the person i turned anon here off bc of is just sending anons to my other blogs jf, this time abt my bio
better now? u gonna fuckin leave me alone yet?
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the person i turned anon here off bc of is just sending anons to my other blogs jf, this time abt my bio
better now? u gonna fuckin leave me alone yet?
@ the anon who sent a message to the other blog abt the post i made here abt my book, thanks, but there’s no way i can trust u lmao. the only anons ive had for the last 6 months have been ppl being fuckin abusive abt shit happening which is why anon is off in the first place so unless u wanna re-send that logged in im just gonna. ignore
got a coffee date so im takin ppl’s first impressions and making sure i shatter reality
The bra of the future is here — and we need it
Introducing the Knix Wear Evolution Bra. At the time of writing, the bra has gathered $117,519 on Kickstarter from 1,492 backers, and still has 30 days to go. Which is great considering the more money raised, the more everyone will benefit.
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I WANT ITTTTTT
this is like how to advertise bras 101.
dont sexualise it
explain how it works
benefits (odor stuff)
cool things (hey look! you can mess with the straps!)
why its better (no wire)
kickass stuff (machine washable)
like literally. any companies that currently make bras? do this. dont make them aimed for the pleasure of men. show that its practical and comfortable for a woman. not a dude.
the most hilarious common trait between trans activists and terfs is their penchant to read blogs from the opposing side for comedy purposes and then try to guilt people from the other side for invasion of privacy and having major boundary issues when they do the same thing it’s like watching a tennis match it happens so fucking much
like a. it’s such a fucking reach to morally equate the behaviour of trans women and the behaviour of TERFs
and like b. it’s actually really fucking gross for people who aren’t subject to transmisogyny and have almost nothing to fear from TERFs to just be like ‘lol it’s like a tennis match’ as though they’re morally superior for not having to engage in this conflict. u get to reblog this kind of shit because you’re not one of the ~fuckin crazy trannies~ this post is implicitly equating to the behaviour of transmisogynists and that’s. like u can see why that’s a really gross thing to do right? acting like you’re cool + above it all in a conflict in which the stakes are, not, actually, on u at all, lol
anyway OP + everyone uncritically reblogging this - ur being transmisogynist + u all sound exactly like this:
a group of ppl are sharing a link to a book i wrote for nano when i was like. a shitty pretentious 15yo boy to make fun of which fair enough it’s a v shitty book abt music + drugs + romance written by someone who had v little experience w any of that and only published it bc some friends wanted to read it + she figured if it sold anything she could use the cash bc she had just been forced out of home + neither the govt or her mum wanted to support it. like. yeah it’s public and published and that makes it fair game
my problem is that it’s published under my deadname
and bc i also used that name for music (also not v good) and my social media profiles i did a lot of publicity under that name to try get some attention and support either through money or fuckin klout shit (lmfao). but when i came out and changed my name i did even more publicity work to try erase any online evidence of my deadname and this book is probably the only thing remaining bc it was 4 or 5 years old and 3 emails ago and i didnt have access to the amazon account to change the name or take the book down. but at the v least now you cannot find any links between that book + name and my current name unless u put a shitload of work into digging through old tumblrs mostly
so yeah i have no problem w ppl making fun of the shitty book for whatever reason but i have a huge problem w the fact that these ppl are saying “look at this bad book jen wrote” and linking ppl i either hardly know or literally do not know at all to a page that contains the deadname i tried rly rly hard to erase
and some of those ppl who i do not know at all are linking it to other ppl saying “look at this book jen wrote” and again giving out my deadname to ppl who have no fuckin right or reason to ever see or know it
so just. if ur one of those ppl and ur seeing this pls fuckin stop. make fun of it all u want but stop fucking giving out my deadname bc it makes me super fucking uncomfortable
Happy new year! Today I officially have releases for a new, and probably the most personal project I’ve ever started called “Flowers for the Hidden Girls & All Who Haunt Us”
"I’ve Begun to Plant Flowers in Obscure Places Every Time I See a Dead Animal" is the first album and film for this project. It is a collection of poetry, music, sound, and experience. The album was created in 6 hours on October 6th, 2015. In this album I use my grandmothers tape recorder, a cassette loop I made, a Yamaha pss-140, my sony tape deck, my guitar, and my voice.
