you can call me Bel or Eurydice, I made this side blog purely to ramble and vent occasionally.
I’m 21 and use he/it pronouns and am probably online more often than not. I’m also chronically ill and disabled so expect a lot of that.
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you can call me Bel or Eurydice, I made this side blog purely to ramble and vent occasionally.
I’m 21 and use he/it pronouns and am probably online more often than not. I’m also chronically ill and disabled so expect a lot of that.
Question to the people: how do you go about asking your PCP for a wheelchair
I'd like to remind people 2 things.
1) pain knows no age threshold
2) pain is subjective
What do I mean? Don't need to be in your 50s to know what constant pain is. Your pain is vaild no matter what age you are.
And the pain scale is subjective. My 6 might be your 2, doesn't mean my pain is any less valid than yours. We're both in pain.
Bonus: just because someone doesn't show it doesn't mean they aren't in pain.
I am constantly in pain but you wouldn't notice it because I hide it. Not because I want to but because society expects it.
Just because someone appears young doesn't mean they aren't in pain.
they should invent an Existence that doesn't Hurt
really wish the human body had like. a pain rash. where ur pain manifested as redness over the spot where it is. i look in the mirror when my back pain flares and marvel at the fact that it looks. normal. it feels like pain that intense should stamp itself on my body somehow
being chronically ill means not knowing/remembering what it’s like to feel normal
I keep getting told that I need to keep moving daily to feel better by my mom (a nurse) and when I said that I’ll try but if it doesn’t help I’ll stop, she just gets mad.
Though I said IF. Because so far the more I move the more I hurt but she just says it’s deconditioning, but I’ve also just…been in what feels like a flare since Wednesday since I had a long filming day (granted I wore shitty shoes which hurt too it was a bad idea)
But my point is, I said IF. key word here. And I got yelled at and told I don’t listen
facts about myalgic encephalomyelitis (ME/CFS) to combat the disinformation campaigns going on:
what does the name mean? my = muscle. algic = pain. encephalo = brain. myel = spinal cord. itis = inflammation.
ME is classed by the WHO as a neurological disease. the Decode ME study found immune and neurological genetic markers in its analysis of 15,000 subjects.
ME is more complex than just fatigue. many experts and patients dislike the old name ‘chronic fatigue syndrome’ because fatigue is only one part of the condition, and it’s the least unique trait.
the most unique trait is post exertional malaise, where, 24-72 hours after any exertion outside the patient’s limits, there’s a peak of worsening and new symptoms affecting multiple bodily systems. PEM often involves immune activation, such as sore throat and a low fever, and a loss of muscle recovery after exertion, measurable through CPET testing. (normal muscle recovery takes 200 mins, but muscle recovery in ME takes days, with some patients taking longer than a year to recover from a single exertion.)
ME can range from mild to profoundly severe. these severity levels are only within the context of ME, not general illness; ‘mild’ ME is still a severe illness as it includes a 50% loss of functioning. ‘mild’ ME can feature debilitating pain and complex symptoms and can turn basic activities of daily living into a marathon.
severe ME is (naturally) even more physically limiting than mild ME. people with severe ME are largely bedbound and only rarely able to leave their room in a wheelchair, and usually can’t perform their own care tasks, needing help dressing, washing, and eating.
in very severe ME, the person may be unable to leave bed at all and may not be able to speak, swallow, roll over, sit up, read, or be exposed to light or noise, for years or decades.
ME has a measurably lower quality of life than any other illness studied, including cancer and stroke.
finally, many of us can attest that exertion can cause years of deterioration and loss of functioning in ME patients. ive been 95% bedbound for the last decade bc of ONE WEEKEND where i walked too much when i was 15. im 26 now. and ive known so many people who went through something similar. do with this info what you will.
today, 8th august, is severe & very severe ME awareness day. it was chosen to honour sophia mirza who died of severe ME. please consider and remember us today 💗
Am I in a lot of pain after doing things? Yes.
Will I keep doing things constantly because I want human interaction? Yes.
something I want abled people to try to understand or acknowledge is that chronically, mentally ill, and disabled people will have trouble with small tasks and daily life that you wouldn't have trouble with. me making the bed takes me out and makes me out of breath. not putting on sheets (that’ll put me in a flare up for days) but just pulling the covers, putting my notebooks for my ungrateful cat to lay on. taking a shower puts my heart rate to 160s. washing a dish or two physically hurts my arms and body. the stuff that yall take for granted are the things we wish we could without it feeling taxing on our body
Fun fact my mom is a nurse. Which means explaining shit to her about my chronic illness and disability is impossible without her saying it’s deconditioning
Myalgic encephalomyelitis is so stupid because it's just like ohhh what if you had a disease that many people don't believe is real and is often misdiagnosed as mental illness or another physical disorder and the only management strategy is the opposite of the treatment for everything else and if you treat it like any other similar illness it can make you way way sicker
Like okay you'll definitely be initially misdiagnosed or go undiagnosed and be given really dangerous advice that hurts you, and then once you finally get correctly diagnosed there's still loads of doctors who don't believe it's real and will prescribe you the dangerous treatment that hurts you and label you as mentally ill if you reject that
I’m always here but idk if it’s exactly health anxiety or something of me being worried about going to uni st the end of the month
Like
My symptoms are getting worse and the thought of walking across the massive campus daily and maybe even having to walk home 25 minutes just … feels exhausting. I don’t think I could do it
I don’t know why I’m up this early but. Yesterday was long and my whole body hurts and I feel nauseous. Happy almost 7am to me.
Also. Minor headache
And I can get o ur of bed but my legs hurt too much to walk to get my ibuprofen that I left on my desk instead of my nightstand
Also mentioning I’m still in pain and recovering from Wednesday’s filming day at the same time
Why do I do this to myself
Idk how to bring up the suspected mecfs to my PCP when I see her
I think I have like 15 minutes for the appointment too dammit
I don’t know why I’m up this early but. Yesterday was long and my whole body hurts and I feel nauseous. Happy almost 7am to me.
Also. Minor headache
And I can get o ur of bed but my legs hurt too much to walk to get my ibuprofen that I left on my desk instead of my nightstand