all's well that ends @buoyantsaturn - Tumblr Blog

one of my favorite things when reading fic is following along someone’s first work, and seeing how their writing improves. like damn, you were a good writer before, putting something with a real compelling plot out there, but seeing the tangible improvement in real time is so cool

beemovieerotica

idk if i told the full story on here but i signed up for a research study where they were testing a new opioid, and it was supposed to be up to 5 injections increasing the dose to see what people could tolerate

i got the first dose and almost immediately fainted. they had to call in a whole medical team and it was a huge fucking deal

i was kicked out of the study and got a phone call later where they were supposed to tell me what the drug was, so i could avoid it in the future. they told me it was saline water. a placebo. i fainted from the placebo effect.

anyway, it's been a few months and i just got an email from the same department asking me to be a research participant in a new study: testing the effects of open-label placebo.

open label placebo is when the subjects and the researchers all know it's a placebo. they're testing the power of my mind. my power to imagine anything.

i like to think that they chose me for this specifically based on their past experience with me. "get the guy who fainted like a little bitch boy from saline water." anyway i just submitted all my info and i'm looking forward to getting started.

beemovieerotica

i lied a little bit ok because the most embarrassing thing about this was that the fainting wasn't even right after. it was 10 minutes later. i had fully gotten the injection, walked back to the study room, sat down, and started doing the preliminary questions with the grad student.

i was partway through answering a question when i felt a rush of heat travel up my core. i said out loud "...whoa. that's strong." and then my head dropped. the grad student called everybody in and they leaned back my chair, blood pressure cuff, etc etc.

they called in the MD who did the whole "do you know where you are? do you know where you work?" questionnaire. i got confused and couldn't answer where I worked for like 10 seconds.

because this was a double-blind study, they were also convinced that i'd had an adverse reaction to the opioid, and that i wasn't safe to go home. they made me stay over an hour until "all the effects" had worn off and for my confusion to go away. i was completely experiencing opioid-like loopy-ness paired with weak muscle sensations. it was fucking wild.

anyway. yes thank you to everyone in the notes, this is just like cops hearing the word "fentanyl" and fainting.

batmanisagatewaydrug

starting the countdown until gaylors start saying that Adam Sandler officiating Taylor's wedding (sorry if this is how you found out) is actually proof that it's a sham because it's a reference to I Now Pronounce You Chuck and Larry (2007), in which Sandler and Kevin James play heterosexual men who enter a mutually beneficial fake gay marriage, a dynamic that Taylor is inverting as a queer woman pretending to be straight while cleverly flagging the obvious farce to those with the eyes to see

hecatea

this is worst than finding out from a castiel meme

stitchposts

unfortunately i have free will so im about to make art that is going to appeal to basically 4 people. let us hope those 4 people follow me.

thememedaddy

runasulienadanika

come on😀mention my favourite character😀i am well adjusted😀and will act very normal😀i assure you😀

bruzum

amrv-5

Does anyone know what to do about the temperature and also the prices

currentlycryingaboutlancelot

people are always saying “they have should be at the club” about characters who would immediately have a panic attack if even put in the general vicinity of one

tittled

grandma ate my fucking pizza

cousin who I greatly dislike is trying to set off fireworks in the backyard. I'll kill you.

#please god let there be no lighters in this house #if he sparks something in my grandpa's garden it's literally the end for him #mine

jphcrk-deactivated20251128

#video

dyingroses

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fairycosmos

a small thing i learned from my sister dying is that i really would rather the people i love be a burden than be whatever the hell else they'd be if they weren't. yes even if it's messy and not always fair and hard completely inconvenient for everyone involved. even if it's weird. even if i'm rolling my eyes a bit inside sometimes. i just want you to bother me. please always bother me

fairycosmos

like "it's rotten work" "not to me not if it's you" actually sometimes it's still rotten work. even if it's you. and i'd still do it a million times over