You can find the film that goes with it in the album description, it’s on youtube. Thank you for your continuos support, it means more to me than you could imagine, enjoy! <3
https://uglyfleurs.bandcamp.com/
me: hey do you have any wrongdog with you? someone: what’s wrongdog? me: everything thanks for asking
I just supported Trans Prisoner Solidarity on @ThunderclapIt // @4TransPrisoners
as part of the leadup to international day of solidarity with trans prisoners on the 22nd of jan a thunderclap is happening on the 27th nov at 5pm est!
it’s pretty vital for ppl to sign up for this - currently we have a reach of 150k which is pretty great but we can definitely do better. as well as raising awareness of the upcoming day of solidarity the amount of ppl signing up to this will provide a really useful tool for activism both on an international and local level!!
I hadn’t heard about this. Reblogging to read later.
If anyone has anything to say about this, reblog or crack me off a message :)
check out transprisoners.net for the call to action, a list of international events, and ways to get involved, like by organising an event in your own area!
check out the movement on facebook, twitter, and insta to keep up with what’s going on and hear some stories from actual incarcerated trans people
If the body cannot be recognized and consumed on sight, two recourses are available. First, one might simply assault the body until it divulges the data necessary to categorize it—this kind of undressing is experienced routinely by the transgender women who field interrogations about the state of our genitalia. Second, one might rely on the behaviors of that body and the ways in which it ornaments itself as another route to legibility; sets of coded behaviors and ornamentations are thus prescribed in the service of that goal, giving rise to a neatly itemized Masculinity and Femininity. When we say that we are ‘expressing’ ourselves, then, what we mean is that we are consuming and internalizing those presentational data sets and their predetermined referents in the culture which developed them, breaking them down, and ultimately displaying them on the surface of our bodies to give ourselves meaning within that culture. We are endlessly consuming fabricated cultural data and retching it into the mouths of our friends and family. This ridiculous circuit is made grim by the realization that we choose this option solely as a means of evading the other. The forced regurgitation of cultural signifiers is somewhat more pleasurable for us than sexual assault—although few of us ever manage to fully escape undressing by the sadists who hold social power over us. In either case, for transgender women, presentation is not a domain of agency: we are coerced into our presentation by the threat of sexual violence.
from INDIGESTION / SPEWING NONSENSE: or, how to make yourself inedible as a transgender woman, a. leylâ (via autogalatea)
ive been postin here p sparingly bc ive been either busy or doin rly rly badly wrt mh and then i was in hospital for a while but im out now + mostly entirely recovered + doin better wrt mh (tho that may just be mania) + in a different city and feelin p good abt it so here’s some recent selfies
first is like a week or two old, second is from two days ago~ river bod~
james franco is technically right that sailors/lots of other men fucked men in the 20s w/o being labelled gay as long as they were active (penetrating) and never passive (being penetrating) and remained masc-acting (sexuality didnt become to be defined by object choice/partner until the 1910s in medical literature and it took a lot longer for that working definition to spread to the masses, esp lower class ppl like sailors who were definitely engaging in a lot of same-sex behavior)
but that logic doesnt fuckin apply today. by the same reasons that we shouldnt rly label those men ‘gay’ (bc they wouldnt have thought that of themselves and most of them would also have relationships w women that they considered their primary and ‘normal’ relationships (so if u rly wanna be anachronistic and ignore their individual agency you should be labelling them bi)) you also cant today say “i’m gay but not because i fuck men because i dont” because the working definition of gay today involves same-sex attraction + behavior and is definitely overwhelmingly dependent on object choice/partner
im just frustrated bc he’s using technically historically correct information to justify his continued gross creepy bigotry ew
There Is No Universal Sign Language
(By Frances Stead Sellers)
Carolyn McCaskill remembers exactly when she discovered that she couldn’t understand white people. It was 1968, she was 15 years old, and she and nine other deaf black students had just enrolled in an integrated school for the deaf in Talledega, Ala.
When the teacher got up to address the class, McCaskill was lost.
