[c0ncaves]

Man I'm so high, I think I love you. I was thinking about leaving again, it all depends; are we just friends? Can you move a little bit if you can.. for you, it's anobrain.

[c0ncaves]

I didn’t want to begin this post, because I started to think you weren’t important enough. If you weren’t, I wouldn’t have even considered this. You really fucking hurt me. You hurt me so bad, no more than anyone else. I think I feel this way because it was short and sweet with many positives. My first was a while so I got to see the ugly side, but with you, you were just so sweet. I saw all the signs and I just chose to ignore them. You were nothing but poison to my mind. You did absolutely nothing for me but make me more self conscious and insecure. You promised me things and broke every one of them. Sometimes I wonder if you broke them on purpose, so you felt like you were in charge, or if you really love her. I wonder if you think about me, because I always think about you. It really sucks. I don’t know if I really miss you or I just love to torture myself. I can not stop the comparisons and it’s driving me crazy. It makes me a bit scared knowing that if you ever wanted to try this again, a tiny part inside of me would push me to go for it.

[c0ncaves]

Smile. Life isn’t that serious. The sun rises. The sun sets. People just tend to complicate the process.

note to self

[c0ncaves]

I thought I loved you and I’m so happy that I realized it wasn’t love. It was loneliness. I was just lonely, looking for a place to fit in. I think that you think you have this advantage over me because you were my first and honestly that’s not the case. I think this bothers me so much because you think you have that advantage over me and I really need you to know, so deeply that I do not care about you. I think you are ugly inside and out, I think you are foolish and I think you are just plain sad. If I was still with you I probably would have killed my self due to having to wake up to your sad, sad face everyday. I am honestly happy all of this happened, because without it I would not be the person I am today. Sure, things still go wrong, but you taught me what a true piece of shit is. You made me think you would be the best, the only. You made me think I was the lucky one, but in actuality YOU were the lucky one. You were lucky to even breathe next to me, you were lucky to even get a chance at touching me. You will never find someone like me. You were honestly one of my worst experiences ever. After all of this I strangely hope you can find happiness, because that obviously will not happen with me.

[c0ncaves]

I don’t even know what to say to you honestly. It has been 5 years and you are exactly the same. I was honestly hoping we could work something out, I let my guard down and gave it a shot. You could have let me in for one second, I wasn’t asking for much. You have so much pride just like before, I thought you would have grown up but I guess that’s what happens when you’re stuck in a shitty town with nothing else to view. It’s honestly so sad, it’s like you don’t even see what you’re doing to people. You say one thing and do exactly the opposite. You aren’t aware of how much of a bitch you are. I hope one day you realize the pain you bring onto people and just stop.

[c0ncaves]

"I say "I am fat." He says "No, you are beautiful." I wonder why I cannot be both."

[c0ncaves]

How did we get here? I used to know you so well.

[c0ncaves]

Life is a precious gift we are unable to recreate once it’s gone.

[c0ncaves]

Death does not concern us, because as long as we exist, death is not here. And when it does come, we no longer exist.

note to self

[c0ncaves]

Life is the ultimate natural drug. People who use other small drugs are too scared to live life how they want. They crawl in their turtle shells and live their smaller cowardly version of life without realizing it.

S.M.

[c0ncaves]

%100 of people who tell you you're too sensitive are saying it because they don't want to be held responsible for your reaction when they mistreat you.

[c0ncaves]

No matter what anybody tells you, words and ideas can change the world. We don't read and write poetry because it's cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion. And medicine, law, business, engineering, these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life. But poetry, beauty, romance, love, these are what we stay alive for.

Dead Poets Society, 1989 

[c0ncaves]

Other people are not medicine.

note to self

[c0ncaves]

People will do anything, no matter how absurd, in order to avoid facing their own soul. One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious.

Carl Jung

[c0ncaves]

I'm addicted to silence and privacy; I wallow in it.

[c0ncaves]

And that’s the thing about people who mean everything they say, they think everyone else does too.

Unknown

[c0ncaves]

A person who is nice to you, but rude to the waiter, is not a nice person.

Dave Barry