why do you build me up

alicia. 27. she/her, lesbian 🍒

[buttercupbuck]

"you know, my therapist says everyone needs a safe space, a place where you can fully be yourself"

[image description: 2 large gifs of evan buckley and eddie diaz from 9-1-1.

gif 1: from season 6 episode 12. in the diaz home, eddie (out of frame) watches buck sleep on his couch, his arm draped across the sofa.

gif 2: from season 7 episode 5. at buck's apartment, the camera pans as eddie, holding his phone, turns to face buck as buck rounds the corner of his kitchen island.

/end ID]

[hannimals]

I’m obsessed with the fact that multiple times this season now we’ve gotten to see buddie fights play out specifically with Eddie throwing around the “you make things all about you” line and I will always maintain that that does not reflect absolute reality (although Buck can be self centered sometimes, as can we all) but is actually Eddie saying, I resent that you can so easily allow yourself to be loud and obvious about your pain while I MUST™️ lock mine away deep inside and I can only let it out under the guise of anger at you (my best friend who I know will forgive me) I love them both so much 🥰

[buttercupbuck]

something something it's easy to lash out on the person that you know is always gonna forgive you and something about buck and eddie always having been that safe space for each other to be ugly and angry and to break down and to know that at the end of the day they can be the worst versions of themselves and still have a home in each other. buck can sue the 118 and feel responsible for christopher almost dying in a tsunami and accidentally maim eddie in a basketball game and eddie can yell at him in the middle of a grocery story and take a bat to his room and blame him for bobby's death and at the end of the day still all that remains is this unconditional love and forgiveness and understanding that is just. so total and unbending

[poughkeepsiesjr]

"I heard some dick was being mean to you, thought you could use some cheering up" is just. it's such a line. there's so much remorse and affection in it. it's eddie being a partner to buck when that means not only being the person he loves, but also his best friend. his best friend who knows him. his best friend who never lets anything else, even grief, prevent him from taking care of him for long.

[mythmagicetc]

(next episode)

athena and chimney: my husband is dead and you got to live!! don't you think i would've saved him if i had the chance??

buck and ravi: so i know you said eddie stayed on the couch but you don't have to lie to me man

[filmscrave]

WE DON’T DESERVE TO LIVE

[buckleyy]

eddie writing a divorce note knowing damn well he’s going to surprise buck later

[patricksgibson]

"I always say that's our family."

[buttercupbuck]

WOOOOOOW

[tenisperfection]

hurt people hurting each other….cinema is back

[buttercupbuck]

he can’t feel bobby’s presence bc bobby’s not dead 🧏🏻‍♀️

[buttercupbuck]

oh that got me 😭😭😭

[fleabagdiaz]

truly either buddie canon in which case awesome or the pr dept is LITERALLY whoring them out for damage control which is so funny it’s almost also awesome

[911onabcbts]

Angela talks to People Magazine about the Bobby storyline.

[buttercupbuck]

also i really don't mean to keep harping on the episode but the crumpet scene pissed me off sooo bad. it just felt so flippant and casual and idek why it was necessary

[buttercupbuck]

ALSO thought for sure that the church would have been the church bobby and athena sat in together in 1.10 but that was toooooo much to hope for i guess

[buttercupbuck]

lots to say about the writing for this episode but having eddie say "i should've been there" and then have him fly in on the same day as bobby's funeral is just....so bizarre to me