things didnt kill me but i dont feel stronger

just a girl living with chronic back and leg pain... or "failed back syndrome". this is a blog about my pain and how it affects me. trying to stay positive while facing a negative. find out who i am here title/url inspired by frank turner's song "if ever i stray" on my better days you may know me as valderie. var sc_project=8310212; var sc_invisible=0; var sc_security="5c5a9c6c";

[whatsuprubberduck]

Huh?  Interesting.  Turns out you CAN’T cure your chronic illness(es), by convincing yourself you don’t have chronic illness(es)

[master-of-pocket-worlds-deactiv]

Me: *goes to bed super late and wakes up tired* Okay that’s fair

Me: *goes to bed right on time and wakes up tired* Okay I call bullshit

[frozun]

i think a lot of people forget that you can actually still come across as confident and have social anxiety

[jainz-deactivated20240619]

[yourmajestyyy]

I TRY TO EXPLAIN THIS TO PEOPLE ALL THE TIME

[slightlyaggressiveaffirmations]

THERE’S MORE THAN ONE KIND OF TIRED, AND YOU DESERVE ALL KINDS OF FUCKING REST!!!

WHETHER YOU’RE BRAIN TIRED OR BODY TIRED OR EMOTION TIRED OR SOCIAL TIRED OR EVERY KIND OF TIRED, YOU’RE ENTITLED TO THE FUCKING REST AND RELAXATION THAT YOU NEED!!!

[positivedoodles]

[Drawing of a pink and green dog saying “It’s okay if you aren’t great at something on your first try. Improvement often takes time and effort, and you’re capable of putting in that time and effort. You can do this.” in a green speech bubble.]

[skellydun]

when your plans get canceled:

[faxmachineart]

Always. 

[rubyetc]

it’s ok 

[ladydrace]

Has anyone else noticed how, when you have a chronic condition of some kind, that there’s always the basic assumption from people around you that you’re not already doing everything you can?

[slightlyaggressiveaffirmations]

YOU DON’T HAVE TO GET OVER YOUR ABUSE RIGHT AWAY!!!

IT’S OKAY TO TAKE YOUR TIME AND IT’S OKAY TO NEED HELP!!! TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF!!! YOU FUCKING DESERVE IT!!!

[frightvale]

[rubyetc]

only black or blue ink please

alternatively: place in shredder, remove results, wear as hat 

[kitchentable]

[whatshouldwecallfibro]

Daytime me: You managed to hold off on the extra pain meds & still live, good job. Nighttime me: Why??????

[bepeu-deactivated20171202]

things to take * a nap * it easy * care

[tinsnip]

* on me

[brinnanza]

* me on

[clinicallydepressedpug]

Shout out to all the people who struggle late at night to sleep while dealing with their nightmares, flashbacks, panic attacks, hallucinations, insomnia, a body that is convinced sleep should only happen in the morning, or when they’re almost asleep and their brain suddenly comes up with a surprise convincing reason that they need to be Anxious and upset right now. That shit is tough to deal with and you don’t get enough credit for hanging in there.

[woshyourteethandeyes]

wow can u imagine being this healthy and ignorant