🐾 starving mutt (inactive but still sick)🐾

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[bulimic-mutt]

HEYYY, itz daydreamzz and bandaidzz lol, wantef to say hi! I hope you've been doing OK, tiz been a v v v long time qwq

alive and recovered babyeeee

[bulimic-mutt]

Please tell me I'm not the only person with very problematic (hyper)fixations. Gore and snuff intrigued me for like a good year and a half and it was all I ever talked about. Recently it was the Sandy Hook Shooting. Anybody else like this?

[caffeinatedopossum]

Welcome to Opossum rambles about

✨️healthy coping mechanisms✨️

pt 2.

In part 1, we explored a little bit about what coping mechanisms are and what makes them healthy or not. Now it's time to talk about some examples of healthy coping mechanisms.

There are 4 different categories which coping mechanisms are typically divided into. Now most people are going to end up with a combination of different things from more than one category and that's fine- these categories mostly exist just to show what type of stress these strategies are most effective at reducing. These categories are:

Problem-focused coping, which addresses the cause of the stress. This is good if your stress comes from a problem with a solution. It can help you feel more in control of a situation and build your confidence in your ability to handle the stress.

Emotion-focused coping, which aims to reduce negative emotions. These are good for situations that you have little or no control over. Some examples include, positive reframing, acceptance, religion, and humor. (My favorite is humor of course >:)

Meaning-focused coping. This is when you manage distress by identifying and engaging in things that feel meaningful or give you purpose or motivation.

Religion falls into this category as well. Some other examples could be focusing on your career, taking care of an animal, practicing something you're passionate about, or really anything that feels meaningful or fulfilling to you!

I personally love to have deep talks with my friends, especially when they come to me with their problems and I'm able to feel helpful.

Social coping, which is a way of seeking support to help manage stress. This can be professional support, like from a therapist or support from friends and other loved ones.

This one has probably been the most instrumental in my own experience for managing distress- yet at the same time, the one I'm most reluctant to rely on.

So if that's you, I just want you to know that it *is* okay to reach out for help or even just some friendly company. Ask for a hug, have a good cry, talk to someone who loves you. It helps *so much*.

And if you have access to health care, get those diagnoses and that treatment. It goes a long way just to have a professional not only validate your experience but also seek to help you understand yourself. 💙

That's all for now! I hope this was helpful and easy enough to understand.

[coffeeseed]

God, I can't tell you how much the "there's not enough enrichment in my enclosure" joke has helped my mental health. Because, for some reason I can't comprehend, pretending that I'm a zoo keeper caring for an animal (which is also me) just makes everything easier to comprehend. Like "Your head gets screwey when you're apartment is messy" just doesn't carry as much resonance as "The tiger becomes agitated when its enclosure is cluttered" because then I'll be like, no shit? The tiger? I've gotta keep things nice and clean for the tiger.

[bulimic-mutt]

Furries stay winning

[bulimic-mutt]

Google how to stop tummy ache how to stop painful fart how to stop bloat i ate food now tummy hurt

[bulimic-mutt]

""""imagine"""""

You wake up in the morning and wish you didn't. The heartbeat practically killing you is so fast, so slow at the same time. If you move, you will die.

(Back when you were okay, you used to have the windows open in August, maybe even sleep in underwear. Back when you were--)

Frozen. Goosebumps line skin hidden under layers and layers of fabric. You shift now, gently, until you're sitting up on the side of the bed. Too miserable to shiver now, only to wait for the pain to strike a little less violently. Your reflection across the room catches your eye. It stares at you now. You don't recognize it.

There is shame to be felt as you strip down on the scale and step on, then immediately off again. This number will dictate your day and if it's one you don't like, then lord fucking save you.

On. Off. Nudge it with your foot across the floor (because if you bend down you will take an hour to get back up without feeling nauseous) to see if the number is different on the other side of your room. Why is it up now? You shift it back, and stand one more time defeatedly before dressing back up.

Your family eyes you. The air is tense, it is thick. They know what is wrong with you. They are scared to admit it. You take your morning coffee and skulk back like a creature of misery, leaving an opportunity to be okay behind you. As always.

(Will you ever change, you sickly creature of habit? Or has the comfort of being distressed perpetually sunk in too deep?)

Sink back into bed, your energy is spent. And you aren't even pretty yet. And you will never be.

[fight-fight-minori-deactivated2]

okay so I know this makes some ppl uncomfy and others dont care but!

reblog if you’re okay with people spam liking your posts

im okay with it! just thinking this might help ppl

[x-razorbladebaby-x]

Can we talk about how fucked up it is to grow up mentally ill?? Like i remember being in the sixth grade and googling “how bad does it have to be to be depression” for the first time, i remember how absolutely awful it was to realize that there was something wrong with me, after i had gone my whole life assuming i was normal. i remember being twelve years old and shredding my arm with a disposable razor for the first time because i heard it would help. i was twelve years old. i was a child. i remember sitting there hoping that cutting would become a long term issue, just because i was so desperate for a way to cope. i wasted my whole childhood being depressed, being suicidal. some of my strongest memories from childhood are of me laying in bed at night, praying for god to kill me because i was to scared to do it myself, because i just didn’t want to wake up the next morning. i was thirteen years old before i realized that wanting to die wasn’t normal. Its just so fucked up and makes me so pissed because i didn’t get a childhood, i got to act like a grown adult as a kid because no child would’ve been able to deal with these feelings. And so now i’m stuck here, not to far off from turning eighteen, with the emotional maturity of a literal child, because when all the other kids were learning to deal with their feelings, i was teaching myself how to repress mine and go numb to it all. idk man, it just feels like mental illness has taken so much from me, and theres no way of getting any of it back.

