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@bwxxkrystal
I hate sweet smiles. And yet it’s the only thing I could do whenever I would feel myself close to tears.
BRB ;;
Yes yo be back later o/ ..after watching these k-vids. I'll be lurking around-- /flies awayyy
*the smile on his face drops* how can you say something like that, no it isnt an awesome halloween costume , are you being mean or are you just stupid*tears began to form in his eyes* it’s really hard but most days people are nice and I just feel the same as everyone else *he begins to cry* thanks for making me feel like less of a human…
Hmm? I didn't mean it that way-- /her eyes widen/ EH?! PLEASE PLEASE DON'T CRY OH DEAR-- I'M SO SORRY I- /bites lower lip as she rests her hand on the back of her neck/ Please don't misunderstand! I'm just curious and.. a little envious ok? Because.. well.. I.. I don't have an easy life myself and I find it pretty hard to smile like that. /lets out a sad sigh as guilt and sadness wash over her/
…Should I destroy my laptop too? I heard the new I.T. Teacher is hot.
I heard you're a good artist. Can you draw my face with a smiling eyes and carefree smile?
{ - she tilted her head to the side with a faint smile } Why thank you, I could draw it, but i feel like it’d mean more if you were the one giving off those features.
E-Eh? But I don't know how to do it. You need to have a happy memory to be able to smile like that and I don't have any so.. /puffs her cheeks/ I don't know how to be sweet and carefree and happy and adorable like you- /her eyes brighten as she snap her fingers/ Ah! Maybe you can teach me how to do it!
[What Soo Jung is currently up to]
She lies comfortably on her sofa and her eyes are focus on the patterns of the white ceiling as she hums to herself the lullaby of Pan’s Labyrinth. She feels herself drifting off to sleep as her humming slowly stops. Her right hand slides off her stomach and touches the cold floor with a soft thud. A deep sigh escape her lips as she takes her afternoon nap.
Today is a normal day.
*Sungjong laughs at her ridiculous comments* Not props…it’s okay sweetie, and my hearts fine you just gave me a little fright , just tap me before you talk *he giggles smiling wide*
/nods frantically/ Okay okay I get it now. Though that'll be an awesome costume for the Halloween. OH! Maybe I can dress up as you for the party! /grins to herself/ Hmm? /stares at you curiously as she tilts her head to the side/ But how come you're always smiling and laughing? Isn't it.. hard?
sorry
Phone Call from the Past [Self Para: Soo Jung]
Soo Jung eyes darted around the students below her as the wind caught her pale skin and whipped her long locks. she leaned against the railing of the rooftop and propped her elbows on the cold metal. A small frown was sketched on her features as she tried to ignore the throbbing pain on her wrists. Her hands were itching to get a hold of that certain blade but she had to fight the urge. She won’t be cutting anymore and these are the side effects of her withdrawal. She haven’t cut for few days She decided to change her life and take the path road that was less traveled. She wanted to change.
Her thoughts were cut off by the ringing sound coming from her phone.
Seeing the Unknown number, she hesitated for awhile before finally answering it. “Hello?”
"Krystal."
One simple word and her calm demeanor came crumbling to the floor. Her hands started to tremble as she clutched her phone closer to her ear. It’s a male voice. And it sounded so painfully familiar. There’s only one person who calls her with that nickname. And that same person gave birth to her other side.
Where did you get my number? Why now? Do you still remember me? Why did you call? Were the words she wanted to ask. But she was afraid of the possible answers that she might receive
“W-Who’s this?” were the words that escaped her lips instead even though the answer was so painfully obvious.
A few seconds passed before he finally replied.
“It’s me”. And they both knew that his name was not needed to be said. She already knew who’s on the other side of the line. Because she used to hear his voice everyday.
"… It is you". Her voice came out soft and barely audible that she wasn’t even sure if he heard it. She can’t even hear her own voice over the loud bu-dumps of her heart.
She don’t know how her voice sounded so calm when deep inside her, her emotions were so overwhelming.
“Yeah. It’s.. been a long time”.
Her eyes were alive and unfocused and flooded with unshed tears. She was in pain but at the same time she was happy because he remembered her and he haven’t forgotten her-
“We’re currently having our class reunion right now”. His voice came out cold and empty and beautiful as if he’s mocking her because she was not there when everyone is but she didn’t cared because she was happy and content. Just like the old Soo Jung.
Before she could even comprehend what she was doing, the words 'I miss you' escaped her lips, full of sincerity and affection. She bit her lower lip when she didn’t received any reply. And she can taste her blood from biting too much
She licked her bottom lip and smiled to herself. “I miss you so much”. She continued. “I miss hearing your soft voice. I miss seeing your face. I miss everything about you”.
Still no reply. Though she can hear the faint sound of his breathing.
"You know what funny is? I never regretted anything. Following you around, being possessive, or hurting that girl that I caught you kissing-" Her words came out fast but very clear. And was cut off by his cold voice.
“Stop it. Krystal.You’re being selfish again”
Her body froze. She stopped breathing. Her eyes were wide.
"B-But I-"
“It’s all pointless. No matter what you say about her. She’s dead. The only girl I’ve ever loved is gone. My first and last love”. And there her heart stopped beating.
He sighed.
"I thought you changed. That’s why I called you. I got your number from one of our former classmates. I was thinking that maybe we could be friends again. But.. you never changed."
He paused for awhile as if choosing the right words. ”Promise me one thing though. Take care of yourself ok? That’s all. Bye”.
Bye
Bye
BYE
Why are you telling me this? Do you want me to go insane?
She pressed the end button as her hands lay limp on her side.
'Take care of yourself ok?'
Maybe she should continue her self harms after all.
Her lips slowly curved into a crooked creepy smile as her eyes became dark and void of any emotions.
Time to pretend.
KRYSTAL BABY GIVE ME YOUR NUMBER HEEHEHUHUHEUHU
My number..? Oh. Ok!! /She replies casually without any questions asked as she gives you her number/ There there please take care of my number!!
*again gets a fright when you shout* Yeah …*he laughs nervously, then waves his white cane around* …are you ok you sound a bit shocked…people don’t realise all the time because my eyes look normal.*he smiles reassuringly*
/blankly looks at your white cane for awhile as she tries to digest the horrible truth/ So.. That’s not a props? Not a costume for the Halloween Party..? /Lets out a horrified gasp/ OH GOD NO I’M NOT OK I— /bows 90 degrees/ I’m sorry for scaring you- oh my god what if I gave you a heart attack-
HELLO THERE MY DARLINNG
*squeals a little at the mystery voice* Oh don’t creep up on a kid who can’t see *giggles* Hello there I’m Sungjong !
/giggles at your reaction/ Hello hello I'm Soo Jung! /Tilts her head to the side/ What do you mean who can't see? /her eyes slowly widen and her bottom lip starts to tremble/ OH MY GOD ARE YOU BLIND?!