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illa tertia optatio.

once, my stride was quick and sure.

i walked straight, toe to heal, toe to heal, like this boy in a book and that felt right.

but come sunday, they put me in patent leather shoes with tiny, little training heels and white hose always slipping off my thin, little learning hips— and mommy will be mad if i rip around set of stockings, if i scuff these shiny shoes.

i wonder how mad she would have been walking in on you and me under the covers with your hands on me. i wore the dress you picked.

i wish i had kept walking like a boy.

#illae optationes

be sure to stare at my ass—

no, right now. later, when i've had enough whiskey that i can feel the earth spin beneath us, when my head is full of how deeply you cut with those words that prove my name has no place in your heart.

wait until i'm falling up the stairs, until i'm crawling from the room, until i'm crying in the bathroom, and then be sure to tell everyone how you'd kiss me, but never talk— never ever talk to me because then i might mistake you.

#not poetry #psa: if you don't like people ogling you #then maybe don't fucking do that to other people #even if they're a man #no one likes being objectified #especially by people who are supposed to be friends

#art #maire #wip #this i might finish #because i really love her face #i might have the most boring character designs ever #but it's less about how they look on the whole #and more about who they are and certain visual elements #like maire's hair eyes and mouth #those are her big elements #this makes no sense #and no one reads this

#art #Pippa Roque #wip #not gonna finish this one either #he was supposed to be SAD #and not quite so pretty #but i always seem to draw my ugly characters pretty #because they are pretty to me #hrrhrr #I wish I had a friend like Pippa

I can't stop thinking about hurting myself.

caliguloves

I colored a couple free PSDs. Message me (here or #1862) if you’d like either of these because I’m probably not going to do anything with them. They’re pretty simple, but I thought maybe someone might like them? I’m really horrible at coming up with ideas for markings.