A little thought on Mental Health Day...
I wrote this on my phone a few days ago, and I hope it actually helps someone else. Opening up about the way you feel and about mental illnesses is something that will help to remove the stigma from them.
You are not alone, you’re not strange. You will be fine eventually, and even if you’re not, that is okay, too.
Wednesday, October 4th, 2017. 7:40 p.m.
I’m sitting beside a trash can, in front of an abandoned bathroom in my university building. I just had a full blown anxiety episode on a foreign city, for the first time in a while, over the dumbest thing in the whole world; it was not even a real concern, nor a life or death situation. But a little social phobia kicked in and I couldn’t bring myself to ask for help, and that made me feel powerless and alone, and the anxiety kicked in then.
For a little bit of insight, I stopped taking my medication almost a year ago because the doctor said I was improving a lot.
I just cried myself out of it, hidden and in silence.
Just so you know, I was just laughing with a friend about the same issue just about an hour ago.
This is something I wanted to write, for people who have been or are in a situation in which sometimes you just can’t control how you feel or how your mental health/illness affects you.
This is a first for me, and I’m slowly getting through it, so I believe that if I can do it, then so can you and everyone else.
You got this, it’s ok to fall back sometimes. Recovery is not a straight line. The healing process is not about how long you can walk straight for, it’s about how many times you get up if you fall back.
Everything will eventually be okay again.
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