“I was dumbfounded,” McCaskill recalls through an interpreter. “I was like, ‘What in the world is going on?’ ”
The teacher’s quicksilver hand movements looked little like the sign language McCaskill had grown up using at home with her two deaf siblings and had practiced at the Alabama School for the Negro Deaf and Blind, just a few miles away. It wasn’t a simple matter of people at the new school using unfamiliar vocabularly; they made hand movements for everyday words that looked foreign to McCaskill and her fellow black students.
So, McCaskill says, “I put my signs aside.” She learned entirely new signs for such common nouns as “shoe” and “school.” She began to communicate words such as “why” and “don’t know” with one hand instead of two as she and her black friends had always done. She copied the white students who lowered their hands to make the signs for “what for” and “know” closer to their chins than to their foreheads. And she imitated the way white students mouthed words at the same time as they made manual signs for them.
Whenever she went home, McCaskill carefully switched back to her old way of communicating.
What intrigues McCaskill and other experts in deaf culture today is the degree to which distinct signing systems — one for whites and another for blacks — evolved and continue to coexist, even at Gallaudet University, where black and white students study and socialize together and where McCaskill is now a professor of deaf studies.
Several years ago, with grants from the National Science Foundation and the Spencer Foundation, McCaskill and three fellow researchers began to investigate the distinctive structure and grammar of Black American Sign Language, or Black ASL, in much the way that linguists have studied spoken African American English (known by linguists as AAE or, more popularly, as Ebonics). Their study, which assembled and analyzed data from filmed conversations and interviews with 96 subjects in six states, is the first formal attempt to describe Black ASL and resulted in the publication last year of “The Hidden Treasure of Black ASL.” What the researchers have found is a rich signing system that reflects both a history of segregation and the ongoing influence of spoken black English.
The book and its accompanying DVD emphasize that Black ASL is not just a slang form of signing. Instead, think of the two signing systems as comparable to American and British English: similar but with differences that follow regular patterns and a lot of variation in individual usage. In fact, says Ceil Lucas, one of McCaskill’s co-authors and a professor of linguistics at Gallaudet, Black ASL could be considered the purer of the two forms, closer in some ways to the system that Thomas Hopkins Gallaudet promulgated when he founded the first U.S. school for the deaf — known at the time as the American Asylum for Deaf Mutes — in Hartford, Conn., in 1817.
Mercedes Hunter, a hearing African American student in the department of interpretation at Gallaudet, describes the signing she and her fellow students use as a form of self-expression. “We include our culture in our signing,” says Hunter, who was a reseach assistant for the project, “our own unique flavor.”
“We make our signs bigger, with more body language” she adds, alluding to what the researchers refer to as Black ASL’s larger “signing space.”
When she tries to explain how Black ASL fits into the world of deaf communication, Lucas sets out by dispelling a common misconception about signing.
Many people think sign language is a single, universal language, which would mean that deaf people anywhere in the world could communicate freely with one another.
Another widely held but erroneous belief is that sign languages are direct visual translations of spoken languages, which would mean that American signers could communicate fairly freely with British or Australian ones but would have a hard time understanding an Argentinian or Armenian’s signs.
Neither is true, explains J. Archer Miller, a Baltimore-based lawyer who specializes in disability rights and has many deaf clients. There are numerous signing systems, and American Sign Language is based on the French system that Gallaudet and his teacher, Laurent Clerc, imported to America in the early 19th century.
“I find it easier to understand a French signer” than a British or Australian one, Miller says, “because of the shared history of the American and French systems.”
In fact, experts say, ASL is about 60 percent the same as French, and unintelligible to users of British sign language.
Within signing systems, just as within spoken languages, there are cultural and regional variants, and Miller explains that he can sometimes be stumped by a user’s idiosyncracies. He remembers in Philadelphia coming across an unfamiliar sign for “hospital” (usually depicted by making a cross on the shoulder, but in this case with a sign in front of the signer’s forehead).
What’s more, Miller says, signing changes over time: The sign for “telephone,” for example, is commonly made by spreading your thumb and pinkie and holding them up to your ear and mouth. An older sign was to put one fist to your ear and the other in front of your mouth to look like an old-fashioned candlestick phone.
