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Sol (he/it)

genderqueer, faggot aroace bisexual monsterfucker guy. literally schizo.

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Gender bias of antisocial and borderline personality disorders among psychiatrists - Archives of Women's Mental Health

Purpose Antisocial Personality Disorder (ASPD) and Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) challenge mental health professionals with similar

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we gotta get a movement like lgb without the t but in reverse. if you not a little transgender you can't hang like im not sorry softlaunch some pronouns in bio or gtfo

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sick and tired of hearing gay people pipe up on our posts like we gaf about your opinion. you're nothing you're swagless and you know it That's why you larp as a real tranny whenever you throw on makeup and a wig for a night after you stole drag from us and kicked us out of it. like im not sorry girl unless you're committing leave you'll never pop your pussy like us no matter how much you complain people "clock" you bc of your fagcent You can pretend to have a hetero voice i can't change the fact my legal documents have an asterisk and there's a paper trail of my queerness to exploit. and if you're mad about that go rewatch rocky horror for the 17th time 😭🙏 we are fundementally different Hope this helps love u see you at pride this year

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you absolutely can

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I should probably also inform people to watch out for the "lack of headspace" that could very well just be what your headspace looks like. I thought I was one of those people who had to make one but sometimes you honestly just have a Void situation. I really gave up on trying to insert things in there and just "walked around" to discover different things.

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My solemn report for fake claimers wondering why some systems don't have a regular ol' Kyle or Stacy or Mitchell... Because frankly I was wondering this too.

It turns out, quite depressingly, if you don't grow up trusting anyone to look after you, you might just cling onto everything other than a real person. Worse, you might develop an unconscious association that humans are fundamentally dangerous and will hurt you and so your persecutors might be overrepresented by "normal" people.

So it turns out this all wasn't very funny and betrayed a wounding of one's sense of humanity, inflicted by the people who were meant to look after them. Which... No, I don't know what I expected from a CDD either. It was predictably going to be depressing.

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Actually deranged my earliest memories of my own is that white boy podcast. All this just to watch a podcast... In the ward very excited to tune in to the fish being locked in his own personal hell trial... And then you split your blorbo to deal with the horrors too LIKE WHAT THE FUCK STOPPP STOP I'M ALREADY SO HUMILIATED STOP THATTT...

All this to watch a podcast and they forgot Jay lost her leg. All this to watch a podcast. Can we just put me down already.

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"Very strange I keep experiencing dying and being reborn. Wonder what's going on there." I'M SO STUPIDDD I'M UNFATHOMABLY STUPID OKAY..... I GET IT........ Listen, I can't even figure out where my urethra is, so we're not working with a genius here.

Also, I think the one playing my memories has literally been the projector and it's not just how my brain is imagining it because it makes projector clicking noises at me and acts sentient. Like okay do you have a fucking production date inscribed on you you little shit who's been TORMENTING me.... I will feed it the WORST projection cards I can find and shake it until I hear the parts inside come loose.

Is this all a fun hahah joke?? What the ever loving fuck in happening in this skull anymore. Do I even wanna know.

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Actually deranged my earliest memories of my own is that white boy podcast. All this just to watch a podcast... In the ward very excited to tune in to the fish being locked in his own personal hell trial... And then you split your blorbo to deal with the horrors too LIKE WHAT THE FUCK STOPPP STOP I'M ALREADY SO HUMILIATED STOP THATTT...

All this to watch a podcast and they forgot Jay lost her leg. All this to watch a podcast. Can we just put me down already.

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me: *tries to air out some repressed trauma*

me looking up occasionally due to paranoia: *sees the sexual persecutor that is always bad news*

me, not thinking clearly: oh hahah im sure that's nothing to worry about, i should go to bed.

vfyhdddyujhbvvvvxxtuhhvchjknvgg.."youre just dispovvgsable and delusi..."ygcfg.........ggc.......... "[deadname] thinks your....e"................gfczsdcv....

me switching back in to see my prior messages deleted and something else drafted:

me looking up to see sexual persecutor still in the room: okay its one of those nights.

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