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FUTURE?

I've been asked recently if I think Biu gave up on acting and my answer was he certainly isnt showing much interest and that does not worry me because he has an artistic vein in him, but is it pulsating?

Is he really willing to put himself out there and have to deal with haters, hyprocrytes and bow down to rules of an industry that crushes anyone who deviates? Do we want that? I know I don't, if I could choose I would never have to deal with a BL fandom ever again.

The latest events made me even more disappointed in his management and his choices, because I'm sorry but I cannot and see no reason to separate them. They are intrinsically together, certain ruptures demand courage and a lot of discomfort and I don't feel he is bothered at all. When the company runs to say let's hold hands and move on, it sounds dismissive and empty yes, but also clear where he stands.

Liking an artist is also dealing with their imperfections and problems, I just wish someone in his family wasn't one of them because I know how hard it is when a sister fights a friend, I've been there, I stood by my sister. I don't expect Build to do otherwise. Individually we will have to see if we can get past that or not and I lost count of how many of my friends left because of her.

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pattinha

GHOST IN MEMORY

This song caught me off guard, it made me so emotional I cried myself to sleep when I heard it. An amazing goodbye, a message saying "I'm fine, all good things come to an end, the old goes so the new can grow"!

Ghost in memory

I'll keep you in my heart, never letting you fade away.

Even if time pulls us apart, I can't erase you from my heart.

You will be right here forever—

Memories of you remain vividly

Inside my heart and here in my mind.

The love you left behind will never disappear.

The sound of your laughter

And the days we once spent together are gone now.

But they still echo and linger—like a ghost in memory.

The moments you held me,

The scent of you slowly fades with time.

I miss you, even though I know you won't come back.

Time moves on, and so did we, But l'll keep us inside me.

From now on, I'll keep missing you.

I'll keep you in my heart, never letting you fade away.

Even if time pulls us apart, I can't erase you from my heart.

You will be right here forever—

Memories of you remain vividly

Inside my heart and here in my mind.

The love you left behind will never disappear.

I take out a pen to write down our memories— To remind myself, every day, of the image of you.

To never forget the love we built together.

I will keep us alive in this song,

In case one day you come back to hear it.

In case it reminds you of our story.

In case you think of you and me.

Because I still think of you every day—

And I hope you feel the same.

Time moves on, and so did we, But I'll keep us inside me.

From now on, l'll keep missing you.

Like a ghost in memory.

(Like a ghost in memory.)

Like a ghost in memory.

Listen to Ghost in Memory (จาง) by BUILD.

Beautiful, bae!

buildmybaby

The fandom and I ~ Bye 2024

I certainly live today in a less ballistic environment, still reporting, still posting in different soc med, but way more serene seeing Biu so happy. I'm also always tired, and whenever Biu says that I remember how the year was and how they have been since, full of activitoes and with little or no time to rest. I hope Build rests, I hope he travels, he eats delicious food, he learns new things, he tries new things, he shares moments and finds luve amidst it all. Luve for people, life, things, nature and hopefully lust for life and the will to keep living and going despite everything and everyone. Things may not happen like we wanted, but they definitely will happen as they should be. I accept it with arms wide open. 🥰

Biu made my 2024 better, meeting him was one of the best days of my life, like in 2023 and like it will be in 2025 when our paths cross again.

Happy Holidays, thank you for luving Biu 💙

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Pink Cloud era 🩷☁️

Build has just released a new song Pink Cloud🩷☁️ for Beyourluve and I can feel so much luve. I remember I had heard the melody before and it is so calming and charming. Luvely!

Biu hinted at going back to acting with "casting" in his schedule for December too and that made our hearts overflow with hope.

I'm thrilled! On one hand I've been listening to rumours about this for half a year and Thai fans said he hinted jokingly at it during ADDA event, and on the other his sister told some fans he hadn't received acting proposals (she usually spoils fans). I'm still confused by the mixed signals and gossip, but now I will allow myself to dream a little. My ever realistic self. 💙

I hope now is the best time, when stars align and efforts come to fruition once again. 🙏

Praying magic happens soon!✨️

Proud of him and proud of Beyourluve!!!

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oishitea

I would simply like to say that I'm proud of Build Jakapan for fighting for his rights and having a thorough investigation done for the accusations made against him. I'm tired of being quiet about how I've felt this whole time about it, but some of you people were fucking awful to those of us who didn't immediately join a cyber bullying campaign, or support someone who has admitted in court to lying over a full year ago and now faces real consequences. I care more about the fact that this is an example of an actor who wasn't protected by his workplace and had to use his own time, energy and resources to have any sort of justice.

Not gonna argue with anyone over this, because at this point it's exhausting. But I'll be having a nice day, and so will Build.

kissporsche

I am just so happy and proud of Build. He's been working his ass off to rebuild his career this whole time WHILE fighting for justice for himself. And finally he gets it, found entirely innocent in court, after refusing to rise to bait and sorting everything through proper, legal channels.