So it’s hardly surprising, Miller says, that Americans’ segregated pasts led to the development of different signing traditions — and that contemporary cultural differences continue to influence the signing that black and white Americans use.
(read the full WashingtonPost article »here)
This is really interesting! However, the image depicts two signs that mean very different things. “Stuck” indicates an unwanted/unexpected pregnancy, while “pregnant” indicates a desired pregnancy or one further along, at least in some interactions.
Take five minutes out of your day today to explore the hashtag #TransHealthFail. Launched by the up-and-coming app MyTransHealth, it’s a collection of stories from trans and nonbinary people about the discrimination, harassment, rejection and downright humiliation they’ve faced at the hands of insensitive or ignorant healthcare providers. This is critically important – take it from the people who’ve lived it. (via BuzzFeed)
Jesus!!! Christ!! Do you see? If ANYONE wants to come at me about “cisphobia” look at this extremely gross, uncomfortable shit. I’m gonna go cry.
These are PROFESSIONALS who have spent YEARS in school. Look at how they fucking handle this shit. How disgusting.
i get “sir"d a lot when going to my doctor for estrogen, so that’s fun
So fucking relatable omg. Therapists that insist on knowing your old name like it has anything to do with why youre there. Seeing psychiatrists for non trans problems and they keep asking about your genitals. Going to the doctor and having them act like youre an alien species they have no idea how to treat. Trying to find a doctor whose trans because you know everyone else will treat you like shit. Paying “professionals” tons of money to insult and degrade you yeah
if you are a trans woman and you are hurting right now for whatever reason, I just want you to know that I see you. that you are allowed to hurt. I think one of the ways that we as trans women are further silenced and marginalized (beyond the constant invalidation of our existence) is in the way that oftentimes we are not allowed to talk about the pain involved in our transitions, whether that’s physical, emotional, or otherwise. we are so often expected to be positive about our transitions 24/7, as if living as our true selves makes everything perfect and happy and beautiful and okay. transitioning can be painful for us in so many ways. it doesn’t always bring us joy, or beauty, and it certainly doesn’t make everything okay. I don’t want you to hurt. but I need you to know that if realizing your gender identity has brought you any pain, in any way, that you don’t have to pretend otherwise. that you are so valid in that pain. you are allowed to be angry. you are so valid in that anger. you are allowed to hurt. you are so valid in that hurt. you are allowed to cry, to express your emotions, all if your emotions, in whatever way they come to you. too often we are indirectly told as trans women that we cannot be angry, we cannot cry, we cannot hurt. I just need you to know that you can, always, and I hope you find peace from your pain soon.
I really needed to hear this. ty x
Thank you
If you can get a straight man to talk to you about why he is having sex with men, it’s very likely that he’s going to draw from a small set of acceptable narratives about why straight men do things like that, and I think that’s a really common one, you know, the narrative of constraint —Well, I’d rather be having sex with a woman, but there are no women available, or, Women are too complicated — this kind of thing. But I don’t buy that. That’s not to say that I think those straight men know the real reason — I think often they don’t know. I guess we don’t have language that circulates in mainstream culture that would help straight men make sense of or explain their sexual encounters with other men, whereas straight women, when they have sexual encounters with other women, have an array of socially acceptable narratives that they can draw on. “Well, I just think women are hot — they’re beautiful, but of course I’m straight.” They can say almost anything and get away with it, but straight men have very few resources for understanding that part of their sexuality, and so the main thing, the first and foremost thing they do is to just understand it as not sexual at all and just to not think about it, and to the extent they think about it as sexual, yeah, then all of these narratives about deprivation or constraint kick in.
New York Mag, Why Straight Men Have Sex With One Another, Q&A with the author of Not Gay: Sex Between Straight White Men. A very promising argument against sexuality being inborn (check out the final paragraphs especially!)
In response to the AIDS crisis of the 1980s and early ’90s, a range of activist groups, including ACT-UP and Gran Fury, created this group of 230 photomontage posters, stickers, pamphlets, and laser prints.
Original Image courtesy of The International Center for Photography