This is a cry for help, except Idk what to do!
tw abuse, physical, and emotional , demonizing (possible) mental illness, threats
To put it bluntly, by June-August 2026, there's a possibility I won't be online for a LOOOONG time, and here's why!
Recently, I told my school's SRO about my mom's abusive ways after I was beaten with an object so hard, multiple times that it broke on my skin. In those events, DSS had to get involved.
Unfortunately, with my moms manipulation and DSS being a shitty system, what she's been doing and what she did that morning "does not violate corporal punishment laws". Now, let me tell you something. Over the years, I've been beaten with shoes, she hit me on my HEAD with a frying pan (really hard), and she's whipped me with studded belts specifically and extension cords. Which all go against corporal laws.
Over the past few weeks of that day, my mom has been constantly lashing out at me, sometimes doesn't look at me, and she's making threats. She's cut off my phone line completely, took away all access to my money, stopping me from going to any events, and no outside activities. She's constantly telling me that, "I tried to ruin her life." She's constantly saying I have some sort of mental block or illness, but is refusing to get me help because "I haven't communicated that" DESPITE doing research on it and suspecting it. But very uncommon to shift the blame on me over her actions.
And she's been threatening me. A lot.
A few years back when I came out to her about my sexuality + gender and nonhuman identity, she constantly kept asking me, "do you like vagainas? Do you want to put your mouth on one?" and all kinds of creepy things, even then, she got "scared" and asked me, "am I even gonna be able to walk around in my own house naked without you looking at me?" And I don't have the words to explain how fucked up that was.
For my gender identity (I'm genderfluid) she constantly told me that, "you're not going to be a boy in my house so stop with that transgender shit in my house. You can do that once you're out of here." Despite her telling me the previous day prior, that she would love me regardless.
For my nonhuman identity, back then I was only a black wolf, and she figured out by snooping through one of my socials, she constantly threatened to "get me neutered like an animal, let me sleep outside like an animal, feed me animal food, and put me in a cage like an animal."
I remembered one time when I was in fourth grade, I think I may have been 7 at the time, I had gotten a bad grade on my assignments and I said, "my mom's gonna kill me!" as in "My mom's gonna be so mad!"
and when I had got home she told me, "if you say anything like that again, I'm gonna actually do it!"
So why am I saying y'all might not hear from me in a long time? Well, my mom says that she's gonna make her decision after I finish my 10th grade year if she's gonna put me in the system. That's right.
I might be going into foster care, and all because my mom doesn't want to take responsibility for her actions. And I have no idea what to do!
like + reblog please I need people to see this
Update:
Recently my mom has been getting better, she’s been going to therapy and she found out that DSS is a major child trafficking system so I won’t be going in
Thank you all for your support, ily guys 💚