What happened to him was truly awful, and I can't imagine the strength it took to keep fighting through it. Hopefully now he can find some peace and focus on happier things. It's a new chapter, free from all the bullshit, and I can't wait to see what he does next 💙

For those of us fans who have had a hard time throughout all this- I hope we can celebrate this victory and also move on to happier times. Thank you thank you thank you for still being here

yujeong

I didn't have a Tumblr account when the scandal started. I actually created one around the end of May 2023, a little before Build had his comeback concert. However, I had a Twitter account, which means I saw everything: I saw Build crying at the sponsored event he had with Bible, I saw the confusing translations, I saw the official announcements, I saw all the hate and vitriol, I saw Poi's unhinged behavior, I saw it all. Those were some of the worst months of my life. Build's story felt personal. Not only because Pete became so important to me, not only because KinnPorsche the Series became a second home, but also because his story was similar to what I'd been through. I was experiencing my previous relationship that finished a mere few months before the scandal started all over again, and it fucking hurt. It hurt seeing him get so much hate. It hurt seeing people celebrate him leaving BOC. It hurt seeing him at the verge of tears outside the court house and it hurt not knowing if he was ever going to come back to acting or to the public eye at all. It still hurts. It's something that is never going to stop hurting. To me, this story has been over since last year. I knew he was innocent already, I didn't need the court decision to tell me that. But what happened today reminded me of something I'd always known but temporarily forgot: it was never over for Build. It will never be truly over for him. Today was a much needed victory, one he deserved a long time ago, but the scars this whole thing has left on him will remain there. And that's also something that hurts me and will never stop hurting me. I'm glad, too, Build. I'm glad you're still here and that you have your fans to support you. And since I'll probably never be able to tell you this up close, Thank you for giving me Pete. Thank you for everything.

chalkrevelations

So, it appears that not only has Build won a lawusit against his abuser for falsely accusing him of abuse, not only did Poi admit in court that her abuse allegations against him were lies (my shocked face, let me show you it), but apparently if she pulls any of her standard bullshit - the behavior antis reveled in over the past year and a half - during her two-year probation period, it'll get her ass sent to prison?

Countdown starting now.

Meanwhile, I wish I thought that of all the liars and bullies in KP fandom who helped gin up and spread the smear campaign against Build under a self-aggrandizing banner of moral piety they threw over their dirty little fanwars to cover up their real motives, the hypocrites who touted themselves as "neutral" while they collected and spread slander against Build but were suspiciously silent about Poi's abusive behavior or who were just suddenly so very very tired of it all and such proponents of civility-aka-shutting up when it came time for Build's side of the story, the swathes of people complicit in Poi's months-long online campaign of verbal and emotional and psychological abuse of him - the people who so blithely reblogged the slander, aiding and abetting an abuser in destroying her victim's life and domestic career and relationships as she tried to maintain access to and control over him - I wish I thought even one-tenth of them were going to take the blindest bit of notice of this outcome. But having watched all of this vile and shameless behavior unfold in real-time, I will bet you $1000 none of them will say a single word about it. It was already clear that none of them actually cared about intimate partner violence when none of them gave a shit about Poi, except as a cudgel to beat Build with, despite the fact that they were supposedly so concerned about supporting a woman, they thought they'd bully a man to suicide to prove it.

There was a point when I would have been worried about dropping this lighted match, but I'm still pretty mad about the way certain parts of the fandom made a mockery of intimate partner violence from atop their self-righteous high horses.

Do fucking better.

Biu and the unfollow part 2

In July 2023 , a year ago, my life in the fandom changed completely. I was feeling so sad, having anxiety attacks every Saturday because chats could drop and it was harder to take action maximizing the damage, reporting and dealing with haters. People were so manipulated and blinded by hate that they forgot what a crime is. I joined a reporting group at that time and I thank my friends for the support. The situation made me so mad, so angry, so enraged that I decided to fight more and do more as a Beyourluve.

Biu apologized for the incovenience he caused and his words and good faith were twisted, he was abused again. Those vile mean jealous cowards unfollowed Biu and they were so dumb to think people wouldn't notice the pattern... Like, bitches please! At some point we were joking thinking about who would be the next to unfollow. They were shameless, they did get a lot of sympathy, but also showed how they didn't care at all for the victim of a crime. More chats came and more hate, people had already judged Biu and have never even once seen him as a victim. BOC and its actors helped normalize the hate against him and throw their fandoms at his throat, our throats. Dark times.

In July 2024, today the 23rd, Biu finally returned the favor and unfollowed everyone who was part of this circus act. These people have no honor, no shame, no guts. I feel avenged, even if a little. It took us one year to get here and I don't know but, maybe surprisingly great news will be coming soon. I wanna believe. 🙏

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Biu and the future

I still feel disturbed when I see Biu being associated with BOC artists. Tbh, I know it will never be pleasant for me and this is the fundamental difference between a Byl and a Bubble. I don't want to see Biu working with those people.

But I understand this is out of my control, and a bit too petty. For him to grow and to come back to acting in Thailand he will have to do it, to deal with people in this industry that is quite small. I will trust him and hype what's necessary no matter how much it pains me.

I don't want to generalize, but other fandoms and fans need to understand that hating others won't make their fave more successful. There's a limit to what one can say when they try to compare different people in completely different circumstances.

I wish people are kind to Biu and Byls!

I wish Biu is doing whatever he wants to do!

I wish he gets the acting job he is looking for!