[caffeinatedopossum]

Everytime I see something pro ana I just assume that person has not an ed for very long. Because like having this disorder very briefly gave me a false sense of superiority too. In the beginning. Until it evolved into the most humbling and humiliating thing to ever happen to me. Like I've stuck my hand in a toilet for this illness before and that isn't even close to the worst thing I've done because of it, it didn't make me beautiful.

[bulimic-mutt]

Okay call me crazy but there are energies in this world you cannot fuck with. I mean, you can, but by doing so, you've tipped your hand and you have no moves left.

Fuck, I sound crazy. Okay, gimme a second to explain.

I got this vague idea one day that I'm meant to watch a bunch of horror/scary cult classics (eg death proof, donnie darko) with my soulmate right? And coincidentally, while not even looking for it, I found a copy of death proof in my cd store for dirt cheap.

I have two options now.

I could go to the film store, buy a new copy of Donnie Darko, and go around asking people to watch it with me. But if I do that, I'm forcing the universe into action and pressuring it instead of letting the energy guide me. And consequently, I could end up ruining a platonic relationship, I could get into an abusive one, solely because I forced the universe to find someone for me before I was ready.

But if I sit back, and coincidentally find a copy of Donnie Darko somewhere, then it's a sign that I'm ready to move forward naturally, and soon I will find someone to watch it with.

And I bring this up because every time I'm at the mall I consider buying a copy of Donnie Darko but I feel such an INTENSE dread doing it. I can't explain to anyone without sounding crazy.

Like does this make sense or do I need to go back on medication???????

[vomitdolled-deactivated20221020]

the reason eating disorders exhaust you isn’t just due to nutritional deficiencies and loss of electrolytes, fighting with yourself mentally 24/7 tires you. going against every instinct your body has just to starve yourself tires you.

[bulimic-mutt]

I think I relapsed.

[cockroachmotherfucker10]

Think you eat too much to have a problem?

Many active people (women included) eat 3000+ calories a day and stay plenty lean.

The recommended daily calorie intake is 2000 for women and 2500 for men.

The recommended daily calorie intake for weight loss is 1500 for women and 2000 for men.

A 5-year-old needs about 1400 calories or more every day.

The minimum daily calorie intake for a long-term diet without medical supervision is 1200 for women and 1800 for men. Eating less than that eventually leads to starvation mode (a real–yes, real–state of biological stress characterized by decreased metabolism, increased cortisol production, and heart, brain, organ, bone, and muscle damage).

A 2-year-old needs about 1000 calories or more every day.

Most people can’t even imagine eating 1000 calories in a day. You’ll get 1,357 Google results if you search for the exact phrase “1000 calories is way too low” or “1000 calories is way too little”…but you’ll get even more results if you Google the same phrases for 1200 calories, because few people consider dipping below 1200.

A 3-digit daily calorie intake puts you at high risk for binge-eating, slowed metabolism, bone and muscle loss, nutritional deficiencies, gastrointestinal issues, infertility, hair loss, mood swings, and depression. Oh–and sudden death.

900 calories is less than what a completely sedentary, 5'0", 80 lb, 70-year-old woman burns daily (keeping in mind that your metabolism slows with age).

A very low calorie diet, also known as a starvation diet, is 800 calories a day or less. It is prescribed by doctors to obesity patients who need to lose weight quickly, is specially formulated to be nutritionally complete, and is monitored by medical professionals to prevent sudden cardiac arrest and death. It is considered an extreme diet.

600 calories a day or less is literal starvation.

500 calories is less than the daily calorie needs of the average 1-month-old.

400 calories is less than the daily calorie needs of the average newborn.

300 calories is less than what the adult brain alone burns every day.

-Mod Lia

[adaintymoonchild]

READ IT THEN READ IT AGAIN

[amidaintyyet]

READ THIS. READ IT. PLEASE. FOR ANYONE WHO THINKS THAT THEIR CALORIE LIMIT ISN’T THAT LOW, OR THAT THEY’VE EATEN TOO MUCH- READ THIS. 

[m1stkishuffl3]

Never will not reblog this

[bork-woof]

Fuck "all your clothes will hang off your dainty frame"-

NONE OF THE SMALLER CLOTHES I GOT FIT BUT ALSO I NEED A B E L T TO KEEP MY L E G GI N G S UP-

:')

[polypharmaci]

no that's my emotional support aspirational pants that will fit "when im skinny"

[bulimic-mutt]

I'm writing a manifesto explaining my eating disorder. When I'm done does anybody wanna read it 👀

[deathsponation]

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