I thought focusing on some silly stuffs would take my mind off all the screaming in my head and the cravings in my veins. It did for a while but now it comes back stronger and worse than before. I'm a huge fatass fucking scary ugly shit and I have no dope to numb the pain and no booze to make the voices shut up. It just hurts so much, too much and I just want to die and live and say fuck it and fuck off




















