when someone interrupts you looking at thinspo

[btsslightangel]

He doesn't want me. He doesn't want me. He doesn't want me. He doesn't want me. He doesn't want me. He doesn't want me. He doesn't want me. He doesn't want me. He doesn't want me. He doesn't want me. He doesn't want me. He doesn't want me.

[theunbecomingofnovablair-deacti]

* Me and my eating disorder debating on how we should ruin my body next to lose weight *

[skiineee]

WITH THE DIET COKE LMAOOOO

[luciddrifting]

🍂 Autumn 🍂

FOOD:

First meal is at 2pm, last is before 8pm.

Food MUST be aesthetically pleasing — if it doesn’t look pretty, I won’t look pretty.

Oatmeal, Soup, Brown Bread and Roasted Veg ONLY.

No snacking between meals.

No counting calories — it leads to binging.

I KNOW WHEN ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.

WORK OUTS:

Running three times a week. (30mins)

At home workouts any other day.

SELF-CARE:

Make a plan of my day the night before.

Get at least 8hrs sleep.

Shower everyday.

Coconut oil massage face every night.

Cream hands and feet before bed.

Paint nails often — when a nail chips, fresh coat.

Go to bed at 9pm even if it’s just for lying in bed watching Friends because I can’t sleep.

Plan my outfits the night before.

Put money in savings for the Christmas clothing shopping I’ll be doing at my goal weight.

I WILL BE SKINNY FOR CHRISTMAS.

[kpop-ed-memes221]

I'm gonna try

[aidashakur]

“6 months from now I will be in a different situation.”

Speak it into existence.

[pure-leafs-deactivated20190914]

SIX MONTHS FROM NOW I WILL BE IN A DIFFERENT SITUATION

[m00nba3]

A better, successful, lucrative, blessed, abundant situation *

[timhortons]

i remember when i reblogged this around six months ago, and the lord really has been good to me since🥰

[i-love-to-starve]

Always have hope. I know things are getting better.

[shymagnolia]

so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god

[shymagnolia]

okay so i just got my dream job??? a week after applying to it?? and now i’m thinking….maybe this is the good luck post

[flagellant]

…..not even six hours later i got an offer of a well paying full time long-term job with free room and board in queens in nyc, allowing me independence and a way to escape an abusive situation and an unhealthy environment

likes charge reblogs cast, folks, this is the good luck post

[100cal-a-day]

Me when I’m at 35h out of an 48h fast

[btsslightangel]

Hey guys! I just got dumped and to say that my depression and ED are hitting with a vengeance would be an understatement. So be expecting to see me all in the tags!

September is gonna be wild...

[btsslightangel]

Just a quick follow up: I'm gonna be a mess. I plan on doing nothing but water/liquid fasts and HEAVY restriction for the entire month of September and some October.

Am I relapsing over a man? Yes, im a dumb bitch and I know that. But if he doesn't take me back after I'm skinnier and prettier then idk what to do and I'll move on happier bc I'll be skinny and pretty so whats the downside? *nervous laughter*

[eleanorcaldit]

[goingkokothin]

me coming back on tumblr after failing my 8474838th attempt to recover

[just-thinspo-shit]

me looking at my coping mechanisms like