five lines and the modem is fried

25nb frustrated nerd from pdx (he/they) - aka topo lewdposting blog // minors, please, do not interact

[bust-topology]

starting to get pretty horny again, in general. but i'm such a goddamn switch about it right now (and i haven't had sex in a while either) so

tbh it kinda feels like the big thing setting tension is the amount of time between actual encounters rather than the amount of time between orgasms

anyway

with the build-up i'm stupidly needy. like, any time i'm just a little bit horny for any reason and it ends up getting to my dick, my brain instantly wants someone to relieve it. i almost wish there were someone in the room with me while i'm doing (genuinely) normal things, watching my face (and my pants) to pounce on me the moment I show any signs of arousal

if i'm (trying) to imagine some sort of semi-realistic scenario when i'm at peak Needy, i feel like i want to act almost entitled. i don't want to bother with formalities, i want to touch and kiss and nibble and feel and...

like, basically on-contact. just say hi and immediately go to the nearest private space. probably with at least one party visibly groping the other during the process of "saying hi".

when i'm more tired and dazed and maybe even post-orgasm, i feel more like i want to be used, but like... kinda warmly.

like ideally just kinda have someone blindfold me and/or tie me up and have me in their bed for a few days. hug me like a body pillow, or play with me like i'm a toy, or climb on top of me... (there's like, a microcosmic sub-fantasy of this where they get horny and start playing with themselves while i'm laying there listening to it happen, and then they notice [or "notice" - not like i could really tell] that i'm just There For This [and at that point would probably also be really hard, maybe a little leaky, and almost certainly thrusting my hips at least a little bit] and start to... do whatever they want with me, really.)

more realistically though i would probably enjoy simply being blindfolded and bound for a more... normal amount of time, too. but hey i don't get to pick what i come up with here

there's also just all sorts of more specific little desires that don't really have (or need) a whole scenario to be uh. appealing. like wanting to taste pussy or wanting to feel myself explode inside someone, or wanting to feel someone leak a little bit around my shaft while i'm inside them hhhhhhhhhhhh

yeah. needy. neeeeeedy. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

[official-penis-posts]

Stop sexualising penises, they are for peeing >:(

Joke’s on you, we’re also sexualizing peeing

[luguslikesv2]

Why the pee fetish?

why not

[theshrimperr]

sexting except im constantly ruining the mood by saying yay to literally everything

18+ blog minors dni

[bust-topology]

alright, i think the worst has passed? vibes have broadly improved

still an endless amount of shit to do, but i have switched back from being locked in here with my problems to them being locked in here with me.

we ball

[bust-topology]

did i like.... shift weight onto my horny nerve or something? is this how the human spine works??

[bust-topology]

alright, i think the worst has passed? vibes have broadly improved

still an endless amount of shit to do, but i have switched back from being locked in here with my problems to them being locked in here with me.

we ball

[bust-topology]

damn it. i wish i didn't write/speak/type so much

content warning for... my emotions, i suppose? and anxiety

i would probably post more if i didn't feel obnoxious all the time, in general. i always end up feeling like i'm overwhelming

i do my best not to actively worry about it, but i'd be lying if i told you that always worked. like, it's just difficult not to when you're feeling really lonely, and you go to reach out to a friend, but you realize you'd be double-texting anyone you would want to talk to in that moment

it might just be trauma, but i tend to talk myself out of sending most of those messages these days. maybe it's low-level fear of abandonment or rejection or whatever, but more directly, there's just this feeling that if i can make light topics so heavy, i must make heavy topics absolutely unbearable

it feels like i got hit over the head with a brick at some point and lost my ability to... not be self-centered in conversation? did i ever know how not to be?

at the same time, i feel like the course of this makes me paranoid about expression in a way that degrades how i come off and what i'm even willing to express. like, even as i'm writing this to nobody in particular, i'm having second thoughts about saying any of it. of letting these ideas be associated to me, even though they are certainly what i feel

i'll leave it there, i guess. i was struggling to choose how i wanted to continue anyway

[bust-topology]

oh boy i'm excitable™ again

tbh i'm in Basic Mode rn

i just wanna be made to cum while making out with someone

ideally this is a two-person effort where one person is sucking my soul out while the other is attempting to kiss me until i stop breathing

but honestly i could go for whatever rn

[kalamity-jayne]

via bimbo.theory

[makingqueerhistory]

Queer history includes porn.

Queer pornographers, queer sex workers, queer collectors, and queer pornography enjoyers, are a part of queer history. Archiving queer history includes protecting porn. You cannot separate the history of queerness from pornography, stop trying.

[foxkitautumn]

Polyam possessiveness can be so hot. "You're mine, but I choose to share you, anyway. I own you, so I love to see you happy. Mine, but not mine alone. I love you, and I want to share that love with the world."

[angstandyearning]

Let’s both share a joint, half for you while I eat you out, half for me while you blow me, repeat if we aren’t high enough after. And then breed each other until the high wears off.

[bust-topology]

this post makes me want to have me and my domme both take something like 5 hits off my pen, passing it back and forth. add a rule that we're only allowed to touch after we both finish our hits

just getting to watch them get high as i get high, letting the (already threateningly palpable) sexual tension just linger for ages and ages

[goldensunset]

dude i love how chill and selfless you are 😄 by any chance is your wildest fantasy to be Useful?

[bust-topology]

it's probably good for my health or whatever but GOD it is TOO LATE and i am TOO AWAKE and i am TOO HORNY

[bust-topology]

i planned to start taking vitamins + supplements (again) by the end of the week

chat i might die

[bust-topology]

update: Thinking Things at my desk for long enough is now capable of staining my underwear

Thinking Things for too long will stain through my pants

[bust-topology]

oh thank god i just had so many of my issues get better at once

[tsunamiwavesurfing]

feel like ppl are getting meaner and it's weird to see

[6fft4-deactivated20240911]

how do you mean

[tsunamiwavesurfing]

bro forget this post for a second - i opened this app today at 9am and the first post i saw was you reblogging some horny shit about “sliding in and stretching her real good”. 9am on a wednesday. what was that all about?

[virtualgirladvance]